I was very fond of eating when i was little . I could feel the power of desire to have something in mouth and chew it all the time .
Yes , now i can say it was something psychological perhaps . I was huge egg eater in the house and more than half of eggs laid by mom's hens used to go to straight in my stomach.
Mom had small garden area and dozen of hens who hatch 22 eggs after few months and mom had to widen coop for new comers .
No matter how much eggs were in the house i was never fed up with eating them ,mostly fried ones .
Though in winters mom used to give us boiled one with hot milk or green tea .
Apart from three meals of the day i was habitual to eat stale bread or whatever was cooked in house and was left over .
Along with this i also used to keep my pockets full with peanuts or dried chick peas .
Mom was annoyed with my such excessive eating and used to scold me often specially when i crossed my early teens .She used to say "stop moving your mouth like a cow or you will be a cow "
I was not fat though but i had slightly fat tummy because my poor stomach had to deal with my madness about food constantly .
I remember when i was less than ten years old i had habit to swallow the tiny steel or bronze objects that my father would put on the table while fixing the watch .
And when he would not find he would asked me about them and i would nod my head so innocently in " NO"
( i feel so bad now when i recall the disappointment appeared my father's face when he could not fix the watch he brought along for holiday to fix it at home .
But i was psycho eater so i ate quite amount of his watch belongings without feeling guilty for long .
Radio ,books and t.v nothing can convince me for healthy and balance diet for 20 years of my life.
After marriage when i suddenly got into frustrated environment (in laws) i started to get chronic stomach ache attacks .
Medicine were help for period i used them ,until one doctor diagnosed my stomach ulcer .
Treatment took more then three years but doctor advised to be careful in choice and amount of food if you don't want this disease growing again because regular medication can only slow it but not finish it completely as this is almost 15 years old disease in your body.
To be honest i relied on medicines more than care and hardly reduced my amount of meal .
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How could i say no to plate full of rice with hot smoky delicious pulse upon it yummmm......
In short eating was my obsession . It was not about just want for food it was something complicated or i will call it psychological hunger ,something that was not in my hands because i was not wise or focused enough to control it OR MAY BE I DID NOT WANT TO.
Anyway i got my gallbladder surgery done in June 2018 and i realized that after that my appetite is lessening slowly and constantly which is little upsetting because it is making my energy level low.
Which is needed badly to be done with daily routine of life .
I am already taking quite number of tablets everyday so will to consult for this problem is in hesitation until now.
Visiting new doc will add more medicine to regular doze so i am thinking on it.
My three meals of the day include the amount of food now that i used to take at one time of the day an year ago .
I do my meditation and physical exercise almost everyday which is great help to stay in spotlight of positivity by the grace of Lord!
I think in certain age we all suffer with some kind of obsession and feel so happy to be addicted to it until time reveals it'd devastating effects on our life !
Stay Blessed Beautiful People !
Hugs!
I have also struggled with food throughout my life. Until a was about forty years old I also are way too much. Over the past twelve years I have kept my eating mostly under control but it is a struggle and I sometimes slip.
ReplyDeleteYou offer some important insights here into such behaviors. Changing and resisting such bad behavior is a lot more then just knowing the facts.
Sorry to hear about your ailment and current issues. I hope that you get it sorted out and feel better as soon as possible.
according to my observations until to age 30 plus or 40 most of people suffer with over eating or unbalanced and unhealthy diet dear Brain!
Deletethis is wisdom that you took things under control and manged to eat healthy later ,i am happy for you!
somehow i was blessed with sense to recognize the issues and sort out them slowly and i believe this is truly grace of Lord!
i think my kind creator will help me to solve current problems either sooner or later
You appear to have found resolution to your problem, you have a very good common sense attitude to helping yourself, it must have been painful, I’m glad you’re feeling better, I hope good health stays with you,
ReplyDeleteEating healthy is a concern for many people, Baili.
ReplyDeleteLoss of appetite is not a good thing either. I hope everything gets regulated for best health!
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing your struggle.
ReplyDeleteHi Dear Baili, Thank you, as always, for sharing your story. I am sorry to hear about the struggles but it does sound like you have good answers. I hope good health stays with you. Thank you for your kind comments on my blog. Take good care my friend! John
ReplyDeleteFried egg sandwiches were a favorite after school treat at our house. I did not have a problem with my weight even though I love most foods. Often the feeling of constant hunger is the need for a drink of water.
ReplyDeletewell said dear Emma!
Deleteand to understand the true call it took years sometimes ,now i can realize that when my body wants water rather than tea ,coffee of food
When you were young you did what you were told, "Watch what you eat!"
ReplyDeleteSorry I couldn't help myself.
Diet is the secret to good health. Hopefully you stomach health will heal for good.
haha
Deletei enjoyed this one dear Joe !
i took the saying serious i guess lol
You have excellent insight into your relationship with food, Baili, and I'm glad that you are doing everything you can to improve your health and wellbeing. My favorite food group is fruit, and I eat an apple almost every day. They really agree with my body. Wishing you a lovely day, my friend, and sending you a big hug!
ReplyDeleteBonsoir,
ReplyDeleteJ'admire votre courage...
Le fait d'en parler, je pense vous aide dans votre combat...
Une belle publication.
Gros bisous
thank you my friend
Deletecourage , yes this is needed to share personal issues with friends
everybody has story ,this is how he feels to talk about it :)
I wonder if you still have those watch pieces in your stomach!
ReplyDeletehaha
Deleteand guess what i could never stop wondering about those tiny watch belongings dear Sandi :)
may little more addition would have made complete watch inside my belly lol
That is quite a bit less that you are taking in - do you feel you are not eating enough? or are you happy with the level of intake you have now? I hope it gets sorted out to your satisfaction. And you are so right that eating to live is very different from eating due to emotional or psychological triggers. I struggle with overeating since my early thirties, whereas I never had a problem before that; in fact, I was underweight. Now I have the opposite problem. My biggest problem is just that I like certain foods too much.
ReplyDeletedear Jenny what i feel after my surgery is that my bag of stomach is contracting constantly
Deletewhen hubby asks me that you are eating quite less than you used to eat sometime ago and asks me to take some more bites i feel helpless
it seems that if will try to eat forcefully it will come out with vomiting which is not good sign according to hubby
this kind of situation is totally new and surprising to me because i used to be a non stop eater and my three meals were heavy one for each time
i wish i can feel same way ,because i love life and i love eating ,when i eat my favorite thing at desirable time it seems most amazing moment to me and how bad there is no more such excitement for food :(
This sounds to me like something a doctor needs to investigate, my dear friend, to be sure everything is okay, or to have a chance to fix something if it is not okay. Please do not hesitate any longer. Your peace of mind and your health are worth it.
DeleteThank you for sharing your journey with us. I wish you well with your health. Food struggles are something that many deal with.
ReplyDeleteThere is someone visiting your blog who needs to read this. Thank you for sharing. Wishing you continued success with your meditation and exercise, and much improvement with your new doctor.
ReplyDeleteGod bless you, my friend :)
I need to burn around five kg.
ReplyDeleteI'll do it.
Dearest Baili, struggling with food is an almost universal issue, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteWhat is it about our stomachs sending us all the wrong signals?
I know I used to crave all the foods that are deemed bad for us, especially chocolate, cakes and desserts...until, like you, I was diagnosed with stomach ulcers. I really do sympathize, it is such a painful condition...that takes so long to heal. I never took to eating metal items though! Although I did crave coal during my pregnancies!! Haha, between us we could have a watch and a coalmine inside of us!!
Oh I do hope things soon improve for you. I can't imagine losing my appetite for my favourite foods. It must be a nightmare.
I am praying for you, dearest Baili...for your return to perfect health.😊😊
All my love and hugs ❤❤❤
Coal?
DeleteOh that sounds scary dear Ygraine!
From such attempts of oursl's one thing is clear that we obeyed our desires for eating "even weird one" so faithfully.
Losing appetite for food that we loved most and thought we might have come just to eat them is really terrible
It is like you can see the temptations around but are force to stay away with warning
"Just watch don't touch" :(
Eating the right way is a struggle for many people, I think. I hope you can get help for feelings of ill health and low energy.
ReplyDeleteEating healthy in this world of stress and temptation is a constant struggle to us all. I'm glad that you are taking care of yourself. I believe in the power of meditation.
ReplyDeleteAmalia
xo
Thank you for sharing your story.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and wishing you well with your health.
All the best Jan