A part of our city had little rain last day which has transformed the weather beautifully . It is always good to see trees waving happily while embracing the air .Still humid days are terrible and i hope they are not coming back until next August . We could not have the rain but certain refreshing feeling that follow the rain is delightful ,it's been while to have it .
I could not read much since few days because medicine i am taking for allergy has dimmed my ability to focus and reading without focus makes me go back to same sentences repeatedly and it also makes me forget what i just read in previous page .
One and a half week back i realized that slight milia is appearing on my neck back ,i ignored it as usual but after few days it was hard to avoid scratching them . I never got such milia in any summer before so i applied some betnovate cream which we keep in house for cut or injury since years , It sooth for while but i felt it was spreading slowly. I hate going to doctor but i had to inform hubby and he took me to the doctor immediately. Doctor gave me ointment and three type of pills which are keeping me quite dull and i don't like being dull at all :( It's getting better thankfully and this matters most of course .
Two weeks ago we have bought an android device for our smart tv. We were busy in others things so could not explore what it has to offer but eventually load of due doings lightened and we installed apps i mean my younger son did who knows lot about these things . The android device has so many English, hindi china and Korean channels along with movie apps .So much to see but i feel i am less interested in just watching tv now . This makes me laugh on myself when i remember days when i would literally cry for hours if i would miss any episode of my favorite show, how embarrassing lol .
Yet it is nice to have choice so we can watch if we want to . But i must say that abundance of choice is not a healthy thing in life and in any case because it can confuse us so easily which effects our chances for success negatively (my opinion).
My younger son left to repeat Sat test so can improve his previous score . He scored eleven hundred and thirty out of sixteen hundred in his first try but his elder brother wanted him to do better. I hope and pray may he succeed along with all who are trying to do good in their life, amen!
We been through little dramatic situation lately .If you remember i have mentioned one of my post or most probably in my response to some comment that we had in our mind that once our eldest son is well settled in London city we will help my nephew (my brother's elder son) to go to Saudi Arabia for (loader operator)job. Actually before that i asked to my eldest son if he want to help one of his cousin in making life better for his family .He agreed immediately though he mentioned that as because he is moving to London he has spent all his savings in health insurance so it will take him sometime to settle there and see what he can do . I told him not to worry about time as things are quite closed here and it seems to take few months for opening for air traffic to Saudi Arabia . We were relaxed that we will be able to help my nephew peacefully so far.
But few days back my sister in law called who was angry with us since my brother returned home without much amount of money ,she told that son in law of one of our cousin has offered job to Nomi (name of my nephew ) so they want us to help them in getting all things done including visa and related tests etc and within three days they need to pay for visa. We were totally shocked by this sudden demand .The fear and trauma that i won't be able to help them because my own son is travelling to the London in first week of October and has so many things to do which are not possible without money was eating me . This was embarrassing to ask for financial help when my eldest son was in restricted position i still inevitably called him and told the whole story as it was. I never faced such embarrassing moment in my whole life as he was my own son my own precious baby and i was about to create problem for him . But like always my son surprised me with his calmness and generosity . First of all he calmed me with his healing accent and sweet words and then said that as because situation is tight so he will pay quarter amount on arriving London and later in three instalments . The amount was equal to his half salary in UK . My heart drowned in mixed feeling of worry for my son and happiness for my nephew .I asked him that he can refuse if it can make things difficult for him but he said it's okay he can survive with little less money and that this is about the honor of his mom. I don't know whether i did good or bad but i know i did this because i wanted to get rid of daily help request from my sister in law. Hubby either does not like supporting people this way as he thinks that it ruins their self respect they get used to easy money . So i had only one solution that i help one of my nephew to have job in middle east country where salaries are little better than Pakistan so he can support his family. I don't care what my sister in law thinks but i think it is my genuine effort to make her family stand on their own feet . Hubby agrees to the idea but he is little annoyed because of wrong timing for the help. He thought we could do this later when our son won't suffer because of my sympathetic nature. My son appreciates my habit to help others and he showed with his kind humble behavior how much he respects me. This is most comforting and heartwarming feeling for a mother. Throughout my life i learnt that our actions are paid back to us whether right or wrong . I have absolute faith on words of holy book and science which says that you reap what you sow .
I believe that this kindness of my son will surly bring him more peace and prosperity in life ahead as no matter what people do to us in return the Divine Creator and Energy within and around us knows all and give us what we deserve eventually !
Thank you for bearing with me dear Friends!
please keep being kind to all around you so Nature can send back this kindness to you no matter which source she chooses !
Health,Peace and Joy to all of you!