I Don't Know Why (poem by me) rerun

 

an old poem from 2010


tonight i am not feeling so high,

there are countless tears ,in night 's eye,

i am staring at moon,moon staring at me,

we both are together but feeling lonely ,

we live so far but ,how strange ,

we bear mostly the same pain,
we walking along ,at the bank of stream,

and share each other our soundless scream,

the wind has got some sorrowful phrase,

because i can listen the trees cries,

you should not ask me my friend 'why?

some time we just want sit and cry,

it is not necessarily has reason behind,

though ,emotions has nothing to do with mind,

Gift

 

When i sit idly and relax a bit 

I wonder sometimes "what is gift"?

How to explain if i try 

i take pause ,think and reply 

Something has been given to you 

that you hasn't ask to do 

Many say that life is a gift 

What i see is opposite  

Why then everyone complain

We find most of us just whin 

I have to agree with phrase 

Life is a gift" whoever says 

I may do not own much wealth

What about my priceless health!?

Despite i fall sick and that 

whatever is left ,is great 

whenever i think of God 

Who made earth for us so broad 

Filled it with numerous gains 

For a while i feel such a sham

Then roofed it with sky so blue 

Which tells how make dreams come true 

We can keep balance and reason 

He created different seasons

Our senses and views around 

Deliver us message so profound 

He wanted more then just bread

So he blessed us soul with creed

To save us from wither about 

Put us in a "family" bout 

We don't beat just hallow drum

Gifted us with aestheticism

We don't stay here deaf  and blind 

Blessed us with "heart" and Mind

With which we think and explore 

Keep trying to grow more 

Which make us kind very Unique

So we should not fall in creek

One can never reach this Mount 

If try to his blessings count

Taking granted anyone's gift 

Can make Him his blessings lift

Gifts are water and life is Glass

Keeping eyes on the  "filled" part !

Hidden Pain

 I was watching Young Sheldon with my youngest son today . It was season 7. In the episode 13 today ,George the father of Sheldon died suddenly because of the heart attack . I often watch death and even murder scenes in shows .Sometimes i get emotional as well .But Today it was different . The way Sheldon felt emotionally it seemed relatable to some extent . I felt increasing intensity of  grief and started crying quietly. My youngest son did not know this but when he turned to me to speak something he noticed and paused the screen. 

When he realized i was crying more than usual he got little upset. He hold my hand and asked what is wrong mom. And what came out of my mouth seemed stranger to me even. I said " i felt so alienated  when my father died and i wasn't informed by my sister and any other family member. That burden seemed beyond my capacity to bear and despite 13 years it still hurts lot because i was really close to my parents and i couldn't say goodbye to my father !

It was truly surprising how my 18 years old son tried to comfort me with maturity and healing words !

This feeling seemed strange at first because it i could not share it with anyone in 13 years. Not even with my husband only because when i have to talk about it i have to talk about the hater of my younger sister which made her make such unforgiveable mistake .It scared me to accept that my own family can be as cruel to me.

I feel how everyone has to fight his own battle in this world whether with or without  support of family . We all have different ones. Mine is this probably to bear the stupid mentality of people whom i love most !

thanks for being with me dear  friends!

I am grateful for your love and support always!

Health Peace and Happiness to you and to all you love!

On Center

 

Hello Precious Friends !

Hope all is fine at your side by the grace of God! And hope switching to cooler weather is pleasant for you until it's get too cold at least. Our November has brought back little sweating surprisingly which is annoying .Hope We will get some cool days after mid of this month. Let me tell that despite heat has increased slightly our weather is nice and enjoyable and we are thankful for that.

I have mentioned few times that i had habit of sky watching since i was little girl. I would stare at sky for as long as i got free time .This habit of mine has not changed but stronger with time. Sometime i would think why i feel so compelled to look at sky ? I never did so deliberately but it seems more like a wander look for shade under sun . It sooths my soul and makes me feel "at home" 

Since sometime when i have learned gradually that everything has "center"  .it probably has something to do with this .

Nothing is spared from center like all particles have nucleus .Earth Nd all the larger celestial bodies have their center in the middle. 

We humans and all other species too have centers . 

We humans are little distinguished than other species so we got two centers within ourselves.

One is the brain ,a center which works for physical world .

Heart is the other center which support our soul.

Latest scientific research  reveals that an adult heart has  more than 43,000 neurons .

This is also has been proven that everything within the universe behaves same at fundamental level so therefore we can see that we humans make families to create our own center so we can orbit around it .

Similarly solar system and numerous like it have center to form their family system or center.

Galaxies aren't the exception as well.

Unlike other bodies we humans have center in body's upper part. 

So when we concentrate with brain or think with heart we have to move all our energy to higher part of our body.

If everything in universe behaves same and this is why everything has center .

It cannot be beyond possibility that all the mind and matter spread in the universe has it's origin Up Above  High in the Sky in Truly Pure and Divine Form ? 

My heart never doubted this!

Now my brain accepts it as well !

I would love to hear what you have to say about it dear friends ??

Thanks for being with me ,see you soon .

Health ,Peace and Joy to you all and to all you love!

 

Photos shared By My Eldest Son From Barcelona Trip

Hello Precious Friends!

Hope all is going well in your lives by the grace of God!

Sharing a little series of of  beautiful photos shared by my eldest son. He took trip to Barcelona Spain two weeks ago . I am thankful he shared his joys with us as well through these images. Blogger  kept playing games so i left no time to write anything so just these joyous glimpse of two bestest friends :)

                 they sailed ,how exciting 

my son tries to make photos interesting with new poses i think ,i love such efforts actually 

they visited two shrines of Saints ,one was active with visitors and one was older and  abandoned sorry for not remembering name he mentioned ,lots of candles ,gabi isn't looking exception :)

 reminds me days when life was full of trips for me and hubby though within Islamabad only 

   beach sand is so neat unlike Karachi ,loved this pose as well :)

                                            fascinating wow 

    Both blues are Ocean and  Beautiful ,one above has no end though 

                          crystal clear sand and water combination ,perfect  

                      in two or three hours sail ends in tranquil evening time 

  she has a child like smile ! She talked to us for a while  this Saturday ,it was such a delight to have her :)

        Santa Maria  is one of the most famous shrine in the Spain i think 

i think these are inner shots of shrine below  

on the phone when i saw this ,for seconds i mistook the window with painting  because of whimsical view outside  

Mixture of sunlight and the shadow  makes the image intriguing 

                                                 nice  click 

     A spontaneous shot turned into an artistic painting like photo 

         soothing and lovely views consume one' attention completely 

               sunlight seems to creates a blissful aura around them !

Thanks for being with me dear friends!

Health peace and happiness to all of you !