Love has many shapes

love has so many shapes ,It  gives one's life aim to live .When we survive in very hard situations it is only love which makes it possible.Though love for one's own life is very natural and understandable facet but love for others is really complicated thing to understand.What i think of it is that love for others is deeply related with love  of one's own self .

In this world where people like Hitler and Darwin existed ,Mother Teresa  and Nelson Mandela also hold their place.the reason behind the efforts of both kind of people was the love ,Former were in love with themselves and later were in love of themselves too.Yes i am right though i have not studied psychology but i am intend to do it very soon and i am pretty much  sure that my guess will prove right.

I think people who love themselves spread more love.People who are favorite of their own they are more satisfied with everything around them and have very easy going nature,but  people who though unconsciously don't like themselves are terrible and tough for everything around them.It is very simple to understand that i can give only what i have in my hands.so  it is very very important that one must have first love for his or her own self.

Without love no single day can be passed.It is love of life that make us awake early in the morning and take us to our jobs.Many people are deeply in love with their works they do,they don't care  for time and relations and even their own health they   just work  because it gives them sense of achievement from which they get pleasure of  proving themselves so here comes again love of one's own being.

I have since my childhood love for learning.I still remember that in my childhood when i buy some thing to eat wrapped in piece of news paper or magazine i always try to read and understand it .I still have my notebooks where i used to write such interesting thing collected from them.Though i was average student but i know that if i would have suitable environment i could have achieve more in my life  especially   talking about studies.As i am a mother of grownup boy who does job and two younger go to school ,i still have love for more studies and want to die on my favorite study table with book in my hand. 

True Love

Love is most precious gift to the soul of  person,life cannot be imagined without love, And world will be a desert without it where everyone will stay unconnected to eachother like sand particles .No bounding of relationships will exist and no emotions like sincerity and dignity will be seen in this world where inspite of all kind of hatred  ,fights and misunderstandings Love still occupies  its place in each heart and  regulates its beat according to its own rules and regulations.

Since i started being in my conscious i realized that i have a serious , irresistible  and unconditional love for life ,my creator and everything about life . This love never ends no matter how hard treatment i receive  from life or people.In my early life  my brother gave us quite tough time as he was completely against of our schooling ,he said that girls should not go to school and they should get married at their teen age,but my mother sent us school standing against him and her own brothers,during our school years many times my brother created problems and even burnt our bags and books .In those times i though that i will hate my elder brother for my whole life and never see or talk to him again.

But later after many years when my brother had an accident me and my younger sister financially supported him for long time.i prayed for his well being with tears in my eye and pain in heart.Thank god that he has recovered now and running his family life successfully.

One of my friend who got married third time made me think lot about definition of word love.Her love is really strange to me as when she met her first husband before marriage she fall in love with him like a made girl and inspite of it hhat her family was against this marriage she choose him for her and i still remember how much she was fond of him.they were truly made for each other ,my friend used to pampered him like a child.But strangely marriage ended suddenly when couple was at honey moon trip in other country.I was just shocked and speechless when i heard this.

When i met her i asked her how? and why? and she replied with normal accent that he was my mistake ,he does not deserve me,i was surprised that she was not sad or panic   at all.Then within a year she fall in love again and with same madness,couple enjoyed almost less then two years together with love and passion but again i heard  about their separation ,though her husband and friends like me  tried very hard to protect their family unit as they were parents of two children now one girl and one boy but my friend did not agree and finally she got divorced.


On our next meeting  my questions were same and her answers were not much different then before,except two sentences that  i dont love him any more as i realized that he was not my ideal as i thought he will be.Later i thought upon her views ,to me she seemed holding a shell of a model which she wants to  fill with the mud of someone's personality and if it goes slightly unmatched she become disappointed and get away with her shell to find out perfect match of it ,Its been quite long time that we did not meet but still in touch,recently she told me that she found her mister right and got married ,hope this time it makes a perfect match.


Everyone has his own perspective about love and mine is that if you have a heart which has ability to love someone it means you have ability to love everything around you.love to me is not a business of give and take or a game with terms and conditions ,if you have a loving heart you are unable to hate anyone even someone who have  hurt you.Love makes your I.Q so wide,it gives you wisdom and strength to ignore others mistakes,If you have this gift you truly enjoy your existence.It enchants and vibrates you life and you feel completely alive.

Rise of will a poem by me

Air  flowing through the valley ,
without making any noise ,

standing on the hill ,
I am watching sun rise,


Slowly on tip toes ,
Rays crawling here,there ,

Earth's darkened face,
Became bright and fair,

In the ears of trees ,
Sun's golden advise ,

They are dancing with the joy,
My heart realized,

Birds sitting on the branches,
Singing joyful song,

Stream's glittering smile,
Said nothing will go wrong,

Then why did i think that may be not,
Has new kind of puzzle day just brought?

Its easy to be a butterfly and fly over flowers,
And hard to be a man and work for 24 hours,

But pearl of victory is hidden in the hardships,
A drop is like an ocean to a dry lips,

So finally emotions defeated the reason,
I will take this challenge,i made a decision,

I returned home with new power of will,
my inner world became peaceful and still.

Why Groups ?

Today is Friday. I  got back early from school and after  reaching home did my laundry while thinking about my day at school as today school was opened just for teachers  due to some kind of holiday, We teachers take advantage of such occasions while working in a light atmosphere talk to each other about things  of common interest.Such gatherings bring us close to each other and we come to know each other better. Meanwhile our lady maid make us tea and young  teachers bring spicy fast food and over all this full of fun chat makes the environment pleasant.

Today  one of my colleague  shared with me that she too loves reading and  has  a fine collection of books.Like me she  also  has great interest in literature.She  is Urdu  speaking and surprised that  how my Urdu is so fine as Urdu is not my native language ..I told her that since  my childhood i was fond of urdu and as grew old my interest in Urdu literature also  became more huge and  may  be this is the reason  of my fine Urdu.when she  knew that i do write poetry she asked me to say few lines for her .  I read some of my favorite lines which she appreciated.

It is nice if we find someone around us with same likes and dislikes but here i want to share one of my habit that i never liked to belong with one certain kind of group.I enjoy all people's company and may be it is due to my great great interest in human psychology.I just love to know all kind of people weather they are with good or bad attitude.Since my school days i  stayed away from grouping,girls of each class were divided into various groups,as popular  group,group who were good in studies or that who were dull  e,t,c .I tried to be nice and friendly with all of them.I belonged to a middle class family and had few friends who were normal in studies and status but in those days status was not more important then now days,

Though my friends were not writer like me as i was much encouraged by our principal to take part in extra  activities like drama writing , direction and acting.Still we were good friends but one thing i realized since then that each friend of me was of opinion that i should not be much  friendly  to girls of other groups,sometime  they tease me that when those girls from other groups ask me something to do for them i should not be doing this for them because  when i do it for them ,same girls later make fun of me that how stupid i am.But i don't know what made me always so calm since such age which called the age of attitude and ego.It does not mean that i did not have any self respect ofcource i did and i do have self respect but it comes in my way  when  i try to do something which let me down for example   i cannot cheat in exams because  i think by doing this i will not be able to respect my self which is very important for me.I cannot understand that if we all humans are the men of one God why we divided ourselves in count less groups? why can't be just all  of us together,why putting conditions that if you are my friend then stay away from pother one ?

When i was new in my job i faced such problems from my colleagues and even from students of higher classes but my creator helped me to handle it patiently and nicely,inspite of all negative attacks i did not give up my positive attitude and gradually their heart opened for me and now same colleagues are my good friends.Here i want to share about a teacher newer then me ,her husband also teaches in same school.I realized that few of my colleagues does not behave nice to her ,It hurts me when they  together eat or drink something they completely ignore her which is humiliating to me,in such situations i give her company and attention and it brings her little smile  to   her face and i feel good then,I really wish that such behavior must be avoided because it make us fell down from the high merit of humanity. thank you for taking time and reading .God bless you all.