Christmas gatherings and Happy New year 🎉

 

Hey  kind hearts 💕 

Hope all those  friends who celebrate had wonderful Christmas with family and friends!

I have been really busy with family visits recently as this is the time when we exchange family visits due to favorable weather.  

I was also busy in preparation for our upcoming trip to Islamabad (tomorrow) where our eldest son will join us in few days.  We aren't sure yet whether we will stay there (air bnb) or will come back here for two weeks. 

I will try my best to visiting you all meanwhile. 

sharing few photos sent by our son. He spent Christmas holidays with Gabi's family on their invitation. These delightful images show how lovely time he had there by the grace of God!

He and Gabi had Christmas gathering with their friends at home as well, how nice!

Enjoy the glimpse ♥️ 

    Sue told they took Christmas train on Christmas night and on the way they saw this huge special Christmas chair  :)

Wishing you all dear friends a happy healthy peaceful and prosperous New year 😊. 

Merry Christmas

Dear Friends !

Wishing You All A lovely Christmas filled with love of family ,peace of mind and health !

                                          

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Blessings and love to all !

Christmas Lights Shared By Sue

Hey Sweet Hearts!

Hope beating beautifully on the beat of life .

Sharing some really awesome and mesmerizing images . Sue  ( eldest son's girlfriend)   shared them after her recent trip to London for watching Christmas lights .She is very sweet :)

Hope you will find them amazing as i loved them.  T felt quite thrilled to see these photos actually .What a wonderful decoration of the city wow . Hasn't Sue captured the dazzle of the festivities so well :) I want to thank her for the generosity!

i am having my younger son for winter vacations (20 days thankfully) 

My son was invited by Gabi's family for making special cake for Christmas which is made one month before Christmas surprisingly .every participant stir the mixture of cake and make wish for the future  .how lovely tradition it is !

  See you all soon friends!

Have blessed each day each moment amen!

Help

 My youngest son has simple nature like me . As i mention he is not much fast with studies though try honestly to keep focus.

He is really helpful at home even more than his both elder brothers. 

Here in our small city there is hardly any activity for youngsters so he stays home mostly. He has joined gym since an year almost as he is conscious about his weight due to much sedentary life style .

When he goes to the gym he helps pedestrians by giving them lift on motorbike . It makes us little nervous as parents because the uncertain circumstances of outside world about which he knows less due to his least exposure to the real world. We ,his father particularly ask him to stay cautious sometimes.

Last night when he returned from the gym he  seemed anxious and excited both.

He told he has done something but he does not know whether it was good or bad. It seemed to raised my heart beat a little. 

He told that when he was going to the gym he saw a tree beside the footpath on fire .The fire was on the tree trunk till then. He stopped his motorbike and took off his jacket and wove it around the tree trunk until fire was put off. He said he did so because he thought if fire will spread to the whole tree ,other trees could catch it and that will be threat for passers by .

It made us worried and proud both at the same time because there is possibility that it could have hurt him as well .

He asked if he did something wrong ?

me and hubby could think of much except that "you did right if the fire wasn't dangerous enough to hurt you ,but you must be careful "

what made me wonder that what made tree on fire during such cold weather as our night temperature is 20 C and getting out in open is hard without warm clothes ?

Reason to post this is that i want suggestions from friends about how to make my youngest son  more aware off  such threatful situations?

thank you for being with me ,see you soon ! 

health peace and joy to you all and to all you love! 

Little Heartbroken

 Hello dear friends !

Hope enjoying the Christmas season excitingly specially those  who celebrate it properly .

I also want to apologize for if i missed greeting thanksgiving day to anyone by going on blog. Happy Thanks giving to you my friends and hope you had great happy family times and feast .

My youngest son uses laptop for study purpose and it gets long sometimes which makes it hard for me to post or visit regularly . I lost my hope to get my own laptop repaired actually because technicians declared it old and unfixable :(

Hubby offered me insistingly to buy me a secondhand laptop with good condition .But i refused due to some earlier experiences of buying old devices. I know that here people hardly sell things that are workable but when they reach on the verge of end .

So i have choose to wait until Hubby retires in June 2025 .Although he is expecting to receive his due funds within an year almost but i don't have choice .Till then i will be posting through this only laptop at home so hope my kind blogging friends will understand if sometimes i am bit off  (least probability though)

One of my blog friend has asked the name of injection i get once after three month . The injection name is Inzet and it is used to treat bone disease Osteoporosis . 

When i saw word Osteoporosis and little searched about it ,it immediately reminded me my wrist ache that i used to have almost ten or eight years ago .For wrist ache i had visited bone specialist who treated me with few medicine for three months .I could recall only one name "voren tablet" 

It makes me sad that i could not know about my disease earlier enough so could get treated before got knew bone fractured . An article on the Osteoporosis informed that i will have to live with this for remaining life . 

Saddest part is that  i have waited long for moving to Islamabad once Hubby retires .Now when days have come closer i probably won't be able to take long walks in lush parks of the capital city :(

Life is hardly simple and perfect for us surely yet i  love the opportunity to live and explore life gradually :) I am not at the bed atleast right :)

Thanks for being with me now and always wonderful and sweet people!  Love You All!

health peace and joy to you all and to all you love !  

   

I Don't Know Why (poem by me) rerun

 

an old poem from 2010


tonight i am not feeling so high,

there are countless tears ,in night 's eye,

i am staring at moon,moon staring at me,

we both are together but feeling lonely ,

we live so far but ,how strange ,

we bear mostly the same pain,
we walking along ,at the bank of stream,

and share each other our soundless scream,

the wind has got some sorrowful phrase,

because i can listen the trees cries,

you should not ask me my friend 'why?

some time we just want sit and cry,

it is not necessarily has reason behind,

though ,emotions has nothing to do with mind,

Gift

 

When i sit idly and relax a bit 

I wonder sometimes "what is gift"?

How to explain if i try 

i take pause ,think and reply 

Something has been given to you 

that you hasn't ask to do 

Many say that life is a gift 

What i see is opposite  

Why then everyone complain

We find most of us just whin 

I have to agree with phrase 

Life is a gift" whoever says 

I may do not own much wealth

What about my priceless health!?

Despite i fall sick and that 

whatever is left ,is great 

whenever i think of God 

Who made earth for us so broad 

Filled it with numerous gains 

For a while i feel such a sham

Then roofed it with sky so blue 

Which tells how make dreams come true 

We can keep balance and reason 

He created different seasons

Our senses and views around 

Deliver us message so profound 

He wanted more then just bread

So he blessed us soul with creed

To save us from wither about 

Put us in a "family" bout 

We don't beat just hallow drum

Gifted us with aestheticism

We don't stay here deaf  and blind 

Blessed us with "heart" and Mind

With which we think and explore 

Keep trying to grow more 

Which make us kind very Unique

So we should not fall in creek

One can never reach this Mount 

If try to his blessings count

Taking granted anyone's gift 

Can make Him his blessings lift

Gifts are water and life is Glass

Keeping eyes on the  "filled" part !

Hidden Pain

 I was watching Young Sheldon with my youngest son today . It was season 7. In the episode 13 today ,George the father of Sheldon died suddenly because of the heart attack . I often watch death and even murder scenes in shows .Sometimes i get emotional as well .But Today it was different . The way Sheldon felt emotionally it seemed relatable to some extent . I felt increasing intensity of  grief and started crying quietly. My youngest son did not know this but when he turned to me to speak something he noticed and paused the screen. 

When he realized i was crying more than usual he got little upset. He hold my hand and asked what is wrong mom. And what came out of my mouth seemed stranger to me even. I said " i felt so alienated  when my father died and i wasn't informed by my sister and any other family member. That burden seemed beyond my capacity to bear and despite 13 years it still hurts lot because i was really close to my parents and i couldn't say goodbye to my father !

It was truly surprising how my 18 years old son tried to comfort me with maturity and healing words !

This feeling seemed strange at first because it i could not share it with anyone in 13 years. Not even with my husband only because when i have to talk about it i have to talk about the hater of my younger sister which made her make such unforgiveable mistake .It scared me to accept that my own family can be as cruel to me.

I feel how everyone has to fight his own battle in this world whether with or without  support of family . We all have different ones. Mine is this probably to bear the stupid mentality of people whom i love most !

thanks for being with me dear  friends!

I am grateful for your love and support always!

Health Peace and Happiness to you and to all you love!

On Center

 

Hello Precious Friends !

Hope all is fine at your side by the grace of God! And hope switching to cooler weather is pleasant for you until it's get too cold at least. Our November has brought back little sweating surprisingly which is annoying .Hope We will get some cool days after mid of this month. Let me tell that despite heat has increased slightly our weather is nice and enjoyable and we are thankful for that.

I have mentioned few times that i had habit of sky watching since i was little girl. I would stare at sky for as long as i got free time .This habit of mine has not changed but stronger with time. Sometime i would think why i feel so compelled to look at sky ? I never did so deliberately but it seems more like a wander look for shade under sun . It sooths my soul and makes me feel "at home" 

Since sometime when i have learned gradually that everything has "center"  .it probably has something to do with this .

Nothing is spared from center like all particles have nucleus .Earth Nd all the larger celestial bodies have their center in the middle. 

We humans and all other species too have centers . 

We humans are little distinguished than other species so we got two centers within ourselves.

One is the brain ,a center which works for physical world .

Heart is the other center which support our soul.

Latest scientific research  reveals that an adult heart has  more than 43,000 neurons .

This is also has been proven that everything within the universe behaves same at fundamental level so therefore we can see that we humans make families to create our own center so we can orbit around it .

Similarly solar system and numerous like it have center to form their family system or center.

Galaxies aren't the exception as well.

Unlike other bodies we humans have center in body's upper part. 

So when we concentrate with brain or think with heart we have to move all our energy to higher part of our body.

If everything in universe behaves same and this is why everything has center .

It cannot be beyond possibility that all the mind and matter spread in the universe has it's origin Up Above  High in the Sky in Truly Pure and Divine Form ? 

My heart never doubted this!

Now my brain accepts it as well !

I would love to hear what you have to say about it dear friends ??

Thanks for being with me ,see you soon .

Health ,Peace and Joy to you all and to all you love!

 

Photos shared By My Eldest Son From Barcelona Trip

Hello Precious Friends!

Hope all is going well in your lives by the grace of God!

Sharing a little series of of  beautiful photos shared by my eldest son. He took trip to Barcelona Spain two weeks ago . I am thankful he shared his joys with us as well through these images. Blogger  kept playing games so i left no time to write anything so just these joyous glimpse of two bestest friends :)

                 they sailed ,how exciting 

my son tries to make photos interesting with new poses i think ,i love such efforts actually 

they visited two shrines of Saints ,one was active with visitors and one was older and  abandoned sorry for not remembering name he mentioned ,lots of candles ,gabi isn't looking exception :)

 reminds me days when life was full of trips for me and hubby though within Islamabad only 

   beach sand is so neat unlike Karachi ,loved this pose as well :)

                                            fascinating wow 

    Both blues are Ocean and  Beautiful ,one above has no end though 

                          crystal clear sand and water combination ,perfect  

                      in two or three hours sail ends in tranquil evening time 

  she has a child like smile ! She talked to us for a while  this Saturday ,it was such a delight to have her :)

        Santa Maria  is one of the most famous shrine in the Spain i think 

i think these are inner shots of shrine below  

on the phone when i saw this ,for seconds i mistook the window with painting  because of whimsical view outside  

Mixture of sunlight and the shadow  makes the image intriguing 

                                                 nice  click 

     A spontaneous shot turned into an artistic painting like photo 

         soothing and lovely views consume one' attention completely 

               sunlight seems to creates a blissful aura around them !

Thanks for being with me dear friends!

Health peace and happiness to all of you !


 

My Hardworking Mom !

 

 Sometimes we have people in our life that seem to create whole universe around us where we feel safe and peaceful .All the darkness and harshness of the world remains far away while we are bundled up in the invisible magnetic field of that person . We see them busy always doing constructive activities that adds up in our inner power and self confidence unknowingly .

 My mom was one of those people as well. As growing girl i could not realize this with such depth but after my marriage when i had to depart from her these were the feelings that kept revealing on me with time. Despite mom seemed little different when my sister went to America and wanted mom to break up with me ,my heart could not forget how immense physical and spiritual contribution she had in building up our life.

When compare to mom ,call me lazy because she had strongest personality i ever knew in my life . Her strength was unbeatable and despite being from tiny village she had so many things to put her energy and create something out of them . Now when i think of  how she would turn her day into a productive time period it feels so magical because i could never achieve that. After household all interests me is writing or reading or spend little time looking at garden plants and sky.

Moving in our small happy and content world was something i would love to experience each time if there are life chances ahead.. Our father was opposite to mom when it comes to hard work or creativity. He would do his watch making job and spend weekends on home idly while reading piles of news papers ,magazines or digests. I think i took this from my father . But i enjoy doing hard work as well whether physical or mental if i have to. My father could not do hard work at all though . I remember when our house was being built mom would take over when labor men leave or when labor men would take break on Friday. She would go to the site and start digging or watering up stone that would be used in construction next day or other works that could save labor men's energy and time so they can use them on more important job as construction or so. One day when father was at home mom tried to motivate him with lecture that it would be so proudful if he also does some help on site. My father convinced surprisingly and went with mom. He helped her arranging heavy stones there .But when he returned his hands were red and having blisters and he argued with mom a little that it was because she insisted and how he will do do delicate work of watch making . It took his hands few days to recover and go on his job. Mom never asked him to help again .

Nothing could stop her from doing her work on site though . She would not allow me to help so i would go there secretly when she could not go to on site for some reason and would not be around. This is how i could dig under the huge rock ( restraining the construction) for some days regularly and was succeeded to make it pull out of the ground finally. It happened when a contractor refused to blow any of the more rocks in the ground as he said that area wasn't part of the deal. A gap of time provided me chance to do this for my mom. When she saw that rock out of the ground it is hard to how proud and happy she felt .And i thought nothing i can't do in the world that day.

My could  would do multiple jobs in a day and when we would try to comfort her by pressing her shoulders or feet she would smile and say no need for this. Her smile would enlighten our world !

She had hens and the garden at the same time and nothing went wrong anytime. My sister in law though ended my mom's garden soon after mom left the world because she could not manage it with hens. Later she quit having hens soo too. 

Sadly i could see my mother in my dreams twice or thrice in these 13 years of her departure. Seeing dreams of liking is not in my hands but I see my mom in my imagination often .It seems so real sometimes that i forget she is no more . Yesterday was the such day which made this post possible .

thanks for bearing with me dear friends! 

more blessings to you all and to all you love!

The Birds Story And Some Concerns

 

I was taking my morning tea in the yard today and everything looked so calm and beautiful .Although the grass of my small garden has changed it's color fully ,plants are still doing fine and seemed happy and content while playing with slight morning breeze . Our neem tree petted two families of the birds as usual .Despite both families are totally different from one another they co existed harmoniously like good neighbors!

A couple of robins nestled in the neem tree this year instead of pomegranate surprisingly . Crows are permanent residents of Neem tree since few years and i was concerned they won't let robin to nestle close to them as they scare away all other tiny bird species always . But this year was exception and both totally different bird families co existed on the same tree . It filled my heart with peace . I whish we human learn this quality as well and start to accept our differences as part of Nature's plan.

Our third bird  dove nestled among the branches of our climber like every year  where hubby had made hatch for the climber to laydown and bloom. 

I can hardly take any photo as they fly away when i see them around and get up dentally to grab my phone :(.

Sometimes the thought of leaving this house makes me sad. We have lived here for more than seventeen years and have so many lovely and sweet memories belong to it . It was our first shelter that hubby had build up for his family . He is going to retire nest year and we were planning to move to the Islamabad once he is retired. But now when time is moving closer i find mixed feelings of sadness and excitement in my heart. I am concerned if we can have big house like this over there . I love to have trees around one at least .I feel suffocated otherwise. I doubt that it will be possible . I don't know what will happen actually but these are my thoughts now days .

I was going to meditate right after the morning tea but i requested my youngest son to lend me his laptop for a while so i can write post first. The next time when laptop is free is the evening when i feel little exhausted or dull and i find writing in morning times easier  because mind is bit fresh and stable then.

Thanks for being with me dear Friends !

Health ,Peace and Happiness to you all and to all you love!!!   

A Surprise Visit

 

Hey precious friends !

sorry for being absent for one week almost .Our younger son made video call to us in the morning a week ago .I was having my morning tea in our front yard so our youngest son received it. My younger son asked him to bring me on the call .Our youngest son brought the phone towards me .When i attended the call our younger son said after greeting

 " Ami  i came for the grocery actually but see where i have reached now "   ?

my youngest son screamed at once but i could not get it until i recognized the main gate of the house behind him .

It was such a huge leap of joy for me immediately because we thought he will be able to visit us during winter holidays (second week of the December) 

It is really hard to define how immensely ii felt happiness that moment, for one week but our younger son was with us and biggest relief was to realize that i will make him eat properly meanwhile!

The week blew away with an eye blink to me and he left for Karachi last night .

I could not find time for blogging so here i am to share my heart with you all once again and to read your lovely thoughts on various matters of life and this is another joy for me indeed!

I hardly got any surprise in life except two times in my early marriage .

One was when i was at my parents and hubby visited me suddenly and without informing (later we knew that letter he had sent got late)

Secondly when i was in our old home where we lived with in laws and one of the technician from the hospital came to collect my blood for the test .He was hubby's friend so he gave favor to come home instead we visit the hospital. He was preparing for taking the blood when suddenly we learnt that my mother has arrived from Islamabad and waiting for hubby to pick her up. I became so excited that the technician man could not find my vein in my forearm .

In the first time when hubby visited surprisingly i was shaking with nervousness and hubby was laughing and teasing naughtily .

We all go through surprises at least few times in life 

Do you remember such surprise that still shine in your memory chest ?

Thanks for being with me dear friends .

health peace and Joy to you all!!!  

Contagious Laughter And A Serious Laughter Story Of.....

 Sometimes while you are carried away by burdens of the day and business becomes hectic some pleasant memories from the past cheer you up suddenly and you smile without any obvious reason .

 I don't know if it happens to others as well but i often receive fair amount of bitter and sweet nostalgia while being busy in kitchen like it has some portal which transports my soul to the past smoothly.

Some days ago same happened to me while working on kitchen slab. I revisited a funny situation in the past when i lived with my parents and my aunt (sister of father) had come to visit us .The situation wasn't funny at all at first but a lively conversation between my mother and my aunt . There were few other family members as well including me and my younger sister. When elders were talking we the youngers would speak to each other sometime and sometime stop and listen to the chat of the elders. My father was reading the newspaper at the plain sight though he would add few sentences to the conversation once in a while .

My aunt had huge passion for being younger than other family women around . My mother was good at remembering the special dates and days of all kinds among the family so during conversation when it would come to point out age of my aunt ,it would become an entertaining issue for all around because it was actually serious matter for my aunt .

Now this time as well when mom had to mention the age of my aunt my aunt  insisted that she is not that old and so on ...

Mom had to insist too  because facts were pointing out the same .

My father felt irritated or amused and said , Sarwari (aunt's name) is not  like others ,she stays with her words firmly always .( he meant that she always tells her age with same number  and forgets that it's been many years she is repeating the statement) When he said that mom smiled and meanwhile she was trying to suppress her smile aunt don't notice it my aunt started to laugh ,we youngers stopped our giggles and looked at our aunt who was laughing and with time her laughter  was becoming graver and louder ,my younger sister joined her and started laughing too ,i followed her gently .That encouraged my mom and she felt free to laugh as well .Within seconds everyone in the room was laughing except my father who had laughed at the first , though he kept smiling while trying to focus on the newspaper afterwards.

Such spontaneous and happy moments stay with you forever and peek into your heart once in a while .

I experienced such funny situations several times when i was growing up . One particular situation is unforgettable . I think i was thirteen and my sister around eight . I mentioned that back then when people of the village had nothing for entertainment so they were accustomed to visit each other after lunch or dinner. One day when mom , me and my sister were at one of our aunt's house and playing with our female cousins . During the game when all of us were laughing for some funny reason ,All other girls stopped laughing within moments including me except my younger sister would  stop but start laughing again ,she repeated that few times but suddenly we felt that stop laughing wasn't in her hand anymore because she was laughing madly now, she was holding her tummy like it was hurting so much ,then she laid down in the shape of ring and her lips felt green and laughter seemed dimmed yet very strong . I felt something bad was happening so i shouted for help to mom. Mom and other aunts ran towards us and shake my sister ,mom threw some water drops on her face and shake her strongly once again .She was reading verses speedily. My sister stopped laughing finally but she wasn't looking same lively person some moments ago but a person who went through some trauma . That was dark experience of laughter for all of us . After that my sister would laugh carefully instead of being much into it . 

Contagious laughter though sounds like a sweet friendly feeling among people ,an special connection between innocent hearts .

I remember many  occasions when while being some wedding party or so people start chuckle or laugh automatically  on the funny talk of others .

Even i saw it happening in parks or during travels .

I find it a humanly thing .What about you ?

I find it so humanly thing ,What about you ?

Astonishing Journey ( poem by me)

 In awe  of the wonders of life 

Knitting the baffling motif on the needles of Time

Astound with puzzling pattern, i felt lacked  light

I left my comfort zone and looked for place right 

It took so long to find some seat higher and bright

But reality i encountered there was so hard to deny 

That once you know" what is what" next you think is Why ?

 Pondering on the "why" reveals that many truth are lie

Sometimes it's heartbreaking makes you sad and sigh!

Even existence seems unfeasible and you don't want to try

Then what hold you back is only Nature's cozy lap

Everything speaks for the Whom who gives it's shape 

Then i feel like a drop of water evaporated from the Sea!

 Journeying back slowly due until where i meant to be

Thanks for being with me dear friends 

Health ,Peace And Joy to All Of You And To Loved Ones

Humans Are Not From Earth ????

I encountered with a video in national language Urdu in which host was talking about this  book    Humans Are Not From Earth by doctor  Ellis Silver .I found topic compelling and searched for pdf that i could not succeed until now . Author reveals 53 factors that prove that humans belong to some other planet . The host of the video though talked about only three proofs ,First that evidence shows that before coming to the earth humans lived on a far better and  comfortable planet where he got his food effortlessly (sounds like heaven right?) .He was free of any kind of hard work.

 Secondly  ,humans sometimes feel sad without any obvious reason which seems more like home sickness or as he misses his original homeland, I felt so agree with this one because i myself have often felt and thought about it.

Thirdly , Author claims on the bases of his study and research that it feels like humans were banished from better planet and put down below on the planet earth as they were sent to face some kind of punishment . 

I often feel sad and wondered why the universe and world has been created on the theme of "constant state of fight" i wondered often if it is some kind of punishment but i never put that final line on my blog to avoid negativity .

What do you think dear Friends ?

Do you feel agreed or have you heard of this book ?

may be some of you already read this book so i would love to hear few lines from you .

Health Peace and Joy to you all and to all you love!  

Laptop ,Fogo Island And Some Flowers

Hope you are enjoying the autumn beauty and some cool weather before winter dear friends .

We are happy that our weather has been surprisingly less hotter than we expect in September usually. Life feels better since i started my regular walk and stretching thankfully.

A good news is that my eldest son bought us a new laptop which kept my elder son and sent back one he has borrowed from his youngest brother .I am writing this post on laptop . The only issue was that my younger son has reboot the laptop which made it impossible for me to sign in as i had no idea what was my password because it was created many years ago by my eldest son. I think for the first time in my life i figured out something like this by myself instead of asking my sons. I asked google and it showed many google website with offer of resetting password i went to first one and they said "you will get link for resetting the password after six hours .And it was done thankfully.

Thanks for being with me during all this time dear people .Your support is my strength !

Sharing two awesome photos shared by Sue (Gabi's mom) she is at the Newfoundland .She sent a sweet message and told she is visiting "Fogo Island" with her sister and brother  in law. She told that the grandparents of her brother in law lived in Fogo island. She also mentioned that people of Fogo Island are really friendly but their accents are known for difficult to understand yet she is finding their stories wonderful .thanks to Sue for gorgeous glimpse! She is so sweet!

                                           i  find these shots breathtakingly  beautiful 

    below are glimpse of hubby's visit to a shrine of famous sufi (saint) shahbaz Qalandar in Hyderabaad city 4 hours drive from here

entrance to the main shrine from yard  

 even i don't know how this image appeared as large ,but looks nice as the golden tower at shrine's roof is visible behind 

                            the inner design is round and magnificently done though not captured here fully 

                                                  beautiful blooms of sadabehar plant 

                                our climber is happy and blooming well because of less heat 
 

my favorite is this one because the light color which appear as white and then changes  into pink slowly

will be visiting you all more now by the grace of God dear friends !
Health Peace and Joy to all of you and to all you love!