Sometimes we have people in our life that seem to create whole universe around us where we feel safe and peaceful .All the darkness and harshness of the world remains far away while we are bundled up in the invisible magnetic field of that person . We see them busy always doing constructive activities that adds up in our inner power and self confidence unknowingly .
My mom was one of those people as well. As growing girl i could not realize this with such depth but after my marriage when i had to depart from her these were the feelings that kept revealing on me with time. Despite mom seemed little different when my sister went to America and wanted mom to break up with me ,my heart could not forget how immense physical and spiritual contribution she had in building up our life.
When compare to mom ,call me lazy because she had strongest personality i ever knew in my life . Her strength was unbeatable and despite being from tiny village she had so many things to put her energy and create something out of them . Now when i think of how she would turn her day into a productive time period it feels so magical because i could never achieve that. After household all interests me is writing or reading or spend little time looking at garden plants and sky.
Moving in our small happy and content world was something i would love to experience each time if there are life chances ahead.. Our father was opposite to mom when it comes to hard work or creativity. He would do his watch making job and spend weekends on home idly while reading piles of news papers ,magazines or digests. I think i took this from my father . But i enjoy doing hard work as well whether physical or mental if i have to. My father could not do hard work at all though . I remember when our house was being built mom would take over when labor men leave or when labor men would take break on Friday. She would go to the site and start digging or watering up stone that would be used in construction next day or other works that could save labor men's energy and time so they can use them on more important job as construction or so. One day when father was at home mom tried to motivate him with lecture that it would be so proudful if he also does some help on site. My father convinced surprisingly and went with mom. He helped her arranging heavy stones there .But when he returned his hands were red and having blisters and he argued with mom a little that it was because she insisted and how he will do do delicate work of watch making . It took his hands few days to recover and go on his job. Mom never asked him to help again .
Nothing could stop her from doing her work on site though . She would not allow me to help so i would go there secretly when she could not go to on site for some reason and would not be around. This is how i could dig under the huge rock ( restraining the construction) for some days regularly and was succeeded to make it pull out of the ground finally. It happened when a contractor refused to blow any of the more rocks in the ground as he said that area wasn't part of the deal. A gap of time provided me chance to do this for my mom. When she saw that rock out of the ground it is hard to how proud and happy she felt .And i thought nothing i can't do in the world that day.
My could would do multiple jobs in a day and when we would try to comfort her by pressing her shoulders or feet she would smile and say no need for this. Her smile would enlighten our world !
She had hens and the garden at the same time and nothing went wrong anytime. My sister in law though ended my mom's garden soon after mom left the world because she could not manage it with hens. Later she quit having hens soo too.
Sadly i could see my mother in my dreams twice or thrice in these 13 years of her departure. Seeing dreams of liking is not in my hands but I see my mom in my imagination often .It seems so real sometimes that i forget she is no more . Yesterday was the such day which made this post possible .
thanks for bearing with me dear friends!
more blessings to you all and to all you love!