Visited The Nephew In City Pir Jo Goth And Angles On The Way Once Again !

Yesterday after breakfast hubby left for grocery and on returned when he stopped for a while to greet my mother in law and younger brother ,he was informed that his sister in law (wife of eldest brother) was ill and took by her son to his home.in city close . I have mentioned visiting our this nephew when he had invited us at the ceremony of his only son's khatana. It was sudden news and despite of extremely hot day we decided to visit them as according to my younger brother in law she seemed serious .Riding 21 km on bike on such hot day  could be dangerous for people of our age (52 to 55) but fortunately weather had become bit mild after windstorm last night. So we left our younger son at home who refused any cooking i offered and said he will be cooking his pasta later . Three of my kids are good at their cooking skills thankfully so i was ok with that. Bike ride remained pleasant throughout the way because as motorcycle moved air felt cool and cheery. I forgot my phone at home which i regretted when saw beautiful mango and date gardens on the way. Birds lacing the water ponds filled my heart with joy . Sky was not so clear and groups of wandering little clouds were marching randomly. Today temperature  is 41 c ,though it was 37 most probably at 12:30pm when we left .

We  had informed the family about our arrival so when we arrived everything was settled including lunch .People hardly pre inform their anchors which makes them feel stunned and bit uncomfortable for while (talking through personal experience) so i preferred  to inform which provided us quality time together with anchors . Our Nephew attended us for half hour and left for his shop from where his assistant was calling him frequently. It was nice surprise that our sister in law to whom we went to see was looking bit better . Her daughter in law (wife of nephew) told us that she is up and able to talk after many days and it was possible after immediate intense treatment she received whole week here since we bought her here with us.  

   she is a very nice young lady with kind heart . She loves to be helpful to all around her .this photo was taken when she came with her husband to meet our eldest son in December 2022. Unfortunately she has some issues which prevented her being mother for so more than nine years . Then she expected but baby came premature . I have mentioned here in previous post in July 2010 about how her baby was in critical condition and i could help to save his life wit CPR .

The boy is 13 now healthy and active by the grace of God > But couple was missing more children so my nephew adopted a newly born baby girl from her his elder sister. Samiya (this young lady) is really happy to have new child . And when i asked how she is feeling she said she is having best tie of her life as mother as baby girl came healthy and now when she is thirteen month old she runs around and keeps her busy all the time . she said all the disappointment and sickness that used to keep her down is gone now by the grace of God!

I feel good when see how sharing can wonders in the life of people. I have a another sister in law (wife of youngest brother of hubby) the couple is starving to have children but no miracle until in 10 years until now . But what hurts is that two of her sisters willing to give her their baby but their husbands are not consent .She does not want child from her in laws who are agreed but give and this is also heartbreaking for her husband as well. 

 

    her new adopted daughter is very cute and really mischievous . i thought i will take phot of her with her mother but she was slept so i took this photo with hubby's phone which is a gifted dress to little girl by some friend of Samiya .she showed me and i could not resist photo as embroidery on little dress looked so pretty .we left after two hours .but guess what on the way once again our bike stopped when we reached in the middle of the way . There was nothing wrong with bike this time but the fuel was finished surprisingly .Hubby was shocked as he had filled two litter by the petrol pump  close to colony before leaving. He said there was already fuel in tank but because of the journey he wanted to add more cautiously. There are rumors that cheating in filling is being done on pumps but never thought what can happen to people who stuck in middle of nowhere because of such corruption. I have told you story   story in January 2021 previous post friends when our bike got punctured when we had reached in middle and how. a boy came with solution miraculously . Same thing happened yesterday as when our bike got slow and stopped another motorcycle stopped before us  A young man asked hubby if the fuel is down . hubby could not first  respond as he was busy in trying to start the bike . The man got down from his motorcycle and so the three young girls sitting behind him. He came close to hubby and repeated his question and when found the answer positive he walked away to look for something which i got when he picked up an empty juice cane . He corrected it's shape and filled it with fuel from his bike .He poured the fuel in our bike and waited to see if bike starts . And left with the ladies afterwards. Hubby thanked him twice and he smiled only . I knew how angle smiles now . God is great and each time when we are disappointed with heartlessness of so many people around God show us that world is standing on the shoulder of right doers and make us believe on miracles once again!    Without his help we would have to walked for petrol pump for more than one hour and it was impossible to reach home before 8pm which is full night time here.I am sure that God will be sending his goodness to him and family from another source!

Hope post did not much long ,sharing below some recent smiles of garden .

Thank you so much for bearing with me precious friends! God Bless You All!

Summery Of Forty Rules Of Love By Elif Shafak

  

As i mentioned in few previous posts that i am not a smart buyer of books specially when i have to choose among random piles (not totally random actually but not well organized) .When i have to choose many while keeping in mind that it is a rare opportunity (once in a year) to buy books because our small city has no book shop which has collection of international books though Sukkur (25 km)  has few but due to be much crowded it seems impossible to stay in shop for long . The books i had bought during our December trip to Karachi were mixture of fiction and scientific research work by different authors .Among which i found one  beautiful novel two weeks ago.

 " Forty Rules of love " by Turkish best seller writer Elif Shafak . It is an enchanting book written skillfully about love in the light of Rumi and Shams of Tabriz .

Sharing Summery below taken from here

Love is the most important theme in the novel and it appears in

many forms, each bleeding into the next. The first and most fundamental love in the narrative is self-love and, in that way, self-acceptance; this is most clearly demonstrated through the way that Ella moves about the world. Downtrodden and unhappy in her daily life and in her marriage, Ella seems to be at the whims of her family and does not appear to do anything for herself. Because she does not appreciate herself and her uniqueness, and because she blames things like her husband’s string of affairs on herself, Ella is unable to appreciate those things that make her desirable until she explores the Sufi teachings she learns about in Sweet Blasphemy.

By making herself receptive to the type of love she encounters in the novel, Ella allow goes through a powerful transformation. She eventually learns to love herself, and in doing so, extends this love outside of herself. She in turn accepts her daughter’s engagement instead of viewing it as a failed attempt at love, she values herself more and ends her toxic marriage, and she falls in love with Aziz, the author of Sweet Blasphemy.

When i started this i was specially consumed by it's divinity and depth used through the phrases of Rumi and Shams of Tabriz .I have not read any book about two of these enlightening Sufis until now but after reading this i think i will try to find some nice books on their philosophy.

In this book Narration type is "self" and each character comes and speaks his mind ,which makes it easy to grasp. The definition of forty rules of love seem best explanation of what is love all about actually .Author shares the seven states of transformation of our ego go through and we attain pure self a altered higher level of consciousness which encounter with ultimate reality and Oneness. But because the path is hardest only few mange to achieve in a century.

I think this is worth reading for those who believe or want to believe in love !

Insisting On Denial

 This sounds weird when people say there is no creator who has created this world.

Or when they take life granted and complain about everything as if It  was on Creator to after creating all they have already he also should provide them on daily bases with every single thing they need.

This seems extremely ignorant and  ungrateful attitude actually by people who expect "thanks" for even a glass of water they offer to anyone . 

This is disappointing and sad mindset of people who accept and pay "tax" happily  (or unhappily) to governments who assure them security and allow to use their land for living . they pay tax on every single thing they buy with their hard earned money even.

I wonder if we are such naïve or blind or we pretend to be so ?

We find through science and religion how everything has appeared in universe to serve certain reason and all reasons lead to serve "humans" eventually .

We Have discovered the law of Nature that reveal how we are trapped in highly sensitive "surveillance system" (fields of forces) that is bound to shape us according to what we "actually intend"

What else we need to prove that there is a higher Power who is responsible for everything .

To keep diversity in the scenario we are programed with different thought systems" 

But it does not mean that we are vulnerable to them and forced to live by them forever .But we  are allowed to upgrade our understanding by using most important instincts .

To top of everything we have "freedom of choice" and will power to choose way and sustain decisions .

To be aware about to "do" and don't" we are equipped with specific alarming system called "conscience" or consciousness .

To be harmless for co existents we are also given "imagination " which not only help us to improve but help us to feel in others shoes as well.

By following all mentioned above we are allowed to "remove " lenses of different illusions gradually. With each removal we get the clearer view of reality which is uplifting and encouraging for those who remain "fair"

While looking at such finely tuned world full of  various species and special specie like us the humans when someone says it is all random and just exists ,i feel it is a lazy effort to avoid reality which is surrounding us from all possible sides like sand storm but we insist to deny by  keeping our head under ground .

Or we do it to avoid responsibility that come with acknowledgement.

Accepting that there is some kind of higher force executing this world can spoil our "fun time" and we will have to be careful ,organized in thoughts and actions and sensible in behaviors to avoid the resentment of that higher power. So it feels easy to keep denying and having fun wildly. 

How can we expect that One who has created this game of life and has facilitated us with everything to play it fairly we had and will be needing in far future  won't demand something in return ?

If we can be demanding after giving a little support if not much gratitude at least Why he can't demand from us the same ?

We ply games which have rules .Why can't he set the rules for us as well ? 

Isn't it possible that like being careless while playing drop us from level and take away rank ,and make us loose .He can does same to us in the game of life?

And though we realize or not because we are sent here with dual life physical and soul one the loss can be shown on any side .

All we need an observant eye to see carefully .

When no victory is earned here "easily" how can we expect that showing dullness here can make us pay ?

Thanks for bearing with me dear people!

hope i did not bore you as it was from heart totally spontaneous .

God bless you All!

 

Reasoning The Desperation In Everything (My poem )

 sometimes i feel like a ray of light 

Departing from the sun so bright 

To celebrate epitome of my birth 

I travel  down to the earth 

Gentle walk not haphazard race

Each moment i relish my pace 

Enthralled with encountered delight 

Embracing manifoldness of life 

I landed on lush serene hill 

Which was flirting with wind so chill 

She was high but felt bit low 

I asked her  why so ?

Said she has so much to miss 

Look at water below what a bliss

I am laying like lazy cow 

Stuck here  with nowhere to go 

Envy voyage  that stream can make 

For her ,all rules are break 

She looks happy and free all time 

Journeying  merrily singing  joyous rhyme

Lament of hill made me sad 

But i continued my blazing parade 

Next time i stopped on tree 

How fulfilled and rich he feel 

Youthful branches dancing with joy 

 Birds nestles  full of chirps and cry 

Laughing leaves on Jokes of breeze 

Made me nervous though buzz of bees 

Where is worry when glee is Lot 

Proved me wrong when Tree open his heart

Pity me that i live such a life 

Lost and robbed like a naïve

Standing tall like a fool 

Stupid those who think me "cool"

 Every one only "takes" from me 

Such a fool do i have to be ?

This state i cannot cross 

want to quit the business of loss

Can't i  fly away like a bird ?

Once to be "self centered "

Or like air freely roam 

Here and there roar and groan 

I  was shocked to listen his tale 

To find "good" can one be as fail ?

In my chest felt something to burn

Broken heart  i took my turn 

Slipped into the heart of stream 

Who transited me into soothing beam 

Stunned by stream's healing force 

Felt content with her Strength Gross 

But my credence went in vain 

When stream started complain 

I am tired of journey so long 

Always on toes is very wrong 

I want to stop ,i want to rest 

On solid ground a cozy nest 

Why do i have to drill 

World around when is still 

On her such ignorant cry 

I got out and said goodbye 

While pondering things absurd 

I encountered flying bird 

Gliding up and down in air 

He must have found life bit fair 

Sometime on ground ,sometimes on sky

What a liberty has this this guy 

You must see how when he whine 

Ungratefulness crossed all lines 

Do you know how much i am board

Spending my life on a bare sword 

Always on the state of war 

Looking for food near or far 

At the risk of predator and storm 

What is the glamor and where is Norm ? 

Before burying  under this tower 

I float away and stopped by flower 

Overflowing  delight and bling 

Looking at it makes each heart sing

Jewel of body and  joy of soul 

Who deny divinity as whole 

Everyone knows with life so short 

Flower brings happiness to lot !

With such a valid life 

He should feel peace and pride 

So bad he wasn't exception 

Like under curse or excursion

Do not go on looks so pretty 

life of mine is feeble and tricky 

I stay under scorching sun 

With complain nil and none

Gust of wind can end the play 

Drops of rain can wither away 

While you travel up so high 

Birds and pests make me cry 

Fear of fading occupies 

What is point of such short life ?

Wounded soul and burdened heart 

I rolled up myself a lot 

Then i turned a little and bend 

To the "consciousness" my friend

She knew already my pain 

about my queries  and complains 

While sitting her throne divine and high 

She began with enlightening smile 

All the people you just met 

Found them whining and regret 

All of them and all others here 

Made up of frailty and dare 

One's weakness is other's vigor 

This is how system works here

The "destress" you find in all 

 Is the only tool to crawl 

Crawl towards the better place 

Choose between trivial or grace

And if  used in right range

Such desperation works for "change"

"Constant Change" is aim life 

So we can move to better and bright

There is nothing to surprise or blame 

If you ponder life is "game" 

Whether predator or prey 

Everyone has part to play

Only way to win this fight  

Be aware  and use your "light"

See carefully what lies before

Sea ahead or is shore

Do not jump with urge so blind 

Or you will lost your kind 

Learn every skill to survive 

But you need to tame your "drive" 

Try to do  in harmless way 

Unless you are pushed to attack 

 

Political Disturbance ,Internet Down And Another Love Story

Hey Sweat Hearts !

Hope and pray that all is well at your end and whatever is still resolvable  is not beyond your wisdom and skills to overcome it!

Due to current political disturbance sims and internet system was down throughout the country .Little of it has been restored but YouTube ,Facebook and twitter are still absent completely which brings great loss for users and sites as well .

 Extremely summer has took over our part of land specially this southern Pakistan and our small city near desert Nara is heating up under scorching sun ,yes the same old friendly sun who used to smile on us everyday looks upset now :( i still love him though .

After restoration of internet we watched Mrs Chatterjee vs norway on Netflix  based on True Story  of an Indian girl who suffered as mother because of unjust and painful circumstances she was put in by a child welfare center of Norway claiming that her parental attitude was threat to her children . I loved the well made movie thoroughly . Rani Mukherjee's acting is heartfelt since always and this film was not an exception too. I found this one another Love story .Lovestory of a mother who fought for her children till the end.

Another point that this inspiring story rise in my mind is that how important for us the humans is to "enlighten" our minds like sun who's light spreads all around unlike a Torch who's light is focused on one point only and everything else is in the darkness . We should keep in mind that things that exist outside of the spot light of our  torch or fixed "mindset "  don not disappear because we can't see them but they are still there with all their value and demand attention when encounter eventually.

The wisdom of Creator is divine and flawless. Love is his most powerful ingredient used in each creation . He gives a child a perfect family to love , nurture and protect .This stands as first love story on earth and all other love stories spring further after this one . This short life is less to pay thanks for His kindness he bestowed upon His man .I wish each of us has habit to ponder and count blessings he has been enjoying throughout life .Rest ahead will be good automatically because we disrupt the mechanism of life first when we Stop to be Grateful and rest ahead gets complicated .

One thing which i loved about this movie that it has a scene of famous Northern Lights which was filmed beautifully and i loved it so much as it was first time i could see it as nicely :)

health ,peace and happiness to all of you precious people !  

Will Love Stories Survive in future ?

Last night we watched a latest Bollywood movie link of trailer .It was basically a romantic comedy with message that a man who does love marriage can still live with family that is too supportive, modern and understanding for it's young generation .It's been while we have watched one like this .Like everything else Indian  cinema is changing quickly .Modern filmmaker are toying with new ideas to attract younger audience with modern mentality . But as far as i see most of the south Asian population still own older mindset .Though young generation is adopting western lifestyle but still there is lot  to change in their eastern romantic perspective .

 Being from here i can sense that main target of the most of the people in society is still to have a family life . Children grow under the influence of parents which is still quite strict except in few lager urban cities. Parents support their children financially until they are settled and emotionally throughout the life. Most of the parents choose life partner for their kids and their influence remains unchallenged upon all family decisions till they live. Youth tries to adjust with this attitude somehow most of the times.

Youth with liberty to choose life partner for themselves get married to whom they fall in love with and live separately. So family ,partner ,marriage and children are the main things around which life circles here mostly until now. I find it fascinating and appropriate way to spend life. I think despite of modern trends wide spread in western world there too are so many people who live such life bound in emotions and relationships and find it fulfilling and meaningful way to live.

Hollywood has created some of the most beautiful love stories no doubt .But  Bollywood has all the spices  that give perfect flavor to their  romantic movies to touch hearts here .And it is because of it's  charming culture they portray on screen and mesmerize with their powerful reflection  of feelings that is blend of east and west both which makes it more appealing for spectator. 

In early movies the idea that dominated most of the films was encounter between rich and poor to which hero and heroin belongs. Hundreds of filmmakers presented it in so many different ways and most of the times it was hit and popular. People are most interested how two people in love go through hardships to unite and live happily eve rafter. Though after 2000 trend slowly changed and films came with different topics many were liked too . But whenever Bollywood tried  hand in love stories with good directors they broke records of all times and ruled on cinema for longest period. They were hit in all other foreign countries as well where big south Asian community live.  Some of the hits are these 

I want to ask what you think friends ?

Do you too at heart like romantic movies most ?

 Why ???

Do you think love stories will survive in future ?

My love for movies and shows even cartoon shows is Grave in which family ,friends ,love and other delicate human emotions are evolved. Though my favor is shifted   towards complex ideas still in corner of my heart longing for a nice  still exist and whenever i find one i run to watch it in first leisure time.

Thank you for bearing with me dear people !

health ,peace and joy to you and to all you love!

The Transformation ( my poem)

 

For ages confined in the "cage of boy" 

I relied on the "food " of timely pleasures so long 

Disillusioned by satisfactions  though "heart" believed were wrong 

I could hear the whisper of my sore soul buried below "illusions"

Inspiring  me to breakthrough idleness and confusion 

Something inside kept part of me on toes 

Knowing though  paths ahead full of thorns then rose 

Heartbroken , exhausted by long innate fight 

I unburdened my soul and ask to take her flight 

I surrendered to my longing for freedom to Higher view of life

With tool of my "desire"  i broke lock of Cage

And let" arise" and settle higher  soul the sage 

Leaving behind all that kept me astray and low 

Unyielding ,bleak "self " and coarse  ego

No more pressures and congestion of fixed existence

 Every dimension is mine now without clue of distance 

Sometimes i feel ,i am melting into silvery smoke 

Disappearing into the vastness of space 

Dissolving into the body of "Oneness" to join the "significant glow"

It is enchanting to break the shell  be "drop" in Divine flow 

Across the set boundaries of  time and matter 

Roaming liberatingly in the veins of endless "Whole" 

I feel serene like a child who eventually got "Home" 

Holding the hand of mother who feels safe and calm

For seeing from the mother's lap everything looks "akin"

The only difference is made by the "body's selfish desire

Once you leave this cage your soul dwell higher 

The height that will turn you into" Water " from fire 

  

Happy Eid 2023

 

Hello Lovely People !

Sorry if i am late to reach out your beautiful blogs since few days .

Actually our elder son has joined us from Karachi to celebrate Eid :)

despite he looks more weak due fasting during month of Ramadan it was great pleasure to have him for some days at least!  You can imagine how much we miss our eldest son on such special days ! But life is never something what we want but series of physical and emotional challenges that we face throughout our life and try to sharp our skills to deal with them better each next day .

   

This photo is taken on the Eid morning around 9 am when hubby and boys returned after Eid prayer. We felt concerned and expressed our worries regarding his health conditions and that he could have fast for lesser days but he said The whole city is off for Ramadan month ,no food stalls or hotel available and he had strict studies routine from 8 am to 5:30 pm so he found no energy to cook ( no packed food is found around here except few remote defense areas where foreigners live) he has been trying to cook his breakfast and dinner at home but constant fasting made him feel weak and dizzy .A good thing happened during Ramadan month though that A kind mom of one of his friend would invite our son at aftari (  food eaten at the evening for breaking fast: and dinner as well . That was such a relief for us. I contacted that generous lady and thanked her for her  for her kindness .She replied it was nice to take care of such a sweet and decent kid .We are trying to feed him well but we know few days food won't make much difference . The actual reason behind his health is his poor eating habits . I had to force him to eat more and finish his meal since always. He came thin and had sensitive health conditions for which he remained on medication and injection once in a month for three years. Treatment ended when he was sixteen by the grace of God! once kids are grown it is hard to guide them because unlike us ( we were obedient and i think if my it would have been great loss if i would have not listened to my mom for so many things)  i think God has created parents to protect children and guide them for better survival but modern generations lack such capacity sadly 

    My eldest son shared this image on my request when he returned from hiking with friends . this is joy to be able to see glimpse of his days as parents. He called us on Eid day twice which made our Eid day complete eventually !   He is gone to celebrate his Eid with His old friends in Germany which is comforting news for us as being alone on such special days is not good in my opinion .

More than a week ago a thunder storm hit our small city so badly ,howling of winds were so loud and scary and gust were powerful enough to cause damage to trees and poles .Power went off for one and a half day and i think if it was not matter of Ramadan it would have taken more time to return. Plants of my garden survived surprisingly except two sunflowers broke their branches .  But looking at theses gorgeous delightful flowers next day was treat for my heart :) 

      positive thing about storm is that temperature dropped to good deal which seemed enough to celebrate  sweat free last two fasting days and then Eid day with beautiful mild weather :) 

                                              after storm sky took two days to be clear 

    after rainy and windy day sky was divine and soothing ,evening walk was a spiritual experience with breeze so calm 

     Hats off to survivors ,indeed to survive it take wish and will power with undefeated courage to sustain this struggle !

See you soon ,please stay blessed with Faith that gives you wings of Hope !

health ,peace and happiness to you and all you love ! 

Divine Game Between Soul And matter

 As i said in my previous post that i will share my personal opinion about the topic of How The mind Works .Although i am not a scientist who can tell  much but a simple person with thinking mind who 's imagination often stretches here and there  and try to put pieces together found until now . They cannot be of much worth if you seek strong background of degree or post behind my words but if you believe that each of us has come with unique mind to speak and is worth listening you will be able to relate surly. Because if we see carefully this is how things work in the world. Each of us  comes at certain point of time and observes life with unique perspective that he shares with his contemporaries and leaves and then another one comes and puts his effort to  stretch it further .

I was fascinated by the soul side of human being since always therefore material world and things attracted me little throughout the life. Though this was unconscious then .But now i know what and why i feel curious and want to learn about and how i anxiously i am looking forward to the latest scientific research about how our physical brain interacts with our Intuitive Mind that  "Feels". 

Feelings that have led man from caves to glossy high buildings and has handed him books and modern equipment instead hunting tools. Feelings that make us special among all species and Feelings that flourish our world with various forms of arts and make our life worth living and enjoyable by filling it with colors of love and other so many emotions that play important roll in shaping our life.

Steven Pinker as i shared in summary in my previous post has managed so well to described how by breaking down human brain (reverse engineering ,in his words)  back into the zero help us understand the process how human brain has developed and progressed slowly over the thousands of years to reach the point it dwells  right now .But sadly writer confesses unhesitatingly that Neuroscience is unable to explain further about Mind's function that use higher level of intelligence  such as Arts and various Forms of it.

And writer says so because he acknowledges that Human Psychology of Arts is not an adoption . Though he puts some theories about it which show how art or the pleasure seeking senses can stimulate mind circuits when they are in environment that would have led to fitness in past generations. Another theory is that Arts born by rich who wanted to display something particular that separate them from poor. Or that  art has been invented to bring harmony in the society etc.

I found it easy to disagree .I might have not felt this way if i myself was not poet . I know that whether big or small but i had felt that gift sprouting within me . I received it by my spontaneous intuition at the age of from six to eight if remember correctly . I remember that before it came to me i was not engaged in any kind of activity that could be reason to make me write that poetry. I remember that the first piece of poetry that i wrote was flawless in it's formation and meaning .I did not know then literally but i had feeling that were proven true by the appreciation and encouragement i got when i showed it to first my father ,second to school principal after few years and later to an established writer and scholar on radio. I remember that one of my class fellow who wanted to be a poet intentionally tried hard her hand in writing poetry for months but gave it up eventually because you can polish the gift if you have one but can't grow it within you willingly if there is none. 

So in this world wherever poet ,painter ,musicians and writers have been born and arraying their gifts were not inventor but people with stronger souls who made them "Create" more than do anything else.

From where can come this soul ?

Nothing is without soul i believe. I know i won't be able to see such scientific  revelation regarding my( or many others in various fields) claim in my short period of life  but in far far future probably but only in case of if Creator of this whole scenario allowed so, people will learn that soul is basic thing of life and preexistent of  matter because Nothing can live or grow without soul .

Two tiniest parts who's interaction makes possible the formation and development  of any smallest thing have soul and we call it "charge"

Without this "charge" the existence of this whole universe was Impossible .Soul  is "Charge of human body. Once the charge is gone body is thrown away like empty cane .

As we humans have  arisen from many such basic elements ,some of them have surely "stronger charge " or soul .And because soul is higher form so people having stronger side of soul show deeper emotions and higher intellect .

I also think that people who have showed unusual Empathy towards other people  and has served people humanity without discrimination throughout the history had same strong side of soul .

I am though not clear whether Can soul can be dark as well ? 

Or matter and soul both are living thing ,soul is a" Pure" thing that pull us towards Goodness and Enlightenment and rise us to heavens.

And Matter is Impure ,polluted and corrupt thing that  that push us towards "Badness" and make us fall to the hells .

I have only one proof that supports my this belief and it is my personal experience . The more i disengaged the material things (though in my case relationships were material things) the better i felt . Seems that root of all problem is

  " our  mad Anticipation in  material world " 

Body demands things from material world only. 

The more we are slave to these demands the worse is life.

Soul on the other hand is only an observer ,a vivid provider of ultimate inner peace that is out of reach to any material at all.

Scientists are failed to detect charge or soul under microscope until now so i think soul is the only mystery which will remain mystery until the far far future .

This makes me think if Creator want us to keep looking for solving this mystery and keep getting close to Faith that He exists .He has created this "Game " of universe and life so we can play freely ,learn and discover so much that give us "delusional ideas "about reality But actually this is only the material information by material world to satisfy our material senses. Th actual game of Creator is how Players recognize Him while playing with or without 

"Laws of this Game"

The Summary Of How The Mind Works By Steven Pinker .

I am about to finish How The Mind Works by Steven Pinker a Canadian ,American  cognitive scientist who conduct scientific research as professor of psychology at the Harvard university  .Writer has tried to explain poorly understood functions of human mind by reverse engineering the human mind .  The writer has tried to explain what make us rational and why are we so often irrational .What make us happy ,sad ,afraid ,angry ,disgust. Why we fall in love ?

And how do we engage  with imponderables of Morality ,Religion and consciousness ? Writer puts light on the subject via cognitive science ,evolutionary biology and other fields that explain how the mind works. 

He begins  it with how a human brain started to work at first place in the evolution and how day to day task of difficult life made it adopt various concepts ,thought patterns and behaviors which helped him to face the challenges of food ,safety and  reproduction throughout the the life. .

According to writer content of the worlds are  not to "know only but to grasp with suitable mental machinery because everything we learn as "obvious " becomes less and les obvious when we start to learn about Universe .

Human psychology is engineering in Reverse in order to figure out our specialized information Tool .Psychology can be used in search to what was human brain designed to do. For it is hunt inherited universal characteristics of homo Sapiens. Ideas are gifts ,Communication is giving ,speaker is the sender ,Audience is recipient and knowing is Having .

Science and Morality are separate phrases of reasoning.

Step out of your mind for a moment and you will see that your thoughts and feelings are magnificent contrivance  of Mental world Rather than as an only way that things could be .

What make us  unique as homo sapiens as we are proud of ourselves today for ?

these are physically as below ,

Visual animal 

Group living 

Hand Hunting 

Mind is the system of the Organs Of Computation ,Designed by Natural Selection to solve the problems of our ancestors faced in Foraging way way of life. In particular outmaneuvering other animals ,plants and other people . Each  our our mental modules solve this problem by the Leap of Faith How the world works ,By Making Assumptions that are indispensable but indefensible -the only Defense being that Assumption worked well in the world of our ancestors . There is Nothing Common about Common sense. No Database can install us facts that we Know tactically and No one Ever Taught them ever to us.

According to writer the mind was designed to attain number of maximum copies of Gene that created it .Only Applicators whos Effects Tend to Enhance the Probability of Their Own Replication come to predominate .

There are two theories until now about how the mind works .One is theory of Natural Selection and Other is The Computational Theory of Mind.

According to Computational theory of Mind 

   Beliefs and desires are information, incarnated as configurations of symbols.

Beliefs are inscriptions in memory, desires are goal inscriptions, thinking is computation, perceptions are inscriptions triggered by sensors, trying is executing operations triggered by a goal.

   • “Mental Organ”: It is clear the mind is structured heterogeneously with many specialized parts.

• Free will is an idealization of human beings that makes the ethics game playable.

Intelligence, as used in a majority of the text, is the ability to attain goals in the face of an obstacle by means of decisions based on rational (truth-obeying) rules.
• The concept of the individual is the fundamental particle of our faculties of social reasoning.
• Life is a densely branching bush, Not a scale or ladder, and living organisms are at the tips of the branches, not on lower rungs.
• Evolution is about ends, not means; becoming smart is just one option.
• Human brains evolved by one set of laws, those of natural selection and genetics, and now interact with one another according to other sets of laws, those of cognitive and social psychology, human ecology, and history.

Consciousness has various forms. We can have self-knowledge, access to information, and then there’s the big mystery of sentience.
Access to information consciousness is a mere problem, not a mystery. Therefore, one day we will understand our minds ‘consciousness’ however, the answer may not be as satisficing as sentient experience makes its self out to be.
• Learning is often described as the indispensable shaper of amorphous brain tissue. Instead, it might be an innate adaption to the project scheduling demands of the self-assembling animal.

This is  the summary i shared with you here .

I save my personal opinion on the topic till  next post hopefully .

Thank you for reading dear friends!

Health ,peace and happiness to all of you and loved ones

Decline Of Apatite After .......

 I have realized that my appetite has been declining slowly since my gallbladder surgery some years ago.

I have been noticing this change since few years and mentioned it to hubby often he when would ask why i ate so less ?

I have mentioned this in my posts as well or may be more in comments so if any of my blogger friends has similar experience can share .

I must have simply check some article about the topic but again lack of time (sigh) or when  i have time i forget about it and get busy with other stuff . 

Why i am writing post about it ?

Well as you know i am trying to fast in month of Ramadan at least twice in a week . Yes couldn't  go on with constant fasting due to drop of energy and feeling too sleepy because of the "weakness" i feel during fasting .Can't afford being sleepy during daytime because i am the only person in the household who does everything from cleaning to cooking etc .Actually hubby cannot help since many years because of his health issues specially his doctor has asked him to remain cautious and avoid much physical pressure specially after his recovery from Hepatitis .  

Here windy season has been started and cleaning that contains three parts ,dusting ,brooming and moping is necessary each day .This things needs lots of energy and time .Windy season will stay till the end of the July or little longer . Much physical effort and sweating makes one thirsty as well . I am not justifying just sharing how things are here so i am fasting only twice a week now.

One thing that came into my notice during fasting was that i don't feel hungry during fifteen hours of fasting instead i feel weakness only  which keep me down and grows in last  two to three hours badly. But sense of "hunger "that provokes one to eat and sense of hunger that makes "eating " a delightful procedure is absent and symptom is getting stronger with time after my gallbladder  surgery.

Though  hunger does not hit me anymore since some years i am able to eat a smaller portion of meal thrice a day than . It happened sometimes that i felt tempted to the "look" of food and tried to eat but could not follow my heart like before after certain amount almost third part of earlier meal. It makes me think that removal of gallbladder squeezes the stomach probably .Or something like this.

Another thing comes to mind that it is not only the "food" that is gift  " but "hunger" is also a blessing that makes us feel desire for food and let us enjoy it with or without being grateful for it !

Without "desires installed within us no gift is enjoyable but just a mechanical  part of the routine . Right?

Thank you for bearing with me dear friends! 

Health, peace and Happiness to you and to all you love!

Memories And Elderly Friend Ma Razia

 Some days back when i was reading post one of my blogger friend Emma 's post which had nostalgia about her grandfather's farm and how she would played and observed everything there as little girl it opened an window to my early teen age  days.

Sometimes i wonder what will remain behind if memories are extracted from our heart . Science says that secret behind that we find days longer when we are little or young because of the "pages of our memories " at that time of the life are mostly blank and we feel lonely or empty because of that "blankness" But as we grow we form memories extensively which fills our pages of memories abundantly ,therefore time seems to be slow because our mind has so much to process now . This thought seems frightening that if someone looses his memories accidently life can become a question mark for him sadly .

I don't know whether only i feel this way or many others too but it seems that we all live dual life or our journey of life feels like walk on track where days and moments we leave behind form an ascending order where memories of present  stand tall and clear but we have privilege to walk back on that "time track" to visit or relive those moments.

This "time track" looks very direct and lucid sometimes but sometimes is fogy and all look so blurred and entangled .

I don't know i would have strive for memories as strongly or not if i would have stayed in my native village .Actually i think the more you are pushed away  from your birthplace and people you grew up with the harder is longing of memories .I believe that memories have been created to keep us alive and connect to our previous versions . 

Time peel down us layers by layers and reveals the Core of our being eventually . As time passes we don't need to be someone else which our desire to be fit in make us sometimes . We make peace with our Core but it takes time and effortlessness. Yes to be real all we need is effortlessness. 

I love to be at ease or you can call me lazy . I remember i as little girl though played with girls of my age but i also followed my instinct and did what made me feel at ease and so genuine and i did it without thinking of what others will say about. I had an indefinable affection for elderly people ,women particularly .I felt i was pulled by some innate energy to be friend with them and to help them with small house chores .It would make me feel at peace. At that times there were five very old ladies  at least in my village whom i held close as dear friends . 

Ma Razia was from Burma .She got married to a man of our village who might served in Burma as army soldier at some point of time . She was tallest woman in the village i think ,skinny smart and active. I hardly saw her face without a sweet slight smile that would make her appearance pleasant kindred.  

 I think she was in her mid sixties when we had each other . As i grew young she grew old and her smile seemed to be dimmed. Not because of her old age probably but because of the unkind behavior of her daughter in law . Ma Razia would face restrictions by her as if she was outsider. Her daughter in law would ask her remain in her own room ,she was not allowed to play  with grandchildren whom she had carried on her lap all the time when they were babies. At first i would go to her room and help her to fetch water from tube well and cleaning ,would sit and ask her question about her childhood which was her most favorite topic .Her face would glow and smile deepen while telling stories of her native homeland and family . I think now i was the only one probably who will give her chance to speak her heart so freely .Meanwhile the peace and joy i would find on her face would feel like a great harvest .

When once she told me that i should not visit her because her daughter did not like this and scold her when i leave . That was sad because i knew she there were many things in which she needed some younger to help. I kept visiting other olden female friends regularly except Ma Razia .When i would return to home i would look at the room of her sadly and sigh. 

But after few days when i opened the door at knock Ma Razia was standing before me with her unstable breathing and dim but lovely smile .I felt so happy and excited to have her .She had a dress in her hands and she wanted to iron them . I first served her food as it was lunchtime and then ironed her dress . She left soon after that by saying that she had to get back otherwise her daughter in law would shout. 

Ma Razia 's visit to my home once in a while decreased within few months . I would ask about her from other girl friends of my mom  who would visit her sometimes but nothing particular until one day we heard a Razia fell down because cow pushed her . That was heartbreaking news and i realized that Ma Razia is in more trouble now. Me and my mom visited her few times but she was silently laying on her bed with closed eyes . I got no single moment to have word with her alone .I had feeling she is awake but not opening eyes because of trauma she is facing because of the cruel behavior of her daughter in law. 

Within few months we been told that Ma Razia has died . She  had sever fall which hurt her thigh so badly . No one took it serious or get her treatment except some home remedies by sympathetic visitors from surroundings. 

Ma Razia had four sons . Eldest one had driving job for a family living in village surrounded by high hills .The family had son who would earn in some middle east country and would sent quite wealth to parents including all the electric appliances that were useless to them because of the absence of power in that area. So this was the reason Ma Razia's daughter in law had everything gifted by the boss of her husband .When electricity came into village Ma Razia 's daughter in law was first to have tv in the house . She was social person and polite to people who would visit her to watch tv programs. She would show great likening for me when Ma Razia passed away and i was in middle school . She asked me to teach her eldest daughter who was second to send school after us. I taught Ruby her daughter for one year or so . She was bright and learned fast. Though she got married after passing tenth grade . Ma Razia's daughter in laws had seven daughters . She had three sons who could not survive after one year. 

Whenever i visit our village she meets warmly .She looks more old and weak each time . Sometimes i seek her regret in her gaze if  she is ashamed of her rude behavior to her mother in law or afraid of point of the circle where she might have thought she will never  reach  .  

Stuck Between The Battle But With A Way Out

I find myself quite lucky to be optimistic . I don't know whether i inherited this quality from parents my mother specially who was despite of all her complains about suffering of life gave her was an optimistic person .I can say this because i hardly saw her wearing the stress shawl and avoiding family or duties as house wife and responsible and caring mother. It is right that she was swept away by the wave of  nostalgia  once in a while .The strongest hits of that wave were few among which most powerful was lamenting over her died son at very early age (13 or twelve).

But it would take her an hour or two to get hold of herself back and she was again an amazingly strong and cheerful person who then seemed only thing in whole world so precious and loveable.

When i try to figure out what makes me as hopeful and faithful i realize it is the pattern i am able to see in things . The pattern that attracted me always so powerfully . The pattern that my became more obvious and and eloquent with time . I see unification and connection in everything existing here  in this universe. Today it makes me happy that science has the same opinion  that everything seems to make it's journey in circle and is connected . 

I feel that unseen form of energy is the "real thing " actually and  matter is it's just a "fabric" 

I know so many what ,why and how rise after we reach to one conclusion .But don't you too feel that no matter what is the form or wherever the fabric of matter is visible ,energy hidden behind this fabric has same behavior .Dark or bright ,strong or gentle ,good or bad ,hard or soft kind or cruel so on..

The energy wrapped in any form of matter seems to basically of two types. The whole game of life and universe is based on the battle between both energies . 

Scientist have proven facts that everything existing in the universe from single particle to larger bodies have counter parts  and both parts are destined to repel each other . This repellent behavior is the whole story in which scenario of life and universe has been written.

Why then it is not possible that the Energy we humans are made up of is also of two kinds ,"positive energy " and "negative energy"

The concept of angle sitting on our both shoulders is well comprehend with this theory i believe.

So from the very beginning when first human being came to existing he contained  was actually a bundle of both energies positive one on one hand was to make him rise and shine with wisdom and strength and Negative on the other hand was to break him down to destroy him to whither him away into pieces .

But why ,God could have make this easy for his man if wanted to but seems like he does not want to put us at ease at all . He probably want us to "locate and realize the reality of battle we are put in as humans" and then want us to "be careful"  with this battle between both types of energy within us.

What is our role in this fight . Are we allow to play randomly and stronger let the side win naturally ?

And the consequences of each victory will shape our destiny automatically ???

No we are forgetting one most important thing here ,the crown put on our head before we were sent there was "free will" 

Free will that separate us from other species .

I believe that the whole game is about this " freedom of choice" in reality .

Between the battle of  both energies within us How we use this "free will" and what choice we make is the

 "Main Act of the Show"

The God who seems to love his creations so much as he has provided all we need here in next thousands years  .

Should we expect from that God that he is unkind and cruel to his men ?

It Is hard to believe for me because pattern in things tells that how everything is the reason the existence of the other which explains that love and support is basic theme of life.

We loose his kindness when we make wrong choices only .Even If you don't believe in God you might believe in law of attraction or laws of Nature which are ultimate and irreversible . 

These laws that has shaped universe and life here  prove that we reap the fruits of our choices most of the time .

So being careful while making choice is crucial always. This carefulness is the obedience of laws that rule the world and breaking divine laws can never be beneficial .