The Stuff Of My Life

Hey Precious Friends ,hope  enjoying  the changes in weather ,moments of life with all the diversity and challenges they offer and yearly happy events that bring families and friends together eventually no matter what :)

want to say Happy Thanksgiving (sorry if late or early) and all the joyous times it brought to you all!

There are few days to November ,a month after which we are expecting our eldest son to visit us from London after three years ! prays for all travelers may they reach their destination safely by the grace of God! He is calling and texting almost everyday to ask what gift we like him to bring ,how can we ask for more as he is most desirable right now ! May lord bless us with moments together amen!!!

Weather is  splendid ,beautiful ,breezy and slightly cloudy. These shorter days of mild winter are gift for people who live here in extremely hot southern Pakistan. 

My flu is gone for now but i know it will keep coming back as usual throughout the winter. Things like these when happen frequently one learns to live with them and this is one of the best gift from Nature to man for survival i believe. Unlike your part of land we don't get any shot before winters .People who suffer with flu go through self medication or visit to the doctor when it is inevitable. We do the same. 

As i mentioned always winter is season for outing in southern part of the country  specially due family visits so we are  having guests often thee days .Few hours back i had to get up to attend our second visitor of the day ,she was wife of my brother in law and her younger daughter. She usually spend whole or more than half day with us during her visit .But she was in hurry because she also had guests at home . Why she choose to visit me if she had her own guests at home ? Actually she lives in same house that we left fifteen years ago. Last day i made a quick visit to see my mother in law and for doing some quick cheap shopping with another sister in law who often offered me that i should join her so she can show me shops where clothes are quite cheap in sale . I had to return within three hours before lunch time and therefore i had no time to go to her and meet.She was super curious why i did not stop by her for the first time as if i am angry with her or else. She is having some issues with my mother in law and almost whole family so she thought i too left her by taking others side. I  calmed her and promised that it was only a matter of time and nothing else. They left while ago. It hurts me when long time relationships break away only because both parties believe in their "truths" but not reality in actual means. If i have left people because of their bad and rude behavior i would have nobody to call family member. We should remember that everybody is just a human like us and can make mistake and deserve second chance .

Anyway last day it was my first experience of shopping which i did without hubby . Hubby has great acquaintance  here in this small city so he does not like to take me for shopping in local markets. He prefers therefore to shop in Sukkur city 25 km away from here. My mother bought me things before my marriage. I hardly accompanied her because i hate wandering through crowded markets . Hubby did so for me after marriage and for many years. I think i go with him since thirteen years or more. And it is since five or less years that i am understanding how to shop really i mean the sense of buying good stuff out of bad etc.

The wife of my youngest brother in law is quite active in shopping thing and helps all relatives and sisters in laws who come for shopping from out strike of our city. She advised hubby often to convince me so she can show me how to buy cheap yet better clothes from local market. I have been delaying this for two years almost. But yesterday i decided suddenly and hubby dropped me at her house immediately . This was my third visit to this market in thirty years and first time without hubby . In past I twice came with my eldest sister in law but returned back from th half way when saw crowed .For my youngest sister in law it was just a pat of routine also so she put her burka on and got ahead ,i followed her quietly . She must be fifteen years younger than me but her confidence was older and firm. It was eleven am so market was on it's beginning point with almost none people around. That was relief which supported my confidence little bit. She took me to few shops where clothes were very cheap and quality seemed  okay. I need hem to wear at home so i was fine with it. It was impressive the way she bargained though i she could not surpass hubby in bargaining skill certainly. I bought five dresses in five thousand rupees including scarves which i think was cheapest shopping ever . We could buy two dresses hardly in same price from Sukkur . That made me happy because i am not fond of expensive clothes .i buy new when older are torn away. I feel annoyed for dresses i have to buy to wear on wedding ceremonies .They are very expensive and used only once or twice . I repeat such dresses on many ceremonies unlike others though .I less care if people take notice and make ridicule. Women here are extra sensitive for such things believe me . See dresses i bought for the season. 

                            My sister in law selected bright colors for me but i choose these instead 

my younger son asked father to buy him a revolving  chair one and half month ago ,so hubby bought him this one from local market in fifteen thousand rupees .

 hubby ordered  this water cooler online which arrived yesterday ,i am happy that a new blue came to sit before eyes :)

We visited two of my sister in law last week .It was a gorgeous day so bike ride was truly pleasurable . My two middle sister in laws are married to two landlord broths in village half hour away from here. Passing through gardens and farms while observing rural beauty lightened our mind and soul. It was huge family gathering and full of fun. We left after having lunch before sunset.It was again a soohting beautiful experience .

My reading are at pause because of other business but i am enjoying thoroughly what ever color life brings to me because i know each aspect of life has unique  beauty to experience ad message to absorb!

Thank you for bearing with me sweet friends!

Keep blooming like flowers who exist for while but spread beauty and happiness to every eye and heart that glance at them as this is true essence of living!

May Faith be your shelter always to save you from harm of negativity brought by everyday living!

Blessinsg! 

Universe Acts Similarly Through Her All Expressions

 We have been watching videos about space and solar system lately. How scientists work hard to reveal what is happening beyond the atmosphere with the help of their studies and experiments about the universe ,space and everything existing within it. Host of this youtube channel  is famous researcher  Faisal warraich who shares his research and views  about various topics  here. We like his dynamic voice and how he put things with eloquence and accuracy and in very intriguing way with slight touch of humor . I specially liked when he shared how space satellites work and send signal to the earth that are received by very heavy antennas placed on the earth in certain distances . It is really fascinating to understand through new technology how these all things work and make it possible for us to know more about space and planets of our solar system . We mostly saw these videos during lunch time together and finish the first series of ten episodes in ten days of course .Yes we have learnt to take things slowly rather then finish them at once :) Unlike before we try to watch only one episode at a time of certain show we select and this makes us enjoy our favorite program last little longer which seems very nice. 

Days are getting sorter which leaves me many chores undone during daytime so i am trying to manage my blogging time in late evening after evening prayer. The weather is absolutely Joyous and delightful. Sun rays have become comforting and their touch feels motherly now days. Sky seems to come closer and gloriously deep shiny blue which seems to pull me in sometimes.  When i look at it i feel as i can see across it and observe all the mysterious events happening out there . After watching show i mentioned above makes it easy for me to imagine clearly how planets in our solar system are lined up there for inhabitants of planet earth to come and flourish their barren world with their lively existence.Though according to research not all of them seem suitable for life except Jupiter's moon Europa and planet Mars until now. According to further peek in space host told that there is fair possibility to have life in our universe. There are more than forty billions of planets in our own galaxy alone who likely to have similar atmosphere  as planet earth . Isn't it sound so exciting :)

A quote from holy book that comes frequently mentions that (translation) "people who live on earth and people who live in the sky both are under the command of Creator " .This strengthens my faith in how deeply Creator speaks through his men, particularly those who tend to listen him indeed!

                                                   image source pinterest 

I am from a little village and raised in environment where stories about moon fairies and old lady grinding hand mill on moon were common ,so it is really a big deal for me to learn all these facts about space and planets. This is exciting to know that next in year 2022 first mission will fly to Mars to set first human colony there . This must be biggest achievement for homo sapiens in long race of growth as specie till today.

It feels often like everything including us is "Expressions" of the universe like we all are pieces of her "whole being" withered here and there in the vast space ,sometimes in shape of huge ,solid, stern reality ,sometimes in form of transforming fluid and sometimes in the sate of mysterious smoke (gas). Most amazing part of all this scenario is that Nothing looks random or useless . Everything  shares it's part to support giant but meaningful system of the universe like a humble servant . Like planets close to our earth don't look like placed there for no reason. Their existence near earth seems to serve life on earth for further survival. Each planet  tell what is essential to have life and how lack of certain things can keep you away from such beautiful experience .

The successful existence of planet earth among her neighbors reveals that it's not important to have ingredients which are crucial for life but  "Balance" is supreme quality to achieve on this road. Balance of the" ingredients of life" support life to be created and grow. But what prevents this life from being disappear immediately after coming into existence is "atmosphere" . Can we imagine life surviving on this planet if there was no atmosphere at all ? of course not . 

My point is that everything has certain message for us despite of all the definition behind it's existence and explanation for it's being different than others. I honestly cannot say for what these messages are but they are in everything existing around us and even within us and can surely help us to lead better life if we receive them correctly!

Can we explain that why everything seems to act similarly ? i mean why the huge bodies of universe seems to act like we tiny humans do in our life from our birth to till death ? Such as from being born to getting old and making families who 's member vary in looks and behaviors. Can we realize ever the responsibility we have on our shoulders as "best and thinking part of the Universe" ?

She chose us to flourish in the huge colony of space and time with the harmony and peace. We are taking baby steps on the path of learning about us and our origin. I believe that in next some thousand years when people will be one nation our focus as specie on our actual duty will be  far stronger than it is today. 

Dear friends last week was full of guests and flue for me .Guests left but flue stays with me i don't for how long so forgive me if  i sound miserable today :(

Stay blessed with atmosphere of "Faith" so it can protect your soul from being damaged by radiation of negativity and odds around you !

No matter how hard you try Only Faith is the magical wand which makes miracle happen end of the day,keep absorbing strength from your source the divine energy you are existing within ,it is waiting for you to turn towards her and connect ,that 's it :)

Health ,peace and joy to you all and all you love precious people! 

 

Times And seasons When Soul Speaks To Souls

 

The weather  of our small city has decided to change finally :) believe it or not no more sweats for  two to three months at least , what a relief (sigh) .My medication course has ended and i am enjoying the new mood of the weather thoroughly and with more attentive mind thankfully ,slight breeze and comforting sunlight is so much well come here which seems delightful to senses. It has been thirty years since i moved here after my marriage still when i visit to blogger friends who share stunning autumn of their area it awakes so many memories which time and business could not erase or dim in these thirty years. 

Memories of  days when i lived in a hill top house back in my native village .Our house had perfect view of widely spread fields below beyond which flowed stream and across the steam was gardens of  other village  laying in the lap of front hills .When autumn would come i was able to observe  how fall leaves would turn their colors and make such an exuberant lace along the hill line that it would seem impossible to turn eyes from them. Cool winds and  departing leaves from the arms of trees would make environment quite stunningly gloomy .But i liked that gloomy touch of the season that would seem to open new doors inside my soul while deepening my thoughts and awakening grave sensitivity within my heart. It would inspire me to write more . I never wrote romantic poetry if one sticks romanticism to write about a lover . Most of my poetry was kind of monologue  about world ,views ,nature and people, my thoughts that i could not share to anyone  except to notebook .You can say that my canvas of "lover" was broader  and everything that was part of Nature was and is loved by me . Autumn would enrich my connection to everything around and every emotion within me .So i loved autumn and i still do though here i cannot feel her presence only know it is fall through calendar .And yes my small garden's plants try to whisper about fall too on tiny bases .

                                                             old photo taken in November 2020

As i believe that Nature has created everything for "purpose" i think fall is also to for reason. Nature has given us diversity in everything not only to have various tastes of life but the diversity being displayed through every  creation of the Nature is actually an Example of the diversity Nature itself is going through consistently since billions of years. Times like day and night or seasons like summer and winter are strong aspects of  how Nature works physically . In life we experience" diversity " in everything  like weather ,time frame ,seasons foods so on and on and on,these are physically existing things. What about Moods ,thoughts ,attitudes ,beliefs and so on.... these are things that don't exist physically still they decide what we are going to do with our life .

As we are part of Nature both of these things or qualities we surely have adopted from Nature. So we can say that as "living part of Nature or universe " we are obliged to not just " exist" but to "feel" just like Nature does. If it was random burst out existence things should have travelled in  straight lines in the horizons of space instead of being spherical and form rotary families  .There would have no concept of time at all which makes all this  possible .But we see how enormous and deep is wisdom of Nature . How life sprouting out in pin point started to take various shapes gradually  and continue to grow in vast  tree of universe .We find that how Nature has ability to sustain this ever growing universe in certain well organized way . Diversity is very first child of "Growth" .If we grow it is obvious to go through various certain changes. 

Back to actual topic i started with the "autumn" . I think that times like morning and evening and seasons like autumn speak to us on the behalf of "soul of the universe" .They are "divine invitation for us to be hold and "feel" so we can realize the true pattern of life. 

Why the same views that we don't find appealing enough to stop and even look at become captivating during early morning and evening. What magic does a slightly changed angle of light  to spectacles that transforms the whole scenario at once .We all are familiar with  peculiar moods we have during these times. A strong wave seems to come over and drag us into completely new version of us which we hardly encounter in day or night times. I think the actual thing that works behind this revolution is the "feel" which these times deliver to our heart. Before appearing or disappearing when sun contracts or spreads it's rays on the views everything looks different ,like revealing  panoramic look of the "Spirit of the Universe and Life" in it which speaks to pondering heart that 

"see how short is the spin of life"  so don't stuck in well of trivial ideas. Move soothingly while learning how to move even better and share the ease and goodness you earn in the way because you are here not forever"

Same story tells the short living flowers of spring and falling leaves of autumn . If everything was random these time periods and seasons would have not been existing i believe. They are a way through which Soul of Nature, Universe approach our souls so we can receive this divine message and empower them to embrace glory of life!

Keep rotating and keep blooming dear Friends ! all matter is quality of  our Existence rather than quantity so make sure no matter how long we live it with meaning and purpose :) 

Blessings to all of you and to all you all love!

Rain ! The Sip Of Life

 

 This week was awfully dull for me . Medicine i had  to take for allergy for ten days kept me useless though not physically but spiritually. Despite of having all senses it was hard to locate my mind when needed. But it makes me glad that i did not give up my exercise whether physical or mental (meditation) .Two days more to go and my medicine course will end thankfully.

The happiest event of last week was rain that agreed to shower in our part  of city too eventually and washed away all the dense dust layer from my garden! I was specially happy for my plants who seemed to starve for rain more than me . 

My eldest son has arrived in London and all set in his new life in new city by the grace of lord! He called on Sunday for a while just to show us his face .He was in hurry because he had to leave to check out places he had selected online . He is currently living in hotel (air bnb service)  though one of his friend has showed him a residence which she is leaving behind as she is leaving the city probably ,my son liked it which made us happy as he takes quite time and search before selecting anything. He is going to live in hotel for month probably which he has booked already before arriving there and then will move to the residence recommended by his friend. He was little disappointed  with congestion of places in the main city near his office. He mentioned that the place recommended by his friend is also  does not match his will perfectly but he will adjust there for some months until he will rent a bigger place in surroundings and buy vehicle to drive to the office daily which he wanted to avoid but now seems inevitable. Hubby says that big place are time and energy consuming when it come to look after them. We know this because we too are putting lot of effort to keep our house clean and organized. But we know this  either  that our son has inherited love of big open house with some nature in it from his parents .

I want to thank you all of you for your kind ,sweet words on my previous post ! The love and concern you dear people show touches my heart deeply!

For my precious friends who could not understand the urgency of my act i want to clarify my situation here. 

My brother does not earn anymore because he had terrible accidents twice ,once he broke his back bone while falling from roof during his construction work and second time he broke his leg from knee to heel .He can barely walk which makes him bear pain and increase swelling. Despite of all bad he did to me this is difficult for me to see him in such situation. Before he started to rely on my sister's support he was honorable man with self respect ,but since she lost everything as quickly as she got my brother looked for alternative . Meanwhile he went through these accidents and lost his ability to work. This all happened when his kids were growing in early teens. Like their father they saw their mother (my sister in law) too looking for easy money instead working hard and teaching her boys to do so. My sister in law is other worst thing happened to her kids because she ingested her faithlessness ,fears and doubts in her all children .This is the biggest damage . I cannot correct it at once by moving magic wand.

I am afraid that nothing can rise them from such fall which they favored for themselves. I have nothing in my hand except helping one  bright child of the family to take responsibility of his family because i cannot feed them on daily or monthly bases  as i have helped them financially many times despite i don't favor such support specially when family has lots of young healthy men in the house.

The son in law of one of my cousin lives in Saudi Arabia since many years and owns vehicles and is well established . I requested him during my previous visit if he needs a new driver he should think of my nephew who is driving heavy vehicle here since few years though has no official diploma. My effort to keeping up deal with him was mainly because my nephew has no diploma so there is hardly hope any one other will do such favor for him . I had no idea that it will happen as quickly and suddenly when my own son will be in rush and in less flexible  financial situation. Third and most important reason was that if i was not finalizing it with this particular person i will have to rely for other chance that can occur after long ,long was not problem actually  .Problem was relying on my brother's wife because she is in charge in the house .She is most superstitious woman i ever saw .Her complains for everyone she meets in life are endless and doubts are like pile under which she is buried  badly ,worst part she thinks it is best place she found in the world. If i rely on her and take her words for making deal with stranger there was obvious chance that it won't succeed as it happened twice in past. She made rush to cancel the deal and demanded money back and spent all money in house expanses which i cannot afford because i don't want to spoil the environment of my own house. Hubby's all objection are correct unfortunately so i tried hard to do it now and because the son in law who is taking my nephew along (hopefully if all goes right) has promised me to give me my money back if my brother's family cannot arrange the remaining small amount of money . I have chance to keep this money saved until i get another such opportunity to help them. My eldest son is blessed soul ! He could have say no but he said smilingly that it is okay to enjoy less flexibility if it can bring people close to us some basic relief. I have faith he will be rewarded for his kindness as it is promise of Nature since the beginning  and she is best in keeping her promise we all know that! 

Okay enough heavy talk ,i want share with you most rare and joyous moments when we had rain after ages !

     this was inexplicable moment when i realized that clouds decided to open their door and shower some drops in our part of city . rare sight such thick gorgeous clouds and falling rain as God was smiling on us and transformed our world from dry desert to lush meadow :)

  heavy rain for half an hour was enough to fill our front yard with water which my youngest son wiped out happily ,he with me remained under rain all the time ,i took my cup of tea sitting under rain like i was soaking this kindness of nature within my soul . we both had flue and light fever but still i don't regret it .

next morning seemed like a stunning new bride who has stepped in a new home and seems shy though her enchanting beauty is glorifying the surroundings sublimely!

  my eyes became teary when saw my neem tree next day dazzling in the sunlight .without exchanging a word we congratulated each other for this refreshing new blessed day!

  the sooth and beauty i saw showering in my yard my camera missed it . i wanted to inhale the whole joy and serenity filled in this morning after rain !

with every sip  from my cup i felt i was drinking "life" 

    i was little sad when sun said goodbye and evening approached ,i knew i will have to wait for ages again for having  such glorious beautiful day !

But what if i was not here to witness that day . This mystery and adventure of life is reason that life feels beautiful and precious dear Friends! so keep revealing what joys has for the moment you have in hands :)

thank you for bearing with me! your support is my strength believe me !

Health ,peace and Joy to all of you! God bless you all!