Feeling Sad !

 

Hello Kind Friends!

Hope all is well with you and weather is nice .

I don't know when something sad and heart broken happens to those people  who don't believe in God what they do to recover emotionally and mentally from that trauma . 

I have heard something sad and shocking from someone i used to be very close and it's pulling me down .As i have shared with you always that i have suffered mentally from most of my closest relations (blood relations particularly) and this has weaken me from within slowly over the time. Such painful things have drawn me closer to the God more than anything in this world. I learned that if you have a sensitive and emotional heart and see your family as top of the all priorities ,whether past family parents and siblings or future family husband and children ,it cannot protect you from pain and misery they cause to you.

I am feeling so broken and sad that i don't have courage to share it with you all right now. Maybe God do the miracle and things get easier or i once again have to live with another pain . Let's leave this on kind merciful God who gives strength to those who have faith in His grace !

Have you felt absence of your mother most in such life situation ,so you can put head on her shoulder and she say "all will be good" while surrounding you with her warm arms ??

God bless you all!!!

Beautiful Afternoon , Heaviness Brought By News And Few Questions

 Hello Sweet Friends !

Hope having blessed times by the grace of God!

I am fine and hoping for cool days ahead. This is beautiful warm afternoon .Sun is crawling towards the edge to set lazily.I am sitting on my dining table to write this post but my soul seems to expend and dissolved into the sunlight sprinkling over the views, sensing the pulse of world and enjoying the beauty of this glorious afternoon. Mornings and afternoons have special feel attached to them .Just like childhood and elderly age. Despite all the exhaustion and pains given by the life it still feels nice and delightful to live and witness this show of existence flourishing before your eyes .

World is becoming a messy place day by day.Whoever  people are making this mess ,only common men has to face it unfortunately and it is most painful feeling. I keep wondering it will someday in future. 

When they say AI will end humanity in five or ten years .Or some other scientific invention will end humanity ,i feel forced to think who's fault it is going to be ? 

History and hubby says that world has been like this since always ,it's only the news we get rapidly about everything which give us anxiety. (Whispering in your ear) "he still does not miss to watch news" 

Bad thing that these days our in laws family is also having some arguments which burden my heart because we had very simple and nice family always . I hope with your prayers things will be resolved soon  🤞

I want to update you about my health  that i am feeling much better since exercising regularly thank God!

Before goodbye i have a question for you all , did you eat meat throughout your life , did your doctor ever asked you to stop taking ?

do you know anyone who never ate meat ? what difference you see in people who eat meat and vegetarians ?

your response can help me understanding something important so please try to share your experience / observation with me !

thank you so much for being with me ! your support is strengthening and encouraging always!!!

Health, peace and Happiness to you all and to all you love amen!!!

Some Beautiful Moments Frozen In Camera

 

Hello Beautiful Souls!

Hope blooming in the September with all your light and beauty❤️

We are fine and waiting for cool days . Temperatures are still spinning around from 30 to 38 in the duration of  24 hours. 

Having guests often , hot weather and house chores occupy most of my time .Actually there is a wedding coming in the family and having more guests is part of it. So today when i looked at my blog i was already late for post .I was lacking idea to write about so sharing few images from our recent trip to Islamabad few glimpse of northern beauty we witnessed ,hope you will find them interesting. 

during our four days stay in the hotel we took walks often in the city and surroundings as much as we could, as breathtaking views were so compelling. This very vibrant and pretty photo was taken during one of our walk. while scrolling city shops we passed by some restaurant building ,these delightful bunch of sunflowers was adding beauty in the view .Hubby felt this appeal first and asked me to take photo as his phone was in my hands already for this purpose. I took two shots .hubby asked a man sitting close to the main gate if we can grab dry flowers for having seeds .Man allowed and hubby plucked few dry flowers. I wrapped them in tissue and kept inside my handbag . We will see if they can grow when season comes in November 🤞This is for you who love September 's flavour of autumn and sunflower :)

  

this is taken during one of our such walks in opposite direction from the city,The surroundings were packed with heavenly and relaxing views. Scenes spread everywhere were awesome and if it was in my hand i could stay and glance at them for so long tirelessly 🥹🥹🥹 When we reached at this point we noticed voice of rushing water .Hubby and me decided to get inside this area just to check if we can locate water . As we entered we were on big roof where a car was parked at side,as we got on the edge of the roof we saw flowing water (image below)

while we felt stunned by the beauty of flowing river a lady in her mid thirties appeared suddenly and said words of greeting smilingly ,at first we felt bit nervous because we did not know there must be someone ,but her friendly behaviour and sweet smile relieved us .we took two shots and left by saying goodbye which she responded with warm smile once again. In my entire i wished for finding people who are warm and greet whole halfheartedly regardless of cast ,gender or any other reason. We noticed that the people living there were as similar in their warm behaviour and level of honesty as they were trained ethically from early age .I found it so uplifting and impressive .According to my knowledge here
the Ismaili community is ingrained basic value of goodness , true love of God and faith instead just shallow practice of religion which makes them love and respect everyone without any discrimination.Can't define how much sooth this delvers to my heart and i wish we all follow such golden rules so life on planet can flourish as Creator wanted it ! 

On our attempt to enter this area our middle son tried to stopped us and when we did not listen he  stayed behind on the road . He said entering there is violation of property 's privacy .  i truly love him for this gesture and respect him for his  loyalty with  rules and regulations.But honestly, we thought that who can be on the barren roof ? we assumed that someone parked the car there due to lack of parking area and even though place was walled with tins, there were open spaces here and there . you can see how annoyed he looks :) later when we told him that nothing bad happened he still took while to behave normal . I felt proud as a mom though🥹

  these two pictures are taken on the day we spent visiting different tourists points. We found each one better than other ! Such mesmerising views seemed beyond our dreams even ❤️🥹our driver plus guide took many shots of children and hubby and each looks master piece to me even if was taken through phones Samsung and iPhone 

i realised that timing and lighting  make huge difference when we take photos ,for example pictures taken in morning and evening times or cloudy days come so fine ,this was late afternoon and it was less than hour to sunset ,still sunlight does not spoiled the images thankfully!

on return when our middle son left for university ,after few days,  we visited Pakistan Monument that is mostly packed with visitors ,the gorgeous architecture that opens up like a beautiful flower shines amazingly in night lighting set very thoughtfully ! it was nice and warm evening but due to elevation park environment was cool ans pleasant 

we missed our middle son ,though our younger son kept us amused and smiled throughout the visit ,while writing this my heart is missing him more as he too has gone far to study in university !!!🥹❤️

The row of hills you see behind pass through my little village dear friends ,so i searched a less crowded corner and stood there to take a look of these beautiful hills who seem to whisper to my heart that "they miss me too" 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

With all the bundle of health issues i don't know how life will layout in future ,but i try not to waste my time in thinking about things beyond my control . i have tried to live in the moment i have in my hands and i believe this is the best way to do life !

Thank you soooo much from the bottom of my heart dear friends for keeping touch and leaving encouraging words ! They bring me strength and hope to have such kind and sweet friends to whom i can share my thoughts always ! 🙏❤️🥹

Health <peace and Happiness to you all and to all you love 🙏❤️

See you soon!

Hey Universe ! What Are You Up To ? A Poem By Baili

 When i look at you ,you are dense and vast 

Like  withered debris from gunfire's blast 

At first glance full of beauty and peace 

Puzzled and complicated when look into deep

Happy, sad ,angry  confused or frail ?

Sometimes i feel "cat chasing it's tail"

At first, i found you full of different things

Realised,in all your tunes ,One song you sing!

Song of life and death, song of stillness and breath

Existence ,survival, revolution and growth 

Song of good and bad ,song of light and dark

Song is actually" One "sung by reptile or lark

Everything around is your thought's reflection

As you are experiencing your own expressions

As you had no one to play along with you

And to do so created countless versions of you

From tiny to huge stuck in crazy rotation 

Everything here  seem to follow same old fashion

I wonder what set you on this clueless roam ?

Or you acted randomly on your first thought own

Did you think of the way and everything be need ?

Or you felt content by holding single seed (hope to reach somewhere maybe)

Seed of  desire to swirl in an endless dance ?

Making sure joining you all your nuance 

Where is the wall that gives back what it take?

Why all actions done here are "echoing back" ?

Trying to figure out some mystery unsolved ?

Is there with you anybody else is involved ???

Is this  circulation is just meaningless passion?

Or you too have some specific destination ?

If you searching something ,how silly this sound

How one get somewhere by going round and round?

Or your swirl is way of transformation ?

From "being" to not "being" a silent conversion ?

Is all the existential labour is done for purification ?

So you can embrace back your Centre after Liberation ?

My all assumptions will keep me  anxious 

Until i melt and dissolve into your ocean 

Maybe i will find answer ever or never will be 

But being part of your journey is enough for me!