Faithfulness To My ......

 I have learned with time that memories are like old paths and homes ,where if you don't visit regularly you loose many clues. Memories hold very important place in my life (like most of people i believe).

They bring me immense joy and peace ,particularly early twenty years of my life spent with my parents and sister in my native town! Even though life revealed later that not everyone us is keeping those memories as dear and close as me.Still my heart kept them like a child keeps his favourite toy under pillow. Sometimes we are so consumed by the business and sweetness or bitterness of present life that old memories can loose importance .It could not be true for me though. If i sound silly or boring i don't mind at all because it's my default mode. 

I have a nature that never ever forgets whomever i encountered in my journey of life . I am in touch with only one friend from primary school days and she is astonished how i remember most of our classmates ,their names ,habits and so on..

Same is true for my village life ,wife of my brother and other cousins laugh when i mention everyone from our childhood to the day i left village. They say even they have forgotten many of the elderly ladies i was befriended with and did some chores for them. 

Do you find it weird or stupid?

I think in my early life unknowingly and later knowingly i accepted everyone in my life as gift of God! and i felt deeply connected to them all as we are one and not separate . I feel it reflects my faithfulness to my Creator that gets attached to everyone i meet in my life !

Hope i did not bore you ,as you know i write what i have in my mind at the moment simply dear friends! 

Sending love and best wishes for all of you!!!

Pain ,Catharsis And Balance

 Hello Sweet Friends

Hope all is fine and smooth in your life!

I am doing good by the grace of God ! Thank you so much for your supportive and kind comments on my previous post ! I say this often that your support is my strength but last week it became literal and it was so nice to see warmth and encouragement from all of you! I believe that God will return this kindness to you all through any other way! 

Life as we know it is mixture of joy and pain .Just like anyone else both have been part of my life. I embraced both feelings always . I laughed loud and cried hard to go through both even when when i did not know much about them .Now i know that both feelings are part of life and have reason to cleanse and balance our souls and lives.

Sharing few quotes that relate to my emotional state these days ! Hope you will not see the words only but feel the hope and light hidden beneath them!

Thanks for being with me till here dear people! 

I am visiting your blogs ,so see you soon.

Health <peace and Happiness to you all and to all you love! 

Feeling Sad !

 

Hello Kind Friends!

Hope all is well with you and weather is nice .

I don't know when something sad and heart broken happens to those people  who don't believe in God what they do to recover emotionally and mentally from that trauma . 

I have heard something sad and shocking from someone i used to be very close and it's pulling me down .As i have shared with you always that i have suffered mentally from most of my closest relations (blood relations particularly) and this has weaken me from within slowly over the time. Such painful things have drawn me closer to the God more than anything in this world. I learned that if you have a sensitive and emotional heart and see your family as top of the all priorities ,whether past family parents and siblings or future family husband and children ,it cannot protect you from pain and misery they cause to you.

I am feeling so broken and sad that i don't have courage to share it with you all right now. Maybe God do the miracle and things get easier or i once again have to live with another pain . Let's leave this on kind merciful God who gives strength to those who have faith in His grace !

Have you felt absence of your mother most in such life situation ,so you can put head on her shoulder and she say "all will be good" while surrounding you with her warm arms ??

God bless you all!!!

Beautiful Afternoon , Heaviness Brought By News And Few Questions

 Hello Sweet Friends !

Hope having blessed times by the grace of God!

I am fine and hoping for cool days ahead. This is beautiful warm afternoon .Sun is crawling towards the edge to set lazily.I am sitting on my dining table to write this post but my soul seems to expend and dissolved into the sunlight sprinkling over the views, sensing the pulse of world and enjoying the beauty of this glorious afternoon. Mornings and afternoons have special feel attached to them .Just like childhood and elderly age. Despite all the exhaustion and pains given by the life it still feels nice and delightful to live and witness this show of existence flourishing before your eyes .

World is becoming a messy place day by day.Whoever  people are making this mess ,only common men has to face it unfortunately and it is most painful feeling. I keep wondering it will someday in future. 

When they say AI will end humanity in five or ten years .Or some other scientific invention will end humanity ,i feel forced to think who's fault it is going to be ? 

History and hubby says that world has been like this since always ,it's only the news we get rapidly about everything which give us anxiety. (Whispering in your ear) "he still does not miss to watch news" 

Bad thing that these days our in laws family is also having some arguments which burden my heart because we had very simple and nice family always . I hope with your prayers things will be resolved soon  🤞

I want to update you about my health  that i am feeling much better since exercising regularly thank God!

Before goodbye i have a question for you all , did you eat meat throughout your life , did your doctor ever asked you to stop taking ?

do you know anyone who never ate meat ? what difference you see in people who eat meat and vegetarians ?

your response can help me understanding something important so please try to share your experience / observation with me !

thank you so much for being with me ! your support is strengthening and encouraging always!!!

Health, peace and Happiness to you all and to all you love amen!!!