Major Mistakes Of My Life

 Our wisdom is our torch given to us so we can see what to pick and what to avoid. But sadly the light is limited and we keep it on things we think matter ,rest of the reality remains in dark .

Hubby and me are watching a show these days in which host Wasi Shah a well known Pakistani poet takes interviews of successful popular people from different professions including media celebrities. In the last segment of his show he asks his guests about some regrets they have. This question reminds me few mistakes that affected my life tremendously at this point of my life!

We all know that we all born with no knowledge but ability to learn as we grow. I was curious about everything around me which made me want to learn more and more. I had a really wise ,strong and loving mother and father who would love to read digests ,books,magazines and news papers in all his spare time. But none of that could stop me to harm myself unknowingly sadly 😔 . As little girl I saw my parents taking tea excessively and I followed them . I would take three to five cups of milk tea everyday. Luckily milk was in abundance as my grandparents had buffaloes and cow and goats. But the tea wasn’t something to consume by children of my age as often. I remember though my parents forbidding me from taking tea in such amount,mother specially but I wouldn’t listen . For me tea was more important than meals.It was addiction. This long time addiction weakened my bones slowly that’s what I realise now. Specially my habit of taking tea along or right after meal. Our recent doctor in Al Shifa International Hospital Islamabad told that  drinking any type of liquid tea particularly omits the nutrients absorb in blood stream. This was like someone pulled out the ground under my feet. I never thought about that. I suddenly remembered that I was as addicted to strong tea that sometimes I would add raw tea powder to my cup and lid it for while! I should have been more investigative about my eating habits. I missed it 😒. May be this is called destiny. We been created aligned with so many possibilities. It’s up to us what we choose or what we avoid. I know there is no way to change what has happened.But since I know the truth now I am being cautious if it helps to some extent.

   I made another dangerous mistake due to my ignorance. It started in 2011 when I went through a worse trauma of my life as my younger sister didn’t inform me about the death of my father and I learned it from others after fifteen day after his funeral.. Heartbroken and lost when I realised it was difficult to pull myself together I tried to look for mental peace in reading holy boo everyday..  When I felt that it’s working I continued it till last year 2024. I didn’t notice that sitting in certain position for two hours daily can affect my legs badly. And one day my right knee went slightly dislocated. Doctor said that my right knee is slightly fractured and overall all my bones have weakened because I have osteoarthritis. Then again I remembered that I didn’t take it seriously when our family doctor who has treated my stomach ulcer has warned me sixteen years ago that all body joints will be retired within four years. I took no care except treating my uric acid twice . Life was full of many things that kept me away from thinking about my own health. Now when I am on the edge of being on wheelchair I am trying hard to sustain my mobility with improved eating habits and exercise. I wonder how long I will be able to protect myself from falling but I know I am very honest with my efforts to resist!

 Couldn’t find my own picture so this is from google images to show you the sitting position I was in for thirteen years .

I know everyone has different challenges to cope with.These are mine.  I am positive about life and my faith in My Creator is deep rooted in my soul! Who has done many miracles in my life so I hope He will continue to help me this time as well 😊

A week ago I finished this novel of Michael Connlley The Narrows .  It was suspense thriller story of a cop who investigates the murder of a former colleague and friend . I really enjoyed his interesting way of telling story.The story revolves between Los angels and Los vegas and suburban area. So it was good to learn more about cities through the perspective of the writer.

Thank you for bearing with me dear friends,your support is my strength 🥰

See you soon,health,peace and happiness to you all and to all who you love 🥰♥️

God. Bless you all!🙏

Botanical Garden Visit , Wedding glimpse

 Precious and Dear Friends hope you are enjoying pleasant change in weather . Here after really hot days of April we suddenly got some rains and hailstorms in northern Pakistan which affected southern country quite positively . We are having second week of airy and bearable weather for which we are very grateful 🥹🙏

I have recovered from my flu and fever fully by the grace of God!

Though now my youngest son has got sore throat and light fever but recovering after taking medicine prescribed by doctor thankfully 🙏

We have been busy with family wedding celebrations.The eighteen years old son of hubby’s younger brother got married to his fifteen year old first cousin. We attended the last function yesterday. Sharing just few glimpse of it . 

And eldest son has shared few pictures from their visit to the botanical garden last week when they were in the town where Gabi’s former teacher lived . Both kids stayed there for two days to look after the cute pets as the family was out of town for two days. We had quite fun while having online chatting with our son and Gabi as they showed us pet who looked very happy and active 🥰🤗 the black beauty the mom and the golden daughter both were competing to occupy the laps of them . Eldest son told they were taking to a walk in garden close by twice a day. Gabi also sang an Hindi song from Indian movie which I have heard is her favourite 🤗♥️ It was joyful surprise to see her singing Urdu song so effortlessly 😍👍♥️

                 Walking pet must be fun more for elders I think as they look very exciting companions 

          Eldest son says Gabi isn’t fond of such heavy carbohydrates but she joins him once in a while. 

       I think few flowers are grown here as well now due to modern fasciitis of easy transportation , a lovely flower  showing flowers 🥹🥰♥️

Eldest son responded to my curiosity about this iron crossing,  if I remember correctly he said it’s a bridge.how amazing 👍

                                        Found the tree branches formation quite intriguing 😊

I took quite the moment to get what this is actually,a bird of some kind or bloom,didn’t ask eldest son as may i sound foolish 😅

                                                                 Are.  these bluebells?

                The younger couple is captured during henna  ceremony three days ago 

In the middle  is daughter of one of the brothers in law,very active and smart and raising her kids nicely as they are studying well thankfully!, on right youngest sister in law. Took right before leaving for marriage hall.

Thank you so much for being with me 🥰

Have to get up for preparing lunch and some housework.

Health peace and happiness to you all and to all you love🙏🥰♥️

Thankfulness, Family photos ,Museum Of Art And Flowers

 Hey precious friends 🥰

Hope having nice and meaningful time!

Thank you everyone for liking my poem and leaving kind comments. I particularly appreciate John from John ‘s island who second time responded with beautiful poem far wonderful than mine 😊👍🤗 this is so sweet of you dear John and undoubtedly you are amazingly talented poet . And I honestly wonder why don’t you share your poetry on your blog ☺️

Last week I attended a family get together and host (my sister in law) presented some homemade food. I took few bites hesitatingly on return I got sick over the night surprisingly. Nothing big but flue with constant sneezing and fever. Worst part that my taste buds seem to paralysed as I couldn’t feel taste of anything. We visited the doctor and feeling lot better. According to hubby it was cooking oil of not such good quality probably who gave me flue. I have mentioned that after long time meditation my inner body system seems to react sensitively to things which are normal for others.

On positive note, eldest son Ahsan and Gabi visited a museum with Sue and her Iranian friend in London . On my curiosity dear Sue shared with me these awesome pictures 🥰

As it was Mother’s Day as well so both kids brought bouquets to both mothers 🤗♥️

Priceless times for parents with children 🥹🤗🥰

       Sorry for not sharing the link ,couldn’t do it ,museum is by Stephen Wright  British artist who created this art by using all available materials .looks intriguing isn’t it 😊

      Creative mind perceives things differently and more meaningfully 

Our Eid day wasn’t much better due to younger son’s minor injury still joy of togetherness and gratitude was there 

    Do you too think that 23 days fasting made me slightly light weight 

   My brother’s wife shared this photo from their tour to Texila museum where she encountered with this kind Chinese lady who posed for photo on the request of my niece 

                                                                Pretty bloom from yard 

          Sadly Our sun flowers were spoiled by insects this year 

                     Roses bed of fragrance less rose plant

Thank you for being with me dear friends 🥰

Health,peace and happiness to you and to your loved ones 🥰♥️

Much love and best wishes ♥️

Eternal Battle (poem)

 You have left “ me “ in the tunnel of my body 

with light and darkness walking alongside 

Without leaving me a clue how to exist between this fight 

 compression of both opponents is knocking down my being 

Which one is taking the battle, unable to weighing 

Sometimes darkness is everywhere my eyes can see 

Crushing my soul and breaking my heart as if it meant to be 

Robbing my dreams and snatching away all my gleeful hopes 

Dismay ,sorrow and disappointment lamenting over my corpse 

senses lost in jungle of regrets ,fear , shame and pain 

Standing in the middle of nowhere feeling isolated ,insane 

Anger is wind , tears are rain and helplessness is season 

Everything about me is questioned and “trusting “ has no reason 

Empty,shocked and shaken by circumstances I am in 

Trying to figure out what is gained and what is stolen 

Then suddenly game twisted again and I am in different phase 

Darkness has disappeared and sun is spreading rays 

This time light is triumphant and life is full of glow

Sky is blue and earth is lush,nothing looks dull or slow 

Birds are singing songs of hope and joyful tomorrow 

Life is rich with happiness as much as you can borrow 

Everything seems to be bursting with joyous metaphor 

Hugs of love and gifts of smiles,time is such a sweet anchor 

On souls’s tree chirping wishes and merry thoughts are nestled 

To heart’s ears by beating breeze joyous promise is whispered 

Eyes glittering with gratitude,head is bowed to Divine 

As if all has been good so far and will be remaining fine 

Before I could settled for the moment,things got upside down 

Shivering In the awe of swap thinking if I was clown?

Time has been passing by day by day and year by year 

I remained stuck in this battle until white hair appeared 

When my body wrinkled,I realised my soul grew younger 

Physical eyes declined when ,inner vision grew stronger 

Wondering heart of mine one day could step out of mist

Like everyone else I could finally had my gift 

Power  to see what is lying underneath the pretence 

Peeking through the reality ,things could make sense 

What I have been bearing wasn’t only my body ‘s curse 

I saw darkness and light prevailed across the universe 

I wondered who placed them there to fight eternal battle 

Each of them existed there for other as an obstacle 

My body like millions of others was fabric of these two !

Ego shattered into the pieces erasing what was drew 

With what I claim this world and what it supposed to be 

If I am just a “fabric “ and there is no such thing as “me” ???

Darkness and light pulling strings and shaping my destiny 

Did I come here from heaven to perform “puppet “ and leave?

Or there is something waiting yet to be revealed?

Proceeded with my journey towards my goal 

I realised that  all the answers possess only my Soul!

Vastness of my Soul had no end  as  pure ,divine Sea

Led me to perpetual heights like ever growing Tree

Where I met eternal Light of my  ever evolving soul 

That Light promised me that unshaken control 

Over the both of powers playing with my life 

“Light” gave me the Will power and freedom which one to drive!

It felt so liberating to get rid of messy cage 

Where I was stuck in a fray full of hatred and rage

Seeing with the Light from higher brings in so much peace 

Finally I have something which I claim “mine “ at least 

When Life. Gives You Tangerines

Hello Beautiful Souls ♥️

Hope finding the beauty within this random patterns of life through your curious mind and beautiful heart ♥️ 

Our sweating summer has been started since few days 😏

Which adds an extra permanent job into our daily routine “ cleaning the sweat after every few seconds while doing everything 😡 

It feels like some invisible tap on the top of our head has been left opened and water is running down all over all the time 😂

Anyway,  the good side of summer is that our garden is full of plants and flowers and our neem tree has started to put on her lush new clothing as well. The lemon plant is bearing abundance of tiny pretty flowers and lemons are growing as well.

Our Eid day turned sad when on the night before (chand raat ,means moon night) Eid our younger son had a minor accident while he was riding on the motor bike . He was going to eat something with his younger brother and when they passed by the nursery a young girl suddenly came out front of his motor bike. He had to stop abruptly in order to save that girl which resulted in their fall . Our youngest son got light scratch on right side of knee but younger son got serious and bit deep scratches on both knees and left hand as well. He also got twisted heel in left foot which troubled him for three days. But by the grace of God he was well enough to leave for the university yesterday despite we asked him to take few more days off .He refused because he said he was feeling better and got his mobility back so no need to sit back . It’s because his father took great care of him throughout these days and shown him to doctor immediately the day it happened. He is in his hostel now and doing fine absolutely by the grace of God!🙏🥹

It was my younger son who introduced us to the Korean dramas two years ago. Since we watched many Korean shows. There is variety of stories and the powerful way to portray them on screen. I have watched Chinese and Japanese shows as well but I feel that Korean drama is giving them tough time now days because of their high quality work in all fields such as production, storytelling and acting 👍♥️

We watch various shows as audience  but love most those we can relate easily.

I am  enjoying a  Heartfelt beautiful show these days When life gives you tangerines  .  I just checked on it and found out it’s true story of a couple from ja. Sue island. From very first episode I  could feel the grip of story and how beautifully it is built with such details of human emotion!

I believe that show will stay close to my heart for many reasons among which most obvious is the emotional connection between characters 🥹 . I  Specially loved how strong soul connection was shown between mother and daughter in first two episodes ♥️ I could relate to each scene thoroughly 🥹

Love is divine emotion which shows how the hearts of the characters are deeply connected to each other and how all the odds of the life fail to break them 🥰

I am an emotional person and love is all I got so for one like me such lovely dreams are treasure 😍

I will request you all to have a look please if you too believe in Love 🥹🥰♥️

Thank you for bearing with me my precious friends 🙏

God bless you all  with love,health,peace and happiness every moment amen ♥️