Tuesday, September 27, 2022

Weather, Repair Of the House And Found Medicine That Worked Finally

It is 5p. It will take sun more than one and a half hour to set off almost. Same or little less time for labor and mason at work above to leave. I think i mentioned in previous post that hubby has appointed working men for the renovation of our rooves and guest room as well. We were willing to renovate the guest room and main bathroom in the yard this year already, but recent dreadful rainfall for more than two months has caused great damage to both upper rooms of the house and all rooves of the house over all. All walls of the house have absorbed the water and have started to shed paint and cement particles which mean we will have to spend on paint either so can get rid of this annoying paint and cement shower within the house. This work can take more than one month i believe. 

Thanks to our oldest who has shared this burden by offering more than eighty percent help. God bless him! Otherwise, we would have been dividing this work in few periods in order to adjust the expenditure . My son mentioned that he will be visiting us in December hopefully and i am looking forward to days when whole family be together again. Since my younger son also has left the home for studies, we are missing both of them. 

One positive thing about recent longest spell of torrential rain is that our weather remained bearable, and temperature hardly arose from thirty-five or little more from mid-June to till September which is great deal for the people living here who find so hard through fifty plus temperature here during summer season . 

All rose plants in my small garden seemed pretty happy with this weather and continued to bloom during the season which is also a treat for eyes and soul indeed. Rose flowers never showed up before in these months but only from November to April . It seems weather is really important for living all things to survive.

If it was not of harsh weather here , we would have not thought about leaving this city which has flavor of peaceful town, But it is becoming so hard to survive through extreme heat with age here which restrict all kind of mobility, and even reaching to the bathroom in the yard by passing under scorching sunlight feels terrible. 

We love our our house. This came out of our long time dream. Spending time in yard seems so nice s in winters but in summer we have to wait till sun goes down. If we will move from here in future this home will always be special for us because hubby has put in it not just his hard-earned money but love and devotion along with lots of struggle. He owned a bicycle back then on which he would run here and there to provide things for the construction that took many months and effort built. 

Nothing is easy in life. Everything needs passion to succeed and i saw hubby's passion for this house and struggle to turn it into a home sweet home for his family. I know no other home will ever replace it in his heart.

Two and half year to go and hubby will retire. All we want to move to Islamabad in apartment not much big so we can manage it easily with less energy we have in our fifties. I don't know what will happen next, but dreams are good as they make life interesting and meaningful.

Me and hubby weren't feeling well since got back from Islamabad. But from a recent visit to a doctor has brought us some relief finally. We both are taking same medicine and have begun to feel better thankfully. 

Hubby says that as he goes out most he is seeing so many people having cold flu and motions commonly. Seems like a plague as everybody is sick almost, why?  Is this a side effect of recent rains or it has something to do with Corona vaccination??? 

Because seems quite weird. 

My oldest son told one of the his colleagues is sick with same symptoms. Many visitors from in laws have from different areas also mentioned sama thing. My sister in law too. Even one of my childhood friends called and told she had been sick with similar disease. My intention by sharing this is not to spread uncomfortable rumors but curious if you have noticed something like this where you live.

I have written this post while half of my mind is absent due to the Medicine I took. It has slowed down my brain. 

See you soon dear friends. All of you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Wishing you all health, peace and happiness in days ahead. Please take great care of yourself. 

Tuesday, September 20, 2022

Morality In The Nature Demands ..



I think nothing is random in this world. I know that modern way of thinking grew out of internet culture has abundance of arguments that life is nothing but a coincidental happening in the middle of universe bursting with energy and matter.

"I think that modern living has consumed our ability to ponder on things calmly. Life has speed up and it seems pretty easy to slip into things one after another. New image of life is very exciting and colorful enough to pull us back from all such mindset that rest upon contemplation of any kind specially one that requires extra effort to put in and does not come up with results that add any materialistic good in our current living but offers an enhanced wisdom that we think we don't need anymore."

But what about the sense of morality that come down to us while observing the nature.

Was it impossible for Creator to create things with single atom or cell? I mean a whole table made up of single huge atom or a human created with single huge cell.

Why everything created by nature seems to tell us that “singularity" obtain meaning only when it mingles with another singularity?

Why nature seems to teach lesson of dependency through all living and nonliving things?

Was “pairing “necessary to reproduce?

Was any chance possible that nature could not find any other way to spread things in the universe or on the planet earth? 

I doubt it because I think a genius like Mother Nature or Creator could have done it with a snap of finger if it had come to find second way for spreading his creations, but he chooses to begin with singularity who just like a single “seed "was held responsible for further reproduction from it until eternity.

 But why?

Because   Nature wanted its creation to remember their single "origin”? because having unified origin provoke creations to maintain order and keep harmony (does sound familiar? children behave to keep mom happy?). Needless to say, that both are perceptions of morality.

Nature did not create just so many “creations “but She made a family who’s each member is obliged to take responsibility for other one.

Though today when most important thing “family unit” in the human society has broken such conversation sounds totally absurd I know but when we have to treat a sickness the diagnose must start sincerely and from the roots of it.

You can avoid the wise words from the holy books but what about science who claims that everything in the universe is created as pair and completes each other by joining.

I sometime follow my mad imagination who holds my hand and takes me up in the sky where I find stars and planets circling in their orbits orderly.

I see them following their routs precisely around their suns.

An eye with little insight can see that these are not just random stars and planets roaming randomly here and there.

Each group seems like a perfect family, each member of which though has his own personality (right to circle around himself) but still circles around one huge source of light standing in the center that lends his light to shine him as well.

Does this sound random to you?

People don’t believe in myths or in special people who came to the world with special divine wisdom or to deliver divine message, when I see how planets borrow light from sun, It confirms my faith in people who had been given broader knowledge and deeper insight so they can forward it to others.

Evidence is the people born with gift of deeper understanding of life who could guide humanity towards better, people with extraordinary talents of inventing things, striking creativity and mesmerizing way to convey truth of life to people around them, they serve humanity in many ways while facing disastrous consequences for this struggle. All they went through was part of "natural process " Because To lit and To spread light burning is first condition as we see sun burns up with numerous gases to give away it's light to planets around it. 

Same are those who tried hard to deliver wisdom in hostile circumstances so others can survive spiritually too.

Nature could have created people equal in intuition and talent but to constitute an improper world (not heaven) where people vary in physical strength, mental approach and lifestyle nature sent exceptional people with exceptional skills and strength to remind humanity what can persist and save them as specie. She Showed a way of depending on each other is not just essential for survival but achieving it is actually "essence" of life.

This dependency demands from us to stick with each other. This is the demand of Mother Nature and for deceiving it we are going to regret badly.

Thank you for bearing with me precious friends! 

wishing you all health ,peace and happiness in days ahead! 

Tuesday, September 13, 2022

Bright Note ,Bad Note And some Heart Talk


I am not feeling well since few days once again.  This phrase seems to be used so often in my posts now. My journey further to fifty has been started and I can already feel a quick downfall in my health. The flu and cold don’t leave me alone most of the time. Can’t say whether it is coincidence or what that the books I bought from Islamabad during my recent trip are mostly about “aging” and human nature. I did not know that James Hillman ‘s both books have content strongly about how we feel about “aging” and traits of human nature to face it differently. 

Writer has rich imagery and tremendous amount to say on the topic and beautiful way to say it all.  I am quite enjoying his views as I can relate to it to some extent though book deals more with issues people face in late elderly years such as late seventies or eighty particularly.


I felt like an older soul caged in a younger body for most of my existence except those few early magical years of married life when hubby and I shared some special   moments together and life seemed pretty off my usual track.

If I cut that piece of time precisely and put it aside, I am a person with strong wish to be invisible and enjoy the show silently. Help if can but stay off view. I don’t know the origin of this weird longing but because of this I had no issues that most of my female fellows had regarding ‘looks ‘This was comforting attitude that kept me free from so many ridiculous worries belong to youth.

Actually, there is a chapter in this book I am reading now days “The Force of Character “chapter 16.

 “The Return “in this writer James Hillman mentioned that according to recent research one third of all adult males and one quarter of all adult females in united states of America (I think in whole world presumably) would choose to stay permanently ages between fifteen and nineteen a life sentence to high school.

In writer’s word this is simply the longing for the beauty and strength belong to that age. The dreams and desires that moved us around with all their fantasies.

This makes me sick when I realize that I had went through this longing quite long ago why? 

I think I had my wish to return to my childhood stayed pretty much strong between forty to fifty and motive behind it seemed the desire to reunite with my parents while living in my beautiful lush native village. Both nurtured me equally.

Why this realization that encounters in fifty or sixty and stays until last years of life left me so earlier? 

I don’t know, I just know that this wish does not rise in my heart anymore. In fifty second year of my life, I lost it already.

Maybe I have just revealed the secret behind it. The longing for the “understanding of the life” and making my peace with it.

I am so happy I could see through my spiritual eyes at fifty what was invisible to woman of thirty or forty.

The strong urgency for "learning "that kept me bothered throughout the life seems to feel little calm with my efforts to learn. I can't say if i wish for longer life but life until i have control on my body is okay. Life with growing as human being and learning what was the obligation given to my soul and did i try to fulfill it ?

Bright Note first, a lady visited me last day and told that help from foreign countries is being distributed in the city, she visits me in a month regularly and she knew this because she was also the victim of recent brutal rainfall. She also said that people are registering for the receiving handsome amount of money from government for reconstruction of their houses .Oh that made my eyes teary with gratitude .Thank goodness that international help is reaching to right people.

Bad note, my laptop has been declared dead officially by two different repair men .he will be missed .i am sad a little because now i have to wait when my youngest son's laptop is free. but hey this is good that i have an opportunity atleast .

Another bad thing to share ,our internet device went off and after two days running hubby was informed that we have to wait for knew which can take quite time . Though hubby applied for new connection, and it was done today thankfully .

See you Soon friends .thank you for being kind support always !

God Bless you All!

Monday, September 5, 2022

Feeling Sad For The Loss Of People Of My Land!


I never thought that i would be as happy to see sun. Specially during summer season ever while living here in Sindh which has name for hottest summers. But i am quite happy now to see since sun showing up everyday regularly these day .Yes it has been more than a week that we are having sunny days .Sunny days are welcomed by us after record long torrential  rain . 

It has been raining here since more than two months which has caused huge damage to public and private property everything essential for life such as crops ,veggies ,fruits have destroyed . Numerous people have their roof fallen and sheltering in the public institutions including college of my youngest son and office of hubby. Both of them have hardly attended their academies for (two days) since we have returned from holidays.

I couldn't motivate myself for posting as my laptop is not working, unlike before it's response has reduced to making voice of "tick, tick" instead turning on. Most of the shops remained closed until water on the roads and streets was drained by authorities. So hubby dropped my laptop on the repair shop yesterday where repair man said after quick look that the thing seems to complete it's natural age and spending on it wil be a mistake. Repair man will try to fix it without any replacement so if it worked I will be lucky, if not I still be lucky obviously still with timely grief to loose a good friend who accompanied me for more than a a decade! 

There are bigger issues to be sad about. Natural desasters are not new to us but what hurts more that "heads of the house" care less about inhabitants living under their authority. If necessary precautions were taken on right time the concequences  could have less painful. Life for all can be equally easy and beautiful if some with power do not act selfishly. The realization that everyone born with equal rights and deserve to live a healthy peaceful life in safe and respectful environment is gift given to those who think and understand that there is nothing random here. Though with short life span and weak tiny sense we are unable to see pattern of Nature. With light given to us as "mind" we can ponder and observe how Nature make us pay for actions eventually sooner or later and payment is far greater than mere money sometimes. 

Sorry if I am being a bit sentimental but as helpless observer what else is in my hands. 

I try to read few pages of book " Force of the character" By James Heilman whenever I find time. It is very interesting book beautifully written and I am enjoying it thoroughly. Book is about aging process and how  different people deal with it differently. I am early so cannot explain writer's own approach to the subject though I can sense he has something important to share further. 

I m visiting your blogs though slowly. It is such a lovely feeling to have sense of "connectedness" with you all! 

Thank you for being such kind support always dear friends! 

Blessings to you all! 

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