Sunlight ,Shadows And Mad Me

when  i  was  child  i used  to  stare  nature before my eyes. Unknowingly i was trying to figure out what is the connection between nature and me i guess . I often mentioned my excitement about my "state of being alive"  i knew i was different because i had different way to look at things  and totally different way to look at life.
i know it sounds fool but let me admit again that i could not get rid of that feeling of excitement until now. When  i look at myself i can see how swiftly painting of my presence has started to melt (aging indeed) but when i peek into my inner world i still find that stupid carefree girl  wandering joyously among the phenomena of nature .
I as child wanted to knew everything about life and place (earth) where i was sent to. Every single thing such as even tiniest pebble grabbed my attention for long . Somehow i felt i am not apart from all around me .
I remember i would sit in our yard and stare at very slowly moving edge of shadow with wonder .I would feel more connected to sun and earth while doing so .I would place my finger bit away from it and when the edge of shadow would hit my finger i would feel as i just figured out how fast earth is moving around sun. I still  feel compelled by such sights . Hope it is not embarrassing :)

 last day i captured  edge of moving light (or shadow) on our eastern wall of front yard , i wonder if it is as mesmerizing for others as it is for me , it was almost 5:30 almost evening as sunsets around 6:50 now days. when i get out in my yard for walking i find last words of sunlight on wall so fascinating . Sky seems enchanting with divine glow of light. an enlightened promise seems to be made by sunlight to the sky that she will reappear tomorrow with more surprises and adventures .serenity and overwhelming peace  take charge of whole world .silence speaks to souls that seek for eternity within the heart of life . this is weird but i feel i turn into ray and roaming within the space and places smoothly . with uncertainty of  having this view again i take deep breath of gratitude for life and for this connection

 taken this on same time last day,shadows of branches over water tank seemed to tell story of their day beautifully ,i could feel how fondly water tank was listening to tree ,their friendship  added more joy to my day as i love "love" .where ever it exists it fulfills the meaning of life with peace and glory

 i woke up in morning almost 8 am today and first thing that hold my heart was delightful sunlight embracing to yard's western wall :)  my heart filled with gratitude and eyes got bit wet with tears of joy, i felt grace of  Lord was showering soothingly and my yard seemed to share my gratitude as well.shadows were creating cheerfulness with gently moving breeze .I do few steps of my stretching and yoga while absorbing this glory everyday :) with uncertainty of  being able to see this again my heart  floats in the ocean of peace and gratefulness ,deep in my heart i keep praying for all including my family and myself. biggest prayer is may Lord continue to keep me connected to my "whole "

 seasonal flower are gone ,summer charm is springing it's magic around , delightful  sunflowers and our climber has taken over the garden , i cannot think of  home without soul (garden) ,looking at him strengthen me always ,i can feel how his beauty and tranquility flows into my veins ,most of all having him kept my native home much alive within me , memories spring like loving friends and  lighten my moments ,realizing that i can  connect to those precious times makes my present happier

 sunflowers  have mightiest presence to eyes i think ,it is almost impossible to ignore the cherishing smile they offer to us :)

in winters we used to take our morning tea here on this desk ,but now sun rises early and we move it  under the shade of tree but when it is morning we put it back here to enjoy evening tea after walk ,hubby goes out for walk unlike me ,kids work out meanwhile ,they also  took their walk in yard before workout ,hubby hardly allows them out unless it is extremely necessary

 our climber is loaded with flowers now ,flowers start  to appear as white in night and spread soothing slight fragrance that one can feel if stands close ,they start to tun pink slowly when sunrises ,leaves are gorgeously pink if temp is below forty ,but when it is 40 plus like 45 or above color is not as dark ,just pinkish ,this is amazing to observe how everything is having influence on other things  directly or indirectly, wheat tank on left is empty ,last year's grain is consumed ,Hubby has bought more for this year but haven't put it in this yet 

 while ago after having my laundry finished i took these few shots ,i found shadows so intriguing ,how amazing that light not just  reveal our presence but it discovers mass hidden within us ,i think these shadow are some kind of x rays taken by sun

 not good capture i know ,still reading story written by shadows leaves me speechless

 starting point of today's post is this one :) reminded me  moving edge of shadow that i used to stare back in my native home , my passion for the connectivity with all existent  universe has grown stronger, sometimes  i feel i am turning into ray and roaming within phenomena of universe ,as i am looking for him who created us ,sometimes this feel is astonishingly strong ,i know it's weird and i am may be mad

Leaving you with heartfelt prayers dear friends !
keep taking great care ,stay well ,strong blessed and healthy!