Hey precious friends!
Hope and pray that all of you are managing to survive through the harshness of weather .
here almost each second man is victim of seasonal fever and flu ,
Today i am again suffering with 102 fever and worst dizziness .
i will be fine it's just weather's temporary effect .
Since 3 days i am out of confinement and enjoying each breath as blessing under the vast blue shiny sky .
Touch of sun rays which unties all my pains and sets me free to live happily !
whenever i get in some kind of illness or low mood i
simply steps towards my GRAVE ,
Get in and lay down !
People bury me and leave !
I lay in darkness ,listen to my own breathing
Which get harder and harder under the weight of ground but after a certain time i start breathing effortlessly
I close my eyes and try to transfer myself into other world ,where all sensitive senses stop FEELING anything anymore !
My body seems to loose it's weight and resistance against DEATH!
Some kind of warm light enters in my veins and my blood becomes fluid of silver colour .
My soul absorbs the calmness and lightness !
I realize as i am in that condition since centuries
Happy and content !
My whole previous experience of life seems so wasted and meaningless when each moment runs like a film front of my eyes!
what was all that ?
was it life?
did i make my existence successful or just wasted it in pursuing things which were not important to me?
Did i earn something valuable for this whole circle of life ?
Nothing comes to my memory except one thing
My Family , dignity and loyalty !
A strong sense of PEACE seems to dissolve in my blood !
I feel that world above my grave still has appeal for me !
I worth life because i support lives related to me .
I fell lighter than a string in the air !
I take decision to get up and get out of this grave until my turn to come here forever.
I step out of my grave and walk towards my home where life seems to wait for me with all it's freshness and beauty !
This comeback awakes my joys and gratitude .I feel as i just reborned and everything around me seems so wellcoming and attractive!
Each time when life seems tough i do this and each time coming back form grave makes me love my life more enthusiastically !
It add more value to my existence and more charm to my surroundings!
i took this pic yesterday ,roses who survived the renovation work destruction to them
two days back when they were ready to bloom
most of plants are died as we placed lots of stuff in the garden area during work
autumn is colouring the plants beautifully
Two days ago when polishman left floor of front yard looked glowing ,on left there was stuff to throw and some stuff of polishman ,due to sickness rearranging house is delayed so stuff is still messed up
Youngest one who was also sick was preparing for his monthly tests
from left to right in the row this is kitchen ,bathroom and guest room ,we will renovate them next year
all photos below are from december 's cloudy pattern of sky
a beautiful sunny morning when grace of God seem to shower upon !
in december there was little rainy in here southern part while northern was mostly snowy
After sun set glow of leaving rays
dear friends saying goodbye for now time to finalize my lunch .
if i am being late to peek into your lovely worlds it is only that i want be honest with my reading you and commenting as due to fever mind is little out of order .
take care ,stay blessed with strength of positivity and faith !
God bless you all!!!
I am so sorry to hear that you are not well. Feeling physically bad takes so much out of us psychologically.
ReplyDeleteAs always, your attitude about your illness is super. Feel better soon.
I feel sorry for the son studying for his tests. Looks like he is in a punishment room. Be sure and see my post "Welcome Back Me" because it includes a picture I drew that you might recognize:-) Hope you are feeling better.
ReplyDeleteBeing real sick does make a person want to die - you snap out of that feeling when you feel it could really happen ...
ReplyDeleteI now have the bug, think it has been chewing on me for a while. Sigh ...
I love your marblework, it looks fantastic! How long will it stay that way before you have to have the man come out again?
Pretty roses, you'll have a nice garden again soon enough. Get well soon, so you can enjoy it.
I hope you soon feel perfectly well again and thank you for sharing this, you write beautifully! This was amazing!
ReplyDeleteYour attitude is inspiring. I am so sorry you have been ill. It's been a rough winter for you. Sending you healing energy and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI hope you get to feeling better soon, even when you are not well your inspirational words touch many people. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteThose roses are SO gorgeous! I hope you feel better soon, once the weather has passed.
ReplyDeleteI am happy you are feeling better. Make sure you get plenty of rest.
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better soon, you are very poetic when ill! Enjoyed your photos today.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to read that you are not feeling well, hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed seeing all of your photographs, especially the roses - such a beautiful colour.
My good wishes
All the best Jan
Feel better soon, Baili! The flu seems to be everywhere! I'm glad that you can get out and enjoy the fresh air and sky again. Your stones look beautiful, even reflective, after their polishing. I bet you don't miss the noise!!! I enjoyed all the photos of your beautiful flowers and skies. Thanks for sharing your deep thoughts. I haven't the courage to imagine myself in the grave, but I often think of the wonder of being alive.
ReplyDeleteI walked in the park today. Although snow covered the ground, it was a bright sunny day; and it was glorious. I was delighted to come across 15 deer hanging out near a stand of cottonwood trees. I rarely see them now because there is so much development in our area. However, on winter days they still like to creep down from the woods and wander along Piney Creek until they find a sunny spot where they can reach the grass. I slowly walked among them and took photos. Then my camera battery died. Argh!
Sending you hugs and love and wishing your family well. I wish your son all the best in his monthly tests. He's studying, and that is important and commendable!
Sorry to read you haven't been well, get better rather quickly.
ReplyDeleteI do life the front of your house, those tiles do look so wonderful.
I hope you are feeling much better now! It is so tiring to be sick. Your roses are so pretty. All we have is snow on the ground. I can't wait until spring when everything comes back to life. The floor on your front yard looks amazing. Oh my gosh it's so beautiful!
ReplyDeleteTake care, baili.
ReplyDeleteIn Macau there are also a lot of cases of flu.
Thanks God not in my house or my family.
Get well soon.
I hope you feel better soon. A lot of people have suffered with flu where I live too.
ReplyDeleteHi Baili :) You poor dear...get well soon xxx The photos of the flowers, the sky, your patio...are just beautiful. Gratitude is something that makes a person so fulfilled, and you clearly have it! :)
ReplyDeletehope all of you feel great soon - i love your photos and your writing - your musings, your contemplations/meditations. just beautiful.
ReplyDeleteI hope you will soon be well, i would rather imagine lying on the ground and absorbing the earth energy to get well than death which seems scary for me. Your rennovations are interesting, lovely polished stone, i like seeing peoples homes, yours is different to mine in everyvway.
ReplyDeleteThe roses are so beautiful and so is your new flooring! Wow!
ReplyDeletePlease take care! I am so sorry you are not feeling well!
Big Healing Hugs!
I admire you for finding the time and energy to write a blog post. A fever that high shows you have an infection. You need a lot of rest.
ReplyDeleteThe roses are a bright spot in my day...it's so cold here in Chicago, and I feel like doing nothing. I need something to lift my spirits.
Take care, my friend, and get well!
Jane
I'm sorry to hear you are fighting the flu. I hope you and your family all feel better soon. I enjoyed reading your thoughts and seeing your lovely photos. Thank you for visiting and commenting on my blog. Wishing you a wonderful day!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to read that you are not feeling well, dear Baili. Your new floor looks beautiful and once you have everything back in its place, please do show us more photos when you are feeling better. The skies were very dramatic and it’s why I enjoy looking out our apartment windows every morning to welcome a new day.
ReplyDeleteyour heart is simply beautiful. you, sweet debbie, are indeed a precious friend. thank you for sharing this post....praying you'll recover quickly from the flu! <3
ReplyDeleteThe new floors are beautiful. I hope you feel better soon, dear friend. And your son also.
ReplyDeleteI hope you're feeling better, Baili. Oh, the red roses are so pretty. You know how much I love roses. It's nice that you appreciate the nature around you lately. The skies are glorious. I love the second sky picture. I do hope your son is feeling better also, Baili.
ReplyDeleteHave a peaceful Sunday.
~Sheri
Lovely photos! Hope you've recovered from your illness. It's been a nasty season for the flu and cold bugs.
ReplyDeleteHope everyone is better now! What lovely photos, that shiny polished floor is beautiful. I shall enjoy reading your blog.
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