Stuff Of My Life

 Hello Sweet Hearts!

Hope beating beautifully on the rhythm of life!

This is September, a month in which autumn starts to show it' s colour. It's been ages since i witnessed true autumnal beauty in my native village. Trees and plants stay here green for extended period because of hot weather. We wait for cooler days to witness little colours of the season in our small garden. Maybe it is slowly changing weather that brings nostalgia or aging that i am missing autumn more this year.

This is pleasant noon and i am saying this because i don't have to cook lunch in the kitchen today as we have some chicken curry and all i have to cook is two flat bread and that is it. So once i enter and work in the kitchen i encounter with much heat and forget to appreciate the weather that is getting less hot with passing days of September . Right now temperature is 38 c outside but fan air feel cool inside.

I am writing this post on dining table, my favourite place from where i can see bit of the sky, our garden and neem tree that is playing with air joyfully!

I sat here to write after so many days actually. The long and intensely hot  summers leave no room for feel anything but heat and laboured breathing during doing house chores. Our recent stay of 3 months in Islamabad went mostly in hospital visits sadly. Yet we had great time there. Eldest as wise precious soul he is has rented an apartment in posh area where the the huge park was right before where we lived. Though windows did not face the park directly but we took full advantage of this opportunity and took daily walks of 3 to 4 miles regularly. We knew that eldest son wanted us to do so and he knew how much we love walking in this park. God bless him for his kindness! 

I realised that only one thing that kept me pushing towards feeling ill there was that i had to skip exercise which my body needed badly due to arthritis. Actually most of the mornings we had to go to the hospital around 8 am for more than two months.Mornings were time for the exercise. Then business and hacks of the day would not leave energy to do anything but lay low. On the other hand meds started to make me feel more dull. I believe that if i could have continued exercise i would have not been much ill because meanwhile i became vulnerable to my severe anemia, arthritis, stomach ulcer and allergy that occupied the space completely.They have been with me whole life and i have kept them knocked off for decades with my exercise and meditation but this time i made mistake by not thinking about what i was missing actually.

Since here at home now all due cleaning and arranging is done ,i have started exercise and feel energetic already thankfully ! 

Do you ever feel that if you skip exercise for sometime and world around you seems to get enlarge and you feel shrunk before everything around you ?

I felt that way after skipping exercise for three months :( 

But it is just third day of workout and i feel strong and active again :)

Today i am little sad and happy at the same time because our youngest son has left home as he has got admission in the university in other city .

The day he left three of us were emotional and i saw my son trying not to show his emotions first but i could see his slightly wet eyes. Than before bus moved he got down second time and hugged us and said he is thankful for everything and that he will miss us . He asked us not to tire ourselves much .We are in touch daily and he seems happy with this change and is busy in preparation for joining his university.His brothers are guiding him too!

After him, next day when we got up house felt so empty and my eyes were shedding tears after each once in while .I know that today's children are not like us who were so naive and wouldn't survive without parents or will take long to adjust. They are smart and know how to move on and face what lies ahead. But being a parent i feel bit alone an sad! I know i will made peace with this transformation as well with time ,though an emptiness and sense of sadness will stay with us for the life we have ahead. It makes me at peace too and proud too that God has given me an open mind to understand how nature works and follow it's simple laws so life can be a good and light experience for everyone! 

This is the only earning i could made throughout out my life and i feel grateful for that! Everyone has his own way to earn happiness .It makes me utterly grateful and happy that God has gifted me heart who feels happy only when he gives happiness to people around him!

Thank you so much for being with me till here dear friends!

thank you so much for your exceptional love and support that strengthen me and encourages to share more🥹🙏❤️

Health ,peace and happiness to you all and to all you love!!!!

Morning’s Innocence Poem by Me

 

When I woke up in the morning 

World was at peace 

Like a baby in cradle in sleep so deep 

Birds singing songs soothing and sweet 

Twigs  lovingly enjoying their tweets 

Breeze whispered quietly 

Blooms rustled and chuckle

To the dreaming sky ,sun softly tickle 

He turned back with closing eyes 

But couldn’t resist Sun’s deepening smiles 

Stream flowing calmly as she knew her path

When turned to the corner gazed the giggling grass 

It wasn’t though ,it  seemed  so 

Trees stood intellectually reading paper ( fields) below 

Fields lying leisurely so drowsy and quiet 

In charm of stars they befriended last night 

But Sun’s alarm was very loud and bold 

Her peaceful state ,world further could not hold 

As  sharp sun rays, spread quickly everywhere 

Shaking everything with astounding dare 

Undesirably I  had to leave my place 

Part of me remained still there in the phase 

I stepped forward to join the crazy race 

All my  readymade wishes were calling me to chase 

Chaos of  the day robbed me of my metaphor 

But a hope of the evening twinkled in heart’s corner 

Back To Our Home

Hello precious Friends 🥰

Hope everyone is having blessed,beautiful days by the grace of God🥰🙏

We are back home after spending almost two awesome months in our bnb rental ( thanks to our eldest son and God who gave him capacity and wisdom to do so)  Time flew by so quickly as they say good times seem shorter. Best thing was existing without feeling constant heat pressure and sweating 🥵 And for it we felt thankful everyday 😍🙏 When it started to rain in first week of our arrival we were overjoyed 🥹But it was heartbreaking to keep receiving sad news from different parts of the country then . Heavy rains seemed unusual though but land-sliding and flooding caused serious damage to the property and many people,specially tourists who were visiting the upper northern part.  Such incidents made it hard to focus on bright side. Hubby would tune in the news channel after finishing exercise and I would prepare breakfast. The horrible news would make my heart heavy. Everyday The last line of the news would be that hundreds of people died in Palestine because of attacks and hunger. It would make it painful to eat afterwards honestly!  Then one day I suggested hubby if he can switch new time ,and he agreed. News about floods and earthquakes in various parts of the world keeps me sad and I know I can’t do anything to correct them. But I can help those around me who suffer from any such tragedy or pray to the God for whole humanity! And I never stop it🥹🙏

We arrived here yesterday morning (11 am almost) . I was terrified already with assumptions of possible heat we could face but continuous rain in different areas has deduced the heat here as well thankfully!  

Loads of cleaning were waiting for us which we did until the evening. We were utterly exhausted and fainting during dinner so went to bed early. Today is cloudy but still hot . But I. Know I will be used to it within week because I am spent 33 years here. Hubby said once paper work of retirement is over we can stay in Islamabad for all six extremely hot months. To be honest,we have skipped the idea of buying house in Islamabad because of very high inflation rise we have seen in last four years. It was highest jump ever I believe. 

Sharing below some shots taken during trip to two different 

places . Hope you will enjoy the glimpse.

       One of the best things was I could meet my sister, I asked her if she can accompany me to the graveyard as I wanted to visit my father ‘s grave like every second year we come. She agreed and we could spend some nice sisters time together by the grace of God 🙏  it was a lovely meeting which gave us opportunity to exchange our thoughts on matters of common interest like family,relationships and children particularly.

     This one was captured by youngest son in Fatima Jinnah Park,a largest family walking (750 acres ) lush ,serene and very beautifully maintained.  It was 15 minutes drive away from us yet we visited there few times because of its lovely environment. We finished our walk and sat down to enjoy the beauty of surroundings ,then I asked my son to take a photo so I can share it in post and revisit the moment sometime ☺️ park hardly remains empty but morning and evening are pretty crowded.

I took this picture during our visit to Rawalpindi Lake View Point Park , it was very cloudy day actually but we decided to take the risk of being drenched in the case of rain.  When we arrived the  rain started but it was very thin and periodic and stayed that way during whole day. Visitors seemed happier with lovely weather.  An unknown small local band was singing songs on microphone with original background music which was played on record ( I didn’t know it could be done that way actually) many people were surrounding the band ,few were coming ,staying and cheering then leaving. Some were appreciated with money including us. 

   Music has filled the place with spiritual elegance and emotional depth which turned every scene in something more profound and meaningful!

                                             Dams are full  after the one week rain 

       I noticed an English woman  passed by with her Pakistani husband but we were returning hurriedly so couldn’t take the photo.

 

   Combination of breeze in slight rain was so great to feel good 🤗♥️

Thanks for being with me dear friends!

I wanted a write more but time is up . I have to say prayer and then make green tea . I bet you too pray for yourself and for all we all love dear friends! God is always around and within. Everything we have is his gift . So thanking Him is must ! And praying for us and for all is needed. He can guide us to do better in life and spread love instead hate! 

Thinking of you all dear friends 🤗🥰🙏♥️

Sending much love and best wishes to all Amen 🥰🙏

The Fundamental Source Of Human Behavior (updated)

 

Hey Sweet Hearts !

Hope beating beautifully on rhythm of positivity despite of all odds as sunshine of hope inside your soul keeps you enlightened no matter what i bet :)

As you know i am more into question about how human life and universe resemble in their behaviors what makes them act or react same way despite of all the variations they have as different parts of "matter"  

I kept contemplating on the topic consciously and unconsciously all the time and tried to imagine the possibilities . I watched lots of stuff on YouTube including videos about Radiations ,Hawken's Radiation specially and blackhole .They described specific behavior of wave particles and quantum behaviors when they reach at the edge of black hole but i was after something more basic which lies in the foundation of universal structure and effects everything made up of matter with it's slightest manipulation. I think i can't go further than this as science has it all  now . 

I think i have found a fundamental point of my research that gives me clue about behavioral variations in everything whether living or nonliving including humans. 

Yes it begins from atoms we all are made up of . A universe has atoms and an Atom has a universe within as they say . So what an Atom has inside determines the how will be the universe and everything in it. Atom has subatomic particles ,Protons ,Neutrons and Electrons . A little change of these atomic number cerates the whole magic we witness in this universe .

When i found out that electrons have negative charge and their attraction towards protons and neutrons put them "together" in the nucleus . I knew that already but never pondered upon it this way . True that things are always before our eyes ,it is us who take time to notice the and there is time for everything. So i think my curiosity why people differ in their behaviors in such extreme ways finds it's answer to some extent here in this interesting Video here which reveals the roll of "Electron negatively charged " nicely .Video is ten minutes long but if you want to skip the detail  teacher mentions this roll of electron in physical world on sixth minute very briefly .

Being part of matter and being consist of numerous "atoms"  defines our behavioral differences .Most important thing this points out that such diversity was "crucial" for the phenomena of life and universe as we find it today.

i often wondered (as i aged particularly) that why people are different in their behaviors and choices . With time i am learning that "Creator" has preplanned and and predetermined everything existing here and there are limits within which things are allowed to work and change such as a small change in atomic mas and number forms something very unique ,not just unique but of value .

The roll of negative energy in our life is same as electron plays in the atom ,therefore we say everything happens for the reason and our "bad" experiences turn our life upside down and we feel "fallen" and "lost" 

Then begins the real game what seems Actual target of Creator ,he by giving us consciousness and liberty to choose tests whether we leave our "Nucleus" and wither away into darkness and make mess or Try to reunite our Inner strength and stand up .This "standing" is not easy at all we know to do so we have to travel inwardly  to dig for" tools "  hidden in our "core" for survival .once we find those tools we make our way towards far better place from we had fall before .Nature want us to travel inwardly and we hardly do so unless we are pushed by negativity in life .

This is actual test of this game . 

Negative push is to "shake" and "awake" us to recognize our true place in this universe and make journey towards it,

Blaming and complaining about negativity in our lives is not important ,important to realize the value of it's existence and how it help us to make this world what it is today. Creator knows how to keep balance until most or all of us decide to live under the commands of  ego and crazy wishes that make us crush others.

As human we have freedom of choice so it is totally on us what we want to be in life .

predetermined destiny can be changed only when our wish to be good is stronger than our ego and this comes only when we recognize and believe the presence of divine energy and how everything is put to do something unique to support this phenomena .

 See you soo all dear friends! 

keep smiling and keep spreading your light as  a unique star !

A Disagreement With Personal Opinion On "Moralized Character "

 I was reading chapter 19 from the book "The force of character" by James Hillman and i started to feel uncomfortable with the writer's point of view. I though have enjoyed rest of the chapters which put light on last years of one's life and all the possible thoughts ,feelings and behaviors about it .At the end of each chapter writer speaks his mind very nicely which i found very impressive. But what writer says in the chapter nineteen is confusing and disturbing to some extent.

I consider myself a student who wants to learn things in life in order to improve it. So what i am going to say here is completely my own opinion based on my own raw observations and assumptions. I hope it won't upset you at any level .If so please mention good or bad all is welcomed because as a student they will surly make me learn something of value,

In chapter nineteen James Hillman discuss human character with title, 

" character of virtue or character moralized" The first line of second paragraph is 

"character was not to bent to the moral strictures" According to him character was divided into two forms by science and philosophy and pushed to settled among moralists. Then he refers some classical  philosophers and writers who had drawn all kind of black and white characters powerfully who inspired till this day due to what they did whether good or bad. Writer is against of any attempt people try to mould or influence human character. He suggests that let each  

character be unique in it's way and age will reveals it's truth. I understand the James Hillman experienced world when people loved to stay what they were and hardly liked any change in their habits or perspectives because they believed that they will loose their identity and genuinity and i think they were right in their opinion in those early times when human consciousness was on earlier stage of it's evolution as well.

Now in twenty first century when science and psychology has advanced and revealed that everything existing in this universe is "energy" and we see that all forms of energy that serve human life are present here in  "Raw form " and to utilize them as "facilities" we have to work on them to refine and shape so they can adjust in our day to day life without causing any issue to the environment they are put in.

Similarly as we now know that human thoughts are form of "energy" too. We receive this energy as child when come to this world. How to use this energy we learn this throughout our life consciously or unconsciously.Our way to use our "mental energy" shapes our "habits" that goes along with genuine "instincts" and "nature" we born with. This is easy to see in the pattern of Nature that provides perfect circumstances to  "train" this mental energy for it's inhabitants. I believe that "training of our mental energy" was the only thing that made "family" system possible in the pattern of Nature. Parents try hard to make their children "learn" what to do and what not to. Our brain is bundle of raw energy that jumps to learn. It does know that it has to work but has no idea how and what are must and must not. Parents are earlier guardians and guides to protect and show path. But when we grow and take reins of the horse in our own hands we still are ignorant most of things that help us to lead safe healthy life and place us somewhere we feel important and and cared.

We all know that each of us is unique and comes with different perception . Sometimes differences are too big and make it difficult to adjust in society or even family. Human instincts can be good and bad in terms of their harmfulness or harmlessness . It is great to follow our instincts but what if doing so troubles others? For example i am in mood of listening music and it is my right to listen it of course but i want to raise the volume to enjoy more but which hurts my neighbors ,they complain but my hold of my wish is too strong and makes me do some unreasonable things that probably i regret later.

That strong hold of our wishes or what we call "will power" is most beautiful thing but when only we know how to train our "mental energy" and command it by "willpower" ,this makes us different as human  from other species right?

Many people don't agree that they have some harmful habits and skipping them can make their life easy and beautiful. But thankfully that light is reaching to so many hearts and there are so many people who acknowledge that training our brain energy is essential to live healthy and peaceful life that can influence people around them positively. 

Everything we see in life is brought to this present shape after long effort and time whether it is gold or diamond jewelry ,metals ,and numerous things got from underground or things on the ground such as wood and plastic . If i am sitting on this chair so comfortable it is because it has been passing through many processes and procedures to get this shape. Energy is everywhere in raw random form but to make it useful and to benefit from it we have to mould it.

People fear that if they will rearrange their thought system it can destroy their genuine natural gifts such as painting ,poetry ,writing or any other form of art. I don't think so . I speak from my own experience that since i have started to calm and shape my mental energy i can think better . My imagination and my inner strength for writing is stronger ,i can say this because when i compare my newer posts to older one i think newer are more clear ,less emotional and more reasonable or i at least think this way .

I think when we calm our mental energy it gets better and clearer shape which make us do better in life on every level 

What do you say friends ,please share if you have any thought on this topic it i will really appreciate !

blessings to all of you!