Life Isn't Linear But You Have To Go Through

 

Hello Sweet Hearts!

hope beating positively on the rhythm of life despite haphazard circumstances of life . 

Dear friends even though i tried to keep visiting you all meanwhile i still missed sharing my heart with you via my post. Actually things went little upsetting in first three weeks for me ,first the health issue and regular visits to hospital ,then ...okay this part is not just painful but quite embarrassing for me :( As some of you know probably that taking medication makes brain slow . This was the reason for what happened and believe me it's not an excuse because i know how my mind would have acted otherwise . One day after the breakfast around 12 pm when news on tv ended and hubby put some talk show that we used to watch together since long time .Basically an interview show in which celebrities belong to different fields interviewed by well known and published poet and writer  Wasi Shaah. As we had planned outing later in evening i went to another room instead and start ironing my dress . Before that i put my ipad on charging in switchboard  in the wall close to the floor . I have just started when hubby asked me to bring the iron table in tv lounge so we can watch show together . I brough the iron table and placed right beside the sofa and plugged the iron in the switch board exactly where my ipad was below ,and it completely slipped from my hazy mind . Anyway my hands were ironing but mind was consumed by the story the guest was telling . At some point lost in emotions iron fell down right on my ipad :(((

yes it really happened and i was responsible ! The hard safety cover protected ipad from breaking into pieces but it's panel broke inside and showed vertical lines . I was shocked ,heartbroken and i hated myself for sometime not because i have lost my ipad but i felt failed to keep gift from my precious son safe !

Right next day to this accident hubby bought me Lenovo thinkpad ,maybe he thought that accident can make me sad for long time!

i was happy to have laptop (longtime dream to have personal) but it could not erase the grief for gift from my son honestly! We showed ipad and they shopman  said it can be fixed but eldest son said that it won't be original and that he will take it back and replace it with original panel.

Meanwhile we visited local parks and malls .

i am sharing some photos from those cheerful moment we spent together .hope you will enjoy them dear friends .

weather is hot but far less than one we left behind ,it rained few times. Monsoon seems late as rains are less than expected until now .

     F 9 park in islamabad , elder son took this shot when we completed our walk 8,000 step total ,this stunning baradari (name of this structure) looked more majestic and mystic after sunset ,hills passing behind quietly look so serene and beautiful ,we enjoyed this view for while as breeze was so nice and cozy 

  Damn e koh (lap of hills) is hill top station 2400 feet high from the gorgeous city of Islamabad provide panoramic and rewarding view of the city ,sons standing close to the entrance and when i asked them to pose the said okay now we will reach to the viewing point after dark as mom has started to take photos 

taken in Rwal Lake View park ,while walking along with huge crowed towards the lake i found this wooden railing fascinating and we took some images there 

weather was cloudy and we were little early like around 4:30 pm still place was packed ,it the terrace area where people find there place and take pics with water and family and friends ,we just scrolled around ,my favorite is spending time beside water and i did it for sometime :)

        younger son had some commitment regarding some project so we spent less time there than we usually do 

after the walking track ( 300 to 500 meters ) we enter in another main gate where we see many visitors riding this train which drops them close to the terrace area , i saw it becomes very handy for people with little children and senior people who find walking bit hard .

damn e koh (lap of hill) has three widespread terrace areas where people enjoy the city view below and take photos , it was perfect day because rain has stopped and air was slightly chilly 

 Faisal Mosque captured by elder son with his apple phone looks magnificent ! he took many shots actually but i could scroll as it's time consuming job 

seeing people taking break from the life 's never ending business and enjoying nature and togetherness makes me feel happy . it feels nice that people are being aware of the importance of  such healthy activities . it wasn't the case some years back .but change is slow but positive thankfully!

that is it for now precious friends! 

i will be visiting you all time to time hopefully!

stay positive and strong ,health ,peace and happiness to you all and to all you love!

Happy Mother’s Day !

 

When we observe the nature and universe we see two kinds of behaviour dominant in every creation. We humans have named both according to our understanding of them . We call constructive side of the nature  God or Love . Nothing is possible without God or love because everything our eyes can see is result of its consistent and nonstop creativity. We can’t see God or love but we can feel it’s presence in everything that we find existing around us. Everything that tends to take shape, adjusts itself to harmonise with others in order to form something meaningful reflects that Creative Force behind it God or Love!

In my life I often contemplated on how God or Love are present in our life. I remember when this thought came to my mind I was looking at my mother’s face . A face around which my being seemed to rotate ,  A face that had worries all about us  and how well we were taken care of. 

That was very cold day of the last week of November. We ran out of woods for the clay stove . The rain had just stopped. My mother wanted to take advantage of this break so She got out of the room and climbed up the nim tree standing in our front yard. It wasn’t safe to climb on wet tree and she knew that. But she chose to climb up because her children needed heat to survive severe cold of northern Pakistan. That day I could not resist staring at her face . In those moment I realised how our lives were completely dependent on our mother for survival. And that how fortunate we were that she was a strong woman with super natural powers almost. When mom was cutting branches of nimtree that had lost its leaves already ,I stood below the tree ,afraid of the thought what if she falls down. That worry drained my energy until I heard my mother saying “ ok we got woods enough for one to two weeks now”  she threw her ex on the ground away from me and started to get down slowly. It was unique day for me because I had seen my mother climbing on tree for the first time! 

When we picked up wood and came to room my mind stayed in awe of what happened there that day. My mother had arranged wood despite she had fever and flu !

That night my eyes shed few tears on my pillow,I was sad ,I was happy, I was grateful and proud at the same time. I couldn’t sleep until I got up , picked up my notebook and wrote a poem in honour of my dear mother 🥹♥️

This was first time when I realised how God shows his love to his people. And I realised that most powerful proof of his love is a mother! She construct and create us within and then with her partner she look after us and provide us. She is true reflection of God and Love ! Because her children are her first priority no matter what.

Hats off to all the amazing beautiful mothers out there 🥹🙏♥️

This was taken by hubby’s eldest brother on my engagement day,my mother was suffering with tuberculosis at that time and was under treatment,her fear of loosing her life made her decide to get me married in case she didn’t survive. I have received an appointment letter of government school teacher after a week hardly,but mom was worried about the unjust behaviour of my brother and his wife so she didn’t let me join job . My job was our common dream that she sacrificed over my safety and self respect!

Happy Mother’s Day To You ♥️

Thank you for being with me till the end dear friends! 

May God keep you safe and blessed always 🙏♥️

Back To Our Home

Hello precious Friends 🥰

Hope everyone is having blessed,beautiful days by the grace of God🥰🙏

We are back home after spending almost two awesome months in our bnb rental ( thanks to our eldest son and God who gave him capacity and wisdom to do so)  Time flew by so quickly as they say good times seem shorter. Best thing was existing without feeling constant heat pressure and sweating 🥵 And for it we felt thankful everyday 😍🙏 When it started to rain in first week of our arrival we were overjoyed 🥹But it was heartbreaking to keep receiving sad news from different parts of the country then . Heavy rains seemed unusual though but land-sliding and flooding caused serious damage to the property and many people,specially tourists who were visiting the upper northern part.  Such incidents made it hard to focus on bright side. Hubby would tune in the news channel after finishing exercise and I would prepare breakfast. The horrible news would make my heart heavy. Everyday The last line of the news would be that hundreds of people died in Palestine because of attacks and hunger. It would make it painful to eat afterwards honestly!  Then one day I suggested hubby if he can switch new time ,and he agreed. News about floods and earthquakes in various parts of the world keeps me sad and I know I can’t do anything to correct them. But I can help those around me who suffer from any such tragedy or pray to the God for whole humanity! And I never stop it🥹🙏

We arrived here yesterday morning (11 am almost) . I was terrified already with assumptions of possible heat we could face but continuous rain in different areas has deduced the heat here as well thankfully!  

Loads of cleaning were waiting for us which we did until the evening. We were utterly exhausted and fainting during dinner so went to bed early. Today is cloudy but still hot . But I. Know I will be used to it within week because I am spent 33 years here. Hubby said once paper work of retirement is over we can stay in Islamabad for all six extremely hot months. To be honest,we have skipped the idea of buying house in Islamabad because of very high inflation rise we have seen in last four years. It was highest jump ever I believe. 

Sharing below some shots taken during trip to two different 

places . Hope you will enjoy the glimpse.

       One of the best things was I could meet my sister, I asked her if she can accompany me to the graveyard as I wanted to visit my father ‘s grave like every second year we come. She agreed and we could spend some nice sisters time together by the grace of God 🙏  it was a lovely meeting which gave us opportunity to exchange our thoughts on matters of common interest like family,relationships and children particularly.

     This one was captured by youngest son in Fatima Jinnah Park,a largest family walking (750 acres ) lush ,serene and very beautifully maintained.  It was 15 minutes drive away from us yet we visited there few times because of its lovely environment. We finished our walk and sat down to enjoy the beauty of surroundings ,then I asked my son to take a photo so I can share it in post and revisit the moment sometime ☺️ park hardly remains empty but morning and evening are pretty crowded.

I took this picture during our visit to Rawalpindi Lake View Point Park , it was very cloudy day actually but we decided to take the risk of being drenched in the case of rain.  When we arrived the  rain started but it was very thin and periodic and stayed that way during whole day. Visitors seemed happier with lovely weather.  An unknown small local band was singing songs on microphone with original background music which was played on record ( I didn’t know it could be done that way actually) many people were surrounding the band ,few were coming ,staying and cheering then leaving. Some were appreciated with money including us. 

   Music has filled the place with spiritual elegance and emotional depth which turned every scene in something more profound and meaningful!

                                             Dams are full  after the one week rain 

       I noticed an English woman  passed by with her Pakistani husband but we were returning hurriedly so couldn’t take the photo.

 

   Combination of breeze in slight rain was so great to feel good 🤗♥️

Thanks for being with me dear friends!

I wanted a write more but time is up . I have to say prayer and then make green tea . I bet you too pray for yourself and for all we all love dear friends! God is always around and within. Everything we have is his gift . So thanking Him is must ! And praying for us and for all is needed. He can guide us to do better in life and spread love instead hate! 

Thinking of you all dear friends 🤗🥰🙏♥️

Sending much love and best wishes to all Amen 🥰🙏