Life Isn't Linear But You Have To Go Through

 

Hello Sweet Hearts!

hope beating positively on the rhythm of life despite haphazard circumstances of life . 

Dear friends even though i tried to keep visiting you all meanwhile i still missed sharing my heart with you via my post. Actually things went little upsetting in first three weeks for me ,first the health issue and regular visits to hospital ,then ...okay this part is not just painful but quite embarrassing for me :( As some of you know probably that taking medication makes brain slow . This was the reason for what happened and believe me it's not an excuse because i know how my mind would have acted otherwise . One day after the breakfast around 12 pm when news on tv ended and hubby put some talk show that we used to watch together since long time .Basically an interview show in which celebrities belong to different fields interviewed by well known and published poet and writer  Wasi Shaah. As we had planned outing later in evening i went to another room instead and start ironing my dress . Before that i put my ipad on charging in switchboard  in the wall close to the floor . I have just started when hubby asked me to bring the iron table in tv lounge so we can watch show together . I brough the iron table and placed right beside the sofa and plugged the iron in the switch board exactly where my ipad was below ,and it completely slipped from my hazy mind . Anyway my hands were ironing but mind was consumed by the story the guest was telling . At some point lost in emotions iron fell down right on my ipad :(((

yes it really happened and i was responsible ! The hard safety cover protected ipad from breaking into pieces but it's panel broke inside and showed vertical lines . I was shocked ,heartbroken and i hated myself for sometime not because i have lost my ipad but i felt failed to keep gift from my precious son safe !

Right next day to this accident hubby bought me Lenovo thinkpad ,maybe he thought that accident can make me sad for long time!

i was happy to have laptop (longtime dream to have personal) but it could not erase the grief for gift from my son honestly! We showed ipad and they shopman  said it can be fixed but eldest son said that it won't be original and that he will take it back and replace it with original panel.

Meanwhile we visited local parks and malls .

i am sharing some photos from those cheerful moment we spent together .hope you will enjoy them dear friends .

weather is hot but far less than one we left behind ,it rained few times. Monsoon seems late as rains are less than expected until now .

     F 9 park in islamabad , elder son took this shot when we completed our walk 8,000 step total ,this stunning baradari (name of this structure) looked more majestic and mystic after sunset ,hills passing behind quietly look so serene and beautiful ,we enjoyed this view for while as breeze was so nice and cozy 

  Damn e koh (lap of hills) is hill top station 2400 feet high from the gorgeous city of Islamabad provide panoramic and rewarding view of the city ,sons standing close to the entrance and when i asked them to pose the said okay now we will reach to the viewing point after dark as mom has started to take photos 

taken in Rwal Lake View park ,while walking along with huge crowed towards the lake i found this wooden railing fascinating and we took some images there 

weather was cloudy and we were little early like around 4:30 pm still place was packed ,it the terrace area where people find there place and take pics with water and family and friends ,we just scrolled around ,my favorite is spending time beside water and i did it for sometime :)

        younger son had some commitment regarding some project so we spent less time there than we usually do 

after the walking track ( 300 to 500 meters ) we enter in another main gate where we see many visitors riding this train which drops them close to the terrace area , i saw it becomes very handy for people with little children and senior people who find walking bit hard .

damn e koh (lap of hill) has three widespread terrace areas where people enjoy the city view below and take photos , it was perfect day because rain has stopped and air was slightly chilly 

 Faisal Mosque captured by elder son with his apple phone looks magnificent ! he took many shots actually but i could scroll as it's time consuming job 

seeing people taking break from the life 's never ending business and enjoying nature and togetherness makes me feel happy . it feels nice that people are being aware of the importance of  such healthy activities . it wasn't the case some years back .but change is slow but positive thankfully!

that is it for now precious friends! 

i will be visiting you all time to time hopefully!

stay positive and strong ,health ,peace and happiness to you all and to all you love!

Trip To Norway By Eldest Son And Gabi To Attend The Master’s Ceremony Of Sofie !

Hey Beautiful Souls!

Hope shining and rising with all your grace and beauty ♥️

I am fine by the grace of God ! 

We are having blessed times in Islamabad. Our apartment is very comfy and cozy and lots of windows which bring breeze to freshen up our day. Weather is perfect which keeps us on move. Though muggy and airless days are coming from mid July and outdoors activities can be difficult,yet we are enjoying the moment in our hand blissfully right now 🥹

Our eldest son and Gabi visited Norway last week for three days. He went to attend the award ceremony on the completion of  Sofie’s masters . After arriving in Norway they spent first day in Sofie’s home in the city. And next day they went to live in Sofie’s parents beach house. Photos are taken on various occasions meanwhile.i hope you will enjoy them as we did♥️

Sofie is very nice and active young lady, eldest son admires her strength and insight in her lifestyle, here both are having tea most probably as I can see two cups full of coffee or tea there , I believe this stunning sitting place is designed beautifully for this purpose only 🥰 this is Sofie’s home and when eldest son shared this picture it was 9:30pm . I think this is the season when sun doesn’t set for six months in Norway. It’s such a happening sight for people like me who can’t imagine sun shine in night time 🤗🤔🫢

It’s day when both couples left to attend the master’s ceremony.

On right is standing Sofie’s husband, very smart ,intellectual man . He has done PHD in some very important subject ( forgive me for forgetting his name and details as right now I am under the effect of new medication,details in next post )

      
I want to congratulate dear Sofie who by the grace of God has achieved so much in such a young age mashallah! She is in her mid twenties and she has completed her masters degree already. And she has such a lovely family of loving husband and cute child mashallah ! Our heartfelt prayers and best wishes for her future accomplishments 🤞🙏♥️

                          I loved her smile, I felt very touched when eldest was having online time with us ,she appeared and said hello and few lines which showed her sweet nature and beautiful heart 🥰

      I noticed wind was quite strong when they were walking around, I think they are trying to say that strong wind is blowing them away, I assumed that because it reminded me our walk to school in my childhood days and wind would push us back when we were on the peek of the hills,sometimes we would wide spread arms while laughing 

Eldest son appreciates how dear Gabi can’t sit idly and likes to participate whatever is going on in the house. I see she is helping to set the table for everyone to enjoy meal ☺️

     
It’s fun to play board and card games,specially to avoid the waiting time until food is ready or after the meal when you want to enjoy nice gathering of friends and family instead anything else. I truly miss such special family times before the internet was here to disperse everything 😏

   Can you see how serious both kids are, if such seriousness was shown in world matters like climate change or wars things would have been different I believe 

     Eldest son and Gabi are going to the sea side here , a clip next to it shows that eldest son swam in the water which I believe was very cold and I don’t know how he could go in such cold water.Gabi couldn’t dare though and sat on a side instead waiting for him 

      Eldest son told that Norway is very beautiful, and when snow is gone, earth is decorated with greenery and pretty flowers 

                         Red boat floating on the water looks like a hope rising in broken heart 🥹

       

             I wonder where this lovely couple is heading and what is this fenced slopy step case 

Both are sitting before the beach houses and I think Gabi is trying to show something on palm ,maybe a butterfly, it reminds me time who flies by smoothly ,it’s moments fly away like a butterfly one after another and all remains back is colour of them shining on our palm!

             Another gorgeous shot by dear Sofie, sky ,water and flowers all beautiful gestures of nature 🥰

     

This one is captured beautifully! A perfect moment of  the evening right sun goes down quietly after exhausting day and night spread her calming shawl on the face of sky full of glittering stars 🥹 though here a thin layer of clouds has covered the stars for a while. It’s a wonderful sight!

Two friends having conversation over the deck and the cute pet is enjoying the beauty and perfection of this moment.

This photo looks like a stunning piece of art to me ,timing is magical which captivates the whole scenario to perfection♥️ 

This lovely arrangement of flowers reminds of dancing people in the circle on various occasions and festivals, do you see such dance is obvious in so many aspects of the nature. For example arrangements of petals around the pistil , solar system or particles in the atom ,this is called dance of life and seems to have no end 

   Friendship is such a beautiful and unique relationship in which we choose our friends on the basis of  true love and respect we feel for each other. A gravity of common interests and shared feelings. Our sincere tendency to support each other in good and bad times!  This lovely photo touches my heart and I feel grateful for all the love and affection eldest son shares with precious people in his life ♥️🥹🙏

Heartfelt thanks for being with me till the end dear friends 🙏

Your kindness and support fills me with joy and new strength and make me keep sharing with you my life and my feelings 🥹

Sending love and prayers to you all and to all you love!!!

Peace Talks And Convocation

 

Hello Beautiful Souls!

Hope finding peace in your days despite  all the trauma brought to the world by politicians and capitalists.

Our country Pakistan has taken pride in leading the peace talks between America and Iran. Being Pakistani it has strengthened our faith in our homeland!  Despite the rumours China is main force behind this process,but still it makes me feel nice about it. Just hope that both countries agree on some deal which benefits them equally 🤞 Needless to say that such fights over power and resources have nothing to do with common people of both countries who want peace and peace only .

It’s been raining throughout the country (excluding our areas 😏) . Northern parts ,higher areas particularly are still getting snow which is unlikely in this month. Our Sindh province is receiving pleasant affect of the whole scenario but no rain predicted in future near. It’s 12 pm and temperature is 39 centigrade already,you can use your imagination for the rest of the day.

On positive note, elder son shared few glimpse of their rehearsal for convocation expected in the first week of June . This makes me wonder how quickly time flies by!

      When elder  son visited for Eid about a month ago, we got some very nice moments together by the grace of God! He had been visiting home once in a while in these three years and some months and being a mother I have been noticing how he went through the transition caused by time and his personal experiences with everything he has been going through. Thank goodness it feels positive. Despite he is still unable to do time management for better lifestyle and more progress in his studies, I feel really grateful that he made this fat without giving up. Elder son faced a health issue regarding his heart threatened by some certain type of flu! We were lucky to found about it accidentally by the doctor who was treating his cough and flu when he was hardly ten . Doctor advised hubby to go to the specialist for the further investigation. After tests it was confirmed that elder son had certain flu hidden in the body which can cause severe attack to his heart threatened! An injection was recommended which elder son supposed to take for until he was eighteen. He went through this medication for four to five years. Hubby told the injection was very painful and elder son would suffer for sometime.  Finally the treatment was completed by the grace of Allah and elder son ‘s health improved slowly afterwards🙏🥹🙏

  

Enjoying the  sweet and sour curd in the restaurant with friends, he told that it’s the curd parlour , it’s new thing to me actually because I know only the ice cream parlour 

When he was admitted in best university of the country suggested by his elder brother, we knew that studies were going to be hard . But we always encouraged him to never feel pressured because he is most important to us and everything else is secondary. But he kept walking slowly towards the target and now he has three months left to complete his graduation 🥹

We are happy he tried whatever he could 🥰  extra two months till August are for his project completion which he had postponed to pick another other subject in second semester.  Then he will be home hopefully 🙏♥️

I am waiting for the August desperately so I can make him eat homemade food instead of food of hotel and restaurants!

This is for now dear friends. Thanks for bearing with me till now. 

Health,peace and happiness to you all and to all you love ♥️🙏

Happy Mother’s Day !

 

When we observe the nature and universe we see two kinds of behaviour dominant in every creation. We humans have named both according to our understanding of them . We call constructive side of the nature  God or Love . Nothing is possible without God or love because everything our eyes can see is result of its consistent and nonstop creativity. We can’t see God or love but we can feel it’s presence in everything that we find existing around us. Everything that tends to take shape, adjusts itself to harmonise with others in order to form something meaningful reflects that Creative Force behind it God or Love!

In my life I often contemplated on how God or Love are present in our life. I remember when this thought came to my mind I was looking at my mother’s face . A face around which my being seemed to rotate ,  A face that had worries all about us  and how well we were taken care of. 

That was very cold day of the last week of November. We ran out of woods for the clay stove . The rain had just stopped. My mother wanted to take advantage of this break so She got out of the room and climbed up the nim tree standing in our front yard. It wasn’t safe to climb on wet tree and she knew that. But she chose to climb up because her children needed heat to survive severe cold of northern Pakistan. That day I could not resist staring at her face . In those moment I realised how our lives were completely dependent on our mother for survival. And that how fortunate we were that she was a strong woman with super natural powers almost. When mom was cutting branches of nimtree that had lost its leaves already ,I stood below the tree ,afraid of the thought what if she falls down. That worry drained my energy until I heard my mother saying “ ok we got woods enough for one to two weeks now”  she threw her ex on the ground away from me and started to get down slowly. It was unique day for me because I had seen my mother climbing on tree for the first time! 

When we picked up wood and came to room my mind stayed in awe of what happened there that day. My mother had arranged wood despite she had fever and flu !

That night my eyes shed few tears on my pillow,I was sad ,I was happy, I was grateful and proud at the same time. I couldn’t sleep until I got up , picked up my notebook and wrote a poem in honour of my dear mother 🥹♥️

This was first time when I realised how God shows his love to his people. And I realised that most powerful proof of his love is a mother! She construct and create us within and then with her partner she look after us and provide us. She is true reflection of God and Love ! Because her children are her first priority no matter what.

Hats off to all the amazing beautiful mothers out there 🥹🙏♥️

This was taken by hubby’s eldest brother on my engagement day,my mother was suffering with tuberculosis at that time and was under treatment,her fear of loosing her life made her decide to get me married in case she didn’t survive. I have received an appointment letter of government school teacher after a week hardly,but mom was worried about the unjust behaviour of my brother and his wife so she didn’t let me join job . My job was our common dream that she sacrificed over my safety and self respect!

Happy Mother’s Day To You ♥️

Thank you for being with me till the end dear friends! 

May God keep you safe and blessed always 🙏♥️

Thankful To Have My Space Back My Coulrful House

Hey lovely people! 

Our construction work has finished finally  :) So I can have my space back thankfully! 

Despite we knew that painting house won't be a  good idea as  walls still seems drenched from inside and for long lasting paint Walls must be dried fully but as you know that we are expecting our kids in December so it seemed necessary to refine the environment of our house so they can feel at home instead in some old hunted place . Because of hubby 's choice of different colours for each room house looks like dollhouse more than mine lol but I am happy to have little different theme as well.  

    This was light purple colour for whole house (boring ,I know)  but it remained to veranda only. 

      I found this beautiful and comforting to eyes

Hubby agreed for painting light purple in living room as well but afterwards he found it too light and switch to oil paint from distemper which is darker . This image is taken around 1 pm so sunlight sharpening it as pink 

   These two photos are captured at night so you can see  it is looking elegant and tranquil. I liked it and I think my younger son will be happier to find paint he recommended once

 

Today  when  I went up saw some intriguing patterns at the sky .I stared at them while taking evening walk  (missed my walk most) 

    And when sky dimmed after while I said my evening pray. This is priceless sense to have some divine force along. We have choice of life with or without faith. I feel utterly grateful that i choose faith because none of the other can give true piece of mind and soul! 

Thank you for kindness you all share! 

See you soon. God bless you All!

Why Would Bride Hide Face In Olden Days

 

Hey Sweet Souls!

Hope trying to make existence beautiful in the light of your wisdom:)

Few of you may be felt curious why bride looks serious and why she had to hide her face in veil ?

I just while ago asked same to the Google. There were many replies but I cancelled  the search due to lack of time before I check further details. 

Let me tell you through my personal  observations and  experience as i belong to era when the tradition was followed regularly in my village. 

There were many interesting customs for all wedding events that would display enthusiasm ,humour and happiness of both parties. I will leave rest for another time and talk about the  "face hiding " tradition by the bride only. Among all I found this most fascinating and intriguing. I had many girl cousins to whom I got chance to be a wedding friend.  Bride and Groom had to be  put on rest  weeks before their wedding start. For two weeks groom and bride would be treated by family and friends as "special " people. Both would be given seven wedding friends that would stay with them until the last day of the wedding. Those friends could be their same old friends. But if old friends are less than seven more wedding friends would be added to complete course.  Those friends of bride and groom would assist them in each work .In other words the friends would try hard to save both parties from exposure or tiredness or any mental stress that common routine of life can bring. 

Bride would be separated from common portion of the house under excessive use and is kept in some corner room where only seven of her friends can see her including female family members.  I remember how much I enjoyed those long fun nights when we all girls would talk and laugh, beat drum ,sing and dance when party was over late night in other parts of house  one of friend would accompany the bride even to bathroom (outside of course). Meanwhile bride would mostly keep her face behind long veil of her shawl. 

Back then I just enjoyed all that never thought what and why. Bride 's face would remain hidden until she would join her husband. Thought female family would see her glimpse once she is ready to leave. 

But now when I try to ponder on this I feel that behind all these traditions was purpose to give both parties time to take break from usual daily chores and relax so they can revive their mental energy to face new journey of life.

I miss how specially girl was treated back in olden times. She was not mere piece of flesh or body but her personality reflected purity, divinity ,grace ,dignity ,live ,patience and sacrifice. A chain in which whole family is beaded so beautifully. Her wisdom was light for all living around her.Her strength was source that would empower whoever got close to her. Yes I consider myself lucky that i could witness some beauty of old lifestyle. A girl when was supposed to leave her parents house in orderto join new family and a new man as husband. She is given time to secure all her inner strength beauty and purity before.  To achieve the certain level of this bride is kept in comparatively dark room where even sun hesitate to look at her as he may not dim the sacred glow of her face . I think old people believed that such dwelling would create a   exceptional glory around her personality that would charm the groom when he would remove the veil first time. Just like a halo around moon add fantasy and little mystery to the beauty of moon.

I hope I could share what I wanted to dear friends. 

See you soon.  Blessings to you and to all you love precious people!