Hey Sweet Friends!
Hope and pray that you are enjoying your holidays with precious families of your's and eagerly waiting for the Christmas when you celebrate the love , Happiness and togetherness with your loved ones !
hope weather is not disturbing your time of pleasures and excitement .Our weather is still snowy in northern areas and in some southern mountainous areas as well ,we are here having rains twice and sometimes thrice a week so high temp is hardly 23 and low is 3.
Mr sun and naughty clouds are playing hide and seek and i am LOVING the sights of magic and pleasures .
Our holidays are starting from tomorrow so i will be having kids and hubby with me all the time :)
My eldest son told me last day from Munich Germany that he will leave for Amsterdam tonight with his friends .They probably will stay their for 3 days ,this sounds exciting to me and i am so pleased to hear that my son is starting his holidays by the exploration of beautiful capital of Netherland which is famous for it's artistic heritage and glorious sights !
Philosophy of my life with help of google image
Let me share with you updates of my health issues now. We did not go to the same doctor we met before and suggested biopsy as he had doubt of Oral Ulcer .
Two days back coincidentally one of my hubby's previous student ( technician in medical collage and hospital now ) met hubby in his office .Hubby told him about our doctor doubts and recommendations .He (ex student) told hubby to let us take second opinion before going for process.
Last day he called hubby and ask us to come to the hospital and took us to the surgeon who is head of the department and quite well known for his successful treatments and surgeries . He examined the throat and asked some questions . What was good about him that he listened carefully and did not interrupt .
I also told him about my doubt about head tumor which came to my mind after article reading .He smiled and said " you think a Lot " (still world is not comedy for me , i said in my heart though)
He said that i should not be much anxious and stay calm ( observed two months , blood coming from my mouth what he expect from me ?) He said first of all "you must forget about the blood ,let it be, (will he will do by himself what he is suggesting to me ?)
Like i had to argue for eye drops once again i had to insist for some kind of test (what is wrong with doctors whom i visit ,do they think i am mad ) . He again got up and peeked into my mouth and examined the mouth again with more care Then he asked for immediate digital x rays of head ,throat and chest .
Because of that generous hearted student of hubby we got the results of x rays within 20 minute . But when hubby showed the result to the doctor i was not there as while sitting in waiting room i went to the dressing room , when got back hubby told me that they showed results to the doctor already (annoying) ( i must know what exactly he said ) .Hubby told that doctor said there is beginning of infection in my throat (he avoid to use word ulcer,isn't he)
Doctor said that she is anemic and this is why such infections can grow easily because DEFENCE SYSTEM is not strong ,so first of all she should not force the spit from depth of throat specially after brushing .
He recommended some medicines and asked to visit after a month . He said there is no tumor in head .(which i doubt still) I have a reason to doubt for tumor because since almost one year i am facing weird problem .Problem is about the CONNECTION of my words to my memory ,let me explain when somebody asks me something for instance i am busy in my chore , and any of my son asks any question from father ,without any conscious attempt i immediately say the answer and after answering i just feel little puzzled because i REALLY don't remember at very recent time that
what have i said ? and what is the meaning of this ?
then i ask from hubby that what did i just say when he tells me that i answered the kid correctly this puzzle me even more because in my CONSCIOUSNESS i don't find the answer anywhere ?
I did not read about this strange disorder but from my excessive movies watching in past i know that such disorder come some kind of tumor in brain ( calm guys , ,i am not taking this on my nerves ,just sharing my heart)
So now this is second day of medications ,i am feeling my throat little better (wound in upper side of mouth is almost healed though blood is still coming). This is great feeling that i am staying with my family (hopefully) to see their growth and prosperity by the Grace of God!
Thanking Each of you for the sweet ,Kind and Generous comments which overwhelmed my soul, I am nothing but these are your precious love and kindness dissolving me into new being and for this thank you is not enough i am honoured and sooo Grateful!!!
Wishing you all a wonderful and very Happy holidays my friends!
Please Take Great Care ,,Stay Strong and Unshaken and see the miracles within and around :)
God Bless You All!!!
I wish you health and a quick recovery. Health issues are no fun but problems in one's mouth are especially difficult.
ReplyDeleteI hope you and your family have happy holidays and a happy December.
This sounds positive! I hope you continue to heal. And I wish you and your family wonderful holiday gatherings. How exciting about your son! It is fun to explore the world.
ReplyDeleteGlad you have some improvement. You could always go to a 3rd specialist.
ReplyDeleteSending healing hugs to you Baili. It is not easy when one does not know what is wrong. Try not to go to bad places with your mind as that can steal your happiness.
ReplyDeleteHave a wonderful time with your family and Happy Holidays♥
It appears you are on the right path to recovery, I am so happy that you went for a second opinion, this doctor sounds like a lot better person that will help you properly. Wishing you and your family a blessed holiday season.
ReplyDeleteA second opinion is always a good idea. Sometimes even a third opinion is warranted. I hope they treat your anemia and build up your immune system -- perhaps you will see an improvement then? Keep looking after yourself, dear friend, and keep your positive thoughts!
ReplyDeletePeople have a tendancy to think the worst when it comes to health issues, Baili. I hope the doctor was correct and you will heal quickly!
ReplyDeleteIt is hard to get a doctor to listen. I agree with Debra, a third opinion might be helpful. Try getting an appointment with a neurologist, who can help you with your concerns about spontaneous speech and memory loss.
ReplyDeleteHonestly, when you are focused on one thing and you respond correctly to a random question, I would think that you are one of those lucky people who is truly connected to your subconscious. Your third eye and throat chakras are operating independently. Caroline Myss has a great book "ANATOMY OF THE SPIRIT". Spend several days on each chakra, do the work and you may be able to resolve what is happening.
Dear Baili, I pray for your returning good health. Find joy in everything you can. It is positive, joyous thoughts that raise the vibration of our beings and facilitate healing. God be with you.
ReplyDeleteHope you have continued recovery.
ReplyDeleteIt makes me happy that you saw another doctor. It is always a good idea when dealing with something that could be serious. I think you may be borrowing trouble with your thoughts of a brain tumor. Absent-mindedly answering someone while you are busy is something every mother does. And we usually don't remember the experience at all. Keep looking for a good outcome but be mindful of yourself at the same time. My very best to you.
ReplyDeletePleased to read there is some improvement. I continue to send positive thoughts to you. Please take care.
ReplyDeleteMy good wishes
All the best Jan
I'm glad that you are feeling better, Baili. The bridge picture and words are special, and I also think blogging is a great place where we meet interesting and wonderful people. Rumi quotes always make me stop and think about them.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad all your family will be around you this Christmas. I will have the whole family here too. What a blessing that is for you and me. : )
~Sheri
you are very fortunate to have had this doctor take your case on and come up with a plan of action so quickly,, sometimes we have to calm our fears as they grow and trust that doctors know what they are ding,, take care my friend,, you have a beautiful spirit,
ReplyDeleteI'm glad the news from the second doctor is good. Hope you continue to get better.
ReplyDeleteI wish you the best and hopefully you will continue to improve.
ReplyDeleteA 3rd opinion is always helpful.
I'm sure you will be alright.
Merry Christmas...Margaret
♥ Dearest Baili, remember to have enough time to rest, have fresh air and exercise and eat healthy!! I'm sending you big hugs and wishing you and yours a happy holiday season together. ♥
ReplyDeleteYou have every right to be concerned, the blood and the things you feel in your brain. I am encouraged to hear that the medicine is helping so far...sometimes it takes days and even weeks.
ReplyDeleteSending love and good thoughts to you, Balli! You are loved.
Jane x
I am glad that you are beginning to get better. Enjoy the holidays with your family :-)
ReplyDeleteI hope you have continued recovery, dear Baili. A big hug!
ReplyDeleteso glad you have started some medication and have had the xrays, wishing you a speedy recovery, Baili. I have just been to Amsterdam, I think your son is going to have a fantastic time there. Betty
ReplyDeleteBaili, I'm so happy to be reading this. That doctor sounds like a QUACK though...I hate doctors who think they are better then us...anyway...I'm glad you are starting to feel better. I am hoping to read your blog for many MANY years to come! :)
ReplyDeleteYour son will have a blast. I went to Amsterdam in the early 1990's and it was a fun city for younger people. I just loved the canals and the atmosphere, I hope he has fun.
And for you and your hubby, I wish you both a very happy holiday season!!!
Keep looking after yourself!!! I pray everything will turn out perfect! Watch how you feel and how you act! You have a right to be concerned! Big Hugs and Much Love!
ReplyDeleteHello, baili! I do hope for miracles for you. I would be concerned also! I am sorry I have neglected your blog because of my own health issues etc but now that I have a few moments I will pop back and read everything. I am glad your son is well and you are looking forward to the holiday with anticipation. Many blessings to you.
ReplyDeleteI hope the medicine and advice from the doctor will heal you quickly and completely, baili. Take good care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteI am catching up on reading blogs, my friend, and was very concerned about your health after reading this post. Certainly, you would think that a doctor would take more time to listen to a patient and then order the right tests and medications. I am keeping you and your health in my thoughts and prayers and hope you will be feeling better very soon. You are too a ver special and caring person.
ReplyDeleteIt sounds as if you had some reassurance and some not. You mentioned in your most recent post that you are still taking the medication. I hope it is helping. I think if you still h ave doubts the only thing to do is try another doctor, until you find one that makes you feel confident and happy with his advice.
ReplyDeleteI think you will know in your heart. It is strange with the memory issue, but perhaps you have been a little anxious and preoccupied, perhaps, this is a way that it can affect me if I am anxious sometimes. Anyway I hope otherwise all is well for you!
You have my sympathy, Baili! I hate it when doctors are dismissive or condescending with me. I'm glad that you got a second opinion and that you are feeling a little better. You are the one who knows your body best. Sometimes, when I'm under a lot of stress and feeling anxious and frustrated, it's hard for me to remember facts or names or think of the answer to a question. Then later, when I'm off doing something less mindful like washing dishes or folding laundry, out of nowhere the fact or name pops into my head (or sometimes I'll remember in the middle of the night or in a dream). Things always improve for me when my life isn't so stressful. I hope you are around for a very long time! Take care of yourself, my friend!
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