Sunday, December 17, 2017

Probably, Oral Cancer or Head Tumor



 Hello  Precious  Fellows !


Hope  and  pray   that  life  is  glittering  like  christmas  tree  and  you  are  able  to  decorate  it  with  lots  and  lots  of  hopes  ,joys   and  pleasant  expectations  .Expectations  that  will  fulfil  ONLY  BY  YOU  not  anyone  else .

You   are  the  one  who  can  do  this  for  yourself 

Creating  circle  of   positive   thoughts   around  you  and  standing   within  it   sublimely  .


Not   Letting   your  pains  and   sufferings  to  take   away   the  BEAUTY   and  CHEERFULNESS  of  PRESENT   moment  from  you !   


This  is  Only  You   who   can   make   your  short   existence   SUCCESSFUL   by   following  simple  rules  of   nature  

    Don't  harm   anyone 

   and  Don't  let  anyone   harm   you  

Not  even   your   own   negativity  which   springs  out   from   tests   that   life  puts  on   you .

Don't   that  negativity  let   even   grow  and   get   strong   enough   to  ruin   the  pleasures   you  have   and  don't  let   it   remove   your   eye    from  THE  HALF  FILLED  PART   OF   GLASS!


ah...enough ...i  can  write  this  without  being  stopped  for  moment   as   it  seems  to   flow   from  my   head   like   flood  which   broke   the   boundaries   of   river   and  take  over   everything   around  it .  Am   i   mad   or  psycho ?


Whatever  .

okay   lets  come  to  the  point  .Almost   2  months   back   i   observed   that   when  i  brush   my   teeth  and  spit  out  to  clean  my  throat  it  loos  like  blood .

I  thought  it  was   not   big  deal  and  will  stop   as  could  be   from  jaws  or   teeth  or  may  be  i  brushed  hard .

After  week  when  it  was  still  there   i  again  gave  it  benefit  of  doubt  and  thought  may  be  this  is  minor  infection  in  throat   and  will   be  finished  anyway .

After   two  weeks  i   thought   okay   i   should  not  let   know  hubby   as  he  will  be  much   worried  about   it  ,it  will  go  away  anyhow

After   almost   two  moths   one  week   ago  after   dinner  in  upper   side   of  my   mouth    suddenly   a  ball   like   swelling  appeared   which   got   bigger  and  bigger  and   then  broke  ,huge  amount  of  blood   started   to   come  out  of  my   mouth  and  took  almost  20  minutes  to  stop .


I  felt  terrible  pain  in  wound  that  appeared  roof  of   mouth  and  eating  and  swallowing   was  painful  since  then.


Visited   to  doctor   who   checked  and  recommended  some  blood   tests ,gave  some  medicines    and   injections  for  three  days   twice  a  day .


I  asked  him   that   is  this   can  be  mouth   ulcer  he  said   he  too  has  doubt  it  but  let  the  reports  come  first .

Until   now   relief   is    little   though   blood  is  no  more  but  little  swelling  in  throat  is  there. Two  injections   are  left  and   can't  say   that   after  them   what   will  happen   as  doctor  said  if  this  is   not  ulcer  must   be  recovered   with  the   treatment .


So   in  coming   two  days   i  will   find  out  what  it  is  really.  I  read  online  article  which   mentioned  the  REASONS  which  CAUSE  mouth  ulcer  and  nothing  was  which  could  be  apply  on  me   except  that   patient   must  have  tumor  in  head ?

I  know   this  is  dramatically   interesting , reminded  me  movie  STEPMOM  in  which  susan sarandon  had  tumor  and  before  leaving  the  world  she  accepted  the  girlfriend  of  her  husband  as  mother  of her  children.

How  sad  hubby  don't  have  girlfriend (I  THINK  SO :))



                                 Civil hospital khairpur 



if  he  would  ,  i  would  have   accepted  her (if  she  was as  pretty  and  darling as julia roberts  lol !


I  love  LIFE  and  i  am  terribly excited  about  my  state  of  "being  alive"  so   each   breath  i  take  is  LUXURY!!!

                    i found  the  building  beautiful

Inspite  of   all   odds   i  am  Happy  that   i  got  this  very  present  moment  in  my  hand ,looking  at  my   life  blessed   with  LOVING  husband  and  LOVING  kids ,  magical  memories  of  parents  and  grand  parents ,enchantment   of  native  village  memories ,i  am  sooooooooooo 
                     Photo  from park visit last  week 


Blessed  so  happy  specially   that   God   has  blessed  me  

 with   the  REALIZATION   of  all  his  blessings   which  have  made  my   life   so   FULL   So  RICH  So   CONTENT  :)




Love  you  all  dears  ,heartiest   best  wishes  for  your  lovely  lives   and  beautiful  kind  hearts!

God  Bless  You  All!!!


74 comments:

  1. Please keep us posted and hope for the best Baili.

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    1. I will dear Christine!

      thank you for dropping you loving supportive words dear

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  2. oh my gosh ,,, I am so sorry to hear this,, surely this will turn out to be just a mouth ulcer infection and the medication will correct everything,, please take care lovely lady and may I also say its and inspiration to hear you still have your sense of humor,, take care,,

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    1. Thank you my kind dear friend !

      either i hope that it is only minor infection ,what bothers me little is constant blood from mouth since two months but let's not taking it serious i think

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  3. I wish you the best results, Baili. Take care, my friend!

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    1. Thank you dear Marie!

      hope results will not be disturbing ,i hope so

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  4. I'm sorry to hear this, Baili. Please keep us posted. We are all here for you and hoping for the best. xo

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    1. i will keep updating you about the progress dear Martha!

      thank you for warm sweet support my friend!

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  5. Praying for good test results for you, and for your pain to be over with soon.

    You have such a loving family and positive attitude that I feel there will be no need for a Julia Roberts look alike girlfriend, you are going to be just fine as soon as this ulcer heals.

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    1. Hope they will Jimmy!

      haha i won't mind if there is some pretty julia ,only condition that she should take as good care of my kids as their own real mom :)

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  6. We all hope it's nothing serious and keep you in our thoughts... and prayers.
    Big hugs!

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    1. Thank you dearest Sara !

      hoe your photo therapy will continue to heal my days :)

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    1. by the grace of God i will try my best my friend!

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  8. I'm saying a prayer for you now Baili. These health crisis we have later in life create a lot of fear. It is rough not knowing. I hope the mouth ulcer turns out to be something you will heal from. Take care my friend.

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    1. Thank you so much dear Ann!

      i am so lucky to have you as friend with such kind sweet heart my friend!

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  9. My thoughts and prayers are with you. May your doctors be blessed with skill and understanding to help cure your mouth ulcer. Thank you for the reminder to treasure each moment and embrace the joy, love, and wonder of each day.

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    1. thank you precious friend!

      yes this is part to worry about little that if the doctor could understand the real problem .

      I will keep reminding these blessings my friend as LIFE is BEAUTIFUL PRECIOUS GIFT ,how can we waste it in fears and worries ,it is too short really so live the moment with it's fullness dear!

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  10. May the doctors find a cause that is easily and quickly treatable, dear friend! I'll be thinking of you and hoping for the best. You have friends all over the world who are concerned and anxious for your health.

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    1. Amen.

      I am so blessed dear Debra and this is outstanding feeling that i am not friendless any more thank you sooo much for reminding me that all of you precious friends are with me what else i must need now just prays n good wishes GOD BLESS YOU ALL

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  11. It was a very unpleasant surprise for you but you are quite right to enjoy your life and I hope that the doctor will be able to find a helpful treatment. It is hard for a layman to imagine how this event could have happened, but sometimes looking for the answer on the internet gives just the wrong idea, don't you think?

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    1. Yes i have this option in my mind dear Jenny let's see what had life for me next.


      Thank you for kind support my friend

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    1. This is what i need my precious friend! thank you so much for generosity

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  13. Praying that this clear up and the prognosis is a good one.

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    1. Feeling honoured with your kind support Joe ,God bless you too

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  14. Hoping your results find something that is not life threatening and that you will very soon not have this worry hanging over you. The internet can frighten us with too much knowledge.

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    1. Dear Fairy thank you so much for kind words ,either i have same hopes my friend!

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    2. I agree internet can be scary with vast knowledge it has and many times irrevelent things can bother if we get them on our nerves

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  15. That is quite frightening, I am sure, baili. For now, try to trust in your doctor and take things one day at a time. I am always amazed at how cheerful you are and now, even with this medical issue, you are still counting your blessings. You are an inspiration, my dear friend. Hold your family close, and remember we are here holding you close in our thoughts.

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    1. Dearest Jenny i don't kniw even it is surprising for me that why any any kind of difficulty ,pain or misery makes me sad or why it doesn't appear in my consciousness.

      WHAT REMAINS ABOVE EVERYTHING IS GRATEFULNESS FOR WHAT I HAVE AND HOPE THAT MAY BE GOD WILL TURN IT IN MIRACLE FOR ME ONCE AGAIN:
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  16. I so hope the results of the tests turn out well for you. Let us hope for the best and take care of yourself. I admire you for your positiv view on life, love that.
    Hugs from Janneke

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    1. Thank you dear Janneke!

      i too have positive hopes yet i am content what God has for me ahead!

      My faith lies beneath all my positive attitude my friend this is my only treasure

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  17. Baili I'm so worried about you...your attitude is amazing. I sure hope it's nothing more than the ulcer...I'm waiting to find out just like the rest of your friends here. You are the sweetest lady you know that? :)

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    1. Dear Rain you are such a kind and sweet person my friend.


      Thanking each of you from the bottom of my heart precious souls!!!

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  18. A few years ago I had a swelling in my mouth. I had recently had cancer removed from my colon so my dentist thought it might be oral cancer. After some tests we discovered that it was a simple infection. Sometimes the easy thing is what it is. If it is something worse a good humor will help you heal. I will keep you in my thoughts until we find out what it is. Stay happy.

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    1. I am sorry about the cancer my dear Emma!

      glad that you recovered from it successfully ,this is also great that there was nothing serious about mouth swelling ,i hope and pray may it happen same to me dear

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  19. I'm so sorry to hear this, Baili, and I will say a prayer for you, my dear. Sending good thoughts to you on this Sunday afternoon.

    ~Sheri

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    1. Thank you dear Sheri!

      hope your sunday was great with the excitement of christmas preparation my friend

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  20. I am so sorry to hear about this. I hope that your test results bring some good news. I will be thinking of you.

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    1. thank you Brain!

      reports are coming tomorrow and doctor will tell us what to do next

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  21. Sending you my love and prayers for recovery from the swelling in your mouth.

    Trust in your Doctor and assessment from the tests, rather than read possible causes on the internet.

    In the past week I have been having some eye tests due to an anomaly that my optician picked up on a routine eye examination.

    I trusted in the eye practitioner and also myself to explain to him why I had been referred.

    I know it is worrying for you, but trust in your doctor to provide you with the best treatment.

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    1. Dear Cherie thank you so much for dropping your loving words,

      to be honest here is quite mess about doctors .they don't treat patients well and with care when they sit in government hospitals and try to trick patients and avoid curing correctly just because if patients will have right treatment in the govt hospitals no one will come to their private clinics so they indirectly make patients realize that they should go to their clinics so may be they can get good treatment and they get anyway while paying high fees.

      hubby took me to the private clinic when he realized that in civil hospital doctor is not paying attention to the matter .

      This is grace of God that we can afford the expensive treatment but thinking of people who can't makes me so sad

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  22. I hope it is nothing serious, baili. Don't believe all you read on the internet.

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    1. i too hope dear ausiroo!

      and was just curious what is going on so may be it could help

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  23. Don't jump to conclusions and don't self diagnose.
    Wait and hope for the best.

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    1. i am not Pedro ,just trying to know the details about problem ,thank you so much for kind words!

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  24. Baili - don't stress too much, don't try to diagnose yourself but you are certainly wondering what is the problem, well all would if it was us - remember the 'problem' can be fixed these days :)
    Hoping your news is good news - all the best and lots of prayers going your way :)

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    1. stress ....may be not dear Margaret only curiosity and assumptions ,i am not relaying on my readings just only upon my Creator thank you so much for concern my friend

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  25. Oh dear Baili! You always write with such love and joy in your heart, and as you shared about your ongoing medical condition, I too wanted to tell you that I will be praying for you, and there are people all over the world praying for you! Praying that whatever it is will heal up and go away, never to return. Our God is able! So thankful that the Lord has blessed you with a spirit of thankfulness, gratefulness and joy in spite of all the medical problems that you are encountering. But truly our Lord is the greatest physician, and we will continue to pray and believe that the Lord will heal you! Much love to you today dear friend!

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    1. Precious Marilyn!

      i feel speechless front of love that is coming from you , from all of my precious friends ,may God bless you sweet people with more and more joys and prosperity in life amen!


      well said my friend "the God is greatest physician" and i believe that he has good plans for me no one can turn it into worse and if there is a test for me i will try my best to pass it with the help of my FAITH which is my only strength!

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  26. I have confidence that you will be fine, Balli. Positive thinking is so helpful. But I'll be sending love, prayers, and good thoughts. You are a very special person. Stay brave.

    Jane xoxo

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    1. Thank you dear Jane!

      i too found you special friend with generous sweet heart may God keep your confidence right amen

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  27. Desejo-lhe os melhores resultados nesses exames médicos. Tenha esperança.
    Que o seu Natal seja bom e que o Ano de 2018 venha carregadinho de coisas boas.
    Um beijo.

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    1. Thank you so much for kind words dear Grace !

      hope your Christmas be good great too my friend!

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  28. Wishing you and yours the happiest Holiday Season. Love Granny Annie

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    1. Happy holidays dear Annie!

      our's are starting from 22 Dec and my son who is in Munich Germany is going to visit Amsterdam during his holidays ,i am so excited that he it starting his trips to Europe because I just love Europe ,it is fantacy to be there some day to visit

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  29. Dear Baili, you have given me so much encouragement over the years, I hope you will accept mine in return. I need not tell you to keep thinking positively --that is something you have built into who you are. 12 years ago I had a very large tumor (atrial myxoma) inside my heart. If physicians fixed that, they can fix just about anything. Trust in their skill and in your own awesome strength.

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    1. Thank you Geo!!!

      For showing such compaction and concern , i am honoured by your precious words !

      Tumor in heart????

      Oh sounds horrible my friend but it also reveals that IF CREATOR WANTS YOU TO STAY HERE HE MAKES IT HAPPEN THROUGH HIS SOURCES. Can't tell you how much i felt relived with your sharing!
      May you be more blessed with perfect health and positive strength, Amen

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  30. Baili, I am sending my love and light to you for the days ahead. You are, as many above have mentioned, an inspiration and a source of light for many. Hoping we can give YOU a bit of the same in these uncertain days. Your own perspective is reassuring. I can't say when or how it happened for me but, slowly, the passing of time seems to awaken that realization in us that time is precious, each day, each breath. . . a luxury, as you so we'll said.

    Thank you for sharing too Baili, it's important that we all share what we've been graced with, the positive and the negative, as we walk our paths.

    Blessings to you dear one.

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    1. Thank Nicolas for showering upon my heart your precious kind words, they mean Lot n Lot to me!

      My life has ups and downs like everyone else though but i don't how that how miraculously someone owned me so starangely .this is beyond my understanding that how is surrounded me with his love and presence. Each hardship, each misery and each problem seems to be solved by his magic .i did not konw who is he even when i used to talk with him as my imaginary friend .

      I realised far later that who else can do this , who has such powers to turn impossible in possible and i named him "CREATOR " feeling him with and around makes me light and serene .i do my best to face worldly problems and then rest leave upon my CREATOR i always am content with what he decided or decides for me.

      I am so lucky n blessed to have friends like you. May you and you all be blessed with peace of heart and beautiful life amen

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  31. Dear Baili, please do let us know what the diagnosis is when you receive it from the doctor. How scary this all must be--the swelling in the mouth, the bleeding, the not being able to eat easily, the worry of what it could be and what it could mean for your life. Please know that I am sending playful thoughts and healing your way. I see you surrounded by healing with it light.

    Your attitude is inspiring. Thank you for sharing it with us. Peace during this season of hope and expectation.

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    1. Thank you dear Dee for dropping your supportive words!

      I will definitely be sharing updates of my health issues.

      May you and your family be blessed with health peace n joy my friend!

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  32. My wife and I pray with all our hearts that you will be well.

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    1. Thank you John i really appreciate your precious words and support.
      May you and your dear wife be blessed with great health peace n joy in life amen

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  33. Wish you all the best and hope that when you hear wat is wrong that its still not so bad that they can help you ...

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    1. Either i am hopping same my friend!

      Truly grateful for your sweet response my friend!

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  34. Remember, we love you and are sending you the best of wishes, for your health! Please take care Baili! Big Hugs!

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    1. Believe me i do dear Stacy!

      And feeling so blessed n lucky to have all you kindred spirits around me

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  35. Take good care, Baili, and let us know what happens. I send you a big big hug and keep you in my thoughts. You are an inspiration.
    Amalia
    xo

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  36. So sorry to read about this, sending lots of positive thoughts and good wishes to you.

    All the best Jan

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  37. Here is hoping all is well and you have just been watching too many sad movies! But keep us all posted please baili because until you have word that all is definitely well I would worry also.

    It cannot hurt after all this is over to see a dentist and be sure you have no absesses or anything like that.

    And next time, straight to the doctor you go please. :)

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  38. Even when I am unable to visit your blog, Baili, you are in my thoughts and prayers. I would be worried, too, if I thought I had a serious health issue. Here's hoping that by now you have had this resolved. It's possible, as Christine suggested above, that you might have had a dental infection. They can be serious and extremely painful, especially an abscessed tooth or gum. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

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