Scholarship Hunt ,Urdu Blog Update And Answer To Sandi And Sheri

 Hello  Beautiful Hearts

First  of all thank you so much for sweet words and best wishes for my  other Urdu blog . Your kindness is always uplifting for me believe me :)

I  was busy with some chores related to my younger son's admission in university since two days . Actually i was trying if he can get scholarship  as his percentage is good 70 % in matriculation (10th grade) and  66% in first year in high school. 

We haven't received result of second year due to covid thing.Though universities are allowing  entry in trail test on the base of  first year's  result slip. All scholarship that we tried during both days were so many but all demanded same at the end. Two type of student can have this facility. One who have gained  any of  early three position in class. Second who are  very poor. We could not fit in both category unfortunately . My husband's salary is quite good but still fees are universities are too high .It is hard for us to manage such heavy fee along with other house expenses .

Actually another type of student can also take advantage of these scholarship .Firstly they have to pay off the whole semester fee to get admission and then show good performance and achieve high credits so they can get scholarship . I found this weird .If someone is able to pay why would he ask for scholarship  anyway ?  My eldest son could get scholarship because then hubby's salary was quite less than now .

We have applied in few national universities with fogy mind.Lets see what happens next .

Now about new blog . I have created  another blog to save my poetry indeed but i haven't posted anything due to lack of time. Nor i ave shared links of both blogs to each other .I will hopefully from tomorrow.

Now  answer to dear Sandi  who asked if i speak Urdu ?

Yes my national language is Urdu dear Sandi and it was so  lovely  to hear an Urdu sentence from you :)))

Dear  Sheri form Red rose alley  just like you i am not good at technical stuff . When it comes to learn how to deal with blogger or exchange links i am horrible 

 for blogging my all thanks goes to my precious eldest son who always encourages me to have blog and write regularly .He has been supporting me with my poetry since he was in school and one he found out that i write one.

We share same hearts so  i find him not just one of the most precious gift of my lord but a kind friend too !!!

Thank you once again for all the goodness you shower upon me friends!

stay blessed with faith hope and true happiness !

Take care!

New Blog And Hot Days

I  am using new them of blogger since few weeks . It was hard to follow in beginning though i think i am being familiar with it slowly .

Today when i sat to write post my mind was totally blank . Then suddenly  i thought about  creating another blog . I hardly can deal with my single blog already why another then ?

Well since years i was often reminded by my eldest son to write another blog where i can share my old poems in native language. When i told him that i don't have  visitors who can understand my long ago done poetry in native language . He said by time may be  i can have visitors  who like to read  urdu poetry ".This way my poetry will be saved too " he added .

So i did it today . Thank to google as i had to ask for help each step to create  new blog on blogger .It was easy yet little tough for first trier.But i am not satisfy translator  would translate it appropriately :(

When it was done i felt better. It is weird but i love my poems that i used to write when i was young . May be it is natural for a writer to like his works but i remember that after marriage when my brain was stuck for years and i could not write for years .I was not excited to write once again when that blockage was gone .I did not write any of them on paper but would send it to my friends or my son who would appreciate and ask to write it and preserve so he can publish them someday.

I don't know why i did such carelessness but i wasted quite a part of my nice poetry  written during 2003 to 2010 i think .

I know that each form of creativity is important and we should respect skills that lord has blessed us with .If in future i will find way to write poetry in native language again i will save it by publishing .

Days are extremely hot though it is airy and i am happy about it. Rain is falling in different parts specially northern parts but not here ,i am still grateful . We are enjoying our days at home together . No clue when academic institutions will open . Schools have started online classes thankfully .

Keep taking great care dear friends!

i wish you all the happiness and peace in days ahead!

 

Solar Eclipse And Lunar Birthday

It has  been  hot  here ,really hot actually .Temps  been spinning around above and below 50 C. Airy  weather  been great helped to avoid  stress that  extreme heat has brought on us. Each time When i pull up bucket of moment from the well of  life ,it has some water of hope for me ,and if it's not i think may be i missed the bottom :)

I really don't know what i just wrote friends but i had to otherwise my hands were tied to type further lol

We witnessed solar eclipse after many years i guess. When light started to dim slowly i  immediately looked at sun .It felt like loosing it's sharpness .Then i remember that hubby told yesterday that solar eclipse will occur tomorrow .My heart  filled with excitement suddenly . I tried hard to observe that magical moment with my bare eyes but invain .My both son also left their laptops and came out in front yard .My younger son brought an x ray sheet and looked through it.Result was astonishing so he called me and asked to do same . Oh it was unbelievably beautiful and enchanting !

We witnessed whole process by peaking through x ray sheet time to time.Moon took almost two  hours to cross between sun and earth .My imagination was another great support to see it from close :) it was extraterrestrial  and phenomenal indeed! I am happy i could see it in this part of life as next one probably will occur  after me . 

I took this image when i realized that light is dimming  and views looked mysteriously beautiful!

i think it was almost 10 am .While morning recitation in our veranda i felt that light is weakening slowly ,i went out if it was getting cloudy but sky looked as clear as conscience of saint still it was amazing to find sudden reduction in heat as some kind heart placed umbrella upon our heads :)

My younger son took so many shots through his phone Samsung A 50 but no success until he placed x ray sheet before lenses 

how thrilling to be able to watch such phenomenal event :) this universe is too big to fit in even our imagination and imagining all the happening within it makes me feel so small yet so blessed and fortunate as human .as human brain is designed to bring all the answers that this  universe offers ,both are meant for each other ,what a love story !

i hope someday humans will so enlightened and will quit all the stupid  useless quarrels and focus their energies on right directions to unfold mysteries of this life and universe . I can see human flying like fireflies among the countless stars and planets  floating in the space .i believe it will happen may after thousand years but it will 

My eldest son sent me few images last day . He participated in birthday gathering of one of his closest friend .On left   lovely gorgeous  birthday lady stands .Super smart ,active and amazingly kind ,i have met her mother and sister when we visited Karachi .Beautiful family with wise mom and ambitious kids ,i liked them all. On right another friend common friend of both ,i know less about her except she is so caring and  generous 

this is great to find happiness and opportunity to gather with friends when world is  going through weird times .

I don't think life can be perfect for anyone on this planet forever . It seems  a perfect examination hall and we all are giving our exams since we are able to think and solve .

And we will be doing so until our last breath .

It's okay to fail few once or few times i think.

It matters less how many times we have passed it 

But it matters most how much we have learnt from our previous failures .

Stay blessed with hope that comes along undefeated faith in Lord and yourself  dear friends!

be kind to yourself as you are PRECIOUS!

Breezy Weather And Self pity

 Since some days  it's airy .And it fills my heart  with deepest joy to see waving green branches of my neem  tree  dancing happily. 

This is amazing how air pour soul through scenes. Same views without air stay still  silently and  lifeless. Gentle gusts of winds playing with plants and tree branches  bring happiness  everywhere eyes  can see.I just wanted to share this joy of mine with you but no image could convey the whimsical   beauty of moments i am experiencing. Temps are spinning around 50 but airy weather has made me forget about it :)

Since few weeks i am more busy with some chores like helping my elder son to look for  suitable universities and apply .He will be eighteen in next February though he still is not mature or active enough to take care of these matters by himself like his eldest brother .So i have to remind him and make him pursue for  everything .For this i have t sit with him these days until we are done with necessary process .

Since i  have recovered from fever i am also receiving  calls from  few of my  school friends  regularly.They seem exhausted with lockdown  actually. So i am discovering  knowledge that could have not come across if this lockdown would have  not happened .

We (hubby and me) are watching a turkish drama actually two turkish  dramas and one english  Anne with an E now days. Each has different mood and taste.I am loving them all.

Anne 's  wild imagination is something to which i can relate strongly :) Her  powerful  and endless love for Nature ,everything and for all people around her also seems familiar to one i hold inside me .It strengthens me that there exist some more like me.

But at the same time it saddens me that i can also relate to another character in another drama we are watching . 

The  female character who is in love with married (this is not what i relate) man.An irresponsible man who doesn't care for his family though he loves them .Specially he loves his ex wife who left him for his laziness and his irresponsible attitude towards his family. His ex wife is also almost a mental case and disappear from house time to time with other men without thinking about her kids. Despite of her immodesty  and divorce that man still likes being with his ex wife and not one in neighborhood who is kind sweet lady and who loves him so much .

He appreciate her qualities of decency and caring about him and his family though and stays at her home mostly as she is great cook and perfect housewife package . But to him she is Boring and not adventurous like his ex wife.

When he mentions to his ex wife that he finds lady who loves him  so Boring . It touched me .It suddenly opened windows to past . Boring  seems word meant to only for me then and until now .

I was helpless because i was made this way "Boring" .When girls in school would talk about "girlish stuff" i would find it annoying because i was boring.None of their favorite topic would excite me . My village girl friends and cousins  would get angry because of restrictions i would apply on them as condition for my friendship.

My male cousins would hate me for my boyish behavior instead of  being  delicate and shy and knocking  them out  for their any attempt to bother me. Though they  would not think it was bothering at all.

I was told by many including my loved ones that i will be left alone because no one will find me funny or interesting. After marriage it feared me but it was special grace of lord that my weirdness did not irritate hubby .If it did he did not tell me. He  wellcomed me in his life even when he knew how  scarily  boring i was. Once before marriage  when he tried to hold my hand i said "it is wrong" he said how do you know it is ?

I replied a work that makes me feel shy and uncomfortable is wrong surely because i know that  while doing right thing i never feel burdened or nerves .I did not tell him that i never felt shy when i had to beat boys for their mischief .

Hubby settled down with my boredom  slowly . I felt sorry for him and so many times thought that he deserve some  cool wife with interesting attitude .Believe it or not i asked him to have one so i can feel my conscience free but he just smiled or laughed .

There was short phase of self pity in my married life. I think nothing is more dangerous than self pity .It rip off one's self confidence and shake his being as string blown in air helplessly. But i came out of it soon miraculously .It was reformation time for me. Now, when i look back at that woman ( ex me) i find her still like flying string in the air but not helplessly .But with vigorous  sense of freedom and joy. And both relying on wings of undefeated faith. Faith in my creator and faith in myself. Love surrounds me and love within me .I am drop traveling back to my ocean while singing gratefully and joyously!

Precious friends stay blessed with best of you :)

 

wishing you all more shower of his blessings!

take care!