my recent random stuff

hello friends ,i hope and pray that every body is having great time and living each moment of its with complete beauty and importance,
my days are passing in helping my younger son for his very close exams ,and all house stuff ,spring is spreading its pretty and colorful wings all around,my garden is bit sad this year ,because since my husband got promotion in his job he added more responsibilities as well as facilities,so among all my garden is being ignored ,i am trying to learn to do it by myself as he returns almost in the evening ,my first effort looks successful because after some digging around the old plants they start breathing well i think, so i am seeing them feeling the spring well, now i am going to try some new plants,need all of you to wish me luck because these are my weakness .
now i want to say some thing which i think i should share with my friend ,as i mentioned earlier that computer is completely new thing for me and i learn to post my writing by my own from my eldest son,there are so many things which i really dont know about internet and computer, especially the short language who often use in comments ,in my recent post below there was a comment from Mr lexi that he wants to links exchange ,i asked my son and he explained that it means i have to put the name of his site in my blog list as i did other sites of my friends ,

here i want to say that during the blog i saw many times blog lists ,and i did same due to think that it will help me to get updates about my friends blogs and it is helping me this way,it has nothing to do with link exchange,,that is all i wanted to say ,and best of luck to all of you for your goals in life,god bless you all

Beggar Of Your Love (poem)

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standing all alone,
in busy street of life,

waiting for you ,may will come from any side ,
i am begging for your
one and only smile ,

without any destination though,
running all time ,fast and slow,
do you think me ,during in the race
give me answer ,do not turn your face,

i am melting ,turning into sand ,

have me in hand, and then blow away,
or give me smile , and i will be ok.

Curse (piece from my prose)

today when clouds suddenly came and cover the blue face of sky with gray ,baili hold my hand and flew towards the highest hill ,when we both landed on the top i thought i can touch clouds if i raise my hand ,breeze had the fragrant and freshness of coming spring ,we were looking at the view of the busy city down there ,i think it will be raining again soon ,i said with joy ,
you like rain hmm baili asked like i said some wrong ,
yes ,who doesn't i replied ,
she smiled and looked at me like i was a child ,and said there are so many people who dont want rain because they cannot handle the damage it causes to them ,when you enjoy the hot drinks beside the heater in your big warm house while raining do you ever think about people who dont have shelters not even warm clothes on ,and if they have one it has not enough strong roof to protect them from rain , they spent their days and nights in deep worry while you celebrate the rain
i was silent then i did not say what should i reply to her ,then she she suddenly ask a strange question do you think i am sick ,

i looked at her surprisingly and asked why are you saying this,
she replied ,i am bearing my strange attitude to wards life since years ,i never met any one like me ,some time life seems a curse on me,i just want to know that why me ,why every single thing effects me then others ,when i eat i see the people beyond my eyes starving for piece of bread ,mothers having babies in their arms dying with hunger ,how can you eat with peace while watching all this,when i lay to sleep and put my blanket i cannot stop thinking of them who don't have such comfort to sleep and coldness is shaking them like death storm,
she stopped her eyes were lost in destinations what she was talking about,
i did not said any word just hugged her tight for long,on our returning i was thinking that i did not think this way ever am i so selfish ,

Shocking Accident

hello dear friends ,i hope and pray that all of you are in blessings of dear god , previous some days were pretty shaking for me, as you know i was expecting my sister this month ,but last night she called and told me that she delayed it for some time,because her mother in law had an accident and has some serious injury in her back ,doctors have decided for operation within next two days ,she was very worried about it because her husband is only one son to his mother and he really care about her ,my heartiest prayers for her ,i hope she will be better soon ,and my sister will visit us happily ,more then her i am strawing to see my niece ,


since she has a baby girl i am feeling half mother of her i know it sounds crazy but i am really thankful to dear god that he did not blessed me with daughter but at least my sister has one ,in over here niece calls her aunt MASI ,which means like a mother .
now let me share with you the other mishap ,about four days ago my younger son came from school and gave me a paper which was informing that his annual exams are starting after a week ,it was shock for me ,i used to receive this kind of paper at least twenty days before exams ,i got so much busy with helping him it while working in kitchen ,watching my favorite show and even while eating i was trying to make him remember the things ,you will say it is not right way ,but what if you don't have right time for it ,


i made him study even while i was reading and commenting my fellow bloggers BUT suddenly my husband told me that he talked with school principle and he is saying that it is some kind of miss printing of date numbers ,exams are staring from 8 march ,wasn't i right about the school ,but i think it made me my husband think seriously about other school ,thanks to all of you for reading my miserable stories ,have great day every one