Thursday, February 24, 2022

The Soul Desire !

 

Life is miracle indeed but it is sad that it is too short to learn about life itself and everything related to it directly or indirectly .


It makes realize how "little" we know specially when we accept our ignorance and decide to erase it with" learning " slowly . According to my knowledge people seek for inner peace and long for deeper knowledge when they grow old and this makes me feel happy for those fortunate who fall in love with learning and research in their early period of life because they have more time to spend in this struggle .

I would have count myself among those fortunate probably if i have get time and chance to learn whatever i wanted to without being worried about anything else . No i am not complaining just in the deeper corner of my heart i have thirst for learning which still waits to rain of time and opportunity. I think it's okay to have such longing and sharing it with friends who understand me ( i believe ).

But i fear of life that ends without having such desire at all or any kind of desire i must say .Desire is sign of life and makes one to move further to achieve something. I don't know i will be able to achieve something in my life ever ,i mean achieve something i myself choose and want to achieve for the sake of my inner satisfaction and joy .

My desire to learn has grown enough to look for more meaningful things ( meaningful for me i mean) rather than just entertaining . I sometimes hated my sky stare habit as it hurts my neck but believe it or not i honestly realize that there is some force hidden inside me that makes me do so for years and years and it is driving me crazy  because i feel i am being pulled by something who wants me to do something ,do what i don't know but all i know that with each day passing passion for learning is growing powerful than ever before. Specially desire to learn bout universe and the way she behaves through her all appearances . I felt this appeal since i was child ,my eyes kept searching something beyond obviousness . I did not know what i was looking for but now i feel i was looking for "soul" within things that looked so ordinary to us because we had accepted them as normal and usual stuff that we took granted as spice .

When i say i don't credit myself for something like "desire " for learning i say this because i feel this desire and follow this instinct effortlessly so i should say i was born with it. Why ?

When  Science defines physical brain and how it acts through millions of neuron and all the electrical and chemical activity inside it i still wonder about amazing  human " feelings" and "emotions "that made their place in the map of history because they experienced them inside and made difference in world outside them . I wonder about glorious types of art and their sublimity that took place in someone's mind and brought him fame till eternity. What about great people like Einstein and Galileo ? Were they given extra chemical to think deeper or imagine reality as wonderfully that science  takes their words as last until  now ?

I love science but i feel reluctant to it when i feel i have to wait long for believing in " soul side of the universe" until science finds way to prove it.

While writing this post i am forced to think similarly that what on earth had made me pull out piece of time from the tight dryer of routine and write this all ?

Isn't it my restless mind or soul who want to reflect its point with the help of my physical brain and fingers of course .I when while writing this post tried to look here definition of "creative minds i was hold by line "creativity is basic  part of human thinking" ?

Did i need to read further to learn what is creativity . I think we should stop here and think "why and what makes it possible?"

I think only one thing makes it possible and it is " desire" We are given certain kinds of " hungers or desires" most of which are related to our physical existence. We strike physically to satisfy them.

But what was point to give us desire to "create something " ?

Does it has something to do with our any physical need ? i don't think so .All creative people who felt compelled to create something inevitably and created it eventually hardly got worldly profit for it or at once at least unless their creation is famous and others loved it enough to pay for it. All who had such creative skills did art because they felt they found pleasure in doing so but pleasure came later and desire came earlier so "desire" is foundation for art ,desire that does not relate to body at all .

My younger son has downloaded " Galileo's  Error " by Philip Goff for me in Kindle and i am reading it since few days ,hardly few pages a day . Philip Goff is British author ,Consciousness researcher and specialized professor of " mind  philosophy " in Durham university UK. In his book Goff has shared his views that he holds for human mind and how Universe may be has intelligence and we human  have inherited it from her because we are part of universe . Though Philip Goff   is joining the scientists who are few and share same point of view with him . Science research has been belong to our physical aspect since centuries but i think there were people time to time who might have thought similarly but were silent so no one can make fun of them as we know that we all prefer to follow the flowing wave or keep quiet .

I am on 18th page probably and enjoying this read because it describes what i had in mind unconsciously for decades and now consciously but lack of knowledge seize me down to speak about it.

Philip presents his arguments that science explains how human eye perceive the color or human tongue taste the sourness but the " experiencing the redness of rose or taste of sourness is something impossible to explain for science until now .

I agree with thought that science  could not find way to define how human mind is different than brain and where is the point where "mind " interacts" with brain and influence it's activities.

I can say this because i correctly remember that i was cleaning front yard with broom when anchor on the radio said piece of poetry which was kind of query actually . I cannot remember any intentional effort to what i wrote in reply within few minutes and i wrote it on the empty box of shoes ,it was very first piece of my poetry. I was around eight or nine probably. Till this day i do same .I can write when it comes to my mind only other wise there is no writing at all like this i am writing today. It is hard to believe it is my brain who is making me write and stop and than write because i can feel that ,

"writing is spontaneous activity of my mind or soul and when i do it i feel it is best thing i can do in this existence "

Hope i did not bother you precious friends!

thank you for bearing with me ,i would love to hear what you think about "soul" of the universe which became part of our existence because we are part of it .

Please keep being kind to you and all around you ,this is the only way through which  can make our existence successful !

hugs and blessings! 

34 comments:

  1. Curiosity and the desire to learn are great gifts! They make life interesting and fresh!

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    1. It is impossible to imagine world where people live only fulfil to their physical needs sounds terrible to me .
      Art is only thing on earth that keep our spiritual side awake and don't let us sink into dark heavy waters of harsh reality

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  2. I love reading your thoughts and ideas. As an artist and coming from an artistic family, there is a learned desire to create for me. Now that I am older that desire has changed a bit as has my art. I used to teach spiritual arts classes and often I heard from students, "I don't have a creative bone in my body." I would ask, "Do you have the desire to create"? If so, then you can create. Have a really lovely day.

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    1. Dear Nichol thank you for sharing your thoughts it really matters for me

      I think like everything else the desire to create something has some purpose and origin of this desire must be soul or consciousness which want to convey herself through expression we choose to create .it not just art or expression but language of divine intelligence to make us understand things beyond mere pysical reality

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  3. Baili, another podcast, Phillip Goff being interviewed by Lex Fridman:

    https://youtu.be/BCdV6BMMpOo

    Thought you'd like it!

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    1. Oh i just saw small part of first episode dear Sandi
      Thanks anyway
      I will try to see all Philip Goff has to say about panphychism . It's nice to have someone speaking your heart in his words

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  4. Kindness to oneself is as important as kindness to others.

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    1. dear Marie what a beautiful thought

      for me kindness is sense of great respect for all and everything around me ,i agree that if i can't pay due respect to my own self i can't respect others too

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  5. First thought that came to me - we are all God's expression - unlimited, never bound by ideas or imaginations - it's a source that is never exhausted but to touch the source, in my opinion, and my experience, is to silence the doubts and the questions and begin to Know that in the moment...just be present....and the inspiration comes from our "Holy Spirit" or as i know it to be "Whole Spirit" which is truly our right mind, not the mind made up by physical laws...egoic...good and bad ...light and dark...) It is the Awakened part of us ..our Holy Spirit .whole spirit who guides us to have a dream and allow it touch our soul and play out in time until we decide to give up on time and join the Whole for an experience I can't wait to have. That's the inspiration that came to in this moment.

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    1. fascinating and beautiful thought dear Sandy ,thank you for sharing your insight !
      i share your faith that being part of "wholeness " or i must say "divine whole intelligence" we are allowed to dive in this ocean of endless possibilities and find what inspire us most and adopt it as way to express what we feel about it .
      i think the best part of this " opportunity to exist" is that we can choose by free will what we want to be ,this free will is actual source of nature how much she cares for her creations .
      will power and free will are two divine and obvious factors that point out strongly our second and enlightened side of existence call it consciousness or soul Nature is not leaving you alone after sending in this world but despite of "free will" she is waiting within you to step inward and take guidance from her because
      " free will makes it both for you most easy and yet most difficult to act because you have not allowed to act thoughtlessly ,if it happens there are always consequences ,it is incredibly delicate game i feel

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    2. the thought came of My dinner with Andre - a movie a long time ago. i thought how fun it would be to have a "my dinner with Baili" we could talk and enjoy much conversation.

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    3. oh it would be my deepest pleasure to have conversation with person like with such creative and thoughtful mind dear Sandy ,i am looking for such rich opportunity since ages my friend

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  6. What makes things complicated is that there are many desires. You know where you want to go. Others have there own interests that they want to pursue. You ask some questions that are worth thinking about.

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    1. dear Red

      i think as because we have a little part of enormous consciousness we no different than our divine source ,the nature we are born with and the habits we develop with time make us person we are ,desire we choose to pursue in life can be from both sides we have as "human being" our brain reaction to our worldly wishes and dreams " and a natural desire from our soul side " the former can be denied may be ( i think) but the later is coded in your dna ( i believe) and you are obliged to follow it consciously or unconsciously .
      no matter what desire we pursue we all still seems to do our part in this whole reality i believe because nothing is random here specially according to what science bring to us ,giving it a panoramic look nothing seems random at all

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  7. We are going trough a very hard time, baili.
    The lunatics really have taken over the asylum.
    Have a great weekend

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    1. we will be suffering from the consequences of our shortsightedness dear Pedro

      each of us is serving personal benefit and this is leading us towards great loss ,once we or out of shell we will be able to see "reality" with clear vision and that might help us to awake little bit to choose better option which can prove good for us .this is only option for successful survival on earth

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  8. I would enjoy sitting down with you and having a heart to heart chat, you have a poetic soul and you are a searcher as I am.

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  9. oh that is so kind of you dear Terra !

    i myself would love to hear your precious thoughts on matters you love to discus about :)

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  10. dear Terra being born with curious hearts makes us take a deep look of things ,observe and analyze ,i am enjoying this gift and hope so do you :)

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  11. I was born curious. I have never really craved things in my life. Sure, I want a comfortable house, but my house is small and its furnishings are modest because whatever extra money I have goes into travel. Time I could spend making money to buy more things, I use to write and to blog because blogging and writing has put me in touch with more people from all over the globe, so that is my hobby and how I learn from the world without spending money.

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  12. According to my observations people born with certain curiosity such as life and universe and all about it care less about materialistic things or lifestyle. Their curiosity keeps them wondering about facts they see around and they put their more effort in finding answers of questions poking their mind dear Elzabeth.

    I really wonder if curiosity belong to our physical brain rather than conscious mind .

    Unobserveable things like curiosity, imagination and creativity are sure belong to higher level of intelligence and nature has allowed us to experience them for higher reason certainly

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  13. An interesting post Baili, thank you.

    Enjoy the coming weekend.

    All the best Jan

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  14. Your post, as always, is thought provoking although I don't look very deeply at the kind of questions you have for myself, I find my inner peace with acceptance.

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    1. acceptance is magical dear Betty and it delivers peace of mind that opens doors for many to observe more closely and contemplate for spiritual growth ,probably we all have this instinct but it vary in ways of perception i think :)

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  15. I enjoyed your thoughts, Baili and understand them, as I am also a seeker of knowledge. From the time I was very young I wanted to understand human nature, the heavens and as much as I could learn about the world. I was not able to go to college, but this has not stopped me from learning through books and other sources. I guess you could say I have an 'open mind', but I am also very careful of my sources and discriminating in what I believe. I do think that we are spirits having a human experience and that we are divine and have as much knowledge available to us as we are willing to learn. We are all on our own personal soul journey - each in their own time. Happy learning, fellow seeker! xx K

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    1. dear Karen i wrote response to your beautiful comment but our power went off and it was vanished then i wrote it as a small posting because it includes few points i wanted to write in next post but i did now

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  16. O seu desejo e curiosidade de aprender, aliados ao querer uma paz interior que lhe preencha o espírito, fazem de si a pessoa maravilhosa que é.
    Uma boa semana com muita saúde.
    Um beijo.

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    1. without learning we are incomplete i think dear Grace because leaning changes our perspective about everything almost and top of it is we our own true selves ,discovering our inner universe makes us better person indeed

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  17. Your curiosity and desire to learn is obvious to anyone who has been following your posts, Baili. I hope at some point you will have the time to learn more than what you have been managing to so far. There are many people like you who, because of life circumstances, have had to set aside their dreams to study something that they wanted to and take on adult responsibilities. Sometimes these dreams are deferred forever; sometimes circumstances change and they can pursue them.

    My mother's big dream was to go to university, even though no one from her family had ever gone. After WWII ended, she went to university with financial help as an air force veteran. She met my dad, they married, and then she had me. She was still attending university along with my father when his father died and his mother was left alone. My grandmother was sick, so my father finished his last months at university and returned home to help his mother.

    My mother still had a year to go, but she left as well. Life took over, she had four more children, but she never gave up her dream. She took correspondence courses and occasional summer courses, and she graduated from university the year I started university.

    She was like you, studying anything she could whenever she found some time. She was still learning when she died, studying art and water color painting even though she was restricted by kidney dialysis three times a week. She believed you could learn all of your life. She is just one example of a person who had to delay or give up dreams because of life.

    My parents big dream was that all of their children, one son and four daughters, would graduate from university. They sacrificed so many things they wanted to make that dream come true. We all graduated. I see you and your husband inspiring that love of learning in your sons. I think raising children well, giving them strong values, and instilling a love of family and a respect for work is the most important "job" of all. I hope that you will eventually have time to study as you would like to. Meanwhile you are doing an amazing job of learning as well as you can. You are an inspiration.

    There is more I could say, but this comment is long enough. I have Phillip Goff's book, but won't be able to read it until I return home.

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  18. tears falling from my eyes dear Louise while reading how much your mom loved learning !

    it is again a mother who sow seeds of any passion in her child's mind .
    like me so you and your all siblings are graduated because your parents your mother particularly loved studies and learning and inspired you all to go for it not just inspired but supported fully to pursue this dream dear Louise . when i read or hear such heart warming stories it makes me hopeful that world is going to be find until such mothers exist who ingest goodness and passion for learning in their next generation .
    oh thank you so much for sharing that you have Philip's book ,i am hardly on eightieth page and i am already in love with his previously written book consciousness and fundamental reality .

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  19. We are born to be curious and inquisitive, it is a natural instinct as a child. Not everyone as they grow up and older remember the initial compulsive instinct.

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