Reel of life seems to run in fast forward these days .A day has become like a small bag pack in which bundle of business is hard to fit.
We moms may often have thought in life that once children are grown no worries anymore but then we learn that problems grow with children and require far more attention than mere to change diaper .
Time standing still within the universe since centuries is playing with us like a child play with toys.He seems impatient and curious more than ever. His passion for learning is way to spoil and break us away with assurance that supply of new toys to him is never ending. For him we are subjects only .So hopping for sympathetic attitude is folly .
All we can do is to keep trying to fit in the mechanism called "routine of life". And try to do it safely .
Sometimes i think it is unfair to grow wise in age when time ,energy and space remains short for an individual .Life can be astonishingly easy and serene if one is able to earn insight in early part of age. I am fifty i think .Okay i have two date of births. One i read in mom's diary (father would write it for mom ,special dates and events etc) .Other was written in my school admission card .I was born in 12.11.1969 according to mom's diary though only year is changed in school card ,it is 1971. So back to point i am fifty and i don't know i will have to leave this world . But to be honest since i felt i am understanding life more than i did once . It is hard to accept that i will not be able to spread this goodness further .The goodness that comes along with the understanding of life .Am i being pathetic ?
Forgive me if i am . Actually my last two boys born bit late.And i feel my energy level lower than require efforts regarding their current issues . We got emails from some universities which show that we have lost to get any scholarship fort this year particularly . We will have to wait for next year now . And i hope i will be living then and with at least same energy level lol.
Okay compensation to avoid my weird words :)
this image looked fine in phone but here it looks blurred , summer greenery is overwhelming and enchanting indeed, Bursting beauty of nature in my small garden brings so much joy in my heart and my eyes get tears of gratitude inevitably
seeing sweet inviting smile of nature at once in morning brings pleasure to soul ,this is noon flower (translation of local name) ,we used to have other colors of it as well like white and purple but only pink this year
i do little bit of my yoga right front of this so i observe how it's petals open eyes soothingly as sun rises, like all waters fall into ocean ,everything take me to the spiritual connection with my Lord ,including this miracle
8 am when i woke up breeze was playing with branches of neem tree exquisitely ,chirping of birds and playful noise of leaves connect me to him directly
embracing sunlight my neem tree looks majestic and cherished and i feel so complete , serene and grateful ,how nature heals us is magical indeed ,a look that long for meaning of life can absorb essence of love that Lord has for us.
i did not bother hubby or kids to take bike aside as they were in awakening process i just snapped
abruptly few sunflowers who are trying to survive through 50 plus C
our climber is flowering heavily though leaves are unable to achieve their genuine pink color which is gorgeously dark pink
Stay blessed with hope that grow out of Faith ,Faith that holds you firm and happy through odds.
i wish you lots of joy and peace each day dear friends!
Take care!
Beautiful garden flowers! I fell your mom's diary is correct, school records can be entered incorrectly, wonder who registered you?
ReplyDeletemy maternal grandma
Deleteprobably i was year older than school required age
Hello Baili, perhaps we should not worry too much about age but about how we feel, I am 61 and try not to identify with any age group. Your courtyard garden is so pretty, it must be hard work to keep it watered in such strong heat. Blessings to you Baili.
ReplyDeleteyes Betty and this is why we avoid to grow vegetable because we can't stand heat
DeleteHow lovely to wake up in the morning and see beautiful flowers and the tops of your neem tree basking in the sun, Baili! I'm not sure whether to call your white blossoms plumeria or frangipani. Regardless they are in the same genus and look very similar. Your noon flower is what we call a carnation. I don't know the name of your flowering climber, but it is gorgeous. Thanks for sharing your beautiful morning with us. I got my beans on. They have to bake for about 10 hours. Next the cake. Then the spare ribs. Terry is very excited at the thoughts of our July 4th feast! Hugs to you, Baili! Stay as cool as you can, and God's blessings to you and your family. Stay safe!!!
ReplyDeletehope your beans went well and delicious Louise :)
Deletethank you for sharing name
yes it is plumeria i just googled
Beautiful flowers! I hope you're all staying safe from the corona virus.
ReplyDeleteuntil now we are safe by the grace of Lord Debra !
DeleteYour flowers are beautiful. I find that when we give our love to flowers they reward us with their beauty! You have done a good job with your flowers.
ReplyDeleteOh this is all hubby's hard work Angela
Deletei am hardly done with house chores :)
You have such pretty flowers in your courtyard. Nature brings me peace and gratitude too.
ReplyDeleteit does indeed :)
DeleteRecords can be wrong. I’d trust my mother’s date.
ReplyDeleteMy grandmother said her birthday was March 31st. When we obtained her birth certificate, it said Jan 31st. We always celebrated in March.
i agree that i would prefer date mentioned by mom ,it was written but mom was EXCELLENT with memorizing all types of date
Deletewe always been surprised with her ability to remember dates
We are not wise when we are young because we would not then be open to the experiences that make us wiser. We need to be a bit reckless to explore and learn.
ReplyDeletei agree Emma
Deletestill sometimes i think there must be some way to learn sooner :)
Baili, there are many quotes dealing with age and perhaps it truly is a matter of mind because if you don't feel older and think and act that way than your mind will act younger. Does this make any sense? Sorry to read that your son did not get any scholarships this year, perhaps things will be different next year. The flowers are lovely and sunflowers have always been a favorite of mine as they always look cheerful and bright.
ReplyDeleteactual date for apply were disturbed due to pandemic and we missed later one
Deletei agree that to some point attitude plays quite roll to deal with aging though not completely :)
I wish that life was a little less busy and that rind was going by a little slower. It would be nice if things slowed down a bit.
ReplyDeleteThose are such beautiful flowers.
Have a great day!
there were times in past when i felt time is moving so slow Brain
Deletebut now it seems to be running without a friendly waving
Hello Baili...you are young my friend. Fifty is a good age. Love your garden. It is such a delight to see what blooms in other parts of the world. Yes being outdoors certainly brings one closer to the Lord Jesus. Hope you are staying safe and well. Hugs!
ReplyDeletei am grateful that i could make up to reach at fifty Debbie
Deletei am thoroughly enjoying the beauty and peace that part of age brings :)
You are a few weeks older than my son. As parents we look at changes through life.I watch how he deals with his children. I see how his children react. Life is a circle.
ReplyDeleteand it is divine and magical :)
DeleteThe flowers in your garden are beautiful and the wise words but we are all growing old.
ReplyDeleteMerle......
Flowers and your garden is beautiful.
ReplyDeleteWhen we have children we have them for life of course we do.
Nice age to be, wisdom comes with age and what you have taught your children in the past and continue to teach them will be beneficial to them.
Oh Laurie
ReplyDeletei think i never saw passionate and strong person like you :)
we are indeed
ReplyDeletean unstoppable change is circulating ,weird ,astonishing yet beautiful :)
So many beautiful plants. The flowers are really lovely.
ReplyDeletethank you dear Martha :)
DeleteToo bad about the scholarships but then good there is next year. I see you are a December baby - me too. Although I was born on 12/7 and I am quite a bit older - like I was just graduating high school when you were born. I love your wise words and I totally get how fast time seems to be passing but I think with your wisdom you will always have great things to share with your kids. I find that at my age my interest is blooming in so many things. I expect to live well past 100 and be limber and healthy...really I do, lol. And wait ..hold on to something...because when you get even 20 years older time is speeding by even more. it goes sooooooooooooooooo fast.
ReplyDeletei hope we won't miss it next year :)
Deleteyou got my point ,yes times goes sooo fast when we are able to see things more clearly and when we want to do so much ,responsibilities are beauty of life but hobbies are something that define true of us ,time management is biggest problem and it seems you are running after horse called TIME but he is getting ahead swiftly :(
Nature doesn't care about Covid, baili.
ReplyDeleteLet's follow the good example.
Have a great week
this is beautifully said Pedro :)
DeleteLindíssimas as plantas. Gostei de ler o seu texto. É ainda muito jovem. Viva a vida com confiança...
ReplyDeleteUma boa semana com muita saúde.
Um beijo.
where i live fifty is considered SERIOUSLY OLD AGE specially for woman Grace :)
DeleteSuch true words about children, baili! The saying here is, "when they are little, the problems are little; when they get bigger, the problems get bigger". When you are a new parent you think your child takes so much time and energy - surely it will get easier as they get older ... not really!
ReplyDeleteYou seem young to me; I am 63. Some days I feel in my 30s, others I feel in my 90s. It depends on how much joint pain I have :) At 50 you still have many years ahead of you. But I understand what you are getting at. Our wisdom grows each year but our time gets less.
I hope your son can obtain a scholarship next year. Education is expensive.
Thank you for the beautiful pictures of your trees and flowers. I am surprised there is so much blooming when your heat is so fierce!
oh i was not aware of quote dear Jenny
Deletei just said it because of stress i been going through during scholarship search and most of day was spent in doing so ,many important things were neglecting and i felt tired too
i laughed when you mentioned difference about feeling age at different days :)
you are amazing ,you say stuff with wonderful ease and i always enjoy gift of your genuine humor believe me
actually same here ,no days is similar when it comes to feel how old i am inside :)
higher education seems to be for riches only which is sad but when i see other abundance of injustice i feel okay with it
few flowers though survive through harsh summers but loose their original beauty regarding color and size
Dearest Baili, oh how this wonderful post resonated with me! What you say about our children's problems growing with then is so true! As you know, I only have one child still living (of 10 pregnancies), and I still worry more than he does about his problems! It doesn't matter if they are relationships, work worries etc. I still fret.
DeleteI do so hope and pray that your son finds a suitable place in university soon. These things really do play on your mind and sap your energy, don't they?! Sending you the very best of luck...you are all in my prayers.🙏🙏
I can wholly understand, too, your thoughts on getting older and wondering how many more years you have left on earth. It is such a coincidence, but I have been having exactly those same thoughts these last few days too!😮
I have been feeling unwell and my consultant believes my cancer may have returned, so I'm now waiting to have a biopsy. These challenges in life to make us stand back and examine our lives and ideals.
I guess we will never really understand the question "why?"...but our faith will carry us through!😊😊
Oh how I love your beautiful flowers...thank you so much for sharing them with us! They truly lift the spirits!😊😊
Have a lovely day, my wonderful friend...and stay safe and happy!
All my love and hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤
oh this is painful to learn about your cancer dear Ygraine
Deletei pray with all my soul and heart may your biopsy bring good news , i have been dealing with my stomach ulcer throughout my life almost ,each pain attack seemed to kill me and sometimes i thought it was better to be dead as pain in stomach was unbearable ,after marriage one doctor diagnosed that i have ulcer and then i went through drug course but with assurance that disease will stay with me forever and i will have to take medicines until i die
may be this is all pain i have been through made life very uncertain for me ,i am always utterly ready for last breath and this can be only reason for my extreme love for life ,so it is not that bad hua :)
oh i am sorry that you been experiencing such painful times during pregnancies! i know ladies who went through same experience few times but i am not familiar with female who beard this as may times ,i am sorry my friend!
by the grace of lord you are not empty hand at the end but lord has blessed you with most precious gift ,may you witness all his happiness and prosperity dear friend and believe me you will indeed !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am hopeful that my son will get admission though not on scholarship .he said he will improve gpa and will get scholarship once admitted ,lets see
Faith is only thing in this life that may have no logic for so many others but i have seen it's miracles so i can never loose it :)
Oh my dear friend, I empathize so deeply with you and your stomach pain. I had stomach ulcers when I was in my twenties, so I know how dreadful the pain is. I am praying for you, my dearest Baili...praying that your pain will be eased...and praying for a miracle, that one day soon you will be cured forever.🙏🙏
DeleteI totally agree with you...when we feel that our days may be numbered, we do have such a passion for life and everything we encounter. It sort of makes life the most precious of things, doesn't it!😊
Indeed I feel so blessed to have such a wonderful and caring son still living. And he is so precious to me that I sometimes tend to mother him too much, as he doesn't hesitate to point out to me! Lol
Oh I do so hope everything works out for your son. These are such difficult times for young people everywhere, and it is such a concern. I wish you all the very best of luck.🍀🍀
Thank you so, so much for your kind words, all your support, and your friendship. All are so very precious to me...😊😊
Take care, dearest Baili...and have a wonderful weekend.
All my love and hugs ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
lovely post and beautiful pictures
ReplyDeleteI was sorry to read that your son did not get any scholarships this year, hopefully next year will be better.
ReplyDeleteI did enjoy your garden photographs, the flowers look lovely.
All the best Jan
Your neem tree looks so green and gets taller now. The varieties of flowers look wonderful even the temperature is very high. The plants give shade and fresh air.
ReplyDeleteTake care and stay healthy, Baili.
The pesky virus has disrupted all our lives this year. I am sorry to hear that your son's scholarship opportunities have been delayed.
ReplyDeleteYour garden photos are lovely :-)