Monday, August 6, 2018

Happy Birthday To My Eldest Son! Sharing My heart!


                          When  my  doctor  told  me that  i am going  to  be  mom  of  my  first  child   i   was  mixture  of  multiple  weird feelings. 

i was nervous  ,scared , happy and excited  at  the  same  time because it was totally new experience for me!  
 

Sense of being part  of  nature 's most basic ,important and beautiful  process  of   creativity  was thrilling  me inside.





                me  mom  and  my   son  on  Eid  day 3  years  old !



  So many weird  kind  of  fears  were  springing  in  my  head   and  feeling  of  deep  happiness  and  fulfillment 










his  grandma  and  his  father with  him on  Eid  day ,7  yeras  old
 

 was  absorbing  in my  soul  on  other   hand !

  When " Ahsun"  my  first  baby  came  in my  arms  for  the  first  time  i  cannot   explain  the  kind  of  joy  i  felt !





He  bloomed  in  the  garden  of  my  life  first  and  grabbed  my   all  love  and  attention though  he  wanted  to  have  siblings  desperately!

  May  be  one  who  reaches  on  the  peak  of  Mount Everest  could   feel  such  achievement, 


He  loves  his  brothers  and  want  to  see  them  to  do  good  in  life! 
i left  job  because  he  thought  that  the  studies  of  his  brothers  were  effecting  negatively.


  Due  to  being  ex termly  anemic  i was  unable  to  feed  my  own  baby and  it  was  so  sad  for me ,yet 

 i  am  glad  that  i  could  feed  him  at least  for  two  and half  months!

  Due  to  different  source   of  milk  my  son  suffered  with  stomach ache  in  his early months  of  life and  his pain  was  hard  to  bear for  my  motherhood.

 
When  he  is  with  us  he  want  to  drop  us  joy  all  the  time  so  most  of  the  time  is  party  time!

  After  three  years  he  got  better  in  health. He  was  center  of  my  whole  love  and  attention .My  whole  love

 orbited around  him ,unconsciously  though  but  i  tried  best  to  spent  each  single  moment  with him 




he  lives  by  his  soul  and  his  eyes  reveal that 


.Yes  i  am  addicted  to  love  and  relations!

 I  think  this  whole  world  and  life  itself   is  useless  and  has  no  meaning  or  purpose if  you  do  not  have  heart 

 which  has  ability  to  love   someone  and  if  luck  works  for  you,  you    also  get  love  from  someone. I  consider  myself  zero  on  any  other  skills  but  all  i  got

  



is  my  deep  strong  love  for  my  Creator  my  family and  humanity and  my  honesty in  my  relationships .

 As  time  passed  three  of  us  became  best  friends  me ,my  son  and  hubby  as i  was  not  conceiving another child  due  to 
 poor  health  conditions may  be  and    was  on  supplements 



 Murree  kashmir point  2016

 In  all  those  10  years  before  my  eldest  son  got  his  brother  finally  in  2003  ,we  spent  so  much  time together 
 and  learnt  to  share  everything  related  to  our  days  and  heart  with  each  other .

This  made  me  happy  and  strong  at  heart   because  this  was  what  i  really   truly wanted  from  my  life!  family 's  true  love  and  sharing !


Muree park 2016

As   he grew  older  i  realized  he  is  little  different  than  others ,He  seemed  much  mature  than  his  actual age and

 was  wise  more  than  just  clever ,this  was  something  which  i  consider  gift  from  my  kind  merciful  lord!

 He  amazed  me  with  his  strong  approach  and  clear  views  on  life  when  he  was  at  the  end  his  teens.

 He  was  fast  learner  and  always  busy  in  attempts  to  explore  new  stuff  which  can  beneficial  for   his   study  and  career ahead!


                               muree hotel room 2016

 Though  he  did  not  get  chance  to  study  in best  academies yet  he  managed  to  get  scholarship  in  one  of  the  most  authentic  university

of our  country Fast  University  Karachi.

 He  lived  there  for  almost  six  years ,four  years  for  study and  two  years  for  job. He  made  few   new  friends  who  are  precious  to  him.

 But  most  amazing  thing  which  makes  me  serene  and  grateful  that  he  did  not  adopt  any  bad  habit  from  outer  world meanwhile.


 He asked  for  excuse  from  a  nice  girl who  was  studying  in  same class and who  liked   him  and  even  her parents  liked  him 

 but  my  son's  whole  attention  was  and  still  is  on  the  goals  of  his  life  which  he  set  for  himself  when  he  was living  in  small  city  here  with  us. 





  That  girl  is  engaged   and  going  to  get  Mary  soon  with  another  boy  selected  by  her  parents.

  As  you  all  know  my  eldest  son  is  now   living   in  Germany  and  doing  his  masters  in  university  of  technology  Munich . He left  in September  and  willing  to  visit  us  in  coming  December though  but  i  miss  him  terribly!!! 




 He  was  born  on  7th  of  August 1993   and  tomorrow  is  his  25th birthday ,i  wrote  this  post  because  i  am  missing 
him  so  much  and   just  want  to  talk  about  him  and  share  my  heart  with  you  all  just  to  feel  better!







               He  sent  this  selfie  on  my  request  few  days  back when  he  returned  from gym!

this  post  took  so  long  time  than  usual  as  my  laptop  is  causing  so  many  problems , this  is  why  i  could  not  put  photos  on  right  places specially !

Anyway  i  am  glad  and  grateful  that  i  could  give  this  post  as  it  comforted  my  heart  to  some  extent!

He  is  in  my  heart ,my  soul  ,my  mind and  in  my  prays  all  the  time!

Along with  the  child  of  all  mothers  i  pray  may  he  be  blessed  with   great  health  ,peace  and  prosperity  each  step  in  life  and  may  God  give  him  strength  to  achieve  his  goals  without  damaging  his  innocence  and  purity! amen!

27 comments:

  1. Happy birthday to your eldest child Baili!

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  2. A beautiful tribute to your son. I wish him a joyful birthday. The way a mother feels for her child is a miraculous emotion and like no other.

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  3. I love this post, baili, my dear friend. You have described a mother's love so completely. Your son is a fine young man. His strength of character and kind nature shine from his eyes. Like you, I remember in great detail the day my first child was born. Happy Birthday to him, and happy *birth day* to you, too!

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  4. Happy Birthday to your son. I can tell how proud of him you are. Your post is wonderful. I think that human relations are the cornerstone of life. Have a great day.

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  5. what a beautiful post ,, your love shines like the stars!!!

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  6. He is a handsome man. How wonderful for him to be loved unconditionally.

    Being a mother is one of the most precious gifts, isn't it!

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  7. He is such a good boy. I should say good man. I hope he has great success with his goals. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

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  8. Wow, Baili - loved your post and what a talented, soul-filled handsome man he is. I really enjoyed reading of your feelings about him and his achievements in life and steadfastness in his love of family. Really enjoyed reading this and I wish him a wonderful birthday! I have four adult sons and I could so totally relate to this.

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  9. Happy Birthday to your wonderful son Baili!

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  10. Such a lovely post.
    Your writing and photographs, come straight from your heart … a joy to read.

    Happy Birthday Wishes to your son, and my good wishes to you dear Baili.

    All the best Jan

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  11. Happy birthday to your son. I hope both of you have a great day.

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  12. I so enjoyed this post, Bailli! I can feel how much you love your oldest child, I was full of joy and wonder when I had my first child, Emily.

    Happy Birthday to Eid. He is doing so well in his studies, and I know you miss him but travel and time in other countries has to be very rewarding!

    Sending love,

    Jane

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  13. Happy Birthday to your son! May he be blessed with good health.

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  14. This is such a beautiful post, Baili. I felt my heart being squeezed thinking about my girls in the same way. Happy birthday to your son! Wishing him health, happiness and everything wonderful that life has to offer.

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  15. Dearest Baili...oh how deeply moving I found this beautiful post!
    I felt precisely this way when my daughter was born. Sadly, though, she only lived for two weeks...but those two short weeks inspired an entire lifetime of love in my heart...and I still feel the same now, 29 years later!

    Wishing your son a very happy birthday!!

    Much love and hugs xoxoxo

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  16. Nice family!
    Congratulations to your son for your birthday!
    Even our oldest son lives in Munich for over 17 years. He went to work there and stayed there. He's a programmer.
    Greetings!

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  17. Happy birthday to your son! Having a family to love is our best blessing I think.

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  18. Baili, what a wonderful post sharing with us your deep love for your first born son, and we know that while you love your other sons as well, he is very special to you for all the reasons you shared. And also because he is now far away from home. Sending best wishes for a very happy 25th birthday to this very fortunate young man, who has such a loving mother.

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  19. I so enjoyed this post, Bailli! I can feel how much you cherish your oldest child, I was full of joy and wonder when I had my first child, Emily.

    Happy Birthday to Eid. He is doing so well in his studies, and I know you miss him but travel and time in other countries has to be very rewarding!

    Sending love,

    Jane

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  20. Hello, happy birthday to your son! You have a beautiful family and a handsome son.
    You are blessed. Happy Wednesday, enjoy your day!

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  21. Such a beautiful post for your son! I love all the pictures!! Happy Birthday and many blessings to him! Big Hugs my friend!

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  22. Happy birthday to your boy! :-)

    Greetings from London.

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  23. Many happy returns for your son's birthday, he does look a gentle soul and very handsome. I hope he finds a gentle loving wife and that you will have a daughter in law to love. Blessings to you Baili, it is a testament of your bond with your son that he keeps you close and makes you so much a part of his life. Betty x

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  24. Happy birthday to your eldest son. You have many skills and talents (far from zero!) but the strongest and most important, the gift of love of creator and humanity, is evident in each of your posts. Congratulations on raising a smart, inquisitive, wise, and handsome son, one of your gifts to the world.

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  25. Your post is heartfelt and beautiful. From your post I can see that your son takes after you :-)

    Carving his own pathway and loving his family.

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