Hey Beautiful Hearts!
Hope and pray that you are enjoying all the good and tough seasons of your garden of life with bright well coming Smile :)
Because you know this so well that,
no season will follow your expectation, but you will have to adjust your moods according to life 's all changes and surprises .
That come to us with many faces like sorrows ,Pain
,pleasures , amazement ,amusement , sympathy ,shock or
just a slight touch of gentle breeze!
Life 's such various aspects inspire all of us in different ways
Some of us get depressed and go under heavy medication
Some get excited and take them as challenge to prove their strength and will power
Some of us become aggressive and annoying for all around of them
Some blame others for such situations and take revenge from innocents
Some instantly get up and start Cooking ,Knitting
Sewing ,Writing Reading ,Painting ,Running Cycling ,cleaning
,Decorating ,Singing ,Photographing , Petting , Chatting
Gardening ,Helping or serving others volunteerly Or Just
Take a Nap!
Such Changes of the seasons of life touch my heart too!
And mostly there flows some smooth waves of poetry or prose in my head suddenly .
which i write down sometimes and sometimes totally
forget what had came in my head in certain past
moments which is bad obviously because according to
my eldest son i should write down whatever comes in my mind .
He says it is related to literature which can never ever loose it's value no matter how long time passes.
Thank you so much dear fellows for kind and sweet words in my last post which was a poem !
He sent me his selfie yesterday!!!
Yes i confess that i was sad when i wrote this!
Sadness like still water was paused within my heart from long time unconsciously .
Though i was avoiding to accept it's presence in me !
A tiny piece rock was thrown in this still water few days back which created movement on it's surface and awakened the circles of restless thoughts .
My younger son who was being much naughty and was teasing his younger brother while doing his homework made me annoyed !
His behavior made me upset and i said
"i will not talk to him until he apologize to his brother "
He did so but i was still not talking to him .
After one day my younger son seemed in desire to talk with me as we talk lot as he is staying home since few months waiting for his college starts in September .
I was laying after morning chores when he walked around my bed and asked me many times as if i need something or "can he press my head to give relief to my tiredness"?
I said " No " and he looked disappointed !
Within seconds my heart melted down and i realized tears appearing in my eyes to whom i pushed back with quite a hard effort!
Meanwhile this poem sprouted in my mind along with great grief of being away from my eldest son who will be not with us on this Eid Day which is tomorrow!!!
Love and miss him so much!!!
This will be our second Eid without him and on such yearly big celebrations i really want my all children front of my eyes eyes!
Happy Eid to My Baba! (in the memory of precious times when we were together (2016)
When i see my previous life i appreciate my positivity!
But no matter how strong we pretend or actually feel often ,there are still some special pains which start eliminating our inner life silently without making us realize it!
I promise i will keep my eyes on the filled part of glass and never give up tthough !
You too please stay strong and positive !
Take great Care !
God Bless you All!!!
Good looking sons! The oldest son's face has matured - not so much a boy anymore. Bet you miss that.
ReplyDeleteHave a good day, evening, night!
Aw, sweet lady, of course you miss your son. It is difficult with him being so far away. Sending you lots of hugs xo
ReplyDeleteHe has a bright future ahead, handsome boy!
ReplyDeleteLove your pictures with your son, great you have such a strong bond even now,when he is not with you, Happy Eid☺
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for the pain you are feeling, dear friend. A heavy heart is one of the hardest pains to bear. I hope you feel better after writing your poem and also this post. Sometimes it helps to just get all the emotions out in the open. And remember your other son may just be at an age when he forgets how his teasing makes other people feel. He will grow out of that in time and with help from you, his family. You are always such a positive influence on others, I have no doubt you will be able to return to feeling positive if you give yourself a little time to feel your grief fully. Because having the family part ways - even when it's natural through children growing up - is a type of grief and hard on a parent's heart. Warm hugs, baili.
ReplyDeleteI only have my one son and I love him so much and miss him when I don't see him. You are such a positive person, I am sure that those around you are always uplifted by your gentle but strong spirit. Stay positive! Blessings on you, always.
ReplyDeleteAs I say often the hardest part of being a parent is letting go. When our children become adults we feel like they no longer nee or want us. Of course that is not true but that is the way we feel.
ReplyDeleteIt can be hard being away from loved ones around holidays. It seems that your son is doing so well. I see why you are proud of him.
ReplyDeleteHave s great week!
You are such a beautiful soul! It's good to release your emotions! Sending you and your family Big Hugs and many blessings!
ReplyDeleteBaili,
ReplyDeleteLike the birds, we have to let our children fly.
It hurts, we miss them, but we have to to it.
I can't imagine my sons one day leave home…
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I understand the sadness you feel. I miss my sons too. Both are grown. One is married now, and they are expecting their first baby. The other is away at school working on getting his degree. We must be happy for them that they are doing well. You did a good job of being a mother and you should be proud of yourself and of your sons.
ReplyDeleteA very heartfelt post, Baili. Something we share as mothers.
ReplyDeleteLovely.
So well worded! I felt much the same when my little ones became grownups with children of their own.
ReplyDeleteYou will be a great mother-in-law and someday grandmother.
Such a lovely, heartfelt post, dear Baili! A big hug!
ReplyDeleteIt's not nice when miles separate loved ones … they are forever in our hearts and thoughts.
ReplyDeleteMy good wishes
All the best Jan
PS I enjoyed your photographs, thank you.
I know how hard it is to be away from our children, it’s a hard pain to bare , you have such good looking boys, and I think you have raised them with gentle dispositions too, that’s such a wonderful thing, be happy my friend,
ReplyDeleteSo sorry your boy was not with you for Eid, but he's having such a wonderful adventure, try not to be said. One of my sons went to university and I hardly saw him over 3 years even though he was not so very far away! there's a saying here 'absence makes the heart grow fonder' and how true it is :) I hope you will lighten your heart with homemaking and think happy thoughts. Blessings to you. Betty
ReplyDeleteI love your thoughts and ideas at the beginning of your post, they are so insightful of how people cope with situations that they are not expecting or do not want.
ReplyDeleteThey are particularly relevant to me right now, my mum is going through a significant change in her life and through extension I am having to go through the change with her.
I am finding it difficult, because of her emotions and her not listening (for consideration) to sensible advice.
Thank you :-) Your post has helped me :-)
Thank you dear Cherie !
Deletei feel so blessed and honored when wonderful wise people like you say such kind and sweet words for my simple opinions about life !
you have beautiful soul and very kind heart as you are standing with your dear mother in difficult time she is facing right now !
she is lucky to have daughter like you my friend!
and i am very much sure that with your help and grace she will be out of this tough situation very soon!