The Greater Good !

It is six pm almost .We got our electricity back just an hour ago after ten hours of disappearance . I came in from front yard after saying my evening prayer, it was cold and breezy but praying while looking at sky makes me serene so i wore my warm clothes . I did huge bundle of laundry yesterday so i am still feeling cold and exhausted. As i entered in our living room i wanted to throw my self on sofa because of dullness i am feeling right now but instead i dragged my self towards dining table and manage to sit of chair which offers straight posture which i am not in position to afford yet my wish to share with you my heart defeated my will to take rest and i am here again front of my laptop. 

I am little off today so please avoid if any mistake i make in this post. 

My eldest son called last night and spent some quality (online) time with us. I was feeling terrible before he called and within seconds i felt transformed when saw his smiling face! My tiredness and worries flew away instantly specially when he seemed happy and peaceful .

He told that the process of taking over of his company by another huge company ( one of few world's top companies) is complete almost ,the major steps particularly including decision about having employees . My son shared that he has been rehired by new company with sufficient salary incensement  and extra ordinary yearly benefits. That was such a relief to see our kid being satisfied about his job sustainability and added relief to his living!

I felt overwhelmed with the Grace of my Creator and it was hard to hide tears of gratitude . When he could not come to meet us this month we got really sad  and disappointed but once again God created good out of this situation at least for our son and rewarded him for his kindness that my son showed when he agreed to help financially to my nephew despite he had no flexible budget (my belief) .

I could not stop myself to ask him if he knew before joining about the "take over" thing he said he had no idea and even when he learned he got upset with thought of unpleasant possibilities instead. And again according to my faith i saw a miracle happening dear friends !  

Life is short and unpredictable and we have no control over things that life bring to us ,but i have discovered that real magic is only "having unshaken Faith" during difficult times and avoiding looking for short cuts or hurting others for personal advantage. If we can manage to do so Nature or Creator is always with us to adding to us from his ultimate and unlimited  strength and light! 

My son told that he will try to visit us in February  if possible , we will be praying but won't rise our hopes so high this time ,let's see what happens.

that is it for now precious people ! please stay blessed with hope that grow in the ground of faith and feed your soul with eternal peace!

Thinking all of you with heart filled with prays and best wishes guys,take great care ,blessings to all of you!

Pages From Book Train Your Mind Change Your Brain By Sharon Begley And Bits Of Business

 

I am unable to on my laptop even for a while because of recent business. We visited Sukkur city on Sunday and did some due shopping which we supposed to do in Karachi with our eldest son if he could have visit us in December. I had feeling that hubby wanted us to buy whatever we specially kids wanted to and i think it was because he wanted us to get rid from any sadness or disappointment we had because of the postponed visit by our son. We bought stuff that we needed to have particularly belong to kitchen. Boys bought few jeans and shirts. We had lunch on our fav hotel which we avoid mostly to skip eating out.Overall it was refreshing experience though we still desperately want to see our eldest son before our eyes no matter what !

My youngest son's mid term exams are about to end ,Just one paper left .He is in tenth grade . My younger son has scored 80% percent in Sat and in yearly(repeated) exams of higher secondary school and now the other tough part has began for me as mother. We are applying in different universities national and foreign countries , lets see what destiny has for him. It is long ,tiring and tough process everyday for me and my son needs my assistance not because he is less smart but he need push to move further always .We could finalize one application in three weeks almost ,but it was first ,i think others will not take as long hopefully.

Weather is still gorgeous though winter this years seems mildest ever in thirty years . The sunlight sprinkled on table beside window has soothing and delicate touch ,this takes me immediately to my native home yard where i enjoy the dancing water of memory fountain while enjoying the sunlight pouring!

I had started to read in August (probably) another book about human brain written by Sharon Begley " Train your mind Change your Brain"  i liked the text lot and it is annoying that i am unable to continue reading because of so much business .I am sharing few pages today from my previous reading  that i took screen shot for you hope you will enjoy it . 

Recent studies reveal how human brain resembles to the universe in shape and function and this makes them to think if Universe is Itself a giant Brain ?

My amazing imagination tells me to believe it because i am the one who felt the presence of mysterious energy around me that seemed to affect  my thoughts,views ,decisions and attitude throughout my life constantly from within too.

 Sky and each natural phenomena spoke to me ,i enjoyed loneliness because it gave me chance to feel closer to that comforting friendly energy. I don't know when ,how and why i started to turn my head towards sky while praying but whenever i looked up i felt my eyes were hold there by something and moving them down was not in my hands .This added more strength not just to my faith and  but empowered my self consciousness. 

So the energy pool within which we are floating can be the Brain and Mind of that divine energy which runs the show,sounds really exciting to me . If universe is trying to be conscious of itself as it's thinking part we should also try to figure out the power and mystery of our brain . Exploring our brain and mind can make it easy to solve puzzles of the universe and life .And to get better results we have to understand how for it can go .The book by Sharon deals with plasticity of human brain and how consciousness can mould physical brain astonishingly. I can relate to the topic because i know that long term meditation and yoga has transformed my brain to quite extent .

please take a look and share if you have thoughts about it too or you too felt better after some kind of mental exercise .

Thank you for bearing with me precious friends ! I really appreciate your support and kindness which encourages me speak my heart with all of you and learn what you think about things i am interested in !

Take great care and stay bless with hope which is most basic ingredient of the Faith ,it helps you to continue cooking the dish of life no matter what :)

Blessings to all of you!

Travelling The Inner Universe !

 

Sitting on the dinning chair front of my laptop i am feeling bit sad ,not because i could not have my son on expected time but more because my last posting seemed to sadden heart of my friends whom i always like to encourage to stay positive no matter how hard the time is. I don't like this .I don't like to have negative feelings inside me ,it feels like i lack oxygen and can't breath properly and this is most scary feeling for anyone alive believe me.

This is not because i don't like to feel sad ,Actually to me it's okay to feel sad once in while because i believe that sadness is a genuine feeling and serves for better in us ,makes us feel healthy emotionally when passed and bring us stronger feeling of joy and gratefulness as well. So it is nice to feel sad once in a while as according to physics law universe has pattern of "waves " which has "up" and "down " so it is obvious to have down after each up and having up after each down .I think all the quotes regarding positiviism have this background .

Sadness is like autumn ,it's influence is rich ,deep and meaningful for people with creative power i think so because i too write a "little bit" so i find myself writing more when i am sad . Yes when i look at my previous written diaries i see they are all written during times when i felt intense and lonely in my life. As a tiny writer with little understanding of life i can say that sadness helps writers to write more or better to some extent .

My present state of sadness differs one i used to experience in my life in past. Despite of my special inner connection to super power of this universe i was still a common person who valued things and relationships existing physically and materialistically so i felt more "sad " and " little disappointed" both  when something bad or unexpected happened in my life. I felt broken ,alone and i cried a lot. I also  did some stupidities to feel better. 

Now when i look back at those times and part of me that existed then i feel like i was held in cage of negativity back then. There was some lush soothing  plant of faith within me to which my physical being was not able to connect perfectly and water properly though i always raised back to surface after each stronger push of negativity that tried to sink me.

I was fortunate to realize that "inner voice" which was trying to pull me in towards my "inner universe". We are not just part of a One Whole Divine Pool which we call "universe" but we have same ingredients and features as our origin has so acting similarly is so natural.

Gradually i started  to feel that "inner Pull" and started to follow it blindly ,blindly mean?

I had been always following this inner pull without being conscious of it ,So when i decided to travel inwardly i encountered with so many my previous situations ,decisions and the results i gained from them ,that encouraged me to not hesitate to follow it blindly  that guided me for moving further into my inner universe fearlessly and follow the genuine paths and natural destination it led to me.

The more i stepped in my "inner universe" the better i understood world outside me. That was astonishing in the beginning because it was really hard to accept that life can be as easy once your own thoughts are well read and well comprehend by you.

It was incredibly amazing to feel that there was no thing like "loneliness" or "disappointment" .

I realized that i was not alone but my being was created within something far far more powerful Energy than me. Despite of perfect separate existence my being was wholly solely connected to something divine and supreme .That divine and supreme energy was like an endless vast sea in which i felt floating like a bubble of it. The Energy existing within this sea had access to encompass my being from within as well as from outside. The phenomena of such dramatic existence felt exceptionally fascinating . Despite of all the strong connection and complete dependency to this Energy i was free to take shape of my choice ,adopt habits of my liking ,set behaviors that i find right for me. I was totally free to exist willfully and for this i was supported by that Energy just like a mother leaves her child to act freely after telling him all good and bad and what is right or wrong for him. What kind of person i want to be was totally "Up To Me" isn't it most beautiful thing to learn that i was born free to live free and make free choices. 

There must be some people like me either  who when once learn the "true face of reality" feel serenity that never leaves them during any disturbing circumstances of life in future. 

"Just like a child who feels protected and peaceful once he realize that he is holding the part of scarf his mother wearing !"

So gradually i grasped  that i was one of those shy or coward children who are always afraid to be left alone in this crowd if they lost the hand of their mother .

Few years back i counted the blessings i had such as life ,health ,shelter and family and felt grateful for them but now i realized that having all such blessings is more precious and meaningful when you see the how and where are the things placed for you!

If i was going to die before  realizing my place in this pattern of life i would have not acquired such sense of fulfillment and peace.

One thing i hated to have in life is "disappointment" .I hardly felt really disappointed but low for while when odd occurred in my life and i feel it was because of this little plant of faith planted in my soul i don't know by whom and since when. Since i learnt how my existence is directly connected to my origin and supported by it completely i found out how can i keep  this connection more "active" to get maximum strength and there is only one rope to tied it stronger is "Unshaken Faith" .Once you are aware how mechanism of things work your faith on a machine is deeper, similarly when i have learnt while travelling in my inner universe how the pattern of this "Sea of Divine Energy" works my faith on Nature or Creator is ultimate !

And once you are on this" level of faith " your possibility to experience miracles is more .

I can feel sad but i cannot feel disappointed because i see the scenario of life on biggest canvas and being part of it makes me think of   things on little bigger scale . I try to follow the rule of Nature or Creator whatever you call it and try to exist harmlessly which makes me hopeful that Nature will support me back for it as it does for everyone else.

                                                                            quotegram

Whenever i feel that negativity is trying to haunt me down i close my eyes and find myself  existing within pattern that is my origin and is always there for me .Even with my open eyes i can see now how my being is floating in sea of Divine Energy .It is very Real and Comforting feeling for a child ! I wish we all feel that we are in lap of mother and her children who are obliged to support each other as part of her existence !

 

We Have To Wait

                                               

We were preparing to receive our eldest son after three long years but  last Sunday my eldest son called and looked bit stressed . I thought it was tiredness of his long trip to Sintra town but he told that his HR informed him last day that company is going through some kind of huge changes in first two weeks of December  (not allowed to mention) so it will be better for all employees to remain present physically meanwhile. He informed that he cancelled his seat while ago though not completely .He has open ticket now and he will rebook the seat when things are finalized .He also mentioned that he has to book before a month or two because tickets are too expensive due to covid thing .

We felt quite sad as we were very happy to have hope that he will be home within a week. My senses dimmed for while but i composed myself immediately when i realized that his sadness must be graver than ours as he was away from home since three years and looked quite low when mentioned all this . He said he was all ready to fly home and did lots of shopping for this purpose too though he has to wait now!

I ,we buried our sorrow inside our heart and try to comfort him with positive conversation smilingly. I still think of him if he is more disturbed than us !

All parent want their children to be happy in life ,we have no issue until he is doing fine in life and moving further to achieve his dreams ! Our prayers and best wishes are with him each moment!

We are trying to get out of this tense feeling asap and i  hope we will feel better in few days . Life is beautiful no matter what ,every day has new surprise for us and we must keep this in our mind though being parent it is most difficult task i think!

It is good to have many photos of children as they can sooth  soul of desperate parents to  some extent .

     were dreaming of such happy family time together ,i hope the day will come soon by the grace of Lord! image is taken in 2017 when my son was preparing to leave for Germany .

it was first time for us to part from our son for  one possible year and he was going to foreign country which made us really anxious and sensitive ,we took many such photos ,my son came to visit us after one year as he promised but then covid took over the world and like us so many parents and relatives starved for their kids and family unfortunately ! i heard Britain had banned some countries once again specially from asian lands ,this is worrying for parents like us . 

 I found this lovely quote online ,how true ! In this whole world i since beginning never ever longed for any worldly joy but "family" in which i can give my love like farmer water the fields and gardens ,in return i always wanted to see them flourish in this world with all i tried them to brought up with!

I have no wish to harvest because i am not a businesswoman but a mother who's veins have fluid of love for her children and who's breathes are dense with prays for their children ! all i want them to be healthy ,happy and successful in life ,amen!

Hope i did not make you sweet friends sad ,please don't be ,you know me i am positive and i will feel better soon :)

blessings to all of you and all you love !