Necromancy vs God !

 

 Sometimes   i feel  that i want  to step  out   of  that  certain   sense  of  harmony  with  whole  scenario  of  life and universe .But  next  moment  i realize what  i  would be if i do so ,like  a child lost  in  

crowd ,who  is terrified  ,lonely and overwhelmed  by the fear  of  not being able to see his parents ever again . I  honestly  don't know what is wrong with me but from where i see, things have become Crystal clear now . The  knot  of  connection  tied to someone invisible around me that i felt ever since i came into my senses (early teens)  has been  appearing to me strongly .I often  remember  a sentence  from my very first  diary  where  i mentioned this feeling in a way of question, it is (translation) " i feel  there is someone  near me though i can't see him but i feel his presence , are you the one i 

feel Puppoo  ?(nickname of my brother who died when i was 4 ) 

It never  go away ,that certain feeling of having someone around me.It  kept  dominating  my being as  i grew  old .I had  loving parents and sweet little sister.I had few friends at school (till today) and many cousins and girlfriends  in family and village.So  i was never lonely to have imaginary friend .I would write diary to share my thoughts .I would also write lengthy letters to radio programs where they host would  read them .May be i have mentioned that once few girls came to meet me and told that they  listen same radio  program and wanted to know who write such letters .They were elder than me and one of them had aunt lived in my village .

My aim to share this is only that i had many with me and i was happy with my life so  having strange feeling  that there was someone around me was not self creation at all.

Despite  of  that "feeling " i felt that i loved being with people. Though  with time i learnt  that i am not  Like most of them .So  this made me bit uncomfortable with  others  often .This discomfort or fear  divided me in two persons .One who loves everything including humans  and one who  wants to keep distance  from humans as caution .Reason , because people are of so many kind and more of them become harmful to those who seem vulnerable . 

I was vulnerable because i was tied to something Unseen who would  seem try to keep me away from complications. Complications that began when we fail to keep balance between spiritual  and physical  world .Complications that  began when we become selfish and forget  that  OTHERS  TOO ARE HUMANS LIKE US AND FEEL THE SAME PAIN  AS WE DO WHEN THORN HITS. Complications  that began when we   forget that One who has created us is keeping eye  not just on our actions but on our intentions too . 

On  the other  hand  a part of me had resentment and anxiousness that  came out occasionally during  critical  circumstances  but only for opposite gender that seemed nothing but threat until my mid forties.Throughout  my life i  gradually realized  Who he was. Despite of my  negligence  to religion He  made me believe  that He existed  and He  is the one  Who  guards  them  who cannot  guard themselves .

As  i  told  in my some older posts that  my life has many miracles.I shared one  here  when He  stopped me  to put my eldest son (was two and half then)  where i thought was balcony floor but was not. That was first  great help from Lord .Later in my life series  of mishaps  keep happening  but  He  keep  saving  me and my family  from  each attempt  of harm. He Literally  made me believe me that  He Exists  and cares . 

Since  we have moved to  our new house  we have been facing necromancy here . I  bet if there was not our Lord  with  us  we would have lost our minds  and things would have gone terribly wrong. I don't want to write about  this in detail  right now as i want to mention it in my book of life if i have life ahead .I will say this only that we have encountered  the devil himself directly .Their  tricks  are not just failing  but  playing on themselves  sometimes because We  have most  powerful  Magician  by our side Our Creator !

Now  i am in position  to understand the pattern  of life little bit.He The Lord  kept me close and safe for the reason .He  saved me and my family members  from numerous situations that  seem unbelievable. He  now brought  me the test that so many might  get afraid of .Because  it  seems scary  to admit that someone is reading your thoughts ,not just reading but trying to manipulate  them  to harm you.Someone who lives behind the wall  is  hurting you hideously  and when  finds the   result  opposite unexpectedly with the time ,finds you better  person day by day .It  makes him  annoyed and angry  and  he speaks    loudly so  you can  understand who is he and where is he ,to  seek to come in notice of you ,to provoke anger  in you.Surprisingly  i smelled this negative energy  when i stepped here first time. I remained puzzled about that uneasy feelings that i sensed about them since beginning .I did not know what was the wrong but i knew something was and terribly .I  felt anger too and reacted on their open strikes .But how they were effecting our life and mood i had no idea until i turned to meditation and yoga that  changed my life for better. But biggest  roll  played another thing here i think. 

My  sleeping  disturbed  and one night i tied my head with my scarf  tightly .That  was beginning .Tight means really tight  that my head bones seems to compressed . That would make me feel better and i would sleep finely. After  some months i realized that my ability to understand things grew .This understanding made me feel that my eating habits play really important roll here. I started to eliminate  food that was gastric .Such food was  weapon  in their  hands  to hurt me i found it later slowly . 

Tying  my  head really tight every night  seemed  to  help me things clearly as time passed.Things not around me but inside my head either. That was most astonishing thing for me to be able to see how that dark power  acts in my head .This was new face of life for me believe me ,i never believed in black magic before but here when i am confronted with it i can see what it is, how it can harm us.Being able to detect  negative energy in my head and manipulating my thoughts  has become a gift. I can easily  push it away and keep control on my thinking.

What is satisfying here that once again  everything depends  on my reaction to all this.My intention was to calm myself gradually. And one thing i knew  clearly that no can else help me but Lord.Only he has the power which is supreme and undefeatable . He let you connect with His power  when  you ask for it .And i asked for it ,I ask for it each day ,moment and breath because it is not about me but my family too. So Lord is showing me His Miracles and i am Stunned and astonished with his Grace upon me!

So  my precious friends this is truly miracle that in the middle of fire i find life beautiful like blooming flower .This is the reason for my deepest unshaken faith in Lord !

Blessings to all of you !

Let Us Create New History Because This Is The Only Way!

 

It  is  3:35 pm afternoon. We  had  our lunch  while  ago and i am feeling  bit lazy  at the moment .Though  we had orange juice  after  lunch  that  made me feel better .Weather  is lovely. Breeze is chilly and i can sense the footsteps of coming spring :) I  am  liking  the weather so much i know nothing is new because i  express my likening for almost  everything and every season .Is  this  some kind  of disease ? if yes then why not let  it spread away lol. I feel bad  when i see people complaining as  if  God owes  them  and he  is obliged to supply  them all service required at the door  no matter what.

Most  of us has forgotten that satisfaction we  seek  in world outside cannot make us at peace  until we make peace with ourselves  and try to  find  satisfaction in our inner world .

I  know  i am nobody to judge anyone one but i want to say it anyway because i feel it is for good of the all of us equally .

An Unknown  mysterious  divine energy  from  whom we  have born  and  took  different  shapes as living and non living  things and then numerous species. 

How  we the human beings with such developed mind set have forgot that,  That  energy  which is our origin  has ,

 SHAPED  EVERYTHING FOR THE REASON .

WE   FIND  THIS  WHOLE  SCENARIO OF  UNIVERSE  SO MUCH  BIGGER   AND  COMPLICATED  BECAUSE  WE  ARE  SO  TINY  AND  WITH  SO LITTLE  KNOWLEDGE.

REMEMBER "WE  ARE  TINY MEANS ,WE  ARE  TINY ,NOT ONE  WHO  HAS CREATED  THIS  ALL INCLUDING US.

THOUGH  MOST  OF  US  BELIEVE  THAT  THERE  IS  A DIVINE  FORCE  BEHIND  ALL  OF  HAPPENING BUT   FAIL  TO  SEE  RECEIVE   HIS  COUNTLESS  MESSAGE  DISPLAYED  EVERYWHERE  AND IN EVERYTHING .

Consequently  we  cannot  find the bigger purpose behind  our creation. Because we don't feel  need Because we  think  ourselves "center " of universe and life instead of "part of it"

This misconception make us  lead  life that we waste in pursuing things that orbit  only around us or pile up around us.And we keep doing this for generations to generations.

 I am not against theory that was introduced after Reformation that man is send to be happy on earth .Yes,because  it is essential for giving away the joy that you must have it on the first place .

 But we  should  not  forget as human that  WE  ARE  TOOLS  OF  THE MACHINERY  OF LIFE ON EARTH ,TO  MAKE THIS MECHANISM  WORK  SUCCESSFULLY  WE  HAVE  TO  ACT  LIKE  HEALTHY ,SMOOTH  AND FLEXIBLE  TOOLS AND  BASE  OF  AL THIS  IS  "COOPERATION "

Our  aim must move further from just piling up stuff and storing money .Or  inventing ways for individual safety. Because it won't work .One who has made us has assured that  survival is possible when we  are  "together" 

And for this he has set millions of examples  through  everything present  in Nature ,for instance  

"a human body lives until all the organs and work harmoniously .And organ can participate in functions  until they receive  all the signals and messages via brain properly .

Brain itself can perform well  If his own millions of nerves do exactly what they have to do .

Even If one single of them acts  SELFISHLY  and try to serve itself  individually things go terribly WRONG ,don't they ?

On  planet  earth  we that humans are "brain of life " if we  focus on only we find fit to our personal benefits ,body of life on earth will end disastrously eventually . 

Everything present before our eyes  conveys  message  of our  Creator  and this is for reason  i  believe.

I  think  we  should  wake up from  dangerous dream of  selfishness  and see what  is coming towards  us .

Judgment  day  is not  when  some huge  personality  with supernatural  powers  will ask  us question  about  our  mistakes and carelessness and avoiding  his  signs and messages while holding stick in hands .

Judgement day  will be worst than that ,it will vanish us as we never existed as Creator promised.

Freedom  of choice  is not  without  reason ,It  is a test .It  is  rope  under  our  feet  so  we  can walk  carefully ,not  fearfully  but  only  carefully .Fortifying  the Laws  of  Creator  displayed  in  Nature  can not just  save us  from falling  from the peak  of Humanity, but also ending painfully.

Our  survival  depends  on our Insight ,the way we adopted  His lessons  from  the Book  of  Nature  and  followed  them faithfully . If  we  try  and succeed  our  Maker  will  open  the  horizons  us to  discover  ways of survival in this universe  as he promises  in  his  words  spoken  by prophets and pious.

He  is Creator and he can do whatever he want. Despite of all knowledge  we have about everything ,we know almost nothing. Everything  practical  happens with will power  and  hardwork but MIRACLES  HAPPEN   WITH  FAITH .

He  owns  all  the  miracles  and i think  we   prove ourselves  faithful  followers  He  will  keep  us  safe  and will let us flourish life within universe. But  first   we  have  to  show WE  DESERVE .

I  think we  should  declare  the  whole  world  one  country .

Humanity  must  be  the only religion .

And mutual  respect   must  be  the  only  agenda .

All  educational  institutions   must  have  one  single  type  of  syllabus . That  including  teachings  best  for  all.

Lets  start  new  history ,based  on  what  we  are  now ,new  refined  people of  earth  who  speak  language of Love  and  Respect with  each  other.

Let  us  create  new culture that shows  how  wise  and unite  we are.

We  should  not  wait for when aliens attack or  robots try  to take us down ,so we then think about being unite. 

Lets be one because our Creator want us to be this way.

Let us unite  because  He has taught us that this is the only way!

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Blessings to all of you precious  friends

Visit To Nephew 's House And Angles Still Exist !

Hey  Lovely  Souls !

Hope  finding light  and peace within  moments  passing  by .Each New Day  seems  sometimes a basket full of  surprising  goodies  in the hands of life.We  have  to pick it up  whatever it is inevitably. Though  how  we  take  it  and  shape  it  willingly according to our own mood and   our  insight  depends  on our wisdom .Some time we fail ,sometime succeed but all that matter  is how  we  keep  learning from  our mistakes and get better and better with each day because LIFE  MEANS "GROWTH" :)

As  i mentioned  before that our  winters  are mild and  preferred as visiting season ,visiting  to relatives and friends specially who live on distance .We  went to visit two  of  hubby's nephews  who live in city situated 45 minutes drive away from  us .Both are sons of hubby's eldest brother  who lives in the house where i spent my early 16 years after marriage with parents in law and siblings in law.Both  boys  are married and with children .They moved to farther city because they found it better for the jobs they do.They both are lathe machine operators and vehicle fixer .They earn good rest of the year and their life style shows it well.

We  had  pleasant time with both families who live on rental residence bit away from each other .After  spending almost five hours with them we left for our home as we wanted to reach before it gets dark.It was almost 15 past 5 when we started our journey. We were in the middle of our way when our Bike went puncture .That was quite worrying as Sun was about to set and long road had no town or market unless we would walk for more than an hour in darkness and cold and reach to populated area yet finding auto workshop was another task. First words dropped from my mouth were "okay first of all please don't worry because being worry won't solve the problem" Than i asked hubby to call his nephew so he can come and fix it .Though it could have take almost 45 minutes .Hubby kept driving punctured bike though it was slower than one's walk ,actually he wanted to lessen the distance from the city as much as possible .Suddenly a man (must be in his thirties) stopped his bike  near us and asked hubby without wasting a moment (which was truly astonishing during uncertainty of this world) 

"sir please take my bike and drive home where ever it is, i will manage the rest" He moved his hand forward to give his keys to hubby who was stunned like me and trying to understand probably what kind of man would do this,I mean totally stranger .

Hubby said hesitatingly "no it's okay we will..

But man interrupted quickly ,no ,no please take this you have a family with you (me only) .Hubby exchanged bike with him inevitably as darkness was taking over swiftly and cold started to reach to the bones. 

While ridding  on that stranger angle's bike we were overwhelmed by his generosity .The man was walking far behind us holding our bike .That seemed completely strange ,unbelievable ,as Lord sent his angle right from the sky and helped us again miraculously !My eyes started to shed tears of gratitude and prays for that angle were rising in my heart though i thought he was gift himself for all around him.

After 15 minutes ride we saw another strange thing .Under roadside tree there was standing a lone man like was waiting for someone to pick him up.He had torch  so hubby with not any hope asked him "is there any auto workshop ? Man replied No (smilingly probably)

"I can do this as i have tools "

That was unbelievable again that he was waiting for his brother or friend as he was late to pick him up .He told that as because there is no shop near i since some days spend extra time here with tools in case i can earn some extra money .After fixing was done that man left .Hubby thanked him for his favor .We both know that we cannot not forget such difficult times or specially such people who helped us to pass it through .

So wee survived that mishap by the grace of God ! And returned home safely though  one hour late and very cold .I was bit sad because bike is always my idea as ride as i love it .We used to visit our late aunt when she was alive on same road but nothing happened ever .I am grateful through every breath for all the kindness of Lord and kindness of people who still exist in this world!Some images from the way 

                                                           little before bike got punctured 

                both sides of the road were embellished  with lush fields  ,date gardens ,small ponds 

                                 leaving sun light was making views serene and enchanting 

    last  photo that i captured bfore bike got punctured ,i could not catch the water birds which was my wish 

this photo i took when we were heading to the city where they lived ,many traditional beds (charpai)were loaded on bike rickshaw next to us ,time almost 12: 40 

such soothing gorgeous views  never make one feel tired on the way 

wife of nephew peaking from her kitchen and talking to us 

       

             My phone cannot explain the beauty and tranquility of the views that  refreshed our souls 

Stay  blessed with hope that grows in the field of Faith dear friends ,That hope gives you wings so you can keep fly on the sky of life no matter how strong the wind is :)

Keep taking good care all ,in my thoughts and prayers all of you !

blessings to you all!

Sweetness That Made Me Smile And Cry With Gratitude !

It  is  4 pm almost .We just  had  our desert  after  lunch .My  younger  son left  for friend's house where they will study  together. And i sent my youngest  son to deliver portions of some desert to in laws houses .

Yes i made traditional desert with carrots today :) Dish is bit  time consuming (almost three or four hours) and takes little effort constant watch out and occasional stirring  along with addition of ingredients which are carrots ,milk ,cream ,sugar ,cardamom powder and  some nuts .

Mom first and then hubby used to make this one for me for years long ago ,but now i have to make it for myself .It turned out  really good so it was hard to believe that i made it (thankfully)

while  making gajar ka halwa (traditional name for dish) i have been receiving  some pleasant  vibes within  my heart .Like something  really  nice was happening  somewhere in this world and i could feel it right here in my heart .But honestly had no idea what it was and to whom or where it can belong .So i  overlooked my excitement and kept myself busy with kitchen chores though slight smile that i  felt within soul like "lightness of feather"  and sooth  of breath .

Until i came to my living room for break  .My cell laying on table rang and i picked it up without wasting a moment as i could see it was my eldest son from Munich.

He  said he was super busy  but he felt news was worth sharing immediately .First  thought  burst in my head that he has got his new visa card and he will be able to come home soon eventually.But could not think news was even better and happy :)

 Yes His best friend finally got married to his girlfriend :)

The couple was  SPIRITUALLY COMMITTED  to each other since  almost ten years   but there were some family issues  from boy side that kept both love birds waiting .Things  were about to get bit bitter but Lord  thankfully  brought these  Sweet kids Happiest day of their life miraculously :)))

Hearing this happy news made me cry with  happiness and gratitude .I was thankful that  once again God made two soul mates meet each other and live and grow old together !

My son appreciates his friend Mubashir  highly for his kind and generous nature and according to my son the sweet girl who joined Mubashir beta as partner is  equally  an amazing human being :) What a match :)

My heartfelt blessings to happy couple and may they witness all the love and peace in this world together till eternity,amen!!!!! 

4:45 now ,sun  is folding back his  net of  golden rays from my yard wall  swiftly . Sitting on dining table near window i can see the partial sky and hearing the birds flocks returning to their nests  makes me serene and makes me think of happy couple who is in plane this time and will land after few hours in Munich :) My son told that he went along with his friend and cleaned and decorated apartment for  couple :) 

How good it feels when i know that Love and kindness still exist in this world and our children are one of those who spread it where ever they go !

May Lord Keep smiling on them always!

And may lord take away all the worries from all of you and fill your soul with eternal peace and joy ,amen!