The Stuff Of My Life

 

Sometimes i feel that is it right to share with you what i read each time? 

Hope you are not getting bored with my posts about books i read friends. As you all know this blog is like online diary and i have shared always what i have in my mind at time when i sit to post .No preparations   before writing the post and this is why i call my posts a "simple sharing" without any necessary makeup that may be is must in order to give post a "mature look" .

I hope i can make it possible in future sooner or later though.I don't know if my return towards "reading" can help me to post better and in  meaningful way.But i think such careful way when i think about others more than myself. Deep down in my heart i still believe that each single being has unique way of thinking and has gift to share.There can be oceans of meaning in his simple words which he or she may cannot convey in impressive way and through appropriate words and analogies.

Like my self ,i know i have lot to say but don't have time to figure out how to say it effectively .I used to write a lot.When i was in class three i had three big paper registers filled with my thoughts and poetry.My big brother burnt them all.But i continue to write and i still have four r five of them with me. I don't know when i started to  share my heart with paper diaries but i remember the feeling i had.It would happen sometimes suddenly and sometimes gradually during few days that i would feel some particular idea or thought is keep hitting and nurturing itself within the walls of my head.Then at certain point i would feel compelled to leave what i was doing in the middle and get up ,go and take my pen ,open my diary and write mechanically. I never ever thought something purposefully or willingly and then write it down. I wonder why ,was i not capable to do this or i dumb enough to not realize that i had gift and i have to  adore it and polish it.May be or surely i was dumb .

The thing that restrained me from doing so ,now i can realize was my care for people around me ,my family whom i loved far more than myself. I thought giving time to my skill would be waste of precious time .I thought i can use my time in far better and beneficial way.To support those who need me knowingly or unknowingly.May be i thought that my time given to them can make me happier than time given to myself .

May be i thought i was born to be  a supporter .I don't earn and it has bothered me despite of custom that earning is good but not "must" for  women here .It still bothers me to some extent.May be this is the reason behind my attitude to give my sons all my attention so they can focus on their studies better.we all know that teenage is not easy to handle.Kids are mostly tough and offensive specially their last teenage period. They don't feel much obliged towards studies. Therefore task for a mother becomes more and more hard until they learn to open up their wings and fly!

I am a simplistic .I seek lessons  of life in the book of Nature .I feel Nature has all the answers to our quires.And most above i believe that Nature has simple rules to follow that bring simple  consequences so we can learn from our mistakes and grow for better.I learnt this attitude from my observations and experiences. If  it would have happened differently my attitude would have formed differently either.So like all others i too speak behalf of  what i saw and learnt throughout the life.

My belief in goodness and my faith in rules of Nature keeps me positive that end of the day i will get my reward .What it will be it is inexplicable yet i hope it will fulfill my dream to become a writer .Of one book may be lol but i think i will .

See how coming back to the reading has made me little sentimental.I think i will be out of it in sometime.

I kept my reading The Brain Story Of You by David Eagleman on hold  when i started to read The Sapiens.I found it something i have been looking for  since years so i felt compelled enough to finish it at once (as mentioned in previous post).  I began to read"The brain story of you" two days back again and finished it last evening. It was different than my first choice for same topic but had many things that were worth learning. Specially why scientists are unable to design artificial  intelligence that can  "think " by itself like human brain.

According to author who himself is neuroscientist  there are so many projects going on in different institutions and universities .The effort is to introduce AI that can act more near to human being specially regarding brain.But there is certain limit after which all efforts seems to fail until now. I cub is project in which many robots like human child going under process of learning.But one thing that show us our limit is part of brain that we are still unable to produce the "Conscious" brain.Human brain has trillions of neurons which are physical part of our brain .When these neurons interact in response to signals from world outside ,this interaction create our "Consciousness" which makes our personality and everything belong to it including our likes ,dislikes,choices and decisions.

We have copied human brain but it is part only that can figure out and find solutions.But he does it by doing without knowing actually what he is doing.Author exampled ants who do all their disciplined ,precise and cooperative jobs fantastically though they really don't know what they are doing.They just interact through code like language and do wonders of creating astonishing huge colonies ,store food and protect it .But they don't feel anything.They do everything mechanically .

The computers and AI can perform all jobs accurately but without  having feeling what they are doing.This is is really amazing that we can scan ,analyze and operate human brain today but consciousness is still far  away from our approach.What make us feel is still a question which is waiting for it's answer.The day we get this answer we will be able to create superhuman who will have supernatural qualities and those will help to reveal secrets of space and time.

There is lot that i can share from the book but this part i mentioned was most interesting one to me.I am really  desperately waiting for time when scientists can reveal what is feeling thing and how it happens ?

What do you  think friends does soul really exists and feeling belongs to soul only ? 

I think Creator is super magician .He did magic and out of this magic we all emerged .He is playing with us by unfolding gradually how all magic works .How a huge tree comes out of tiny seed ,science got the answer ,how coal becomes the diamond science can tell.But can science tell why the maker wanted us to see how things process and what is essential for their successful survival ? 

Science can tell what Creator want it to think ,observe ,experiment and tell.All this requires physical senses and knowledge.  What he want us to "feel" is unfolded by him because to unfold we need to "feel" not "think" To " feel  we need soul .do you agree ?

please be kind to yourself and all around you ,stay positive because positivity is plant grows in the land of faith !

blessings to you all!

 

The Sapiens By Yuval Noah Harari

 

I finished The Sapiens by Yuval Noah Harari finally .Since i began it on 19th of June i was giving it almost two hour per day except two days when guest came and one day when we went to Sukkur for shopping.yet it took fourteen days to finish . It was one of the best book i ever read .It's completeness is really impressive .Author has covered the huge ,complicated and challenging topic with amazing mastery which leave reader with great satisfaction and joy of learning. I really want to know if some of you have read it ,What you think about it and how it influenced your way of thinking about human history and his growth ?

I want to but cannot share the all topics that author has discussed in this book but i can say that all basic events of the human history are mentioned with great detail like evolution of humanity ,liberalism ,new approach for learning ,beginning of the use of money and how capitalism has got hold of whole global society today.Though i  have mentioned it in my previous  post here  and shared little about i had read in this book about cognitive revolution  and then later agricultural revolution that forced homo sapiens to form towns and create  societies and  socialize. Agricultural revolution  that began almost ten thousand years ago changed the life and perspective of sapiens completely. It ,like all other things has good and bad affect on human life .People left the free roaming life and made homes near their fields.According to author first time in human life time came when he started to think about "future " instead of only present day. The main reason for this was his concern about crops he grew. Henceforth he thought carefully about what he did and plan things. Such thinking burdens were new for his brain to digest and there began various new diseases.Another reason for  new diseases was sudden change of food type as he switched his diet from pure meat to plants and grains mostly.

Author writes when after medieval  man learnt that he know really nothing about world he lives in and about numerous other things new kind of learning started .By admitting ignorance men on earth started new struggle to learn and explore which proved endless till today.Numbers ,math ,chemistry ,physics ,statistics and art surpassed all other previous old scholarly in this era.  

Agricultural revolution provided strong platform for further and new kind of developments that took place time to time during ten thousand years among which the Industrial Revolution was Biggest and most prompting .It started three hundred years ago when machines started to replace men. Life got easier in so many ways and it is then when Time became really important to count and life became restricted in many schedules.

Scientific revolution began in 1945 when nuclear bomb was introduced .Science and technology revolutionized  human society completely and made it a global village.

Author mentions we can say that since centuries sapiens are moving towards a single community system and today it seems quite close to it .Accept it or not almost all people on planet share same European blood because in the past due to invasions and  mingling of races within newly formed empires most of the sapiens produced new generations of mixed blood .Our new biggest trust is money and biggest community is one combined social community .

He added that world of today is formed by capitalist who though has pilled so many new things around us and convinced us to buying them is must and essential.But in order to sell his stuff more he has broken the "family unit" by provoking individualism inside sapiens.Family who was everything for one throughout the whole history torn away by infusing people with ideas that everyone is unique and separate and has all rights over himself  .No one has right to tell him what to do or choose.Consequently today state and market are parents of an individual of today.They provide him all he needs except love and emotional support though such help is also offered that can bring him partner for while .But it is all on price of family who was most important unit of society .

Author talks about research about "Happiness" by scholars ,psychiatrists,scientists like biochemists that try to measure the happiness of  sapiens of modern era as compare to our ancestors. According to different written tests from human subjects happiness is hard to measure only through one mean like written tests .People mostly say they feel happy when they get what they want  and common theory is that people living in big houses and driving luxury cars are happier that people living in little huts and starving for two time meals.

But Biochemists see this differently .They put it like this .Some people are born with richness of special bio chemical that is responsible for pleasant sensation in our body.People who's bodies lack this chemical cannot be happy above certain point and for longer.If measure happiness from 1 to 10 one who is born with more quantity of this  biochemical his happiness leaps from 3 to 7 and never goes down from it even if he is being robbed or faced accident etc .He will feel low for certain time and then his level is up to it's normal point.On the other hand one with less quantity of such biochemical will  feel happiness from 2 to 5 and no matter how big lottery he wins he soon returns to his fixed routine feeling. (that was totally new information for me,now at least i can count my self  well and not weird or sick as my habit to saty happy all the time is not my fault)

According to psychological research people who are married and have lively partner with happy nature are happier than single people who have lot but not  true partner.

People who look after their children and see them growing up before their eyes are more happy than who don't have family.because they don't see taking care of children as headache or heavy responsibility but a way to stay close to nature and nurture life!

Noah the writer writes about one belief that inspired science most and it was creed of  Buddha. Buddha says that people don't feel sad because of poverty ,sickness or any other bad happening but they feel  sad because they always chase cheerfulness and joy.When people are happy they are afraid of loosing it sooner or later.When they are sad they try hard to avoid being sad and not accept what they feeling at the moment. This constant struggle for denial tires them out  and they feel broken and exhausted which leads to disappointment and depression.

If they sit ,relax and meditate .Contemplate about their current feelings ,accept and deal with them calmly it can help them to move out of the tunnel where light of wisdom and serenity is waiting for them. (i found this truly helpful i agree)

In the last chapters writer has said lot about how sapiens are trying to create totally new kind of  history with the help of modern science.Specially how genetic science is going beyond our imagination and engineering the genes to create superhuman which might best copy of even ourselves.They are trying to make medicine that match to one's DNA so can hit the target well during treatment.

Though he sums up  with words that sapiens before taking full advantages of this privilege should first be still and think what they really want as new scientific supper power has made them so blind and busy with numerous projects but it is better to sort out first what they want actually and is it really worth ?

i agree that power specially when it is new and  beyond limits can drive one mad dangerously .and madness can be harmful to himself too so being careful is always right thing to do.

thank you so much for bearing with me precious fellows !

i hope you will share your opinion if you too have read it.

Blessings and best wishes to all of you!!!

    

Sudden Shopping After Sudden Rain

We had sudden thunderstorm and rain for a while night before tomorrow .This was bonus indeed which privileged us to make quick tour  to Sukkur next morning .Quick because despite of mother Nature's kindness we knew summers days are not for long comfortable market stroll .So we left at 12: 20 little after breakfast and returned at 5:15 almost.We could have return earlier if we would have found the microwave safe cooking pot soon as we expected . I mentioned in previous post about gas problem we are having due to some road construction work near our colony.This problem is still here so we decided to bring microwave safe cooking pan so we can eat homemade food. When my eldest son gifted me oven  and microwave  an year ago i was like what would i do with them as i hardly used them though i saw my mother heating food in microwave when she lived in Islamabad but i never used this stuff personally. But my eldest son trusted me with this as he knew i can google about anything i want so i did. I used to bake cake once in while before but only using stove and using sand filled pots .I was happy when i could bake my first cake in electric oven successfully and joy doubled when it was appreciated and eaten away instantly.  

Baking became normal and joyous for me after that but when we encountered with gas issue i had to use oven for making traditional food .As i mentioned living in hot part of land make us use less cheese so having pizza often is out of question for me and hubby particularly .We both had stomach issues in past and try to keep our meals as simple as possible. When i googled about cooking traditional  food in oven there was no such great help.So i pondered little bit about how it can work and i was happily surprised to see  when i saw my first dish of Biryani was out of oven and front of my eyes and looked perfectly fine.My younger son who is really hard to make happy and  hardly praise any thing mostly  prefers market food.When he appreciated that biryani was most delicious dish he ever had i sighed  with gratitude.

I had no microwave safe cooker so i thought it would be nice to have one so i can learn cooking in microwave too.I asked hubby to buy one but he did not find here in Khairpur city of ours.Rain gave us chance to buy it from Sukkur but i was so disappointed that among so many shops i can found this ware in one shop only.According to owner he had many from other places but one from Turkey is success because ladies who bought others returned with complain that they cracked during cooking. He said he has only one piece left but he asked 2500 rupees for this one pan.Hubby thought he was taking advantage so we visited other shops again who had such pans but with no guarantee that they won't crack which should be mentioned with word printed on their back ,but nothing like this so we went back to that shop and bought this pan .I was scared despite of it had guarantee mentioned on it but it worked today thankfully. When my both sons expressed their likening it was great satisfaction to my heart.

We took advantage of  day chilled  with rainy after effects and did some due shopping too. We bought some dresses for both boys for Eid al adha  which is a month away almost.We also bought some dishes for  personal use as we  were lacking them but waiting for cooler weather to shop.

on left first row is microwave safe cooker .i am glad it worked fine.and other plates and dishes for daily use .i chose light color once again not different than my dinner set bought year ago almost 

I am fine and trying to read as much as possible as i am finding  my both books so compelling. I have put The Brain story of you by David Eagleman on hold and trying to finish " The Sapiens" which i liked so much.

I will talk about its next chapters  in next post hopefully .

Till than keep sowing smiles  in hearts around you with heart filled with faith and hope so you can harvest more smiles and joy in days ahead precious friends!

Wishing you all health ,peace happiness forever amen! 

The Stuff Of My Life

 

We have not returned to same point of extreme heat again since heavy thunderstorm came on last week Thursday morning  and for this i am thankful to Creator indeed!

Weather is still hot but it is less bothering for some reason and for people like me who grab reasons for being happy anyway like  children running after butterflies can be really satisfied with this little drop of temps which have fallen from fifty to forty. 

I wait for summer solstice day desperately every year since i came here in southern part of my country . I count for it when June starts and often words slip from my mouth 

"okay just few days more and winters will start "  Hubby laughs on my self delusional behavior in these particular days. But isn't it better to make yourself feel good what is going to happen sooner or okay little later .This affects my senses positively to little extent and i day dream about cooler days consciously or unconsciously .

I found my new read    The Brain Story Of You (written by David Eagleman  published in 2015)  really interesting .It is not much heavy with complex technical terms but loaded with amazing advanced knowledge about how exactly our brain works. This is exciting to get into the most wonderful and mysterious thing in your head and see how it is making you what you are. 

The new thing thing to learn that surprised me  was that according to long and constant on going research the  unconscious part of our brain play far more important role in shaping us than our conscious self .Author referred to very first psychologist Freud ( i mentioned once i watched drama based on his professional struggle on Netflix)who pointed out that man's conscious  part is like  only tip of an ice berg we can see from above ,the far bigger and more active part is under the surface of water which we cannot see but it controls our conscious part mostly.

Three days back when my book marked page of this book was taking too long to open i  googled meanwhile for the book  "The Sapiens  A Brief History Of Humankind " by Yuval Noah Harari published in 2011 .My eldest son recommended this to me long ago but i was unable to find it's audible version . I found it's pdf gladly that day and it was so easy to download it. Once i started to read it i was captivated by the journey of mankind  that he made through out the millennia .I found it so irresistible as i forgot counting time .I would sit for hours and forgot to do things of my routine .Thanks to (though no thanks actually)  that there was some piece of work being done in our colony and in it's surroundings .New gas pipes are being installed and so as the electric transformers so for most of our day time our gas and electricity supply was suspended. Hubby and me mostly relied on bakery bread and fruits like melons and mangoes which have peak season now days though both my sons took this opportunity for eating their favorite fast foods like pizza and burgers.I was not cooking  So this way i got plenty of time  from each day for reading :)

I felt so happy to get back to my most favorite hobby for while though long reading from direct laptop screen  seems to hurt eyes little bit.Yet Joy is pure and mine ! I have read 92 pages from total 368 pages .I wonder where are the other 75 pages that book has according to google and why they are not visible here ?

Author has shared everything about the beginning of  human existence on earth which goes back to 2.5 million years .He has written specially about era when sapiens (wise man) started to appear and how they finished other weaker human species and more than half of animal species existing on planet  before them between 70,000 years to 30,000 years ago.Story is astonishing ,sad and heartbreaking sometimes but it is story of Us and worth reading .I was surprised to learn that dwarfs that we used to see in movies existed in reality long ago then human came to being.

Author has written that research and so many findings of fossils show that sapiens developed their brain because they invented fire which helped them to eat soft foods rather than meat only.Because of this new adoption their teeth became  shorter in many thousands of years.After stomach human brain is second  biggest energy consumer so when due to soft food sapiens got their intestine and teeth shrunk ,their brain grew well and bigger than other species who were eating hard meat until than.

This change based the Cognitive Revolution .According to authors this revolution happened between the era of 70,000 to 30,000 years when sapiens cleared earth from other species who were stronger than them physically but weaker mentally .Researchers are not sure what made Cognitive Revolution possible but mostly agree that it was result of genetic mutation that occurred in past so many times and gave the existence of life so much variety that led them towards different ways and habitats of life.

From the roots of this cognitive revolution sprouted stem of wisdom and sprouted branches of  language ,social cooperation, art and   myth .

Invention of myth was in order to create strong social circle ,a huge community who can stand together in the times of needs .This is how religion and other different religious ,social and political ideas born.All was to keep power in hands specially men power .

Okay that was really short summery of my recent reading from Sapiens. I am really enjoying this.I think this is nice to learn that we all living things have come to exist from one single source.

The Divine energy who is responsible to make this all happen is part of us. He produced us and then unfolding our layers of possibilities gradually . I don't think it is for nothing. We the supreme specie of this planet has made his long journey  through millions of years.From the tiny single gene to as wisest specie we have proved what we can do and how deadly we can be when act s thoughtless creature to clear our path from enemies and how enlightened we can be if stand like lighthouse of kindness and knowledge for others.

I think there is still time to understand the core point of the game we are stuck into.Survival is task but it is not the only task i believe.If it was we had no need for wisdom and enlightenment we experience today. There is something else something above the mere physical existence.I can say this because wisdom is required for spiritual survival.And this is why we are given this spiritual light .

Once we get this most important point of this game we can play fairly and fearlessly because when players rise above physical grounds victory is for everyone !  

love you all precious people !