Stuff Of My Life

 Hello Sweet Hearts!

Hope beating beautifully on the rhythm of life!

This is September, a month in which autumn starts to show it' s colour. It's been ages since i witnessed true autumnal beauty in my native village. Trees and plants stay here green for extended period because of hot weather. We wait for cooler days to witness little colours of the season in our small garden. Maybe it is slowly changing weather that brings nostalgia or aging that i am missing autumn more this year.

This is pleasant noon and i am saying this because i don't have to cook lunch in the kitchen today as we have some chicken curry and all i have to cook is two flat bread and that is it. So once i enter and work in the kitchen i encounter with much heat and forget to appreciate the weather that is getting less hot with passing days of September . Right now temperature is 38 c outside but fan air feel cool inside.

I am writing this post on dining table, my favourite place from where i can see bit of the sky, our garden and neem tree that is playing with air joyfully!

I sat here to write after so many days actually. The long and intensely hot  summers leave no room for feel anything but heat and laboured breathing during doing house chores. Our recent stay of 3 months in Islamabad went mostly in hospital visits sadly. Yet we had great time there. Eldest as wise precious soul he is has rented an apartment in posh area where the the huge park was right before where we lived. Though windows did not face the park directly but we took full advantage of this opportunity and took daily walks of 3 to 4 miles regularly. We knew that eldest son wanted us to do so and he knew how much we love walking in this park. God bless him for his kindness! 

I realised that only one thing that kept me pushing towards feeling ill there was that i had to skip exercise which my body needed badly due to arthritis. Actually most of the mornings we had to go to the hospital around 8 am for more than two months.Mornings were time for the exercise. Then business and hacks of the day would not leave energy to do anything but lay low. On the other hand meds started to make me feel more dull. I believe that if i could have continued exercise i would have not been much ill because meanwhile i became vulnerable to my severe anemia, arthritis, stomach ulcer and allergy that occupied the space completely.They have been with me whole life and i have kept them knocked off for decades with my exercise and meditation but this time i made mistake by not thinking about what i was missing actually.

Since here at home now all due cleaning and arranging is done ,i have started exercise and feel energetic already thankfully ! 

Do you ever feel that if you skip exercise for sometime and world around you seems to get enlarge and you feel shrunk before everything around you ?

I felt that way after skipping exercise for three months :( 

But it is just third day of workout and i feel strong and active again :)

Today i am little sad and happy at the same time because our youngest son has left home as he has got admission in the university in other city .

The day he left three of us were emotional and i saw my son trying not to show his emotions first but i could see his slightly wet eyes. Than before bus moved he got down second time and hugged us and said he is thankful for everything and that he will miss us . He asked us not to tire ourselves much .We are in touch daily and he seems happy with this change and is busy in preparation for joining his university.His brothers are guiding him too!

After him, next day when we got up house felt so empty and my eyes were shedding tears after each once in while .I know that today's children are not like us who were so naive and wouldn't survive without parents or will take long to adjust. They are smart and know how to move on and face what lies ahead. But being a parent i feel bit alone an sad! I know i will made peace with this transformation as well with time ,though an emptiness and sense of sadness will stay with us for the life we have ahead. It makes me at peace too and proud too that God has given me an open mind to understand how nature works and follow it's simple laws so life can be a good and light experience for everyone! 

This is the only earning i could made throughout out my life and i feel grateful for that! Everyone has his own way to earn happiness .It makes me utterly grateful and happy that God has gifted me heart who feels happy only when he gives happiness to people around him!

Thank you so much for being with me till here dear friends!

thank you so much for your exceptional love and support that strengthen me and encourages to share more🥹🙏❤️

Health ,peace and happiness to you all and to all you love!!!!