Eternal Battle (poem)

 You have left “ me “ in the tunnel of my body 

with light and darkness walking alongside 

Without leaving me a clue how to exist between this fight 

 compression of both opponents is knocking down my being 

Which one is taking the battle, unable to weighing 

Sometimes darkness is everywhere my eyes can see 

Crushing my soul and breaking my heart as if it meant to be 

Robbing my dreams and snatching away all my gleeful hopes 

Dismay ,sorrow and disappointment lamenting over my corpse 

senses lost in jungle of regrets ,fear , shame and pain 

Standing in the middle of nowhere feeling isolated ,insane 

Anger is wind , tears are rain and helplessness is season 

Everything about me is questioned and “trusting “ has no reason 

Empty,shocked and shaken by circumstances I am in 

Trying to figure out what is gained and what is stolen 

Then suddenly game twisted again and I am in different phase 

Darkness has disappeared and sun is spreading rays 

This time light is triumphant and life is full of glow

Sky is blue and earth is lush,nothing looks dull or slow 

Birds are singing songs of hope and joyful tomorrow 

Life is rich with happiness as much as you can borrow 

Everything seems to be bursting with joyous metaphor 

Hugs of love and gifts of smiles,time is such a sweet anchor 

On souls’s tree chirping wishes and merry thoughts are nestled 

To heart’s ears by beating breeze joyous promise is whispered 

Eyes glittering with gratitude,head is bowed to Divine 

As if all has been good so far and will be remaining fine 

Before I could settled for the moment,things got upside down 

Shivering In the awe of swap thinking if I was clown?

Time has been passing by day by day and year by year 

I remained stuck in this battle until white hair appeared 

When my body wrinkled,I realised my soul grew younger 

Physical eyes declined when ,inner vision grew stronger 

Wondering heart of mine one day could step out of mist

Like everyone else I could finally had my gift 

Power  to see what is lying underneath the pretence 

Peeking through the reality ,things could make sense 

What I have been bearing wasn’t only my body ‘s curse 

I saw darkness and light prevailed across the universe 

I wondered who placed them there to fight eternal battle 

Each of them existed there for other as an obstacle 

My body like millions of others was fabric of these two !

Ego shattered into the pieces erasing what was drew 

With what I claim this world and what it supposed to be 

If I am just a “fabric “ and there is no such thing as “me” ???

Darkness and light pulling strings and shaping my destiny 

Did I come here from heaven to perform “puppet “ and leave?

Or there is something waiting yet to be revealed?

Proceeded with my journey towards my goal 

I realised that  all the answers possess only my Soul!

Vastness of my Soul had no end  as  pure ,divine Sea

Led me to perpetual heights like ever growing Tree

Where I met eternal Light of my  ever evolving soul 

That Light promised me that unshaken control 

Over the both of powers playing with my life 

“Light” gave me the Will power and freedom which one to drive!

It felt so liberating to get rid of messy cage 

Where I was stuck in a fray full of hatred and rage

Seeing with the Light from higher brings in so much peace 

Finally I have something which I claim “mine “ at least