Marriage and Family are source to feel Complete ?

Hello dear friends  hope and pray that your heart are having same blooms as your gardens  now  a days .

Few  months ago  in my in laws it was a death anniversary of one of my Hubby's  uncle.He  died  almost  seven years ago. He was the  eldest brother of my father in law and had strongest  financial  condition among his all four brothers.

      youth ,beauty  and power is not forever,sow some seed to turn into a tree ,may be one day you will sit under its  shad.

His name was  Amir but everybody called him Amboo uncle.After my marriage when i moved here i also called him baba amboo..My hubby told me that he was  extremely handsome and charming in his youth and was called ladies man.He never got married and always make fun of people who take such huge responsibility and  make such long commitments.

He used to think that  life is not for bearing such pains but just to  enjoy yourself  and celebrate life everyday with new view of it's.When i came here after marriage i lived for many years with my in laws  as over here people then mostly prefer joint family system then.At that time  baba amboo was  about to reach his seventies.

                                             don't  leave your desk alone and empty 

Though he was nice man with kind heart who keeps smiling mostly  and was economically independent  but i always saw in his  eyes  a  painful emptiness  which revealed his dissatisfaction and restlessness.He was very kind to me and  once he offered me that he wants to give me a huge   plot to make  a separate house when he saw my mother in law unkind to me but i did not agree because i did not want my relationship with him any worldly reason as  i got  a bad habit to  be kind and friendly with all my relatives and friends or even people who i meet first time i can't help it.

In  whole big family i was the one who look after him in his last days,when  he many times cried and said that he made wrong decision i should have get married and make family ,i  have everything but still i feel incomplete and the biggest pain of my life is that i am leaving along with this incompleteness and can't remove the heavy stone of regret from my heart.

                                           Leave  someone behind to chase your footsteps 

When he  died it was 2 30 am he took his last breath with great hardness and then his body  became still.It was December 's night  i knocked the doors of other family members's door and told about his death i still  remember that night when everybody heard it with no care and no one came out of his room to see him except me and my husband.I was very shocked to see such ruthlessness.He was very kind and giving to everyone but after his death all their warmth was gone  as it was  all fake .

                    family  makes you complete  because it is the demand of nature 's process 

That was the night when i decided to take separate home and and few years  we moved from there .In my mind that question comes repeatedly that do you think no mater how beautiful and luxurious life you live  at the end of the day  why do you need a partner and kids .does it make you feel complete and without it you feel lost ?

have a lovely spring everyone.