After the long hard work of tiring day sun slipped behind the hills to take a nap.
Evening took advantage of the serene smooth moments and spread around the glittering grey sheet embellished with shining stars.
Soothing gentle waves of breeze were flowing softly within the beautiful heart of valley .
Whispers of leaves and rocking branches added more glory to the sights.
I was standing beside the tree in my front yard which was on hill top.
Everyday it was my routine to gaze and absorb the mesmerizing beauty of nature around me before sun rise and after sun set.
Both of these times were always special to relive and rediscover my inner peace .
Getting up in early mornings and welcoming the first sun ray or viewing the leaving golden ball over the peak of hill was always spiritual experiences to me.
Moments before sun rise awake new hopes and enthusiasm and when sun gently opened his eyes behind the hill and smiled my heart bloomed like spring flower :)
Unlike this sunsets made my heart little slow surrounded by undefinable sadness accompanied by strange gloomy mood, deep intuition and contemplation over the nature !
Evenings often felt like as whole of life to me where each natural phenomena became more CLEAR and ATTRACTIVE .
I could feel the flow and depth of CONNECTION between me and nature .
At that moment i was the center and everything was circling smoothly while defining their existence and reason behind it!
Chest of memories had opened during these enchanting moments and boat of my heart floated over the tides of the ocean of deep moving mixture of happy and sad thoughts.
I Heard the voices of flying birds and looked above with affection and love.
They were returning to their nests because it was evening time and night was about to fall.
It seemed some strong unseen power was pulling towards it . I mechanically sat down for prayer .
I realized there was some one extremely mighty and powerful who wanted me to revise my connection with him on deep levels!
He held my eyes as strongly to the sky as i could not remove them even if i wanted to .
It seemed that my whole body was tied with an unseen rope of some strange undefinable power which had connected me with my WHOLE to whom i belong and who let me be here for while and will grab me back whenever he will want!
I found myself a tiny piece of energy departed from a huge source of power.
Being related to something as mighty and powerful strengthened my existence !
I and everything around me dissolved in a silver liquid flowing smoothly within universe as WHOLE!
This all was beyond words and expressions !
may be someday i can find way and words to express what i had been feeling during such magical moments but until now i don't even know perfectly what it was and IS!
May be connection that we loose often while being lost in worldly illusions.
Stay In TOUCH With One Who Created You!
Prays and blessings for all of you my precious friends!
Hello Lovely People!
Hope all of you are enjoying the each moment of life with Grace and gratitude !
Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends who are celebrating this day of Thanks!
Among all the blessings we have is
MOST IMPORTANT BLESSING IS TO HAVE REALIZATION OF BLESSINGS WE HAVE!
Without this Main blessing all blessings loose their meaning in our life ,aren't they?
Slowly and steadily winter is arriving in our part of land ( south Asia Pakistan) either . Temps are dropping little bit such as 30 Celsius only with gentle waves of breeze!
10:40 am ,i am feeling better .
Yes few days back hubby took me to the doctor who was specialist of orthopedics .I told him about my joint pain history which specially increases during winters .
He immediately wrote three kinds of blood tests which were quite expensive .We got reports after two hours wait and revisited doctor . According to him my body lacks calcium terribly!
He wrote prescription .I requested him to write something which make me less sleepy .He smiled and re wrote few tablets as he cut two names written before on paper .
I am so happy that these drugs are not making any negative effects on my nerves and i am able to do all my house related chores actively .
Joints pain has started to be less slowly as it seems that knots tied within bones are being untied gently (thank God) :)
You please take great care dear friends and stay aware of your body's problem and don't postpone their solution further!
Happy Living! Love you All God Bless YOU!!!
When i was young sleeping was waste of time for me consciously or may be unconsciously because i used to sleep late night and never took naps while my whole family used to sleep early as in (my native) village night began right after dinner at 8pm.
I would pretend as sleep because mom was strict about early bed and early rise and specially morning prayers before sunrise.
When i would hear slight sound of snoring of my mom i would get up quietly and go to room ( in summer nights we used to sleep in front yard) and watch english drama or movie that used telecast on national t.v after 11pm .
I read somewhere that our body set it's own clock according to our routine and we feel sleepy or awake on certain same times when we do so.
So most probably this is the reason that i can't get sleep more the six hours .If i am tired due to heavy chore and fell asleep in afternoon i will not be able to sleep properly and deeply in night.
After Marriage after few early happy years when pressure from my in laws specially from my psycho ( this is for real she is mentally not healthy) mother in law i was forced to live a frustrated and terrible life my sleep was affected strongly .
Talking about my early married years from 1995 to 2005. It was most hard time when i was experiencing darker side of life .Life where all around you are enemy and try to destroy you just because you are loved by someone (hubby) from their own family and completely different from them.
This was time when my eyes seemed to forget HOW TO SLEEP!
i was scared of nights SPECIALLY THE LONG WINTER NIGHTS! They seemed like an anaconda who was crawling nearer to swallow me!
When hubby would sleep i would feel so helpless and horribly alone!
I would get up from the bed and go on roof top ,would sit on chair and stare to the moon if there is one. Would listen the mourning of air and try not make voice during my constant crying!
I saw how dark nights turned into the bright days and felt relived that this is daytime and atleast i can diverse my attention in house business .
It seemed that my body was loosing the need of sleep completely but worst was that the awaken times were full of terror and pain. I was lost and depressed .
Consequences were that i was often sick and lack of energy was effecting my physical and metal health because less sleep was decreasing my hunger also.
Almost six or seven years passed in such condition. I was becoming victim of self pity and totally lost self confidence. It was hard for me to appear in gatherings or talk by making eye contact with confidence
I was seeking for help now just like a sinking person wave his hands below the water but there was no one around to help!
This is human nature that when tough time comes he runs for help to others existing around him in the world outside him!
When he finds nothing he bow down and finally ask for help from his unseen creator who exists not only around him but somehow INSIDE HIM!
Talking from personal experience that God keeps his promise ,he answers when we call him and opens the doors of solutions for us miraculously!!!
So he did to me ,when i slowly started ponder upon problem, i found out that i was suffering with sleeping disorder which was result of my brain's distraction at the time of sleeping.
So what to do?
Only one solution was available
"to help myself"
Process was long and difficult because when we try to control others we be offensive but when it comes to control our own head we be confused how to do it!
I started physical exercise , meditation and little bit of yoga !
Gradually i learnt (little bit) how to command my brain!
Response was very slow to nothing in beginning but i knew i found the huge way to the solution so did not give up!
It took almost two years of effort to tame my brain according to my will!
Since almost 15 years i am enjoying proper and good sleep because when i lay down shut down the door of my brain and leave all the random pile of thoughts outside of it.
It hardly take few moments me to fall in sleep now !
Even i can take naps if i want to and good sleep at same night but i don't like naps until they are strongly required .
I feel active and energetic and for this blessing i am grateful to my dear lord who always helped me on straight time :)
Thank you for visiting and reading ,hope my experience will be helpful for one who has same problem!
Stay Calm and Full of FAITH HOPE and LOVE! God is always here for you then!
Hugs and Blessings to all of you!!!
Whenever i think about human relationships and complications risen between people a thought jump into my head instantly.
More than fifty percent of arguments between two people seem to occur because of immediate reaction invading WORDS and rise of VOICE.
Speech is form of POWER !
And we often MISUSE it by taking it granted !
Very few of us learn gradually to make BALANCE in its use!
In result our relationships get affected by our TONGUE!
I believe that human relationships were more strong and deep if we were not given voice to spoil them!
Because Anger makes us say what we really don't want to say or even feel !
This appears in improper inappropriate way pushed by only one desire "to hurt back" THAT IS It!
WHAT DO YOU THINK WORLD WITHOUT VOICE AND WORDS WOULD BE A BETTER PLACE?? ??????
