Wednesday, October 28, 2020

Completion Of Kitchen Renovation !




 Hey  Amazing Hearts 

Hope  enjoying  the weather and moments  in hands with  gratitude and  positivism :)

Our  kitchen  renovation  has been complete finally  and thankfully. I have  shifted  all stuff  into the cabinets including my dinner set that was waiting for it's suitable place .Our old kitchen had only four cabinets that were enough for spice containers or utterly  needed  utensils .But  now my all  things has found their proper place sigh . 


           my new stove ,hubby asked for copper burners so it was quite expensive than others ,as  housewife it is pleasing to have kitchen with new and neat look and stuff  :) so i am liking it a lot :)

here we have lots of sun so this blue color will help to feel the coolness of cloudy sky :) i am even finding these tiles nice now lol

i have bought new bread cooker ,you can see it on left placed with stove ,i am planning to buy some necessary stuff more specially spice or other thing's containers 

the wall above the cabinets  will be painted  that will probably take two and a half days , we will cover everything including cabinets with plastic then 

i washed kitchen stuff last day ,it took two days almost so i am feverish and tired already yet happy and serene with deep sense of gratitude :)


 i know i am posting late but it is because of extra house chores due to renovation but it all is worth it :)


See you soon dear friends ,keep treating yourself with love and kindness as you deserve it :)
I have you all in my thoughts and prayers !
Stay Blessed!

Wednesday, October 21, 2020

In The Middle Of Kitchen Renovation


We  are enjoying our weather these days to it's fullest. Days are pleasant and nights are slightly cool .Temps are spinning around thirty though figure thirty seems hot during September.For what i am specially grateful for is gentle soothing breeze that feels like miraculous touch of the Love and grace of Lord with each calm gust :) This is inexplicable feeling to feel my Creator as close .This kind touch travels like silver soothing light within me as whole and connects me with him as whole !

Last week two of my sister in law came to stay with us with few of their kids. My younger sister in law brought her daughter (6) and elder one brought her grand daughter .Her grand daughter is considered problem child but i was surprise to see that she did not annoy her grandma for even once .She was extremely calm which was totally different what i know her as during each encounter i found her mom so angry and frustrated about her daughter's behavior .I was concerned but when i saw her as calm it was relief .
This was two days and one night stay.We had nice time together except little difficulty with preparing food for them ,specially my elder sister in law take cautionary meal and i have no kitchen right now .but my back street is serving as kitchen which is hardly 3 feet wide .Yet all went good thankfully as we all face such little difficulties gladly for loved ones .
Half of our kitchen  work seems to be done .I have taken few photos to share with you 


when i got in my front yard i was stunned by beauty and serenity ,being under open endless sky is joy indefinable  :) Sunlight crossing through branches seems always so magical to me ,they take me to the horizons unknown but full of wonder and tranquility .as workers work in the yard from morning 8 am to 6 pm evening ,i stay inside with curtain closed ,so i try to spend sometime in yard before they arrive.Hubby has washed plants many times after cement work has finished but climber look still dusty .we tend to wash it after work is off completely .i like and wait for rain to wash away plants but no rains here since months ,my brother's wife told in her last day's voice message that no rain in their area either though she thinks it is because of an innocent girl has been murdered there.Girl was daughter of one of her aunt and was killed by her own brother for name sake of honor .They blamed few male cousins and other boys who uploaded inappropriate images (photo shopped though)  on social media .My brother's son is one of those boys .Though he declines to do so and insists that his sim card was used by another boy and he is not guilty 

 
I took this photo before squirrels spoil them ,earlier i was worried about pomegranate but now i am happy for squirrels :)


tiles below cabinets are not that i wanted ,i wanted tiles with green color (fresh grass color) but found nowhere including Sukkur city which has huge shops and collection,all they was brown and cream color ,i like cream color but they had weird patterns and big images of fruits or crockery that hubby did not like ,he preferred these and i greed inevitably ,Blue sheet of cabinet will be hidden behind grey doors that i chose , you can see it in last image but it's elegance is not obvious in photo completely   


my most favorite place on earth is my yard :) the peace i feel here and joy is hard to explain . I am deeply grateful for this sense of realization that how close Lord is to his man and all he needs a true call from him so he can response with kindness and eternal love ! I don't know what is after life but i am totally drowned with gratitude that he made me "FEEL" him ,It seems that the door beside which i was waiting for ages has started to open slightly ,the strange comfort  and contentment that i used to feel as child even ,still overwhelms me when i look at these gifts ! I did my stretching and little yoga while inhaling his grace and exhaling all the worldly worries for while ,This gives positive start to my day 


Dear friends hope and pray that each day is adding glory, peace  wisdom to your soul and each day life is more  graceful is for you.You are in my thoughts and prayers as precious fellows .Wishing all of you more grace of Creator in days ahead !
see you soon!


Thursday, October 15, 2020

Deadly Peace And Whirlpool Of Energies

 

Sitting in the living room on my dining table  i am looking through the window at my neem tree  and small garden that seems to place under the shade of my neem tree .This is soothing sight which makes me grateful for the blessings and peace i have in my life .

Sometimes  i find myself  weird .I feel myself drowned in the ocean of stillness .Like i have become stuck in whirlpool of deadly peace .It is disconnecting me all other bothering feelings inevitably.That makes me feel doubtful about myself. Am i sick to be at extreme peace ? 

Should i feel guilty to find such peace within world full of desperation ?

Or i have earn it with constant fight with odds of life and negativity ?

Still guilt does not disappear completely but dims to some extent .

And i am again within whirlpool of stillness .Though query keeps poking my mind ,from where it has come ,this deadly peace ?

Is this worldly stuff or kindness i receive from loved ones ?

Or The" Zero " that always fascinates me with it's nothingness that  gives birth  to all existing .

Why zero  is most attractive number to me ?

Why nothingness has so much appeal ?

Is this world of  possibilities springing within zero or "nothingness" that keeps me as deeply " still" from within  ?

All  i know (now) that it was there within me  from beginning but extended by the time and overcame eventually on my remained being belonged to vibrant part of  life.Vibrant with dreams and wishes .

I was crystal clear in my longings regarding probable life i had ahead  as  growing girl then.

Having so less compare to others never bothered me personally . I was content with my carefree attitude .I felt strange fulfillment in the middle of emptiness even. 

When i was able to think more clearly in my thirties i felt that desire to feel "close to him"(Lord) grew stronger.

I wanted nothing for myself  even then. There was constant weird fear of loosing my most precious feeling of "having him with me " if i wanted world . This desire to "feel close to him " was not self creation .It came along my genes .I inherited it ,from whom i can't say.

This feeling of being close to Him resemble feeling of  student who wants to be appreciated by class teacher who he likes so much and  adore her effort she put  for making him  learn stuff for being good human being. 

Feeling of "having him" with me felt most comforting when i had less matter or people around. He spoke to me through everything i encountered in life .Nature ,people ,events ,accidents ,incidents and coincident .Each of these thing supported my strength for having faith in Him eventually. Still i know if there was chance for me to get lost in all the nature in world and spend time while feeling strongly connected to him i would have done this .

When i once shared this with hubby he said " it is easy to quit world and stay with him alone  but Hard to get in the mess of world and still stay connected to him and  live with rules he has set for you as your guardian. This is true test of love  that you have for him because temptations of this world are irresistibly compelling  and  suffering  that life bring on you are determined to shake  your faith .But without test there is no proof that you loved him truly .

I  had to live life of person who is tangled in so many threads that  life throw at us as a net to distract  us ,captivate us and take us away from him so can  illusion  and separate  us from our actual divine aim of life,

 "Observe" "Learn " ".Love "Live " and "Help Others to Live Better  if can "

Still i could never discard myself from that feeling that i am tiny part of His eternal  energy ,existing within Him ,By Him and pulling towards Him gradually until day i will dissolve in Him once again until He gives me another journey in another shape .So i try Hard to please him by all i can do while living worldly life.

Sometimes when i look at sky i feel that  we all are existing within the ocean that is filled with tow kind of energies evidently. 



Positive energy and Negative energy .We are left to float among them freely .Our intentions and our tendencies  determine  our directions which kind of  row we will join. 

Among  the rows  of both energies there are places where water of ocean is more thick or thin .And there are whirlpool  that wait for voyagers  who rush into them blindly .They don't  are not meant to let go what  is trapped within them.People trapped in them experience  extreme  pressure of energy whether it is dark or positive .

Those who sail in thick or thin waters  live healthy life probably .They don't have to fight with any kind of pressure so they are more relaxed .

People swimming near  where whirlpools of  energies exist  have to resist to prevent themselves from falling in.It is not bad to be trapped within whirlpool of positive energy though balance is always appreciated most by learning that laws of nature offer .

Though  how dangerous is to get trapped into the whirlpool of negative energy we all know this. What  is the shape of our world today it is  obvious that most of us  are trapped within whirlpool of negative energy otherwise world would have better face .

I am believer of faith and hope so i hope that not may be all but more people will understand this and will try to avoid this trap .

Planet earth will not be heaven then though but better place where  more hands will be available to hold who can fall rather than push to make  other fall .

I am sorry if i bored you with my long post today but being honest on my online diary page is must for me .And today words were out of my control .

Actually  i wanted to reply to your kind beautiful comments today but slipped away when started to type .

Each of you have left really nice words regarding my renovation and behavior of the wife of my brother.I want to say THANK YOU all of you specially  Sue from This and That said beautiful words about true happiness that touched my soul so deep :)

Thank sweet friends how can i repay this kindness and love of your's that becomes backbone of my confidence !

All i can do is to keep you all in my thoughts and prayers and visit your lovely places to sooth my heart.

God Bless You All!







Friday, October 9, 2020

Contentment Is KeY To Happiness And Glimpse Of My Native Town

 


One part of my kitchen renovation has been finished yesterday.Tiles and marble pieces are installed .Polish will be done after two days . Then carpenter  will come and cabinet will be made and installed .I was able to get out in my yard after a week and it was nice to see my heaven flourishing before my eyes :) Though because of cement use thick white layer of the dust has covered my garden inhabitants ,they still look beautiful and soothing . I washed my grains today too so got tired enough to take 15 minutes nap after lunch. I felt better when i woke up.I went out and everything looked so lovely.My neem tree seemed astonishingly majestic bathing with sunshine. Branches looked so happy while embracing soothing breeze .Voices of birds and occasionally passing vehicles were narrating the delight of life.And like millions of times before, my heart wondered " how life can be so beautiful "" ? 

I did not know the answer long ago but now i am aware that beauty of  everything around me lies within my own self .It is my way to look at things. It is dress carved by my own perception  that my eyes carry and make it wear things i see .

Yea i know may be i have created fool's heaven but hey if clever can tell me trick that bring them such peace of mind i will think to try that too :) .Contentment is key to happiness and thankfully i have it since i can think .It makes one person easy to live with and also a person who feels comfortable  among all odds.I am grateful to my Lord for this gift!

I  used to tell you about my wife of my brother who sends me long voice texts since few months .She was difficult person to live with back when i had to live with her. Her unkindness created problem in my life then.After my marriage we were not in touch for 23 years untill my parents died in 2011.Now when she started to talk through messages i was okay .I thought may be she is changed person now as we all grow with age (mostly ,probably) . I also few times helped her financially when she needed. Now  one of her son who is different than his other four siblings has caused some serious problem for her and things got worst when police was involved .

Problem is that everyone including father and sibling is pointing finger at her that she spoiled her son with her extra loving behavior .I mean when she had to warn and handle him wisely she covered his mistakes and that encouraged  boy to move further on bad side. 

When topic came during our chat and i tried to make her understand that by covering his mistakes she is creating problems for him. It's been month i am trying to convince her politely but she is only just more angry.I don't know what to do all i want is to end it now.Some images to lighten my and your mood .

 

it was almost 4pm ,two hours to say goodbye to today;s sun ,I don't why but such sights speak to me strongly ,this tiny part of nature that i can  experience within my yard connects me immediately to the whole scenario of universe ,i feel i  have become particle of air and roaming within the universe  peacefully ,joyously ,smilingly ,gratefully :) it seems so real sometimes and i stay in awe for long :)Sky is calm .blue and embracing ,i wonder why the sky is placed before our heads ,may earth is for physical wander and sky for spiritual exploration :) those who feel like me only they can realize what i mean .


few images of my dear native village ,childhood is not only little part of our life but a treasure that one can preserve and flourish throughout the life when being old seems tiring , nieces standing with kitchen wall in my native home 

some views of my lovely native town i captured while going to visit my parents tombs 

this is back side of village , it is all full with houses now , then forty years back when i  had to walk here it was barren and  wild life was threat for walkers ,bushes were high and scary and walking over rough way was really task ,i had been falling and hurting my self in the beginning yet i loved it so much ,i felt it was my town and i was meant to be here :)

blooms when i visited one of my cousin's daughter who was married to her aunt 's son in our village 










I have to finish this post as it is getting dark outside quickly almost 6pm evening .

Stay blessed with kind smile and try to share it with all you meet dear friends .You don' know how and when this gift of your's can enlighten someone's day :)

Blessings to all of you !