Happy New Year

In   the  mysterious  ocean  of  time 

Boat   of  life  waved   aimlessly for  long

While  singing   carefree   songs

With  no  direction   and  identity 

Pampered  with  smooth  journey  

Relaying   on   helm   of  happy   dreams 

My  voyage  was   led   by  stormy  wishes 

I   took   granted   all  i  had 

With  belief   of   certain   victory   over   sea
Which   will  take  no  effort   at  all  ,i thought

Unfamiliar  with storms  waiting   ahead  

Roaring   anxiously  on  my  ignorance and  pride 

Enlightening    my  being  with with  dreadful  dazzle

Light   that  discovered  hidden   corners

Where  darkness  disguised  in  form   of  light

Fog   of   illusion  that  melts  away  when  sun  rise   

Each   gust  of   wind  peeled  me  inward  

Fear   came  out   like   biggest  Sum 

Behaved  like  nuts  and  started  to  drum  

Rain   and  thunder  questioned   my  dare

"Who  can  Survive, deserve  life is  fair"

Overwhelmed  by  sudden  pain 
Tears  showered  like  piercing   rain 

Is   this  possible  with  skills  so  naive 

Finding  way  through  storm  "to  survive"?

Noise  of  drumming  loud   and  loud 

Surrounded  by  invisible  crowed 

Sorrow  ,fear  ,shame   and  despair 

Discouraging  whispers  echoed  everywhere 

Fallen  ,broken  ,tired  numb 

Upholding   undeniable  fate ! 

Fell  into  boat  about  to  drowned 

Fled  into  mountainous  tides  

Urged  ,twisted  ,forced   to  die 

Unable  to  breath  ,hard  to  try 

Drifted  into   world  so  calm  and dark 

Bird  of  soul  about   to  embark 

Between   soul  and  body was  something  still
Made   me  retry  and  forced  to  drill

Striving back  with  shaky  frame 

Felt  empowered  ,though  physique was  lame

Sea  cherished  my  wish  to  live 

Offered   me  he  had  to  give 

Piece  of   wood  from  which  i  slipped 

Seemed  to  me  even  more  than  ship 

In  the  cup  was  there  only  sip 

Could  not  afford   to  loose   my  grip  

Nothing   is  useful  to  you  until 

One  has  not  his  "power  of  Will"

Now  i  knew  what to  set  next sail 

Steadiness  along  Faith  each  trail !


Wishing all  my  kind  beautiful  friends a Happy  New Year  Filled  with  Grace ,health  ,joy  and  peace  each  moment,amen!!!

Winter Holidays And Merry Christmas

Hello  Wonderful   People :)

Hope  enjoying  the  charisma   of  holiday  season  and  ready  to   celebrate  your  Christmas  with  your  loved  ones to  it's  fullest :)

                                             image Wallpapers New

"There  is  an  ocean  of  love  within  my  heart
And  i  want  to  drop  a  drop  at  each  door  i  passed  by "

Wishing  you  all  Happy  Christmas ,may  you  enjoy  many  more  ahead  with    family  and  friends ,amen!

I  truly   dream  about  world  where  we  all  be  like  santa and  delivering   each  heart  joys  and  peace  we  encounter  in  life .I  believe  that  if  we do  so  Lord  will  be  happy  with  us as  if  we  observe  this  universe   carefully everything  is  offering  help  to  other except  we  the  humans ,well  most  of  us .

I  wish  we  can  learn  that  TRUE   WAY  TO  BE  HAPPY  AND  TO  FEEL  PEACE  IS  ONLY  ONE 

Give   happiness to  others ,help  others  to  feel  happy,This  is  how  nature   work and  we  are  part  of  nature .No  matter  how  clever  and  advance   we have  become , basic  rule  to  be  happy  and  to  have  peace  of  mind  will  never  be going  change. Because  nature  has  it's  rules and  breaking  them  bring us  misery  and  despair .We  can  have  fun  by  doing  so  but  when it  comes  to  have  true  peace  of  mind  and  soul  ,it  comes  only  when  we  follow  these   simple  easy  rules  of  nature ,to  get  something  ,give  away  something  first.

Dear  friends  here  we  too  are  enjoying  our  short  winter  vacations .Hubby  and  kids  are  at  home  and  days  are  flying  so  quickly :)))Reopening  of  schools  will  occur  on  second  January.I  will  be  back  to  proper blogging  then  hopefully .    

I  am  missing  my  eldest  son  so  much  and waiting  for  the  April  or  May  when  he  might  come  to  home  finally .

Wishing  you  all  true  joys  of  soul and lots  and  lots  of  happiness  each  moment  friends!!!

Stay  blessed  with  faith  which   gives  you  wing   of  hope and  keeps  you  positive in  odds.
Blessings!

Some Photos And Khitan Event Visit

Hello  Beautiful  Hearts !

Hope  beating  beautifully  in  the harmony  of   life  :)And   absorbing  the  grace  of  your  lovely  days  gratefully  :)

I  had to  take  few  days  break   from   blogging as  hubby  was  at  home  for   three  days  before  last  Sunday .He  took  leaves  out  of  his   due yearly   leaves  as  after  December they  were  going   to  finish  anyway. We  had  some  calm  pleasant   times  together .Lots  of  chat  and  recalling  of  old  days  over  cup  of  tea :)  We  didn't  mind  to overdosing as   nothing is better  than  sipping  warm  tea  with with  some  lovely  words and  smiles  i  think :)

I   am  finding  weather  absolutely  beautiful  these   days ,chilled ,breezy  and  periodically  cloudy  days  seem  magical to me :)))

Sharing  some  images  that  i captured  during  last  week,hope  you  can  feel  the  beauty and  charm  i realized  while  capturing  them .

  

sky  over  my   front  yard  is being  dramatically  gorgeous ,wind plays  with  clouds  by  pushing  them  here and  there  quickly ,and  my  eyes  find  this  game  divine :) captured this  one  after  evening  prayer ,moon  was  smiling  through  thin  layer of  clouds ,last  touch of sun rays melting into the  clouds soothingly

few  days  after  when  moon  appeared  late behind the date tree ,scarcely  roaming tiny  clouds  seemed   happy  to  have  delightful  company ,my  senses  were overwhelmed by  the  spell  of  those  moment  that  reminded  me  moon from  my  village  sky ,who  used  to  shine  brighter  and  closer  though  ,for  years  i used to  ask  this  city  moon "do you find  me familiar " late  yet  happy answer i got  after  long long times "yes i do:)))"

okay i know it is almost over flow but hey this one is my  second cup of  morning tea :)  i could, but i could not leave the tea behind in my kattle  ,may be we both needed each other in this cold day 14 feels like 10 C at 12 pm

taken  on  saturday when  sun   tried  to  peek  through  fog ,looked  like  having  cold like  me lol seems  like  moon isn't it ? it was around 11 am

 Last  month hubby planted lots of seasonal  plants , rose  plant  responded  well  by  blooming  :) I love  all the  flowers ,each stick of grass yet when it comes to chose most close to my heart only name come in my mind is Rose :)

i  found  these gorgeous roses unfamiliar as those whom i  used to know do not change colors  like these ones ,they grow white and then started to get pinkish gradually ,strange could be scientific experiment  or else ?

it is intriguing to witnessing the  slight change in color of this beautiful flower , Smile of nature that offers more than just beauty ,food for thought may be !

Oh  i love  these  pretty  strokes  on  the  canvas of  sky :) wind  work  like  an artist's brush here ,her  art  varies in  shapes  and  sizes during the day,some  times  huge  grey mountains ,sometimes curving  sloppy  ways and  sometime  scattered  pieces  like  laughter dropped  from  beautiful  heart :)

this  Sunday  we  went  to  attend a Khitan  event (an Islamic way to carried out male circumcision)  The  proud mom on left ,she is daughter in law of the  eldest brother of my husband ,her boy is almost eight years old ,they threw party to celebrate the joy and gratitude of family.She was looking gorgeous doll  in her lovely dress ,on right standing her work assistant  (at party only)

when we reached at her home ,only some guests were sitting ,it took almost three hours to fill this hall with dazzling ladies

one of my cousin and sister in law too, she recently moved to her newly made home and was very happy about it

one of the daughter of my husband's eldest brother ,sitting with her two daughters in lap ,she came from another city near to attend this ceremony ,her baby was constantly trying to get down and explore the scenario by her own ,mom was worried about  dress that could be dirty if she would let her go , reminded me days when my kids were little ,it was so hard to attend such events and keep them calm meanwhile

all ladies who were relative closely in my in laws always choose place where they can sit together and chat easily lol ,it was so much fun to listen and to talk to them ,laughing on  things sound silly in general may be is therapy for senses tired of "routine life"  metaphysical words would burst into laughter seems cure for souls  mostly "reasoned" by circumstances ,i be part of such lively gathering rarely but each time i do i bring fond memories belong to sweet faces and hearts who never hesitate to adopt small pleasures that life offers! i have always loved this way of life 

another  flower from my yard garden ,found it  absorbingly beautiful :)  May you all keep smiling like this my dear friends!
wishing you more happiness ,health and peace in your days,amen!!!

Tough Teenage

I  knew  nothing  about  difference  that  comes into our thought  pattern  as  we  age.

We  were  two  sister   and  one  brother. Our  brother  was  most  tough   adolescent. He  was  8  years  older  than me . I  really  don't  know  what  made  him  like  this  but  he  was  completely  off track. 

He  was  angry  with  us  and  with  parents. According  to  him  he  was left  alone  in  village  at  aunt's  house .It  happened  when  my  elder  brother  was  suffering  with  t.b and  hospitalized  in Jamshoro city . Parents  left  my  eldest  brother  with aunt's   because  he  was  difficult  to  handle  specially  when  both  parents  were  on  run  to  hospital  in other  city .They  feared  that  he  could  harm  us with  his behavior. He  stayed  there  almost  for  few months  . We  moved  village  after  my  younger  brother  could  not  survive and  died at  age  of  thirteen. 

 He  was  problem  child  in school  so  hardly  could  study  till five grade. Parents  would  always   run to his school  as  complains  about  him  were  never  ending.

My  mother  would  often  try  to  cover  his  mistakes but  father  was  unforgiving .It  is  sad  when  first  son disappoints  you  completely .  As mother i  can  understand  it now. We  both  sisters  went  school  fondly . Brother  hatted  us  for  that.

In  short  we  could  only  wish  that  we  might  have had  him  like  an  actual  brother  who  love  and  protect  their sisters  .There  is  though  one  incident  i  could  remember  about  his  care  for  me. Once  i  was  expecting  first  child .Mother  had  to  take  me  hospital  immediately . The lady  doctor  to  whom  we  were  in  contact   since  months , did  not  show  for  some  reason . I  was  in  pain  and  mom  started  to  cry .I  remember  that  my  brother  picked  up  the  stone  and  threatened  shoutingly   that,  
"if  no one  came  to  see  my  sister  i  will  break  out  the  windows  of  hospital  building ". Staff  immediately  arranged  ambulance  and  we  moved   to  hospital  further  within  city.We   were  mostly  afraid  of  him. He  would  pick  any  tiny  thing and  start  to  argue.Still we  loved  him .And  in  life  later  we  proved  it time to time.

He  is  not  the  same  person  of course .He  is almost  58  old Many  times  got  serious  injuries  but  recovered .No  big health  issue though  still  he  is  Problem  man  of  the  house. His  family  is  unhappy  with  his  attitude .I still  wonder  why  he was , is  like  this? I  wish  he  was  a normal  person  with  normal  psyche ,so  we  could  have  relationships  like  normal  siblings.

When  as  mom  i think  about  my  own  mother i  can   realize   why  she   loved  me  more  than  other .I  mean she  often  said  that  she  is  so  happy  to  have  me. Now  i  know  why  was  so, I  was  easy  to  deal with  as  child  or  adolescent  . If  she  would  forbid  to  do  something  i  would  not  do .When  i  was  between  7  to  ten  i  probably  tried  to  break  her  rules  sometimes  because  outings  with  friends  were most  tempting  and  hard  to  obey  the  rules related to forbade . 

But  as  i  grew  i  became  more  close  to  my  mom. Her  stories  ,her  house  work ,her  troubles  ,her  sorrows  and  regrets ,her grief  about  my  dead  brother and  her  cold war  with  father,her  dreams  about  her  daughter  and  above  all her  lament  for  her  son  who failed  her  completely ,everything  is  heard  numerous  times  and  is  absorbed  in  my  bones so deep!

So  the  more  i  knew  her  the  more  i  followed  her  words.She  was  sky  above  my  head and  ground  under  my  being.My  world  was  orbiting  around  her.I  thought  this  was  my  life  and  all  my  aim  was  to  bring  happiness  to her  life  somehow.

 She  called  me  special  girl  as  i  was  always  desperate to  give  her  surprise  through  my  little  chores  and  efforts. We  both  were  source  of   energy  for  each other. 

My  Sister  was  bit  different .She  was  almost well  totally  opposite  to  me.It  was  hard  for  mom  to  deal  with  her  as  teenager.She  was  beauty  with  brain .People  who  got  brain  are  always  hard  to  convince aren't they? Mom  loved  her so  much ,so  did  she though  her  ways  of expression  were different .

I  can  never  ever  thank  enough  for  grace  of  God that  he  blessed  me  with  my  first  son  who  was  astonishingly understanding teenager.Those were  hard  times  financially and  emotionally too.Our  marital  life  was  facing  many  problems  at  same  time. I  think  this  made  my  eldest  son  mature  earlier .He  was  not  demanding  at  all. He  had  rich  friends at  school  but  never  tried  to  compete  in  anything.They  are  still  good friends. Sometimes  it  hurts  me that  he  could  not  enjoy  his  childhood as  much as  his  both  younger  brothers  can!  

 When  i  said  that  i  had  no  idea  about  teenage  problems before, it was  till  the birth of  my  second  son .

He  was  really  cute and  smart  since  beginning .Born  after  ten  years  of  gap  so  was  waited  and  welcomed  warmly ,specially  by  my  husband  who  never  say  no  to  him. He  got  bit  restless  soul.He  is  only  naughty  kid  as  my  youngest  one  is  truly  an  innocent  soul. He  reminds  me  of  my teenage self,so  easy  to convince and  always  trying  to  make  parents  happy.
Younger  one  is  tough  one  though . No one can  convince  him  until  he  is in mood  to  listen. If  he  listens ,he takes  no  time to  agree though.But  special occasion  is  rare  :(

How  were  you  as  adolescent ?