The Stuff Of My Life

 A part of our city had little rain last day which has transformed the weather beautifully . It is always good to see trees waving happily while embracing the air .Still humid days are terrible and i hope they are not coming back until next August . We could not have the rain but certain refreshing feeling that follow the rain is delightful ,it's been while to have it .

I could not read much since few days because medicine i am taking for allergy has dimmed my ability to focus and reading without  focus makes me go back to same sentences repeatedly and it also makes me forget what i just read in previous page . 

One and a half week back i realized that slight milia is appearing on my neck back ,i ignored it as usual but after few days it was hard to avoid scratching them . I never got such milia in any summer before so i applied some betnovate cream which we keep in house for cut or injury since years , It sooth for while but i felt it was spreading slowly.  I hate going to doctor but i had to inform hubby and he took me to the doctor immediately. Doctor  gave me ointment and three type of  pills which are keeping me quite dull and i don't like being dull at all :( It's getting better thankfully and this matters most of course .

Two weeks ago we have bought an android device for our smart tv. We were busy in others things so could not explore what it has to offer but eventually load of due doings lightened and we installed apps i mean my younger son did who knows lot about these things . The android device has so many English, hindi  china and Korean channels along with movie apps .So much to see but i feel i am less interested in just watching tv now . This makes me laugh on myself when i remember days when i would literally  cry for hours if i would miss any episode of my favorite show, how embarrassing lol . 

Yet it is nice to have choice so we can watch if we want to . But i must say that abundance of choice is not a healthy thing in life and in any case  because it can confuse us so easily which effects our chances for success negatively  (my opinion). 

My younger son left to repeat Sat test so can improve his previous score . He scored eleven hundred and thirty out of sixteen hundred in his first try but his elder brother wanted him to do better. I hope and pray may he succeed along with all who are trying to do good in their life, amen!

We been through little dramatic situation lately .If you remember i have mentioned one of my post or most probably in my response to some comment  that we had in our mind that once our eldest son is well settled in London city we will help my nephew (my brother's elder son) to go to Saudi Arabia for (loader operator)job. Actually before that i asked to my eldest son if he want to help one of his cousin in making life better for his family .He agreed immediately though he mentioned that as because he is moving to London he has spent all his savings in health insurance so it will take him sometime to settle there and see what he can do . I told him not to worry about time as things are quite closed here and it seems to take few months for opening for air traffic to Saudi Arabia . We were relaxed that we will be able to help my nephew peacefully so far.

But few days back my sister in law called who was angry with us since my brother returned home without much amount of money ,she told that son in law of one of our cousin has offered job to Nomi (name of my nephew ) so they want us to help them in getting all things done including visa and related tests etc and within three days they need to pay for visa. We were totally shocked by this sudden demand .The fear and trauma that i won't be able to help them because my own son is travelling to the London in first week of October and has so many things to do which are not possible without money was eating me . This was embarrassing to ask for financial help when my eldest son was in restricted position i still inevitably called him and told the whole story as it was. I never faced such embarrassing moment in my whole life as he was my own son my own precious baby and i was about to create problem for him . But like always my son surprised me with his calmness and generosity . First of all he calmed me with his healing accent and sweet words and then said that as because situation is tight so he will pay quarter amount  on arriving London and later in three instalments . The amount was equal to his half salary in UK . My heart drowned in mixed feeling of worry for my son and happiness for my nephew .I asked him that he can refuse if it can make things difficult for him but he said it's okay he can survive with little less money and that this is about the honor of his mom. I don't know whether i did good or bad but i know i did this because i wanted to get rid of daily help request from my sister in law. Hubby either does not like supporting people this way as he thinks that it ruins their self respect they get used to easy money . So i had only one solution that i help one of my nephew to have job in middle east country where salaries are little better than Pakistan so he can support his family. I don't care what my sister in law thinks but i think it is my genuine effort to make her family stand on their own feet . Hubby agrees to the idea but he is little annoyed because of wrong timing for the help. He thought we could do this later when our son won't suffer because of  my sympathetic nature.  My son appreciates my habit to help others and he showed with his kind humble behavior how much he respects me. This is most comforting and heartwarming feeling for a mother. Throughout my life i learnt that our actions are paid back to us whether right or wrong . I have absolute faith on words of holy book and science which says that you reap what you sow . 

I believe that this kindness of my son will surly bring him more peace and prosperity in life ahead as no matter what people do to us in return the Divine Creator and Energy within and around us knows all and give us what we deserve eventually !

Thank you for bearing with me dear Friends!

please keep being kind to  all around you so Nature can send back this kindness to you no matter which source she chooses !

Health,Peace and Joy to all of you!

   

 

Agenda Of The Nature Behind Aging Seems to....

Hey  Lovely  People !

Hope all is going smooth and amazing in your beautiful  world and if there is any  odd challenging your courage you are definitely making  it  just disappear smilingly with faith  and always growing strength within you :)

This is great how with time we learn that nothing is changing around us ,it's just our perception to conceive  things and way to deal with them.  How nice that Nature has blessed us with freedom of choice to be and to choose so we can never blame anyone else for our mistakes.

Today i on my laptop after one and a half day and found my very kind blogger friend   Louise comment as response to my response to her comment left on previous post. She since beginning leaves me most sweet and encouraging comments which strengthen to my heart. Her support is heartwarming and i am most inspired by her humanity and kindness as being an Asian and Pakistani blogger this helps me to feel "heard" and in harmony with others specially when she is an amazing writer and never lacks beautiful words and most sweet way to express her point of view. She  gives quite of her precious time to read  my posts and leave her valuable thoughts in detail. This is such a nice feeling to have kind friends like her and like all of you who support me ,i am thankful!

Louise's response  involved some thoughts about how women feel when they age . This made me thought why it was important for Nature or Creator to make us go through such painful process ?

According to astrophysicists universe is aging and it's proof they got is that it is expending and everything is going away from each other. The uniformity of the universe is that everything created within it is behaving similarly. Stars ,planets and everything on them is decaying and making it's journey towards it's end .

Isn't the "expansion"  thing reveals to us that 

"getting away from each other weaken us and this leads us to our conclusion " ? 

Aging takes longer time in Nonliving things  but as a living part of the universe we are so delicate and have really less time for decaying. The more small is living thing the shorter is it's lifespan. Okay leave the jellyfish mystery out of it :)

We as humans or as conscious part of living colony have a lifespan which goes around a hundred years or more or less of it if we die naturally.

We have privilege to understand how to slow the process of aging and probably one day we can even stop it .

But do we think that as being living beings and being humans particularly what this process of aging point out to us ? 

If our memory and understanding works fine enough we as specie began with a single cell and since then our reproduction and division is going on and on. As we know that universe will end someday too so all bodies existing within universe follow the same rule and ways for decaying. 

Being a part of human specie we either run in the same circle. Our life starts as a baby with our parents and then on being adult we too form our own families. So this way just like cells in our body we keep dividing in outside world. Needless to say that like human specie human society is aging too . Our brains are developing and working far faster than our ancestors which has revolutionized our life almost instantly within few hundred years on planet earth. 

Despite of all the advancement we are with our basic instincts which are tools given to us for survival. But along with that we have certain emotions that separate us from other species like love, hate ,respect ,care and dreams and wishes which push us further to move in life.

Don't you think that these dreams and wishes have lot to do with our "aging" ?

I  can only wonder about world where nobody  is bothered with threat of growing age and worried about issues related to it. I am not aiming here to praise old age but one question comes in my mind and it is  " is it possible to gain wisdom without being old ?

i know you can say yes, to gain wisdom one has to live long enough to go through all the experiences etc and for this no one has to have an old weak body and wrinkled face. I agree.

But  if universe becomes static and so do we human , everyone is young and immortal unless some mishap takes his life  do you think life will be all good and no problem anymore ? 

First of all "stillness" is not called life not theoretically nor scientifically . Life means progress ,progress means to move further and  there comes end eventually  (well probably ,because  it can be endless circle  who knows) .

What i see here is that Task of the Maker is not to make us still or keep us in same situation . The  breathing and thinking universe has been created to "Progress"  and How we the alive part of universe do this is under strict observation whether believe it or not.

We are given "senses" to feel emotions .Emotions belong to soul side conscious part of  life . So it is not mere physical life for us here.  We have to understand that  Nature ,Creator Or Divine Energy whatever it is She wants us to live through our Souls than just be slave of physical needs . Aging  or growing old is something which  Force us gradually to exit from the crowded ,noisy house of bodily demands  and enter in the calm sensible and reasonable cottage of Soul . I am not saying that all young are stupid or all old are wise as i have seen many old worst than teenagers and teenagers realistic than elderly people yet i claim that growing age widen  horizons for most of us to quite extent.

Amazing wisdom is manifested in the pattern of life by Nature for us. Her planning seems flawless when it comes to teach us "How to stick together" . For this she bring us into the world weak and adorable. Makes us center of the eye for our family . Nobody knows the future but love for the baby is ultimately inevitable and unconditional. We can see enormous amount of such love even in animals so we can say they too own souls though they don't have privilege to thrive it.

Universal laws work in our Soul life as well .Gravity of Love want us to be bound to our family who nurtured us with love and care. But Time is also law of this universe  so It want us to Expand and withered .Fight between both  is most interesting part of existence here. Nature seems to have Game plan and to check it out She has given us Consciousness which enable us to make memory and keep  record of our experiences so end of the day we can decide what is good or bad for us and not blame others for our mistakes.

I don't know on what side Nature is but i think  She Enjoys this fight a lot. I feel that Nature too want Soul win this fight .

 The progress which we call "aging" lead us from childhood to youth ,an age when one often feels he came and grew all by himself .He is on top of the world and that everything circles around him .Youth is peak and from up there everything looks tiny and under feet . Fog of hormones block view completely and one cannot see across his personal desires most of the time.  Peak is slippery and not long after one got there ,he has to roll down . During this returning journey the Change in behavior of people  and in the result of this change various incidents of his life shake him strongly which reveals the dark face of reality before him . His reliance on his physical appearance and  strength falls a part . Gradually moving towards older age when people often experience the negligence and feel left alone this tears them into parts and they are heart broken. Than comes most painful time when the body who's strength and beauty  once we were proud of refuses to take our weight anymore. Once again we are dependent but this time we are not adorable to get as much love as we want but mostly a burden on people who we loved most.

Here is the place in this circle where we meet to ourselves once again in life  and see what we had left there for us to embrace when we moved further from this point in our earlier hood.

The Creator or Nature seems to be interested in this most, otherwise she would have not given us "Consciousness" or Soul at all . This whole journey from weak to powerful and then to weak again  shows that Gravity (Love) must be powerful enough to compel  others to orbit around you . Because there is no other law which make it possible. The heavier objects have more gravity and form  their star and planet families . Here on Earth for the living beings "Love " works  as Gravity . The bigger your heart is the larger  family possibly you form and i am not talking about the blood relationships here only  because the Gravity of Love  is property of soul  and  soul is heart herself !

May be young immortal people of future will learn far more than older people of today but i bet that  the Spiritual and Emotional growth belong to "process of  natural progress or aging".

What you think ? please share with me .

Thank you for the reading friends!

Wishing you all the Goodness in this world! please take care!

 

 

When I Join The Dots (final part)

I write about such topics not often though they hardly left me alone. It is hard to talk with others about things like universe and  wholeness of life. People with and without knowledge both have less care for such topics. So whenever i feel like i speak my mind through my online journal with hope if someone thinks alike . Today after breakfast when my younger son on the solar battery  (our power was gone) for computer it was 11 am almost .Usually after finishing my morning prayer i go to the kitchen for cooking but today i thought why not taking advantage of running battery and write something for half hour at least . I was staring at  my laptop screen and my mind went blank. I forgot totally what points i had in my mind to write further. Actually i have kind of deadline phobia ,once i have a time limit i go blank except in my examination papers because that was about memory and this is about thinking and coming up with accurate idea and words . So when i could not think of  a single word  i just quit the idea of writing and almost  got up when a question appeared in my mind smoothly,

 " is there anyone on this planet who is thinking just like me? Someone who believes that universe has some thinking mind or soul and therefore we have brain . I resettled in my chair and pulled the laptop nearer  with slightly shaking fingers. Yes i was hopping and praying secretly that may i find something encouraging . I could not thought of better so i just wrote in search bar "a thinking part of universe "  results were not pleasing until i scrolled down and found this site here . The site had interview of the writer  of  the book which is about consciousness of the universe. This was like jackpot for me .

I was in hurry then so i read some part of his interview . I will read rest later and visit his blog too. What i expected was so common since always  in this world . Every person on earth who presents idea with which no body is familiar gets rejection immediately. Writer Philip Goff's case is not exception too. But i know it is just beginning  for a human brain to explore things that seem larger than itself to plain eye but nothing is bigger than brain believe me . I think in next century scientists  will start to accept this reality that without conscious effort no universe can not begin nor it can permeate  with such perfection and organization . 

Universe has brain or soul  and she is doing everything thoughtfully and carefully .When i used phrase in my posts " we are brain of the universe" i did not know how to put that as because we are made up matter as well so matter must has ability which we inherited from it as thinkers. Philip Goff  is a panpsychist and he shares his belief in this book that consciousness is quality inherited to all matter and because we are part of matter as we have brain .Because we are living part of matter so our brain is strongest among all . I think in future may be not so far if Nature want us  to explore Her most special and most beautiful part she will let us invent tools that will capture how these simplest brain in the simple basic particles work . Though lets not forget that knowing something does not make us learn from where it originates .If this is going to happen we are going to learn origin of our own brain but will we be allowed to learn from where universe inherited her brain ? 

The basic elements of  universe are few ,rest of others came into existence after various blending of these gradually .Scientists  tell us how these basic elements  form new elements and  equipped planet for us with everything we need here to live and grow on  physical and  mental both levels. mathematician reveal that how same few rules and laws  apply on everything from tiniest atom to largest planet  in this universe . Nothing seems random at all to me and now i know to many .Some give voice to their thoughts and some just blow them into nothingness.

I think it's wrong speaking our mind can be the first step or second, third supporting step so we should speak what we think without thinking of others what will they say about it but with gratitude that we did our part :)

God Bless You All friends! thank you for bearing with me !

Invisible Rules The Visible ( when i join the dots ,part two)

 

A human body  can't see beyond physical  needs .If there was no soul given to it a human body would have performed it's functions so mechanically . Brain 's first level is devoted to these simple functions only. It's like a baby human opens the eyes and  automatically knows what he has to do to get feed. With growing age the only thing changes that child is not dependent anymore .But  does his physical growth brings soul in him ? I  think not .We born with soul because soul is not a separate thing but a higher level of human brain which we call "Mind" . Nature keeps it's promise of free will with absolute honesty. She  does not interfere at all in process of Opening Up or Upgrading the human brain .Nature leaves it completely on us humans .People grown in different circumstances and environment develop their brain differently though Genes also play important roll . But as we age personal attitude is critical to how we upgrade our brain and enter into level where soul or Mind rests. Specially personal will to "feel" things rather than just see plainly .What is feeling i wonder ? I think it's ability to have  spiritual existence ,to open spiritual eyes ,ability to observe from higher level and comprehend the flow and pattern of things and find their interconnection . Body is dense and heavy with flesh so it can see only the surface but Feeling is thing of Soul . The greater is soul the Stronger  " feeling" is. Soul can dive into the things and find out their true meaning and purpose instantly . Feeling is essence of  a soul . It connects one with others whether close or far . We can put ourselves in others shoes because of "feeling" .Beauty and progress we find in  this world is because Creator has gifted us "soul" .Imagination ,passion ,love ,sympathy ,sacrifice are children of soul . Can we imagine world without these  beautiful emotions  that  make us reach on the top of humanity mountain ?

What about the sixth sense ? Body can feel fear which is evident and obvious , but it can not realize the hidden threats beyond it's eyes .Soul or Mind have the strong power of sixth sense which protects one when he approaches to the level of soul. The more is soul or mind developed the  more powerful is sixth sense to unveil the dangers on our way. Sixth sense plays roll like a nose ,it makes one smell things and people around in order to keep updated .

How can we forget the most  exquisite gift of soul  "an Esthetic sense"  once again we see that invisible rules the visible :) 

Body can speak to define it's needs or basic simple thoughts about routine living .But  aesthetic sense give us wings to fly on unseen skies of imagination and explore wonders of striking beauty Nature lays before us. Eyes  see object's visible form  and shape but aesthetic sense penetrates it's way in it's inner world and bring us it's actual beauty sleeping in it's core . Without esthetic sense was it possible to create any form of art in this world ? No it was not . People with mere body and bodily needs would have come and go from the face of earth meaninglessly . Nobody have ever known the true beauty and grace of  life .Without  discovering the treasures of heart warming poetry ,enchanting paintings ,divine music  magnificent literature that is true reflection of  human society and  power of our imagery and our amazing ability to blend both.  Soul made it possible for people to speak openly about what Nature has unfolded before their spiritual sight. All the beauty which pleases us as readers ,watchers ,listeners and feelers is because of art which is divine product of soul !

If the universe and it's journey to create us as living part of  her  is random accident  what would you have to say about  giving us soul  friends ?

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