A Journey To Nowhere poem by me

 When she awoke was completely in the dark 

Without any clue of light    and spark 

She  didn’t know what was that place 

And she didn’t know what she was 

Could be a desert or could be a room 

Loveliness , suffocating and gloom 

All she could hear ,her own breath 

But she did not know life or death 

She was certain   of that she is !

Though rest of everything was a mist

Wondering in awe and uncertainty 

Maybe that’s it ,till eternity 

She waited with urge to see

What she was and what could be 

Then with the help of hurts and lack 

Time created in the wall some cracks 

Her first introduction to the  light 

She realized that she had a sight !

Nurtured by her curiosity to know 

Her realization irresistibly  grow

It took ages but she broke all walls 

 First everything looked pretty overall 

Despite of the  ups and downs 

Worth wearing was life ‘s crown 

This  feeling gave her sense of liberation 

Her tools were compassion and imagination 

She thought she was good as nurse 

So why life will give her any curse 

She didn’t know that life is game like test

She challenges no matter how best 

Every moment and every day 

For what you get you have to pay

To save herself from any harm 

She  thought place of high and calm

She created her nest so high 

So she can avoid the sorrow near by

But she forgot when see from top 

Whole reality is in your grasp!

Peacefully sipping a cup of tea 

Seems impossible when you see 

People below are in so much pain 

This makes peace of  one’s soul drain !

It’s not only world outside 

Same thing  true world  inside 

Have you pondered on your thoughts as whole?

Pulling us in  numerous black holes 

Falling in can be risky or fun 

If you have a “ self control “ none 

Once she got this game as whole 

Rest was spent in how to “ hold”

But  it wasn’t just black hole’s pull 

Everything around appeared like insane bull

A comment, a gesture, a smile or look 

Can push her in a darkened brook

It could be fixed with meditation 

Confronted with next examination 

She could sense another intrude 

This time it was her own “food “

Though she was tired of constant struggle 

Thought it might be  last to tackle 

She  kept check on what she eat 

This  made her feel good at least 

All she did for one  true feeling 

Which seemed  only thing  as Healing!

In this world of full of choices 

She chose  “Faith “ to rejoice!

Faith in someone so Supreme 

Who created everything from his Gleam 

She doesn’t not understand His ways 

All  she knows  Above He stays 

This  liberates  her from the dope 

She can believe in “try” Pry “ and Hope!

Heart Talk

 Hey kind people 🥰

Hope spreading your light around you blissfully 🤗♥️

I am sorry if I am falling  behind in my posts. As I said the current situation in my homeland had made everyone feel sad ! The videos and photos say that people who lost their homes , animals and belongings will suffer for long to reach the point where they can feel normal or settled again. These days I felt strong urge if there was some NGO in our city who would want to help victims,I would have been very happy to gather some help with others to send to them! But I don’t  think if such a thing exists here.  If one are two city has they operate school systems for primary classes only.There are other two reasons to delay my guests and a mental trauma I went through because of an email from google. My eldest sister in law (hubby’s sister) came to stay for two days and one night. She comes after some months so we had some nice light chat and I tried to serve her good meals. She was in her teens when she had been married to a village farmer. He was tough man to live with because of his very dominant attitude and quarrelsome nature.  She was widowed one year back. But her test stays with her as she has a mentality disabled son. He is in mid twenties but depends on his mother for all physical care. I feel happy when she manages to take break and comes for one or two days. A little time to breathe and relax 🥹 Good thing is that she likes to watch old indian and Pakistani movies. And we have fifty inches tv which becomes a good source for her to enjoy 🤗 This makes me happy when look at her sitting leisurely without worrying about anything 🥰

She left today and I am writing this post after taking a twenty minute nap 😅

Second reason is horrible (for me at least) , I don’t know if I mentioned before that being a housewife I hardly keep check on my email. When I opened it few days back there was an email from google of August saying that “ your google photos and gmail account will be deleted  in 11 days ,  manage your account and delete videos and photos or get more space by paying “  with thought of deleting videos and photos I felt terrible and ran to email box to delete extra unwanted content. But was shocked to see that despite google told me same thing I knew already my inbox page is not showing button of “select all” which made me feel miserable. Anyway I went to manage box shown in the email and deleted the videos 😭😭😭😭😭😢 worst part that today it was written again on my gmail page that 80% storage is full. I opened inbox and started to delete messages one by one 😞😥

Dear friends if you know what to do please share ! I forgot to take picture of the email I received sadly. I am unable to unsubscribe sites I have joined long long ago because they ask sign in and password which is another issue because I don’t remember the password I used long time ago ☹️

At the end of this post I am sharing two disturbing photos of my recent shingles disease. It’s before and after pic .you can avoid if want to. I am sharing only if anyone felt curious how it looked.

Before

                                                                   

Thank you so much for being with me precious friends 🥰🙏

God bless you all 🙏♥️

Health,peace and happiness to you and to all you love 🥰♥️🙏

Floods And Gabi The Script Supervisor ♥️

Hello Beautiful Hearts🥰 

Hope  beating with hope and faith despite all the ups and downs life brings ! 

I am little late for my weekly post sorry!  It’s just situation caused by cruel weather conditions has made me feel low these days. Hundred and thousands of people have been shifted to shelters because their villages and towns are almost drowned. More rains have been predicted. All the rivers are overflowing and water is entering in area near by in miles unfortunately. Some parts of the cities are included as well . The floods have been declared worst in the history after 1954. Our river Indus is supposed to get maximum water on 6th September,around 9 to 10 lac cusec . We live 29km away from sukkur where Indus River passes by. We haven’t received any warning yet but there seems intensity in the environment. All we the people can do is wait and hope for things will not go to extreme 🙏☹️

I couldn’t think of anything better than beautiful pictures dear Sue shared last week. Actually I have thought that I will write about it on 7th of the October On Gabi’s birthday 🤗 but to lighten up the gravity of this post I am going to share it today.Hope you will enjoy 🥰

My eldest Ashen and Gabi at night of the screening 

Gabi’s parents Sue and John and my son attended the screening party of the short film made by Gabi that has entered in few festivals. GabiGabrielWood is working in film industry as script supervisor since she was eighteen. Sue told and my son Ahsan as well that it’s pretty tough and demanding job because She has to be very careful about the continuity of the project. Isn’t it quite inspiring 🤗🥰👍

Sue took shot when Ahsan was recording Gabi talking to a director on stage. I am already feeling feeling very much inspired by Sue and John and how wonderfully they carry their life . Gabi indeed inherited this amazing talent to grow and groom  from her parents 😊👌♥️ I truly feel proud of her 🥹🥰♥️  she will be busy in creation of her new project in this month which is next season of Horrible Histories! 

 

Heartfelt thank you to all for being with me dear friends and leaving such heartwarming comments on my precious post🙏

You guys are so generous and amazing 🥹🙏🥰♥️

I feel blessed to have you all by my side 🥹🙏

Sending heartfelt best wishes,lots of love and prayers 🙏♥️♥️♥️

Stay Safe ,Stay Healthy 🙏♥️

Grateful For The Recovery , Art By Younger Son, Musical Library And Independence Day In Native Home

Hey Amazing hearts🥰♥️

Hope beating smoothly on the rhythm of life despite odds ♥️👍

Heartfelt thanks to each of you for sending your good wishes and healing thoughts to me on previous  my post🥹🙏♥️

Your words are my strength and I believe it was God’s grace, hubby’s much care and your prayers that helped me to heal in no time 🥹🥹🥹

Yes my shingles healed within a week thank goodness and I am on my feet again since three days with utter grace of God🥹🙏

Dear friend Sue said maybe I took some stress which led to that remnant of chickenpox bacteria reactivate . I contemplated over this for a while but couldn’t figure out what stress I might have taken . When I was writing her that I don’t think I was taking any stress these days my mind suddenly shook up with thought of extreme heat and humidity we have been suffering from. And my response to her question turned negative . Yes a struggle to move through extremely hot days are stressful undoubtedly 😞 Our body feels this stress unknowingly which results in such severe symptoms sometimes . Later we knew that not just our city but my native part is facing this problem and many people are having shingles unfortunately. I just hope that we can find vaccination for this painful disease here like other countries but seeing the signs I don’t think it’s going to happen any sooner ☹️

Anyway,after recovering I visited my mother in law which I have postponed last Friday due to tiredness. Then there was a small family gathering for fixing the marriage proposal between one of our nieces and nephews. Both are first cousins and in early twenties. Wedding will be determined later because mother of the bride isn’t well and having treatment for Asthma.

I want to thank Sue who kept texting me during my illness. It surly made pleasant affect on my mental health meanwhile,specially when I wasn’t able to walk at all. She is sweet and such an inspiration 🥰♥️

Hubby was great support too who didn’t leave my side even for a while . Even he was looking after household,cooking particularly and supervising youngest son for few necessary pieces of jobs as well, he attended my shingles twice to thrice a day so healing can be achieved quickly. And it worked miraculously 🥹🙏

I am grateful for having my mobility back and I will try to keep it slow so heat doesn’t act on physical weakness as severely.

Destruction brought by climate change has damaged national economy hugely and badly unfortunately and watching how much damage has been caused one can assume that reconstruction will take longer time and more money to recover from such traumatic conditions 😞😔☹️

 It is assumed that after every seventy years when our planet changes its pools such severity of situation is witnessed. I wonder how much time it will take weather  to settle down and behave normal again? 

No matter how far we have come in modern technology and advancement on various levels , when it comes to face Nature’s fury we seem like a string in the ocean 😔

Sharing  art created by younger son from Karachi. All educational academies and offices were closed in order to solve issues of rainwater that has turned the city in big pond . Thankfully things are getting better quickly after monsoon spell is gone 🙏 Younger son also shared few pics of an interesting place he had visited with friends. It’s quite a big musical library which was owned by someone who had great fondness for Urdu music. I wish my son could have tell me name of the owner. But for some reason he couldn’t learn it.  

 

Centaurs Mall Islamabad,  we don’t eat out most of the time but luckily youngest son found a deal in which plate for one person included spinach along with chicken,we had only spinach dish with bread which was so delicious and later harmless as well thankfully 🤗

     The big round pot in our front yard provides some very delightful treats for eyes and soul always 🥰♥️

Younger son created this on his sketch book first and then  on his tablet, characters are from the game he had created online for community in which he initiated the story and other participants adds layers to his story twice a week I think. He said he is enjoying how people share their ideas and story plant getting taller slowly. Reminds me that maybe such ideas existed in past as well but right now I can’t remember where I could locate it.

Pakistan has rich history of art and literature. I was fortunate to witness some good peaceful years before internet and social media turned things into rapid and artificial thinking which exists on surfaces and fears to getting into depth. Reading books, listening music, being creative with innate gifts was normal because people’s had time to slow down and contemplate. It’s often said that why great people or ideas aren’t being produced anymore. I think because we got to busy with escapism and stay busy in entertaining our surface thoughts only . Term use it or loose it frightens me when I think of consequences of it 😔☹️

These glimpses made my eyes teary at first because brought lots of memories back when I would listen music most of the day on radio while growing up 🥹

   I am sure many of you are familiar with this gramophone machine, my parents though did not have it I guess but they mentioned listening music on gramophone,maybe they had it before I was born ♥️ I think it’s pretty modern version of that old one.

     My brother’s daughter celebrated 14 August Independence Day with her cousins and shared few glimpse of how they all dressed up for the occasion 🤗 .me and my sister and our dear mom would celebrate our Independence Day with patriotic enthusiasm when we were in school 🥹♥️🥰

Thank you for being with me precious friends,hope you found my simple post interesting ☺️

You all are in my thoughts and prayers always sweet people,please stay positive and grateful for gifts you have and keep spreading your light among all around you 🥹🥰♥️

Health,peace and happiness to you all and to all you love ♥️🙏