Wednesday, October 6, 2021

Rain ! The Sip Of Life

 

 This week was awfully dull for me . Medicine i had  to take for allergy for ten days kept me useless though not physically but spiritually. Despite of having all senses it was hard to locate my mind when needed. But it makes me glad that i did not give up my exercise whether physical or mental (meditation) .Two days more to go and my medicine course will end thankfully.

The happiest event of last week was rain that agreed to shower in our part  of city too eventually and washed away all the dense dust layer from my garden! I was specially happy for my plants who seemed to starve for rain more than me . 

My eldest son has arrived in London and all set in his new life in new city by the grace of lord! He called on Sunday for a while just to show us his face .He was in hurry because he had to leave to check out places he had selected online . He is currently living in hotel (air bnb service)  though one of his friend has showed him a residence which she is leaving behind as she is leaving the city probably ,my son liked it which made us happy as he takes quite time and search before selecting anything. He is going to live in hotel for month probably which he has booked already before arriving there and then will move to the residence recommended by his friend. He was little disappointed  with congestion of places in the main city near his office. He mentioned that the place recommended by his friend is also  does not match his will perfectly but he will adjust there for some months until he will rent a bigger place in surroundings and buy vehicle to drive to the office daily which he wanted to avoid but now seems inevitable. Hubby says that big place are time and energy consuming when it come to look after them. We know this because we too are putting lot of effort to keep our house clean and organized. But we know this  either  that our son has inherited love of big open house with some nature in it from his parents .

I want to thank you all of you for your kind ,sweet words on my previous post ! The love and concern you dear people show touches my heart deeply!

For my precious friends who could not understand the urgency of my act i want to clarify my situation here. 

My brother does not earn anymore because he had terrible accidents twice ,once he broke his back bone while falling from roof during his construction work and second time he broke his leg from knee to heel .He can barely walk which makes him bear pain and increase swelling. Despite of all bad he did to me this is difficult for me to see him in such situation. Before he started to rely on my sister's support he was honorable man with self respect ,but since she lost everything as quickly as she got my brother looked for alternative . Meanwhile he went through these accidents and lost his ability to work. This all happened when his kids were growing in early teens. Like their father they saw their mother (my sister in law) too looking for easy money instead working hard and teaching her boys to do so. My sister in law is other worst thing happened to her kids because she ingested her faithlessness ,fears and doubts in her all children .This is the biggest damage . I cannot correct it at once by moving magic wand.

I am afraid that nothing can rise them from such fall which they favored for themselves. I have nothing in my hand except helping one  bright child of the family to take responsibility of his family because i cannot feed them on daily or monthly bases  as i have helped them financially many times despite i don't favor such support specially when family has lots of young healthy men in the house.

The son in law of one of my cousin lives in Saudi Arabia since many years and owns vehicles and is well established . I requested him during my previous visit if he needs a new driver he should think of my nephew who is driving heavy vehicle here since few years though has no official diploma. My effort to keeping up deal with him was mainly because my nephew has no diploma so there is hardly hope any one other will do such favor for him . I had no idea that it will happen as quickly and suddenly when my own son will be in rush and in less flexible  financial situation. Third and most important reason was that if i was not finalizing it with this particular person i will have to rely for other chance that can occur after long ,long was not problem actually  .Problem was relying on my brother's wife because she is in charge in the house .She is most superstitious woman i ever saw .Her complains for everyone she meets in life are endless and doubts are like pile under which she is buried  badly ,worst part she thinks it is best place she found in the world. If i rely on her and take her words for making deal with stranger there was obvious chance that it won't succeed as it happened twice in past. She made rush to cancel the deal and demanded money back and spent all money in house expanses which i cannot afford because i don't want to spoil the environment of my own house. Hubby's all objection are correct unfortunately so i tried hard to do it now and because the son in law who is taking my nephew along (hopefully if all goes right) has promised me to give me my money back if my brother's family cannot arrange the remaining small amount of money . I have chance to keep this money saved until i get another such opportunity to help them. My eldest son is blessed soul ! He could have say no but he said smilingly that it is okay to enjoy less flexibility if it can bring people close to us some basic relief. I have faith he will be rewarded for his kindness as it is promise of Nature since the beginning  and she is best in keeping her promise we all know that! 

Okay enough heavy talk ,i want share with you most rare and joyous moments when we had rain after ages !

     this was inexplicable moment when i realized that clouds decided to open their door and shower some drops in our part of city . rare sight such thick gorgeous clouds and falling rain as God was smiling on us and transformed our world from dry desert to lush meadow :)

  heavy rain for half an hour was enough to fill our front yard with water which my youngest son wiped out happily ,he with me remained under rain all the time ,i took my cup of tea sitting under rain like i was soaking this kindness of nature within my soul . we both had flue and light fever but still i don't regret it .


next morning seemed like a stunning new bride who has stepped in a new home and seems shy though her enchanting beauty is glorifying the surroundings sublimely!

  my eyes became teary when saw my neem tree next day dazzling in the sunlight .without exchanging a word we congratulated each other for this refreshing new blessed day!

  the sooth and beauty i saw showering in my yard my camera missed it . i wanted to inhale the whole joy and serenity filled in this morning after rain !


with every sip  from my cup i felt i was drinking "life" 

    i was little sad when sun said goodbye and evening approached ,i knew i will have to wait for ages again for having  such glorious beautiful day !

But what if i was not here to witness that day . This mystery and adventure of life is reason that life feels beautiful and precious dear Friends! so keep revealing what joys has for the moment you have in hands :)
thank you for bearing with me! your support is my strength believe me !
Health ,peace and Joy to all of you! God bless you all!


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  1. I hope your son's help and your help for you nephew enables him to be successful and help his own family.

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    1. dear Debra as far as is financial help i cannot do it by all myself as i don't earn .i am a house wife and dependent on my husband for my all needs .unlike others i don't find my self in pride for this dependency but this is what this is ,i could not change it though tried many times to have job but private jobs give less enough to make my husband and sons excuse and convince me to stay home as loss is bigger specially when my sons need attention and assistance for their studies ,i am the one who keep reminding them they have to work hard for better results.

      my husband did lot on my insistence and because i know that he did it only for my satisfaction and at heart he does not likes it though never says it openly .to get rid of this situation i had to ask my son for help last time which can make them support themselves .

      One of my nephew is hard working and willing to take responsibility but their mother attitude has destroyed the self confidence in her children .lack of confidence makes our thoughts narrow and suppressed which do not let mind think openly and take new ideas to move ahead . the only solution comes in mind to send my nephew Saudi Arabia so he can earn better than he does here and only occasionally

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  2. Thanks for explaining, it gives a better understanding of that situation. All the best to your son in London.

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    1. thank you for understanding dear Christine !

      thank you for best wishes

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  3. It always pleases me to see how clean and clear everything is after a good rain. It feels like it cleans the soul too.

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    1. i have always loved rain for it's quality to transform whole scenario magically dear Emma :)

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  4. Best wishes to you son as he begins his life in England. Our daughter lived there for more than four years after she married. She enjoyed it there but was happy to return to Canada too.

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    1. thank you dear Marie
      sounds your daughter had her in laws in England :)

      Canada is really beautiful country though a part of it is known to be too cold to live there

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  5. You and your husband have raised such great sons . Your oldest - wow. I'm in awe of how he steps in to help. Wonderful that he has a job and soon a place of his own when he can move in from the hotel. Hope you feel better off the meds. Sounds like your brother has been through a lot and his wife isn't helping much it appears. always good to read a post from you.

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    1. thank you for kind words dear Sandy!

      we only tried to pull out of them what best they had inside their heart and we can do so because of our faith in Creator and goodness .we are thankful that we could do so!

      my son got job in UK while he was living in the Germany ,the moving process took few months to be there though ,till than he worked from home as most of people doing theses days because of pandemic .

      my brother found life partner who shared his disliking for us and our education. that put bad impact on their own children and none of four boys and one girl could take high school degree ,my eldest nephew left school in his third grade ,the one who works has done his matriculations only (tenth grade) the third did not go to school and the last who is 20 almost is only tenth grade passed .
      girl also had no interest for studies and all because they were discouraged by their parents .

      my brother let down himself when he started to rely on his younger sister and this worsened everything . when she left them alone they could not get there where they were before .all family members always angry ,quarreling to each other and blaming each other .what else could they get in return ,Nature made them more "needy"
      i tried so hard to rise their morality and dignity but to do so first they have to throw what trash they keep in their head ,but they are not interested nor ready to be unfortunately.
      it does not make me feel good to share this here but what should i do when i don't find anyone else to share my anger and sadness i feel when see them like this .

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  6. I do hope you will feel much better after your course of medicine.

    My good wishes to your son as he settles in London, I wish him every success.

    Rain is so welcome isn't it, I enjoyed seeing your photographs.

    Take care of yourself.

    All the best Jan

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    1. thank you dear Jan !

      i want to live in Islamabad where rains are not as rare :)

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  7. Rain after a long dry spell is very pleasant. It's always interesting to hear about your son and his successes

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    1. we got this half hour shower after many months dear Red and i was so happy as i sat on the bench in my yard whole time

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  8. My father started being responsible for his family when he was 14, baili.
    Something that seems impossible for us nowadays.

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    1. this is inspirational dear Pedro ,your father was truly a great man indeed !

      i think a person 's most important quality is how much sense of responsibility he or she has for herself ,himself and for others .this is what actually make us distinguished from other spices .

      good and bad are part of each time period i think and i see some people who are young but responsible .
      sense of responsibility is key to peace of mind i believe, let me say that hubby is astonishingly responsible person and i pray that like my eldest son my other two son adopt this quality from him,amen!

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  9. I hope the medication you are taking has helped your allergies. It is wonderful to hear your son has arrived in London. I hope he will be happy and enjoy his new job and living arrangements. Baili, I apologize if I spoke too harshly in my comment on your last post. I was simply concerned for you, but it obviously is not my business and you do not have to explain anything to others. I know you are a very kind, loving and wise person and you always do what is best for your family and yourself. I am happy to hear you have had such a lovely rain and I enjoyed seeing your beautiful outdoor living space! Please take care and be well.

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    1. i am feeling quite better dear Bonnie thankfully and i am excited that this ten days course will end soon as it makes me so dull and lazy which i don't like at all.

      my son is doing fine in the London ,we are happy to see him satisfied and successful as parents indeed ,i pray for all children who tend to do good in their life !

      Oh this makes me embarrassed that you ask for apology my dear friend as from where i see it is honor and joy to have friends like you who don't comment just formally but share what they actually want to say ,it make me happy and helps me to understand others point of view which is important for taking any decision in life :)

      how can a concern of one friend offend other friend :) i am thankful for your concern and kind words dear Bonnie ,please always feel free to speak your heart you are most well come always!

      rain was really really and badly need and this is grace of God we had it eventually !

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  10. I missed your last post as have not been in my blog for a week or two - you must be so proud of your son, he asks for nothing and gives what he can. Sorry to read about your difficult family issues. I hope your son is settled and happy in London, it's such a big place and can be lonely even with people around you. I worked there for 16 years in the financial city area and it has beautiful parks and open spaces for him to enjoy and some fabulous museums. I am sorry you haven't been well - I think things in nature can boost our health tremendously and so the rain has done for you - hope you feel better, your outlook on the rain makes a lovely picture.

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  11. We are still waiting for the first rain of the season. Haven't had any in months and everything looks so brown and dry. I love rain. Hope you feel better soon.
    Amalia
    xo

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  12. i am glad you are back dear Betty !

    the kindness my son showed will stay in my heart until my last breath indeed ! he was not in critical situation but yes i asked for favor when he could have say no so easily because he had excuse that he was in moving process and the more he has the easier will move be .but he said yes and helped happily and "happily" matters most which made me feel light .my son unlike me likes planning and that helped him to do so though he lost little flexibility of the budget for a week almost until he got his next salary .he is pretty fine now by the grace of lord!
    oh yes i heard London is one of the most beautiful city in the world ,lush and often cloudy . i hope my son will make new friends there too soon .he has some friends there though not living near . some relative families of his few friends also live in London but he prefers to stay with his own company mostly as an introvert so can't say he will be familiar to them or not . the biggest reason behind his move and feeling more happy in London is that now he will be facing people of familiar language i mean English ,he could not love German language enough to give it a try in four years he spent there actually .
    when i took those images i was under the trans of weather :)

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  13. After the rain most things look fresh and indeed lovely. Good luck to your eldest and I'm pleased he arrived safely in London and with patience thing will turn out well for him, I'm sure. Your brothers broken back must have been painful for him and he's ever so lucky he can stand up and walk...take care Baili.

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    1. all the freshness that views offer after the rain appeal me most dear Margaret :)

      yes we too hope and pray that my son will make progress towards his betterment slowly .

      my brother started to suffer when he give up his self respect and began to rely on his little sister first asked him to supervise construction of her house in Islamabad and started to support him on small bases as for this he had to quit his profession until the house was completed ,it took half year almost .during this time my brother ,his wife and their children saw the luxury life style of my younger sister who was earning in USA then and spending here which widened the eyes of them and they probably thought that she has so much and they have right on her because of blood relation (my sister in law's word she spoke often then). they raised false hopes which damaged their life in great way and mending seems impossible because now when she left them alone they think it's my duty to provide them .unlike sister i don't earn but depend on my husband ,if was earning i am still against such help which disable others .my brother and his family's attitude was repaid with such accidents by nature i believe .

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  14. Estimo que tudo se encontre bem, por aí, Baili, os telejornais daqui mencionaram que teria havido um forte sismo no Paquistão, e fiquei preocupada!
    Um beijinho! Virei com tempo no fim de semana, apreciar as suas mais recentes publicações! Amanhã será dia de compras, pelo que o dia será demasiado preenchido...
    Tudo de bom!
    Ana

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  15. i did not know the earthquake dear Ana as i am not watching news since some months ,after reading your comment i checked online .earthquake occurred in province Baluchistan in surroundings of it's capital city Quetta ,twenty people died because of roof collapsing accidents unfortunately !

    best wishes for your busy days ahead my friend!

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  16. Hope you are feeling better once the medication is completed. Good to know that your son has arrived safely and is settling down on his own. You and family will be blessed for blessing others.

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    1. i am feeling fine thankfully dear Nancy .i don't like medicine which make me so lazy specially when there is lot to do during awaking hours.

      this is grace of God that my son is now there and doing fine!
      the most desired blessing for me is the peace of mind which i feel when i realize God is happy with me ,nothing else matters anymore

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  17. I agree with Nancy Chan. You are such a strong woman so I know you will bounce back. Your son is on an adventure and it will be grands. Bless you and your family.

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    1. thank you for encouraging words dear Nichole !

      there were times when i had to struggle back for feeling good specially when i would feel down emotionally as i hardly take physical issues at my heart but after long course of meditation it seems quite easy to feel good even i am facing odds .it helps me to get to the solution instead wasting energy in worrying about what is happening .i am grateful for this!
      yes life is adventure and our heartfelt prayers are with him to have fun meanwhile amen!

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  18. The whole situation with your brother and his family is sad and unfortunate, baili. I admire you for wanting to help your nephew, and I admire your son for being willing to help out as well. He is a fine son and a fine man. Wishing you all the best possible outcome in this complicated family situation.

    Rain is one of my favourite things. You have described it in such a lovely way! I'm glad you've had this much-needed rain and a beautiful day to follow it.

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    1. yes it is dear Jenny and i really wish they understand that we attract what we feel eventually . i tried so hard to convince them but they are not ready to break their shell and come out of it .now only thing remains in my hands is helping them to create permanent source for their earning ,i am trying my best to make it happen and after doing my best i am going to leave it on God thai is it.

      oh i though you get often rain there in nova scotia so may be rain is not well come there :) this is inexplicable how much i starve for rain since i moved here after my marriage :(

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  19. It must feel like a blessing from the sky when it rains for you Baili! Looks like your son will be slowly settling into his new life, it's going to be an exciting adventure for him!! :)

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  20. Its been raining for the past 5 days here!
    My best wishes to your son...

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  21. I hope you feel better soon.

    The city of London is congested. My friends that work in the city live outside and commute by public transport to their workplace. It doesn't avoid the congestion but is cheaper for them.

    Your son will work out what is best for him when he is settled in and gets a feel of the city.

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  22. Best wishes to your son in London, mine lives in Dubai for 10 years now!
    I am glad you had rain you had been waiting for so long.

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  24. As alergias são muito aborrecidas. Desejo que esteja melhor. Ainda bem choveu porque limpa o ar da poeiras tão incómodas. Que o seu filho se dê bem por Londres. Tudo de bom para você e sua família.
    Uma boa semana.
    Um beijo.

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  25. Dear Baili, Glad to read that the medications have been helping you. And, I wish all the best to your son on his move to a new city and a new job. I am sure he will settle in fine as he seems like quite the sensible and responsible young man. You have every right to be very proud of him and to share his successes in your blog.
    As for some other family members, there is little to comment because they are surely not as responsible and accountable as you have explained in this post. I will make no judgements on their actions because it is not my place to do so. I do hope that things will work out to the good for your nephew.

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