When I Join The Dots (final part)

I write about such topics not often though they hardly left me alone. It is hard to talk with others about things like universe and  wholeness of life. People with and without knowledge both have less care for such topics. So whenever i feel like i speak my mind through my online journal with hope if someone thinks alike . Today after breakfast when my younger son on the solar battery  (our power was gone) for computer it was 11 am almost .Usually after finishing my morning prayer i go to the kitchen for cooking but today i thought why not taking advantage of running battery and write something for half hour at least . I was staring at  my laptop screen and my mind went blank. I forgot totally what points i had in my mind to write further. Actually i have kind of deadline phobia ,once i have a time limit i go blank except in my examination papers because that was about memory and this is about thinking and coming up with accurate idea and words . So when i could not think of  a single word  i just quit the idea of writing and almost  got up when a question appeared in my mind smoothly,

 " is there anyone on this planet who is thinking just like me? Someone who believes that universe has some thinking mind or soul and therefore we have brain . I resettled in my chair and pulled the laptop nearer  with slightly shaking fingers. Yes i was hopping and praying secretly that may i find something encouraging . I could not thought of better so i just wrote in search bar "a thinking part of universe "  results were not pleasing until i scrolled down and found this site here . The site had interview of the writer  of  the book which is about consciousness of the universe. This was like jackpot for me .

I was in hurry then so i read some part of his interview . I will read rest later and visit his blog too. What i expected was so common since always  in this world . Every person on earth who presents idea with which no body is familiar gets rejection immediately. Writer Philip Goff's case is not exception too. But i know it is just beginning  for a human brain to explore things that seem larger than itself to plain eye but nothing is bigger than brain believe me . I think in next century scientists  will start to accept this reality that without conscious effort no universe can not begin nor it can permeate  with such perfection and organization . 

Universe has brain or soul  and she is doing everything thoughtfully and carefully .When i used phrase in my posts " we are brain of the universe" i did not know how to put that as because we are made up matter as well so matter must has ability which we inherited from it as thinkers. Philip Goff  is a panpsychist and he shares his belief in this book that consciousness is quality inherited to all matter and because we are part of matter as we have brain .Because we are living part of matter so our brain is strongest among all . I think in future may be not so far if Nature want us  to explore Her most special and most beautiful part she will let us invent tools that will capture how these simplest brain in the simple basic particles work . Though lets not forget that knowing something does not make us learn from where it originates .If this is going to happen we are going to learn origin of our own brain but will we be allowed to learn from where universe inherited her brain ? 

The basic elements of  universe are few ,rest of others came into existence after various blending of these gradually .Scientists  tell us how these basic elements  form new elements and  equipped planet for us with everything we need here to live and grow on  physical and  mental both levels. mathematician reveal that how same few rules and laws  apply on everything from tiniest atom to largest planet  in this universe . Nothing seems random at all to me and now i know to many .Some give voice to their thoughts and some just blow them into nothingness.

I think it's wrong speaking our mind can be the first step or second, third supporting step so we should speak what we think without thinking of others what will they say about it but with gratitude that we did our part :)

God Bless You All friends! thank you for bearing with me !

Invisible Rules The Visible ( when i join the dots ,part two)

 

A human body  can't see beyond physical  needs .If there was no soul given to it a human body would have performed it's functions so mechanically . Brain 's first level is devoted to these simple functions only. It's like a baby human opens the eyes and  automatically knows what he has to do to get feed. With growing age the only thing changes that child is not dependent anymore .But  does his physical growth brings soul in him ? I  think not .We born with soul because soul is not a separate thing but a higher level of human brain which we call "Mind" . Nature keeps it's promise of free will with absolute honesty. She  does not interfere at all in process of Opening Up or Upgrading the human brain .Nature leaves it completely on us humans .People grown in different circumstances and environment develop their brain differently though Genes also play important roll . But as we age personal attitude is critical to how we upgrade our brain and enter into level where soul or Mind rests. Specially personal will to "feel" things rather than just see plainly .What is feeling i wonder ? I think it's ability to have  spiritual existence ,to open spiritual eyes ,ability to observe from higher level and comprehend the flow and pattern of things and find their interconnection . Body is dense and heavy with flesh so it can see only the surface but Feeling is thing of Soul . The greater is soul the Stronger  " feeling" is. Soul can dive into the things and find out their true meaning and purpose instantly . Feeling is essence of  a soul . It connects one with others whether close or far . We can put ourselves in others shoes because of "feeling" .Beauty and progress we find in  this world is because Creator has gifted us "soul" .Imagination ,passion ,love ,sympathy ,sacrifice are children of soul . Can we imagine world without these  beautiful emotions  that  make us reach on the top of humanity mountain ?

What about the sixth sense ? Body can feel fear which is evident and obvious , but it can not realize the hidden threats beyond it's eyes .Soul or Mind have the strong power of sixth sense which protects one when he approaches to the level of soul. The more is soul or mind developed the  more powerful is sixth sense to unveil the dangers on our way. Sixth sense plays roll like a nose ,it makes one smell things and people around in order to keep updated .

How can we forget the most  exquisite gift of soul  "an Esthetic sense"  once again we see that invisible rules the visible :) 

Body can speak to define it's needs or basic simple thoughts about routine living .But  aesthetic sense give us wings to fly on unseen skies of imagination and explore wonders of striking beauty Nature lays before us. Eyes  see object's visible form  and shape but aesthetic sense penetrates it's way in it's inner world and bring us it's actual beauty sleeping in it's core . Without esthetic sense was it possible to create any form of art in this world ? No it was not . People with mere body and bodily needs would have come and go from the face of earth meaninglessly . Nobody have ever known the true beauty and grace of  life .Without  discovering the treasures of heart warming poetry ,enchanting paintings ,divine music  magnificent literature that is true reflection of  human society and  power of our imagery and our amazing ability to blend both.  Soul made it possible for people to speak openly about what Nature has unfolded before their spiritual sight. All the beauty which pleases us as readers ,watchers ,listeners and feelers is because of art which is divine product of soul !

If the universe and it's journey to create us as living part of  her  is random accident  what would you have to say about  giving us soul  friends ?

continued ..

When I Join Dots .....

 

After so many humid days we got few windy plus cloudy days last week and today weather seemed quite pleasant once again . I used phrase once again because i am optimistic and i believe in happy ending :)

When such happy change in weather occurs  i feel how important weather is to feel good in life. Life is pretty (extremely) restricted and hot here  throughout the summer but humid months are most annoying. I like how breeze fill life in still views and waving plants and branches of trees cherish my heart and make me feel closer to Nature .

I can never believe that phenomena of life and universe is mere a random happening .I see pattern in everything . I feel that this is a dual game . Things that are visible have meaning until they are connected to their invisible part (Soul). There is soul in everything. The astrophysics book tells that universe began with particles which were paired with invisible counterparts. In religious books it is mentioned that "your creator has created you and everything else known or unknown in pairs" . I think it's not about just physical pairing but about soul gifted to each physical existence.

If you ever read any religious book may be you  too notice that it has so much scientific knowledge . I meditate over our Quran as source that talk about that divine force who created  everything out of itself and how therefore everything is related to each other  and for purpose given to it. Because  i am doing it since more than ten years i found out gradually that there are many things that resemble to modern knowledge that science provides today. This was  striking thing to learn at first .How olden people were able to describe things  for which they had no visible source to learn thousands years from now?. 

Yes when i see closely i realize that nothing is random. Nature or One who created Nature  never left man alone. From single cell organism to homo sapiens That certain Force is leading us to somewhere to to achieve something . That Force or Energy created matter out of something which is not matter. It made us "Alive Part" of this matter. Does this really feel a random act ? From pin point start to multiverse sounds like a Huge  really huge Magic though  That  Force has made us brilliant enough to understand  this and name "everything" and and  every "process " we understand . But  discovering facts and naming them  does not prove that we  got got the hold of everything.  knowing that a human who travel to stars now comes from a single living cell does not stop me wondering about how this magic works though it's constant presence around me makes me habitual to it. In religious book (i hope one day i will be able to read all religious book to extend my knowledge regarding special people to who creator spoke through their heart ) at one place Allah or God says that

 " i created man out of clay and featured him with beauty and then i gave him my own part of soul " 

I think this phrase mentions "human brain" in which that Energy stays in it's most Divine form. It is like you are handed keys (freedom of choice)  of a palace with numerous rooms .Darkened or lightened is up to you (approach you have for life). The stuff  before you is in abundance and vary . You are free to pick up anything from world before you and store it in your rooms (brain) The light or darkness present within your room will help you to take advantage or damage from it. Whatever is your choice The hidden nature inside your head leads you towards destination according to this. Sometimes things seem refuse to look that Simple but as astrophysics says Basic Rules of  Life are same everywhere in the universe so  in such situations we should take more time and deep our focus to figure out the correct pattern. 

When i think about human life i see that visible part of a man has far  least contribution in his life .Believe it or not i realized many years ago that our physical being is only to perform what our  soul wants to do. Physical part or our body has some fundamental needs to live like food ,shelter etc . If  creation of family is only due to certain biological needs  than you can count it in fundamental needs either. But what about love ? Do you think it has something to do with your physique ? I believe not at all .

But if it was so and enough than was it possible to move from jungle and caves to luxury furnished houses people live now ?  Good or bad Dreams and wishes don't belong to physical existence at all because body cannot extend it's capacity to take advantage from increasing quality and quantity of things around it. It is only soul or brain fixed in your head who is gifted to "sense " "feel" "wish " and "Want" beyond limits. Your way of thinking  uses your freedom of choice to adopt or leave things for you . When we ponder on human evolution we see that human Brain has fasten it's speed terribly within few hundred years . I can't find it random even if i want to. No doubt choices are ours but Energy in our brain is pointing out that there are things to learn and do . 

I See  that even Nature designed before our eyes has food for our souls already . Random things don't do poetry i guess. They just exist and roam here and there without aiming any meaning. Soul has great  hunger  for Meaning i believe . The Energy as our brain or soul sees beauty and wonders of Nature  around and feel compelled to contemplate upon them . She feels attracted and attached to them . Soul has ability to find relation between natural phenomena and the way they lead her in harmony with "Wholeness "!

You mean that when the sun is gone and stars  appear to our bare eyes which are millions and billions light year away from us is mere coincidence ? I don't think so. There is someone or something  who has arranged things so perfectly so we can see and observe and realize  importance of our roll  in the scenario and that we are not here to just comfort or amuse our body. 

I find myself a tiny bubble of divine energy floating within the ocean of this Divine Energy. My existence is for short but i feel strengthened with sense of being with Her as a child feels safe with mother. If i won't loose her hand she will surly not loose me either .

Thank you bearing with me my precious friends!  

if i had time this post might have taken hours so thankfully i don't have that much time lol

Please stay blessed with wings of faith to keep you flying on the sky of life no matter how strong the storm is !

God Bless you All!

The Dark Energy

 

Our August went pleasant but September is being hot again with lack of air which bothers most .Days are getting shorter and this makes me happy specially when heat is back once again. We  have been listening about rains in different cities of our country but no luck here. It's been more than three or four months since we got a really little shower for hardly 20 minutes. I feel  for my garden who seems to desperately looking for natural bath . Watering garden daily fulfil his basic need but Rain is a luxury which every plant deserves once in while i think. Let's see when mother Nature be generous to plants (sigh).

Everything has good and bad side effects belong to it so do short days .I am happy because they predict approaching of the winter but on the other hand they leave me very less time to hit the target of daily tasks which is annoying . I  run madly between two  points of my routine. House chores seem never ending and it feels hard to manage to take time for my personal interests  like reading and blogging. I could not read  further the book i downloaded few weeks back  but i am crawling on book about  astrophysics.

I want to share bits from it's chapter six . It is about Dark Energy. Author shares when and how scientists discovered that  there was  force existing  in the universe. We al know about the theory of general relativity presented by Albert Einstein one hundred year ago. According to Einstein 's theory gravitational waves are ripple moving at the speed of light across the fabric of space time and theses waves are generated by sever gravitational disturbance such as collision of two black holes. In simple words matter  makes space "curved" and Space tells Matter how to "Move"  

                                                                             space.com 

In 1998 Saul Perlmutter from California ,Schmidt and Reiss from Australia won Nobel prize for their discovery of Dark Energy(which supported the Einstein 's theory of relativity) a mysterious  repulsive force permeated the universe Opposing the Gravity and helping the Expansion of the Universe .Nobody exactly know what it is though closest assumption is that Dark energy is a quantum Effect where the vacuum of Space  instead of being Empty ,actually Seethes  with Particles and their antimatter counterparts. They pop In and pop  Out of Existence in pairs but don't last long enough to be measured .The visible Matter in the whole Universe is only five percent of it .Dark Matter is 27 percent of universe. Dark Energy is almost 70 percent of  the whole universe.

" Because Dark energy is associated to Space and Time it's effect does not dilute with expansion " I added this line from fresh research shared by website Cern .

I found the last paragraph  specially interesting in which the seating of vacuum with particles is mentioned. Seems like an Endless Ocean of  Raw material which gave birth in the beginning to the basic Particles Electron ,Neutron ,Proton and Gases like Helium and Hydrogen .These basic particles took part in Shaping everything we see in the universe by changing properties and transforming from one to another.

This Dark energy which is knitted within the Space and Time seems to hold strongest roll in universe and because we are part of universe it effect us as well .Dark matter or Dark energy both seems to have something do with our lives and attitude.  I agree with Einstein that space has it's own energy prevailing the universe and effecting on things existing within it. I  believe there are more though may be few who might have felt same way .I always felt strong appeal in the space as someone  is forcing me to look at him .think about Him and and find way towards Him .I am saying so because i started to Stare sky when i had know idea what or why i am doing this .In fifty years of my life my passion for looking at sky only grew .I pray twice a day and i pray for long  and meanwhile my face moves upward automatically as Someone is there to listen. I realized this habit brought me deep satisfaction and inner peace ! I feel that Energy issuing from space  is probably the special part of Divine Energy or Creator who stays with us ,around us and within us and give us shape according to our attitudes.At least i realized that ,This Energy never ever leaves you alone until you are looking for it with unshaken Faith! I cannot make you understand with my simple raw words right now but maybe  in future someday i find appropriate way to say things i feel and thing that i believe completely shaped me for better .

Thank you for bearing with me dear friends ! you guys are great support always! 

God Bless You All!

The Stuff Of My Life

 

I wanted to tell you smart people accurate weather so i visited the national site while ago .Temperature was less than i expected 37 C but what was shocking  the "Feels like" mention ,it was 43 .I got then how signals reaching through eyes can ruin the joy one conceives  through the other senses. Slight scatter of little cotton like clouds are blocking the sunshine once in a while today. Hope to have rain seems to open it's tiny eyes when it's shady but then sun pushes away the little clouds and patting the hope baby back to sleep.  I have become more flexible in my expectations so i hardly get bothered by such disappointments anymore. With each breath i take i know there are lesser saved in my account so why wasting over things i can't control. With or without rain life remains simply beautiful and precious gift of Creator! So keep eye on filled part of the glass always!

My eldest son has postponed his September trip to us because his best friend Mubashir ( one whom i mentioned in one of my previous post got married to his love of life after long wait ,ten years ) who lives in Munich and his family lives in  Karachi will be having his wedding ceremony arranged in December .My son informed that if he visits in December he can attend the ceremony .He told further that we will have to accompany him for this event.  We found it okay ,just three more months and we will be seeing our son after three years by the Grace of Lord! Even saying three years sounds so long and heavy sigh!

Two weeks back our  younger son asked us to change the internet source  as he found older one slower .One of his friend to whom he met some months ago in Gym recommended him a new net service available in our city since two years almost. Friend of my younger son praised the service for it's good speed which we found true when we used after having it .But bad about the service is that within two weeks  it has been disappearing many times and for six hours or more and each time with different excuse. This was irritating indeed. Hubby has decided that once a billing month is passed (as he has spent more than ten thousand on it) , we will switch back to the older one hopefully. I could not visit you all because of this trouble though i tried by my smart phone but small screen makes my eyes tired soon which lessens my ability to read and comment properly .

My youngest son's school has opened finally from 1 September. Though books for ninth and tenth grade haven't arrived yet except few that we could find today on shop. We are looking forward to proper start of the academic year eagerly.

My slight symptoms (slight fever heavy head and a little pain in arm on place where it was injected) for second vaccination are gone thankfully.

Now a little sharing  about the chapter from Astrophysics book by Neil Degrasse Tyson.

Author reveals about Dark Matter spread in the almost barren parts of the universe. Astrophysicists  found during their long time observations  some mysterious  invisible gravity or matter  exists. In 1930 Zwicky  found out during his research that the movement of the stars vary  in the galaxies. Stars  far from center of the galaxy move slower than those that are close to the center .According to "expansion plan " that universe  farther stars must lost  into beyond regions more far from galaxies within some million light years but it did not happen even in ten billion years which is age of the universe almost .Later in 1976 Vera Robin An astrophysicist in Washington Carnegie Institute discovered similar thing  within galaxies that farther star move  slower than those closer to the center .The farther stars have More matter between themselves. She Realized that beyond the luminous disk of galaxy one can see some isolated gas clouds and stars .Using these Objects as Tracers of the Gravity field where no visible matter exist Robin discovered that their orbital speeds which should be falling with increasing distance Remains high. She Named this Invisible matter or gravity  "Dark Matter". Dark Matter is six time more than visible ordinary matter in the  Universe. We don't know about dark matter except it is not dark and helps the expansion of the universe Mysteriously .Dark Matter exerts gravity according to same rules as Ordinary matter follows, but it does Little Else .Author says '" we don't know what the dark matter is and how does it look like but we see and observe the Effects of Dark Matter on visible Matter and we are forced to keep it include in our calculations to make correct analysis .All we could learn until now that dark matter exerts gravity on visible matter to Which Ordinary Matter responds .We are determined that Dark Matter belongs to ghostly class of particles which  Interact with Ordinary Matter via Gravity but otherwise they interact with matter or light only weakly or not at all.

It feels good to share what i find interesting dear Friends. You are free to avoid if you don't have interest in this topic :)

to lighten your mood some blooms from my yard garden .

    when Nature give you  smile ,please smile back to her gratefully ,she will bring more on your way in future :)

  this purple bloom remains blurred no matter how hard and how long i try to focus ,i think camera lens find difficult to adjust with  this color or what i don't know 

              it looked neat and clear when i clicked but result is bad again ,elegant ,my fav one 

     most powerful flower among all :) it has power to steal the show always 

consider this bloom prayer of my heart  springing in my heart for all of you precious friends!

Please stay blessed with Faith which provides shade  during rainy seasons always!

blessings to all of you!

The Stuff Of My Life

 I  think this is effect of  less hot weather that i am feeling bit energetic than i felt in July which was dreadfully hot yes almost 5o Celsius in noon and 40 plus in nights .It was impossible to think of doing anything except really necessary chores .August is usually extremely humid month here but this year July was instead so partially cloudy and breezy days are now giving us room to think more or do better thankfully.

My younger son has finished his high secondary exams finally so i am bit relaxed at the moment though i know it won't last for long as i have to supervise him for his applying in universities .But it is when results will be announced in the end of the November probably. Meanwhile i will try to convince him to improve his essay writing skills which is demanded in every application  along with recommendation letter. My eldest son says that his younger brother is quite more intelligent than himself but i think he needs to strengthen his focus little bit more as he is easy to distract by other things such as various videos and games  sometimes.

I have downloaded another e book about brain and it's incredible ability to Change .It's name is "Train Your Brain Change Your mind " by Sharon Begley .I just started it last day actually few pages only. It deals with topic how Science and Buddhism both related to each other regarding to their "Seeking  for Truth.

 I think i will acquire  more striking knowledge from this book. I choose this specially because  i could relate with it's title. I am really thankful for Creator (or Divine energy whatever it is) has guided me to improve my brain by following some simple rules and steps. It is astonishing how easy it becomes for us to see beyond the plain surface once we determine to see and struggle for it. Though i started it mindlessly i admit ( for which i always give credit to my lord) but when i realized what it was actually i adopted it permanently and now i am on my way to learn more and more about it. 

I feel to common people this topic seems grave or totally waste of time even i myself could have not  taken it seriously if i have not felt the extremely negative energy playing trick upon me and my family. My first expression was sadness and trauma when i found out about it. But when i started to face it instead of  hiding myself behind self pity and complaining ,within an year i saw how i was becoming a different and better person.This positive change effected my life and my relationships deeply. Once again the bad turned good for me  and only because i kept faith in goodness i never quit in my life and the Source from i inherited this goodness .The Greatest source of Goodness and Comfort who lend His strength to one who truly believes that He Exists and despite of hardest odds never let this Faith go away from within.

After few years of constant meditation ,a little bit simple yoga regularly and other little efforts to awake my brain and train him for being alert and attentive to avoid mistakes is showing now positive results by the grace of lord! I feel active and my appetite for learning is growing day by day with joy enhanced that i can do this now .I remember some years ago how hard it was for me to read few pages from any book.I was unable to watch tv for more than two hours .It would made me so dull and my head would be burdened. Such tiredness has disappeared completely thank God! At my fifties though but i am able to read and learn happily which was  my biggest (personal) desire.

I wonder what made this possible and reply is only my 

"wish for survival " which provoked me to look for help and from within i heard that " an undefeated help comes only from undefeated source " which is one and only The Divine Energy the God the Allah whatever you call him He is all around you ,He is within you, like an unseen  flowing light which shapes you slowly ,secretly according to your own attitude and will.

The one thing that i realized very clearly that now i know that what is  Evil actually and what is Good for real ?

Good is what we do during our Presence of Mind .

The Bad or Evil is what we do during absence of mind .

Absence of mind can be created by negative thoughts or emotions which at that certain moment seems just fine or okay but actually if we can hold it right there and give it second ,third or some more thoughts fog clears away and we see things in their genuine manner and make better decision.

Adopting habit to keep check on our thoughts and choose only that are beneficial  and bring betterment to our life is easy .Okay Hard in the beginning because thoughts are just like raw withered stuff in our raw brain which only knows "to work" how to work is not his concern at all. He adopts and increases habits that we put in it throughout the life . But these are few only which we practice in our daily life .The other sudden situations that encounter us abruptly and make us decide hastily and mindlessly are numerous and add lot of odds to our living that we face as the result of our quick witless decisions  sooner or later in our lives. Putting the Inner stuff in Order is harder part but once you learn it things outside you take beautiful pattern too instantly.

 But once you have hold on the Reins  your brain ,he is your most amazing friend who can do wonders for you miraculously because believe it or not this is where God lives in the neighborhood of Mr Evil .Key  is given into our hands completely what door you open and To Whom you  well come into your inner world .What will you choose  will shape your world  around you simply and what a freedom it is just think about it ! 

As far as is my read about astrophysics by Neil De Grace Tyson ,i am reading it further too. I finished the chapter six two days back. But i will share bits of these chapters as they are pretty much in detail which i am loving so much but i don't have any idea if you are enjoying it too .So i will talk with brevity here about some very important points which i found fascinating among these chapters .

In second chapter authors mentions about how astrophysicists have discovered that laws of physics that we find on earth apply equally on the whole matter visible in the universe .All the measurements suggest that the known fundamental Constants and the physical laws that reference to them  neither Time Dependent not Location Dependent ,They are truly Universal and Constant .

Check this line below particularly ,

"To the scientists ,the universality of of Physical Laws makes cosmos a marvelously a Simple place ! "

Yes i felt the same that  the place called "world " and then the place called Universe has some certain laws that govern them and which are Ultimately Divine unchangeable . As i experienced life i learnt i was right about and and now how amazing that i see that Science agrees to my thoughts .

Third chapter talks about How Light was formed. Author shares that after the big bang for 380,000 years universe looked like an Opaque Soup due to it's Extremely high temperatures. When after all those years temperature dropped to 3,000 degree Kelvin ,that allowed electron to slow down and form atom with union of proton. .Earlier Electron wandered freely and swiftly enough to restrain Photons and and preventing them flowing through the universe as Light.So this is how Photons were set free to form light eventually .The spot where each Photon began it's cross Cosmos journey is where it had smacked into the last Electron that would ever stood in his way.

Okay i will share further knowledge in next post hopefully. Actually i had to get up and go to the hospital with Hubby .Yes we just got our second doze of covid vaccination thankfully .The vaccine name was AstraZeneca.

Please take care and stay blessed with faith in you as you are part of whole divine truth .Believing in yourself is actually believing in Him !

See you soon friends !

health,peace and joy to all of you and to all you love!!!

 

Stuff Of My Life

 

Hey lovely souls!

Sorry if i have shared these flower images in my some previous post too  as i could not resist the soothing beauty swinging among tiny branches in my garden pots .We are having hot weather though breezy days are making it quite pleasant for us .It feels like springtime specially when one has to stay away from kitchen and avoid going under sun ( both impossible though :(. Hubby has planted various summer blooms this year and when they smile together it feels so good and refreshing :).

this is sadabahar (local name)  Catharanthus is name for this plant i found on google ,we used to have big plant of it before and for many years which died eventually ,we planted it again but petals of plants showing curve which is not healthy sign lets see if this one survives .sadabahar means "forever living" it grows flower throughout the year though in summer they are very thin and light in color like roses here ,it is available in white color either 

Gul e dopaher or portuleca blooms are very gorgeous looking tiny flowers but the delightfulness they deliver to soul when bloom is huge believe me :) this one has no focus sorry for this ,i specially like the white color in them which is so engaging and  attractive (on right two blooms)

this one looks better yet if i have a better skill for photography of better camera you can have even better look on them :)

my eldest son shared some photos with us .images belong to his birthday trip to Olympia Tower Munich and a little gathering , I loved this one most ,he is 28 now and i think with all the struggle and really limited resources he had he is on good place for now .His determination and focus is astonishing and i am sure that lord will be his guardian and helpful  to him in his further journey towards his destination. I pray for him that may he find a nice girl soon and start his own family so we can see him living a family life as well amen!  

Olympia tower is 291 meter ( 955 ft) high and has 19 flours .My son went there with his close friends on weekend and spent quite time there ,i could see in other photos that there were so many other people .it seems nice that life is back to it's normal zone finally! 

despite of all the buildings one can see from up here my son says Munich is one of the cleanest and well managed city of the world .he likes the greenery ingested among urban area and so finely  

he told they had to get down from tower before it will rain according to forecast ,they headed to a restaurant for dinner then .it was always satisfying for us to see him with friends around but now he is going to stay in London and i am bit worried that his really sweet friends will be away from him .I hope that lord will create new kind friends for him there either ,these kids have relatives living in London and this seems bit reliving to me.

Remember i mentioned in one of my post here about book my younger son bought and it came into my hands coincidently .I could not read it when my brother was here as i wanted to make him feel "attended" completely. I cannot move myself out of strange mixed feelings he left me within until now but the joy he visited me is deep indeed on the other hand.

Back to book , i am reading it now (specially when our new net connection is being awful and disappears for days) ,i am on page 114 chapter six.I am enjoying it a lot because it deals with really truly actual basic phenomena that shaped us gradually ,mysteriously and miraculously yes!

Diving deep into the space and learning about strange ,astonishing happenings there since billions of the years  seems like really special privilege to me .I kept sharing about my weird feeling i have realized always  about the deep connection with everything around since my childhood. My long  untiring stare to natural marvels would made me alien to others .I feel and do still same inevitably. I never ever in my whole life felt disconnected with this certain feeling .This feeling is responsible for all good and bad (each bad proved better for me later) i have had in my whole life i completely  believe  it  because it seems like a strong gravity that keeps me on her side and i can't pull myself away from it .I don't want to leave it either ( though i know i can Not separate it ,my "being " is consist of it i know now) because it is so genuine and comforting and i am not "myself "without it .

Okay i am leaving the track here ,i will talk about this later .First i will share a short summery of  my further read .Universe continued to cool though with a billion degree it is still too hot  for mass to take shape.But within seconds it is expending and cooling really really quickly .Universe is few light years old now.What was true for quarks and hadrons had become true for electrons Eventually in billion only one survives.Rest annihilated in a sea of photons .Now one electron for one proton has been frozen into existence.When temperature of the universe dropped below a hundred million degrees protons fuse with other other protons as well as neutrons forming atomic nuclei  and hatching a universe in witch ninety percent of these nuclei are hydrogen and ten percent are helium along with heavy hydrogen (deuterium) and lithium.

TWO MINUTES HAVE NOW PASSED SINCE BEGINNING .

For another 380.000 years nothing much happened and temperature remained hot enough for electrons to  roam free among photons,but this freedom ended when temperature dropped below just 3000 degree kelvin about half temperature of the sun's surface .and all the free electrons combined with nuclei .This marriage gave birth to ubiquitous bath of visible light ,forever imprinting the sky with a record of where all the matter was in the moment completing the formation of particles and atoms.For the first billion years matter universe continued to cool as matter gravitated into the massive concentrations we call galaxies ,stars and planets. High mass stars fortuitously explode scattering their enriched guts throughout the galaxy .After nine billion years of such enrichment  in an undistinguished region of universe The Sun was born. And after hundered millions of the years around this Sun planet earth was born where ocean remained largely in a liquid form. Earth had suitable distance for evolving life on it later. 

I don't want this post to be longer so i will share the short summery of next two chapters in next post hopefully. The passage i wrote about "feeling " i kept sharing on my blog is actually belong to these two chapters. Though i am not erasing what i wrote so hope it won't leave you puzzled .

  Right now leaving you with very nice words of the author at the end of chapter 1, "We are stardust brought to life ,then Empowered by the Universe Tot Figure itself out ,and we have only just begun "

wishing you all health ,peace and happiness dear friends!

please stay with hope that grows in the fields of Faith and gives you undefeated strength to fly high no matter how hard the storm is !

Happy Birthday Pakistan!

 

I born in your lap 

you are my motherland 

I pray for your wellbeing 

When i raise my hand

Your cherished fragranced breeze  

Sooth me with sense of life and liberty !

Your darkness is light to me 

I surround to your deity! 

Your smirking  joyous sights promised me 

Comfort and peace for lifetime 

I will try to repay it as pleasure is mine

All the faces i see around look familiar as kin 

All belong to one "reality " then separation is sin

You nurtured my being with all your love and care

The serenity i find  in your lap is rare

With my little guts and wisdom ,hard to pay your debt

All i got is only "honesty" which though say is best

Let's see how can i return your kindness to you

Until the last breath of life i will be loving you!

It's my heart filled with love sing always this song 

Till the heavens of universe live may you live as long!

My Elder Brother Came After Thirty Years

 

Twelve days back it was 11am almost when we heard knocking on our main gate ,my youngest son opened the door and i saw someone entering while smiling and greeting to my sons. He was my elder brother. I could not believe my eyes because my sister in law was constantly in touch and she did not mention anything at all about his coming here. It was surprise for me though not big one because i knew from the pattern how it can happen anytime. But i felt a deep sense of peace that he came to visit me after thirty years at least! It was hard to hide my tears of joy that appeared in my eyes time to time when i looked at his face .To be honest i starved throughout my life for times i can sit with him and talk to him like normal siblings. He was but fast and furious all the time and we felt nervous and scared to be with him as his little sisters. He hatted us for our love for the studies in which our mother supported us strongly.

We welcomed him warmly .I went to kitchen immediately to cook meal for him and hubby gave him company till then. We talked a lot during lunch. He seemed extremely excited and his big shiny eyes revealed so easily that he came for the purpose as i expected .

I used word "pattern" above .I meant pattern of  behavior of my brother and his wife which i observed throughout my life. When My brother was young he had to stay in the house of my aunt(mom's sister)for few years .According to my parents he hated going school at age of four and when they forced him  he would beat and injure his classmates and for what they had been called often to school by teachers to complain against him.When every effort went invain they decided to send him to live with our aunt because mom was having another child . He lived there for two or three years may be though he did not choose to go to  school even there too . For this my brother  accused his parents  for throwing him away for his whole life. When my elder brother died due to tb my parents moved to my maternal native village.My brother was teenager then .When my mother put me in school my brother objected on it strongly. My mother though belonged to village basically but had enlightened mind and wanted us to be educated at any cost so we can avoid suffering she beard in her life . When my mom insisted my brother made alliance with few of my cousins and uncles.

They broke up with our family to stop me and my sister from going school. When mom stayed firm with her decision my brother left home angrily .Later we knew he joined army.He had started to visit  us after one year but his visit would prove a storm for us.He would fight ,shout and insist that he is big enough to get married now so my mom should give her daughter (me) to her nephew so he can get married to his sister.One of my cousin wanted to marry me desperately and therefore he was poising my brother's mind to create situation so we can give up helplessly before them.That was time when my brother burnt up my school bag with all books in it and my poetry registers which were my diaries too. He did so twice in later years but nothing can broke us enough to leave school. When he got married with cousin life became hell for us .There was not a single day when our sister in law would not fight with my mom and use terribly trivial words for us.Her own aunts(sisters of her father ) would come to our home and try to make her feel ashamed for her cruel and unfair behavior but she would continue to create troubles for us all the time specially when our exams were near .I don't know what was wrong with her because i never gave her reason to hate me that much as she was my cousin and i taught her to read and write her name and some more knowledge.  Probably she hated me for my character reputation that i had among all elderly people of my village.Whether  male or female all the elderly people who were relative to my mother  loved me for visiting them regularly asking about their well being and offering them help specially water that we would bring from tubewell then.

They would meet  me with deep affection and appreciate my love for studies. My sister in law had totally opposite reputation instead. Inshort it was cruelty of my brother and his wife that i had to leave my  house with my father one evening in 1990 i think. I cannot forget that day when i did not know where would i go now and what would happen to me. How my most merciful Lord turned thing in my favor is another long story. My husband belonged to lower middle class family like me. But we made our journey through long ups and downs and our best weapon to make it happen was only our love and faith in Lord and in each other. For almost twenty years of my life my brother and his wife remained completely disconnected with me. When my younger sister would visit me from usa or my mom from Islamabad ,they would call and ask for to give phone to them without saying even greeting words .All my in laws would talk about my brother's bleakness .Some of them would say negative things about it like may be it was my own fault .I beard this for thirty years.  About ten years back when we tried to buy  a plot in our village my brother and his wife tricked us by showing us one but selling the wrong one. 

Plot belonged to her brother .When we found out we sold it back to him immediately as it was in lower part of the village and the one we selected was on the top of hill. After that particularly when my brother and his wife knew that we had little bit money in hand they started to phone us once in while but never visited .When we would go there on Eid we would bring clothes for them and money in hand . We would buy grocery for days we would stay there too. My sister in law never gave us company  nor she made us food even once .I would cook my food myself  .Instead She would say sometimes that money should not be spent in extra things like visiting and shopping but must be given to relatives who are in need. Me and my sister helped my brother in his hard times throughout his life despite of all his worst behavior but we are not obliged to run his whole house with our limited income. She has four grown up sons but with her weird complicated nature  she has turned them into so lazy and dependent men like their father .Only one of them earns and run bread of the house other two are moody and work when feel like it otherwise walk leisurely in streets or sleep whole day.  I kept in touch with her in a hope may be i can convince her in a friendly way how dangerous her attitude is about everything. She would talk nicely as she got me but she would always ask for more money which was impossible for me to meet her excuses each time.Hubby says it is harmful to make youngsters habitual for easy money ,they will never do hard work once they are used to have it so easily. When she saw she is not getting success in convincing me she sent her husband eventually to talk to my eldest son directly so he can make arrangements and call one of her son there immediately. My brother did so but thankfully i had texted my son already that he should prepare for the surprise .This was so embarrassing because he is our son but we hardly ask him to send us money because we know he has some targets in mind so let him struggle peacefully. I told my brother that it is not easy to reach there ,it takes lots of hardwork ,long struggle and large amount of money .When she found out it was invain she forced my brother to not come back empty hand but ask us for handsome amount of money. In short my brother left last day with some gifts and little money we could gift him.

I cannot blame her totally for this .My brother is guilty too.They both have same attitude and this has destroyed their whole family life specially i worry for my nephews who are healthy and young but despite my  constant advices they never loved studies. And now they want to rest and live happiliever after without doing anything. I feel so bad and pity for my brother .I cried so much when he left .This though that after thirty years he came to fulfill his own needs made my heart heavy .

                                                                  before leaving ,my brother 

What kind of relationship is this ? hubby asks me sometimes sadly and all i reply is " i do this to please my creator "

During his stay i could not visit you guys, sorry for this though it is my loss honestly!

i will from now on ,please take care ,stay blessed with faith which makes miracle happen!

blessings to all of you!

Happy Birthday To My Eldest Son!

 I was like  lost in the middle of  sunless forest, of loneliness and despair

With no sign of any way out 

Where ever eyes could see was dancing fear and  howling doubt

My heart was like a wounded bird who faced storms dire 

Antagonized with opposite gender because what i had were so unfair

Filled with dread with possibility of having one alike as mom 

Afraid of  going through all misery as did my own mom

When Nurse asked "for what you want to be congratulated ?

My spontaneous  answer was "a daughter"

ironically she smiled and said " congrats you are mom of son "

My  heart  felt like drowned boat , heavy and torn 

Against mine but God willing my eldest son was born.

Having Him in my lap i though felt so  "complete and serene"

Though in far away corner of my being a fear poked like pin.

Days  go by while his smiles  transformed my life,yet some fear kept dim this light

It was yesterday when you hold my hand with your little fingers and today you are all Grown!

You appeared like a sun in my  uncertain world 

Everything bathed in light 

little by little cautiously You made this darkness bright!

It is amazing how gently you vanished away my all fears

The sunless forest is overflowing with joyous Light

The Torn boat is fixed and floating merrily in ocean of life.

The wounded bird is healthy now and flying in heart of sky.

With prudence and foresightedness slowly paving your way 

For your success and peace my whole being is Pray!

It's not about the worldly gifts you share with us 

But about the love and care you always showed as Son!

Thank you for being so kind and  considerate always

Thank you for enlighten our souls with your Insightful ways.

  

You made us complete!

you are most precious gift to your parents my baba!

                  Missing you sooooooooooooooooooooMuch!

See you soon precious friends! 

Rain Complain ,Laptop Issue And Story Of The Birth Of The Universe By Neil Degrasse Tyson

Monsoon  has been proven quite damging in Pakistan this Year of  2021.Heavey rainfalls in upper ,northern and central Pakistan has caused quite destruction and some death unfortunately. Even Capital city  and other urban areas are flooded and daily life is disturbed to some extent. Southern parts are receiving rains as well but no rain showered in our city .It sounds strange specially  when rains are reported from all surrounding areas.Though due to having rain around us our weather is being slightly bearable  thankfully.Hope and pray that weather take right turn soon and life be easy and accessible for all inhabitants my homeland and of planet, amen.

Few days back my younger son deleted and reinstalled window ten in his laptop successfully but when he did same to mine things went wrong as i had expected .My laptop was not responding to installation at all.I was little afraid as mine is one that my eldest son had bought as his very first laptop when he got scholarship in Fast University Karachi and almost ten years ago.When he left for the Germany he handed this to me.And when he visited us in 2019 he gifted his almost new laptop to his younger brother before heading back.He told he is creating a powerful computer for himself so he does not need a laptop.He added that he does his office work on laptop provided by company.

Back to my laptop .My laptop was dead suddenly and completely during our stay in Islamabad 2018 i guess. It recovered and allowed only window seven to install within after half month run to different shops.Nobody could figure out what was the issue except graphic. Same happened few days back when my younger son tried to install window ten.I warned him that it won't work but he said i should trust him.But history repeated itself though this time a  computer fixer could install window 8 after two days effort. I am glad i got it back for now.

When electricity was disappeared for two days and one night and since cloudy weather (cloudy since almost a month with no drop of rain) our solar battery was not getting charged properly hubby asked us to use it only when it is really necessary .My younger son has attached his laptop with big monitor screen which takes lots of voltage'so there was no chance to use laptop so i started to read a book bought by my younger son .It is written by Neil Degrasse Tyson an Astrophysicist with American Museum of Natural history, director of it's world famous Hayden Planetarium. Host of radio and tv show Star Talk .My younger son is huge fan of  him and watches his videos on YouTube fondly as he wants to be an astrophysicist in future .

I say this for every book i choose that this one was exactly what i wanted to read .But what to do that it is true well almost. Yes i wanted to learn about life ,How it began ,It's origin and what are it's basic principles upon which it works .I don't know if i am being lazy again and want to take a panoramic look instead of zooming into day to day problems of life like normal people do such as shortage of my summer clothes as hubby was asking me week ago to go and shop few more dresses for summer but i ward off the idea and showed him two old  summer dresses i found in suitcase which was placed on the closet .I put them there few years ago and forgot about them .Yes i not forget only dates but things too .It was nice surprise actually.

I said they look in better condition and may be i don't need new ones.Lets see if this works.Idea of going to market in such heat makes me dizzy.

Okay let me share  what i read in the book until now. Book has more than 200 pages and i am on 50th right now.Writer begins with the beginning the Big Bang. When Fourteen billion years ago due to Still  unknown reason all the space ,all the time and all the matter was contained in a volume less then one trillionth size of this dot you see at the end of this sentence . (Oh my !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....................)

At that point conditions were extremely Hot ,the basic Nature that collectively describes the universe were Unified.This pinpoint cosmos could only expand in what we called today the Big Bang.In 1916 Einstein's general theory of relativity gave us modern understanding of Gravity ,in which the presence of Matter and Energy Curves the Fabric of Space and Time surrounding it.In 1920 the quantum mechanics discovered and provided us modern account of all that is small,molecules ,atoms and subatomic particles .With help of these we don't reach the finish line but only can learn highlights. From the 0 time to One ten million ,trillion ,trillion  trillionth of second after the beginning universe grew to one hundred billion  ,trillion ,trillionths of meter  across.The German physicist Max Plank after whom these unimaginably small quantities are named ,introduced the idea of quantized energy in 1900 and generally is called father of quantum mechanics. 

Astrophysicists  apply the tenets and tools of general relativity and quantum mechanics to different classes of problems. They say In the very beginning ,during the Planck era the large were small  and we suspect that there must have been some shotgun wedding between two but vows exchanged during the ceremony and we cannot describe  certainly the behavior of universe over that time. Though we expect that at the end of Planck era Gravity wriggled loose from other still unified forces of Nature ,achieving an independent identity nicely described by our current theories .As the Universe aged through 10 power 35 second ( 10 with 35 zeros ) it continued to expend diluting all concentrations of energy .  What remained of the unified forces split into "electroweak" and "strong nuclear " forces.Later the " electroweak " split into electromagnetic and the "strong nuclear " split into four forces we know and love ,with with weak force controling radio active decay ,the strong force binding the atomic nucleus ,the electromegnatic force binding the molecules and gravity binding the bulk matter.

Till then A TRILLIONTHE OF SECOND HAS PASSED SINCE BEGINNING. 

All the while the interplay of Matter in the form of subatomic particles ,and Energy in the form of Photons (massless vessels of light energy which are as much waves as  they are particles)was incessant. Universe was hot enough for these Photons to  Spontaneously convert into Matter  and Antimatter particle pairs,which immediately thereafter annihilate returning their energy back to photons.The physicist Gell Mann proposed the existence of "Quarks" in 1964.Quarks are quirky beasts and have fractional charges .It always be clutching other quarks near by.Infact the force that keeps two or more together grows actually stronger the more you separate them like a rubber band  snaps back ,and create  a new quark.Strong theoretical evidence suggests that an episode in early universe endowed universe with remarkable asymmetry, in which particles of   Matter barely outnumbered the particles of Antimatter,by about about a billion and one to a billion.That small difference would hardly get noticed amid continuous creation ,annihilation and recreation of quarks and antiquarks,Electrons and antielectrons ,and neutrinos and antineutrons. The Odd man Out had oodles opportunities to find somebody ti annihilate with,and so did everybody else.But not for long ,as the universe continued to expand and cool ,growing larger then our solar system,the temperature dropped rapidly below trillion degree kelvin.

A MILLIONTH OF A SECOND HAS PASSED SINCE THE BEGNINNG.

The tepid universe was no longer Hot enough to cook quarks,so they all grabbed dance partners,creating heavy new particles Hadrons This transition soon resulted new emergence of   various particles and their combinations. Universe continued to cool ,amount of available energy dropped from spontaneous creation of basic particles.During this era ambient photons could no longer invoke energy to manufacture quark antiquark pairs.Photons that emerged from all the annihilations lost energy to ever expending universe,dropping below the threshold requried to create hadron antihadron pairs.For every billion annihilations ,leaving a billion photons in their wake ,a single Hadron survived .Those loners get to have all the fun,serving as the ultimate source of matter to create galaxies, Stars ,Planets and petunias.

Without the billion and one to a billion Imbalance between matter and antimatter ,all Mass in the Universe would have self annihilated ,leaving the Cosmos made of Photons and Nothing else.

By now  ONE SECOND OF TIME HAS PASSED.

To be continued ......

Dear friends i hope i did not bore you with passages from book as i really wanted to share how universe was born ,i hope you enjoyed it instead.

See you soon ,please keep smiling and stay blessed with faith in Creator and His laws which are for our good if followed properly.

Blessings to all of you!

 

The Humidity ,The Happy News And The Tea Beauty

 

Since more than three weeks our sky has got weird clouds which keep weather dull and confusing as they are not thick nor dark but weirdly thin and reflective that keep though sunshine blocked once in a while but heat is unbearable and dull light is  really frustrating .It feels like  these weird clouds  has banished the air too and for uncertain times  which saddens me most :( 

I have never experienced such weather for such  long period.It happens every summer in July hardly for one or two days and then clouds layer break off and gentle breeze blows .We experience much humidity in August and September mostly.But this year we are feeling completely locked in humid weather with no sign of air, so annoying.

China is neighboring country.According to news recent  rainfall has caused quite a damage to the people and property there which makes us feel sorry too. videos are quite disturbing .Hope and pray that rains and storms may not cause such misery to humanity on earth and hope science can help us to resolve such issues to some more extent so precautions can be taken before any natural disaster. 

Our city was hit by terrible huge thunderstorm  on the same night when  rainfall happened in China for four next days .We lost our power for two days and one night .Because of heavy rain which fall for an hour or bit more.Surprisingly even such tough storm could not vanish away the humidity and nor it allowed to air move around.Though  temperature  dropped little bit for few days, 40 C.

My son has gotten his visa issued finally and he will be leaving for London to join his new job.He called today and informed us about it.We were happy to hear that his three week wait was finished eventually and now he is completely assured to have new job.He will visit us before probably but that is when he will inform about it to his new employer and find out if it is okay to work from home while staying in Pakistan ,lets see we are hoping for the best with heart filled with prayers! My son also mentioned that if he could visit us  in August he would take us to visit northern areas which have Himalayas mountain range and are famous for their cool temps when whole Pakistan bears sweltering humid summers .But Hubby told that everything including schools and transportation is going to shut down completely for next whole month because government of Sindh is really annoyed with irresponsible behavior of the people here who are avoid to have vaccination. That was shocking news for us because we were happy to have restrictions lifted here but now that issue oh my!

When my son heard this he said it is okay then he will enjoy all the time at home with us.What else can make parents happy :)

  I could not visit blogs regularly due to routine disturbed by storm for previous two or three days,Though i tried to read at least one or two blogs in between via my phone.Last day when i was reading a dear friend Jan 's  blog ,one of her previous post made me think about Tea.I thought i will forget to write about it when i will post as i do always.But i still remember it so let me share few lines.

Having Tea is as essential here as three meals .Specially morning and evening teas are must and almost in each family here.Among families and friends Tea gatherings are great way to sit together and have conversations about topics of common interest.Tea parties are thrown to have fun time with loved ones and friends along with lots of refreshment.Tea is a lovely part of culture i think because it bring all together and help to forget bitterness of days for a while and adds beauty of sweet moments and cherishing smiles to them. 

My parents loved tea too (this is why i could not forget to write about it :)so did i.About forty five years ago when i was five or six may be, the milk we would buy was not much expensive nor it was  mixture of more water and little bit of milk unlike now days.It was cheap so we could afford it every day.Milk was pure so a half litre was enough to make tea few times in a day.My parents would take tea four to five cup in a day.I would do the same.My younger sister would not like tea much but she would like to eat morning bread with omelette and tea.My father was great tea drinker. At holidays he would ask tea all the time and to make it possible he would ask me to go down in the village and buy extra milk.Mom was busy woman and would hardly sit free.When my father will ask her to make tea so many times it would annoy her she would mumble bit but make it for him.My father was keen reader and cup of tea was huge support to him for this i think.Sometimes he would bring his some watch making work at home and do it  after lunch time.He would ask for tea before starting work.I saw how tiny and thin was stuff belong to watch those days .As tiny that i swallowed few of them few times.When father would remove his eyeglass from one of his eye and ask me to search the missing part of watch machinery i would see here and there innocently and meanwhile i would realize this was serious business and that tiny thing which traveled to my stomach  matters a lot ooops. Many many days or may be months latter i told told my father that i had swallowed  parts of watch machine and what a relief it was to see that he had  laughed gently  instead of scolding me.Though mom was too anxious if i got my stomach injured.   

Most beautiful memories of my early life belong to tea times when my parents had chatting over things of common interest.I remember when while leaning on my notebook and doing my homework i would pray secretly that may that time stretch into ages and they both never argue again.those happy voices and little laughter had added calcium to my bones i believe .

I am fond of warm eating just like my parents.To me having meal means eating warm bread taken off right from Tava (a plain iron pot upon which we cook traditional bread.And eating this warm bread with warm salan ( dish whether chicken or veggie).Unlike olden days if bread is ready to eat and hubby is not present i eat my meal without him.But i don't like to have tea without him at all.It's almost more than thirty years that we have morning and evening tea together.May be we run out of topic or energy sometime to chat over it but still it strengthen our bonding!and i like it this way.

Our tea times have squeezed since we both recovered our health issues.Our last tea time drop was night tea after dinner .We used to have it in winters but now we quit it because it disturbs sleep.

Our summer drink is lemon drink in which we add the pink salt ,little bit sugar and lemons.It keeps us energetic throughout the summer.

I think post got lengthy friends.

Wishing you all health ,peace and happiness in days ahead!

please stay blessed hope .Hope is boat which is rowed by the wind of the faith only so don't let it stop ever please!

blessings to all of you!

Happy Eid Ul Adha (day after tomorrow)

It has been raining and i think almost every part of my country except my city .Still thought of people who had it pleases me .Our power  is still behaving like confused guest who does not know whether leave or stay .We had no electricity last day and for more than six hours .It came in the evening.Same was a day before yesterday.Internet is terribly slow and it took more than half hour to upload these images for this post.I just wanted to share the smiles of Nature blooming in my front yard this summer.Hubby brought few more plants and planted week ago lets see if they cheer up too.

We are busy in cleaning project that occurs before Eid .As you know (most probably) that we celebrate two Eids .One that follows month of Ramadan and second that comes  two months and ten days after it.This is called Eid Al Adha the sacrificial Eid which commemorate the sacrifice  of  prophet Abraham.I am not religious at all but i respect  such sacred festivals as part of our culture specially they make me relive my childhood and days when i spent them with my parents and sister.

My both sons at home are helping me in cleaning .Today we did laundry.Younger one assisted me in it .Youngest one who is fifteen now cleaned kitchen cabinets .He is fond of cleaning and often offers his help in dish washing and cleaning.I hardly allow but now when he is free after exams i let him to some extent.He also likes to cook his fav dishes with help of youtube videos like his elder brothers.He cooks so nice and his father adore and says he can be good chief .

Okay precious people that is all for now .Eid is day after tomorrow so see you then hopefully !

Please stay blessed with hope which rises like sun in the endless sky of faith and never let the darkness of  disappointment come near you no matter how long the nigh is .Dawn is waiting for you be sure of it because you have light of faith that can turn dark into to glow magilcally!

hugs and blessings!

Stay Well  !